the innermost part of the heart

Then he peeked through the window and saw his brother's figure.

Ah Chu was struggling with a bottle of medicine in his hand.

The medicine was nothing more than a sleeping pill, and it had been two days since I got it from Xia Yuechun, and since he didn't want to cause trouble for Ah Ci, this was the only choice left for him.It’s just that the dependence on sleeping drugs is very strong, and the side effects are also great. He can almost imagine his miserable end after being with this drug every day in the future. The dosage is getting bigger and bigger, and the headache and vomiting are getting worse after stopping the drug , the skin is dull, the appearance is haggard, and maybe you will die from an overdose in the future, which is no different from taking drugs.Thinking of the young master's appearance during the period when he was smoking dirt, Ah Chu sincerely resisted the little pill in his hand.However, he has no choice. If he doesn't take sleeping pills, he knows that it will be a problem whether he can survive this month. Dizziness, night sweats, loss of appetite, cold hands and feet, and irregular heartbeat are all caused by his long-term insomnia. Symptoms of chronic poisoning.But even if he took sleeping pills, he could only guarantee him two hours of sleep a day!As for looking for Ah Ci?Forget it, he'd better take the medicine honestly!

As soon as the thought of Ah Ci came together, Ah Chu quickly snuffed it out of his mind.

In the end, Ah Chu took half a sleeping pill and swallowed it with water.Then Ah Chu shrank himself into the double bed, quietly waiting for the effect of the medicine to bring him into the boundless darkness.

After more than half an hour, Ah Ci, who was sure that his elder brother was asleep, sneaked into his elder brother's bedroom.What kind of medicine is the elder brother taking?This is what Ah Ci is eager to know.

sleeping pills!When Ah Ci saw the annotation on the medicine bottle by the moonlight, his whole body was struck by lightning.Has his elder brother's sleep problem become so serious that it needs to be solved by medicine?

Brother!Ah Ci put the medicine back to its original place, and walked lightly to the bedside.What's on your mind?Is it so difficult to get a good night's sleep?The family feud has obviously been reported, why are you still unhappy?Is it because Yashu is not by your side?

Yang Muci stood by the bed in a daze and stared at Ah Chu's sleeping face, just like what Ah Chu did every night before, but they didn't know that they were doing the same thing at different times, for the sake of The same mental torment.

(The author interjects:

Because it seems that more than one relative has doubts, so I will talk about why the reaction when I see Ah Chu every time until now is still associated with He Yashu, instead of thinking that Ah Chu loves herself.First of all, and the most important point, Ah Chu has never told him that he doesn't love Yashu from the beginning to the end. It's more like self-consolation that can't be obtained; secondly, from Ah Ci's point of view, how much does a person love this woman, so that he can use all means to snatch his fiancée from his own brother?Especially in the first part, that is, in the original play, Ah Chu not only quarreled with Yashu and Ah Ci, but also let Ah Ci dove, and even kissed in the street in front of him, disregarding the worldly etiquette.These are the reasons why Ah Ci has no doubts about Ah Chu's love for Yashu.But looking back at himself, he always thought that his elder brother hated him. Even if he knew that his elder brother didn't hate him anymore, he couldn't think about love so quickly. After all, he had only woken up for more than a month. After all, he hadn't seen His elder brother looked in pain for him. After all, homosexuality was considered mentally ill in that era, let alone between brothers.

I have always believed that the story should be viewed as a whole, and the characters should be viewed separately.Not only reading books, I also write in the same way when I write, the story must be coherent and not interrupted; and the characters must have different perspectives from different characters, so that it is true.If this article is written from the perspective of God, can it still be read?I don't want to write this article as a mentally handicapped essay. Although the essay is well written and read, at least this one, Ah Chu and Ah Ci, I don't want to write like that.So you may have to think a little bit more when you read it. If you read the text from the perspective of God, it will obviously not work.

Above, over! )

Part 16

Why don't you leave?

I'm here to say goodbye to my brother...

Ah Ci went to die for his country...

There will be a period later...

The dream, over and over again, the pictures from the past and the resoluteness in A Cixin appear alternately.

Yang Muchu, wake up, wake up!

Ah Chu even knew it was a dream, but he couldn't wake up, and he couldn't stop the bloody explosion that would inevitably appear in the dream.

Yang Muci, who had been watching his elder brother all the time, suddenly noticed Ah Chu's shortness of breath and rolling his eyes, thinking that his elder brother was about to wake up, so he jumped back to behind the curtain.

But his elder brother didn't wake up, Ah Ci could clearly see his elder brother's pain and struggle from behind the curtain.Ah Chu's fists were clenched tightly, his breathing was short, his face was pale, and he was sweating coldly. Ah Ci was almost sure that his elder brother was having a nightmare, but he didn't know whether he should go to wake him up.Just when Ah Ci couldn't bear to see his elder brother suffer so much and wanted to go up to wake him up, Ah Chu suddenly opened his eyes.

