the innermost part of the heart

Brother is good at cooking, and his belly is round after eating, but Xiaojiang and Ah Si would rather Ah Chu not cook anymore. The whole table is full of Yang Muci's favorite dishes, and they are both embarrassed to use their chopsticks.

After dinner, Yu Xiaojiang went to wash the dishes, Ah Si prepared the things and car to go out, and Ah Chu went to do a review for Ah Ci.

"It's recovering well. You'll be able to go out after another half month." Ah Chu put away the stethoscope and a bunch of strange things that Ah Ci saw.

"Another half a month?" Ah Ci was not very satisfied with the result, and complained while buttoning his buttons.

"If you don't want to be handicapped, you'd better be obedient." Ah Chu pointed to Ah Ci's knee. "Also, pay attention to safety and rest at home. There is a limit to exercise. Don't overdo it, don't catch cold, don't drink cold water, no matter how hot you are, your lungs are no better than before..."

"Brother," Ah Ci didn't stop, wondering if his elder brother was going to read until dark, "I'm not a two-year-old child, I can take care of myself."

"Then I'm leaving. I'll come back as early as possible to have dinner with you at night." Ah Chu opened the door of Ah Ci's room, ready to go out.

"Really?" Ah Ci turned around, a little in disbelief of the surprise.

"I'll try my best." Ah Chu has now decided not to hide from Ah Ci anymore. Although he knows it's dangerous, but to satisfy his greedy heart to a certain extent, so that he won't get sick from time to time and scare Ah Ci. He doesn't want Ah Ci times worry.Since he is indeed mentally ill, he will control it within a controllable range, at least not to affect others, especially not to affect his favorite Ah Ci.

"Well, come back early, don't be too tired." Although Ah Ci knew that Xia Yuechun had given him advice, he believed that his elder brother could control the severity by himself.It's just that he forgot that he himself is such a brave person, how much better can his twin elder brother be than him?He was simply deceived by his elder brother's pretended coolness and self-control.

Ah Ci watched a few people go out, and seeing Ah Chu whispering something to Yu Xiaojiang as soon as he went out, he was jealous and made him close the door directly.It's just that he didn't know that within a short distance from the house to the car, the conversation between Ah Chu and Yu Xiaojiang was:

"Did you bring the medicine from Xiaoshi Hutong when you moved?"

"What medicine?"

"sedative."

"What do you want that for?"

"You don't have to worry about what I do, it's useless for you to keep it anyway."

"Ah Chu, you..."

"Hush," before getting into the car, Ah Chu only came to the next conclusion, "If it's in your hands, give it to me at night."

At the entrance of Chunhe Hospital, Ah Chu pushed the door and got off. "You go to the office first, Xiaojiang, please read the information in advance, and Si, come and pick me up before nine o'clock."

"Okay." Yu Xiaojiang and Ah Si said in unison.

Xia Yuechun was still yawning when Ah Chu opened the door and entered the dean's room, "Do you know what time I went to bed yesterday? One operation lasted until two o'clock in the morning. You are lucky, I was recruited by a phone call, I am dignified The dean is almost becoming your personal follower." Xia Yuechun began to complain when he saw Ah Chu.

"Ah Ci's case file, bring it to me first." Ah Chu completely ignored Xia Yuechun, and began to take off his coat and roll up his sleeves as soon as he entered the door. Those who didn't know thought he was going to the operating table!

"I knew you would want this, I prepared it in advance." Xia Yuechun handed Ah Ci's case to Ah Chu, "Don't tell me you came here just to check his file."

"I've already finished the review for Ah Ci, and I want the file to help you complete the records." As Ah Chu said, he took Ah Ci's file and sat down at Xia Yuechun's desk to start writing.

"So good? You don't want anything from me, do you? As the saying goes, you don't go to the Three Treasures Hall for anything, especially if you want to take advantage of you? Tsk tsk tsk... Tell me, what's the matter?" Xia Yuechun said while making coffee.

"I remember Yu Xiaojiang should be in charge of the sleeping pills you asked for last time?" Ah Chu said without raising his head.

"Yeah, why?" He did give the medicine, and it's been so long, "You don't want to tell me what's wrong with the medicine?"

"Give me two more bottles." Ah Chu kept writing, but the words that came out of his mouth almost scared Xia Yuechun's spoon away.

"Two bottles? Why do you want so much? This is the amount that can kill people." Xia Yuechun woke up instantly, and Ah Chu's words were more refreshing than coffee.

"Eat, what can you do?" Ah Chu still looked like nothing to do with himself.

"Eat? Who will eat? You?" Xia Yuechun stopped making coffee, and came directly to stand in front of Ah Chu and stared at him.

"Who else can eat it?" Ah Chu finally put down his pen, put together the finished file and returned it to Xia Yuechun.

"Are you really going to commit suicide?" Xia Yuechun withdrew Ah Ci's file, only staring at Ah Chu with a frown.

