the innermost part of the heart

At first it was just somersaults, knocking and other small jokes, but maybe I was too upright at the time, I didn’t know how to be flexible, I believed my father’s words that the teacher would protect me, and the result of telling the teacher was that I became a kid The one who reported it, so some classmates began to take me out alone and beat me up.Once, twice, at first it was just one slap, two slaps, crying to the teacher ended up being punched and kicked, I started to know that asking for help was useless, I had to rely on myself, so I punched the guy who kicked me in the stomach , but after all, it was my first fight, and the result of my resistance was that I only scratched the opponent, but he beat me so hard that I couldn't get out of bed. "

Ah Chu gritted his teeth tightly and hugged Ah Ci tightly with both hands, but he couldn't say a word.He didn't dare to speak, he was afraid that if he spoke it would be an uncontrollable roar.He doesn't mind that Ah Ci is still called Yang Yuhua's father at this time, but he minds that he has to bear all the painful childhood alone.

"I don't remember how serious the injury was at the time. Anyway, I lay in bed for a full week before I could get out of the ground. It was really beaten like a pig's head." Ah Ci was actually able to laugh and tease himself. "Probably the injury was too serious. It alarmed the school and invited my father...uncle. I don't know how he dealt with it at the time. I only know that I was in pain. I cowardly thought he would take me home. , I begged him in the same way, but he just gave me a pack of cigarettes in front of the hospital bed, saying that smoking would relieve the pain, and smoking one would make the pain go away.”

"When were you old? He actually taught you to smoke?" Ah Chu finally couldn't help but roared.Damn Yang Yuhua, she has no ability to protect Ah Ci, so she treats him like this? !

Ah Ci stretched out his hand and patted Ah Chu's back to comfort his over-excited emotions.As for his uncle, although he has a big hatred for killing his father, after all, he raised himself and tried his best to protect himself in front of the Japanese. As for his personality and limited ability, he can't do anything about it. Ah Ci is not strange on this point. he.It's just that the eldest brother's hatred for his uncle is already deep-rooted, so he doesn't like it everywhere, and he can't say anything. After all, his uncle made a big mistake and killed their biological parents. Even he can't let go of this, so there is nothing he can do. What to advise Ah Chu.

"I'm fine, just keep talking. Have you smoked?" Ah Chu urged Ah Ci after trying to calm down his emotions.

"Well, smoked."

Ah Chu took a deep breath, but in the end he didn't say anything.Ah Ci's hand was still stroking behind his back, obviously it was Ah Ci who was remembering the pain, but he wanted Ah Ci to comfort him in turn, this is not right and should not be.So Ah Chu didn't say anything, just tried to relax his tense muscles and listened quietly.

After Ah Ci heard Ah Chu took a deep breath, he didn't say anything, and then the person in his arms slowly relaxed. How could he not know Ah Chu's efforts and intentions?Smiling, Ah Ci tightened the hand that was caressing Ah Chu's back around the other's waist, and then continued, "Smoking is smoking, but you know the first time I smoked, and I was a child again, plus listening Saying it can relieve pain, I foolishly thought it was the same as taking medicine, and the result of taking a big gulp is..."

"Cough until tears and snot run down the nose." Ah Chu closed his eyes and took it lightly.

"That's right." Ah Ci wanted to laugh, and even laughed out loud. After all, he was too embarrassed at the time, and it was really funny when he recalled it.But he immediately remembered that his elder brother had also smoked, and was even more addicted to smoking than him at one point, and they even quit smoking together later.Then the experience of being choked by smoke and coughing until the lungs hurt, has the elder brother also experienced it?Under what circumstances did you experience it?He only knew that his eldest brother learned to smoke during the month of lurking for him, and he always thought that he learned it to be more like him, but I'm afraid what he thought did not match the facts! "Brother!" Ah Ci called out eagerly, but Ah Chu held his head down.

Ah Chu held Ah Ci's head and did not let him look up to see his expression, he just said, "I know what you want to ask, I will tell you about my matter later, I promise. Now, let me tell you about your matter first." over."