There was no screaming, no standing up suddenly, not even the sudden jerk when waking up from a nightmare, Ah Chu just opened his eyes with a "snap" as if making a sound. Other than that, he was silent all the time, but the eyes were extremely disturbing. Empty, as if looking at another time and space, Ah Ci can guarantee that even if he is standing in front of his elder brother now, his elder brother will not see him.

Brother, what did he dream about?

After a while, when Ah Chu's panting gradually calmed down, he sat up slowly, covered his head with one hand, and hugged his knees with the other.Ah Ci, what should I do?I failed again and I still can't get over this nightmare.A times...

When Ah Chu murmured "Ah Ci" for the first time, Ah Ci subconsciously shrank behind the curtain, thinking that his elder brother had discovered him, although Ah Chu's muttering voice was hardly recognizable, but the elder brother called him His voice was so familiar to him that Ah Ci could recognize it right away.But when Ah Chu called "Ah Ci" again for the second time, Yang Muci suddenly realized that the elder brother didn't discover him, but murmured unconsciously!But Ah Ci who reacted was terrified.What does it mean that the elder brother called him by his name at this time?It means that he appeared in his big brother's dream!But what exactly did he do in his elder brother's dream to torture his elder brother to this point?

Ah Chu, who knew nothing about Yang Muchi's voyeurism, sat quietly for a while, and when his hands and feet that were limp from fear finally gained some strength, he rolled over and got out of bed.At this time, he was eager to see Yang Muci, and ran out in the dark before even turning on the lights.

When Ah Ci saw his elder brother going out, although he didn't know what he was going for, perhaps it was because of a tacit understanding, or because his elder brother's nightmare gave him inspiration and reminders. He climbed out of the window of his room on the second floor, turned over from the window and entered the room, and quickly got back into bed.

The moment Ah Ci got into bed, he heard the footsteps of his elder brother outside the door.His elder brother came running over!At this time, Ah Ci was glad that he had reacted quickly enough.But the violent activities just now obviously exceeded the range of his fragile body, and there was a piercing pain in his knee.

Ah Ci lay on the bed, trying to calm his breathing so that he looked like he was really asleep, and also tried his best to resist the discomfort coming from his body, so as not to let his injured leg shake too much.

Outside the door, Ah Chu also took deep breaths several times. After confirming that his breathing had calmed down and that he would not disturb the sleeping Ah Ci, Ah Chu carefully pushed open the door of Yang Muchi's room.

The door opened, and Ah Chu entered.Ah Ci could clearly hear the sound of his elder brother entering the room, although his elder brother tried his best to cover it up.

It turned out that every time his elder brother came in, it was at such a late night, so cautious, even after waking up from a nightmare?Ah Ci was so distressed, but he didn't dare to let his elder brother get close, because his injured leg was still trembling slightly, and because his body was still cold after getting under the quilt, if his elder brother stepped forward, he would definitely find him strange.what to do?what to do?

Ah Chu had already reached the end of the bed, but Ah Ci suddenly had a flash of inspiration and acted like he was awakened.

"Who?" Ah Ci suddenly opened his eyes, and even made a warning gesture of touching the gun under the pillow. "Brother?" Ah Ci relaxed his whole body, and seemed to get up.

"Don't move," Ah Chu didn't expect to wake Ah Ci up.How could he have forgotten that Ah Ci should have stopped taking the medicine? With Ah Ci's vigilance, how could he fail to find him? "I'm just here to see if you've kicked the quilt, you can go on sleeping!" What a lousy excuse.Ah Chu himself thought so.Fortunately, when he turned his head, Ah Chu saw the open window, "Look at you, you don't close the window when you sleep, your lungs can't catch cold now." Saying this, Ah Chu went over and closed the window.

Ah Ci watched his brother busy in his room.What can he say?Said that the window was left open because he was too anxious when he just jumped in?He couldn't say anything, so Ah Ci remained silent.

"Look at the cold hands." Ah Chu, who had closed the window, came over again, stuffed Ah Ci's hands outside the quilt back into the quilt, and tucked the corners of the quilt for him. "Go to sleep!"

"Brother." Ah Ci called out impulsively seeing that Ah Chu never met his eyes and turned around to go out.

"Huh?" Ah Chu turned his head and looked at Ah Ci calmly.

Ah Ci suddenly didn't know what to say, "...good night." In the end, Ah Ci just squeezed out these two words.He didn't even dare to tell his elder brother to go to bed quickly, because he didn't know, would his elder brother have another nightmare?

Ah Chu smiled softly, and replied softly, "Good night."

Ah Chu went out, and carefully closed the door for Ah Ci