"You just committed suicide!" Ah Chu gave Xia Yuechun a white look, and carefully put Ah Ci's files away. "I'm mainly here today to see you. Don't you claim to be the best psychiatrist? If I can't solve the problem, maybe you can help me find a solution."

"What's the problem?" Xia Yuechun didn't dare to joke anymore, because he knew that Ah Chu usually doesn't ask for help. If it's a problem that even Ah Chu can't solve, then the problem must be very serious, and judging from Ah Chu's tone, the problem seems to lie with him himself.

"I had sleep problems before, Yu Xiaojiang told you, right?" Ah Chu didn't hesitate and cut straight to the point.

"I said it, but I didn't go into details. I only said that you had a sleep disorder. You have to hear what you said about the specific situation." It was indeed a sleep problem.

"The situation is very simple, it's just a nightmare, every day, no, every sleep, bang," Ah Chu made an explosive gesture next to his ear, "then I woke up."

Although what Ah Chu said was simple, Xia Yuechun didn't think so, "Explosion? The time when Ah Ci had an accident?" After getting Ah Chu's nod, Xia Yuechun continued to ask, "When will it last?" It happened a month ago, that is, Ah Chu knew that Ah Ci was safe for nearly half a month.

Ah Chu smiled and said as if nothing had happened, "This morning, to be precise, it was two o'clock in the morning."

"So this caused you to fear sleep?" According to common sense, it is normal for Xia Yuechun to come to this conclusion.

"I'm not afraid of sleep. In fact, I still wake up in the same dream after taking medicine to sleep." Ah Chu spread his hands.

"But I clearly remember that the last time you fell asleep with me, you didn't wake up because of a nightmare." Xia Yuechun tried hard to recall, "Yes, it was because Ah Ci pulled your hand away that you woke up. Woke up."

What Xia Yuechun said was correct, but not entirely correct. To be precise, he woke up because he broke off physical contact with Ah Ci.Ah Chu didn't speak, just waiting for Xia Yuechun to discover the truth.

"You didn't have a nightmare that time, did you?"

A Chu definitely nodded.

"That is to say, only when Ah Ci is with you can you sleep peacefully?" Xia Yuechun skipped the process and jumped directly to the conclusion.

Ah Chu pouted, "You can say that."

"Then let him sleep with you!" Xia Yuechun was delighted.

"This is your way to solve the problem?" Ah Chu almost suspected that it was a mistake for him to come to Xia Yuechun.

"What's wrong with this?" Isn't this the most direct and easy way?

"Do I want him to sleep with me forever?" Ah Chu was a little angry, he came to Xia Yuechun to help solve the problem, not to make people tease and add chaos.

"Can you still be sick forever?"

"What if?" It's not just a case, but a certainty. As long as he loves Ah Ci, he will be afraid of losing him, and the disease will follow him for a day, and he will never learn not to let go. I love Ah Ci.And as for what Xia Yuechun said about letting Ah Ci sleep with him, he didn't dare at all, because he had desires for Ah Ci, because he loved him!

"Ah Chu, don't you think..." Xia Yuechun pondered.

"What?" Ah Chu was a little impatient.

"Don't you think you have no pure brotherhood towards Ah Ci?" Xia Yuechun finished speaking in one breath.

"..." Ah Chu stared at Xia Yuechun, he couldn't say a word because he couldn't refute it, but how could he admit that he was in love with his own brother?

But Xia Yuechun continued, "No one will suffer like you because of the death of your brother, even if you are twins, not to mention that you have been separated for 25 years, and the relationship is far less deep than that of ordinary brothers. If you say that you have more guilt and regret than ordinary people Some, but your symptoms have gone beyond this category. Even if you blame yourself for your brother's responsibilities and obligations, no one will live like the other party. Besides, you are no longer pretending to be an identity, but from the depths of your soul. I just want to be him. Even now, Ah Ci has come back, but you are still repeating this nightmare, you are so afraid of losing him, don't you think, this is actually more like a love affair?"

After Xia Yuechun finished speaking, he looked at Ah Chu, but found that Ah Chu was neither incredulously angry nor surprised by sudden realization, but looked at him calmly and helplessly. "You already knew?"

Ah Chu slightly raised the corners of her lips, "What do you think?"

"Then what are you waiting for?"

Ah Chu raised his eyebrows, not understanding.

"Chasing!" Xia Yuechun said as a matter of course, "Isn't it over after chasing Ah Ci?"

Ah Chu made Xia Yuechun laugh angrily, "Are I sick or are you sick? If I can chase him, I'll come to you?"

"What? Are you afraid that you won't be able to catch up?" Xia Yuechun raised his eyebrows and smiled wickedly.

"I really want to beat you up!" Ah Chu gritted his teeth, "He is my own brother, a brother of the same blood and same family name."

"So what? As long as he can make you better, I don't mind who my friend's lover is." Xia Yuechun spread his hands.

"I mind!"

"Ah Chu, your current mental and physical conditions are different.