Ah Ci took a deep breath, and tried his best to suppress the uneasiness and eagerness in his heart. He knew that his elder brother had decided something, and when he could rarely change it, he could only say, "Okay."

"At that time, my body was full of injuries, and the result of a severe cough was that the injuries all over my body hurt, so I gave up." Ah Ci speeded up his speech, wanting to finish his story early, so that he could ask Ah Ci carefully. the first thing.

Ah Chu raised his hand and slapped Ah Ci's ass, "You know what I want to know, don't be fooled, I've said everything I need to say, or I'll beat you up."

"Brother..." Ah Ci really wanted to say "stop making trouble" to his elder brother. Although his elder brother's strength is better now, and his health is much worse than before, but if he really fights with him, his elder brother will not Basically, it was the scope of playing around. When he said that he wanted to beat him, it was because he didn't dare to resist, and the nature of the beating he said basically changed later.

Even so, Ah Ci obediently slowed down his speech, and began to explain the past events in detail, because he knew that his elder brother cared, just like he also wanted to know how Ah Chu lived without him in those years , and he cared about what he cared about, so he didn't dare to disobey him, so he obeyed his words!

"After I recovered from my injury, I found out that my father had enrolled me in a class and found a master to learn martial arts."

"Make up for it after a dead sheep." Ah Chu snorted coldly, paused, and seeing that Ah Ci was embarrassed and silent, he added, "It's better than not making it up at all."

Ah Ci wanted to laugh, but he didn't keep silent on purpose, but was a little depressed by his uncle's and father's expressions.He really is not good at words, is he?Why can't you tell what happened?But seeing Ah Chu nervously looking for words to make up just because of his momentary silence, Ah Ci couldn't stop laughing.But he knew that he shouldn't laugh at this time, otherwise the eldest brother would explode again!In the end Ah Ci still couldn't hold back the joy in his heart, he raised his head and lightly bit his elder brother's chin.

Ah Chu responded with a kiss that landed on the top of Ah Ci's hair, "Go ahead."

"With systematic study and formal training, plus there are a few unsightly people who practice for me from time to time at school, so after two years I will be invincible all over the school." Ah Ci is quite proud say.

Seeing that Ah Ci was a bit off topic, although those childhood Ah Chu also wanted to know, but after thinking about it, he decided to drag Ah Ci back first, otherwise he didn't know how many miles Ah Ci would digress? "What about the second cigarette?"

"The second time," Ah Ci mused, lost in memory, "the second time smoking was actually not far from the first time, about less than a year ago. At that time, I just started martial arts class, maybe more than half a year Once, a master and apprentice from another class came to smash the hall. The other party brought five apprentices, and the youngest one was half a year older than me. They probably thought I was small and thin. I was really not tall at the time. It was only after arriving in Japan that they suddenly started to grow up. They appointed me to fight, and the senior brothers in front won two and lost two, and the outcome depends entirely on me."

Ah Chu felt that Ah Ci's body was a little tense, so he gently rubbed Ah Ci's spine up and down with his palm, "You must have won."

"Terrible victory." A Ci sighed, "not to mention the bruised nose and swollen face, this is the first time in my life that I have tasted the feeling of split bones."

Hearing this, Ah Chu shivered in the warm bed, then hugged the person in his arms fiercely, "Does it hurt?"

Ah Ci smiled slightly, and patted Ah Chu's shoulder to comfort him, "It hurt so much at the time, it was so painful that I wanted to cry, but compared with the torture later, it's really nothing."

"What happened later? What does this have to do with your smoking?" Ah Chu said in a murmured nasal voice, hugging Ah Ci tightly in his hair.

"After winning, the master said that I was a good seedling, and specially wrote a letter of praise for me to take home. You know, when I was young, I almost never did anything right. I was often scolded, but it was the first place to be specially praised. No. I took the letter home, but... well, the woman just said, 'Let your father read it', and I went...to show it to my uncle, and after he finished reading it, he said 'um', and went back to business I completely forgot about my existence. When I saw me after a while, I asked me: Why are you still here? What’s the matter?” Ah Ci laughed out loud, “What can I say? I can only say that I’m fine. , and left."

Ah Chu knew that feeling, he knew why Ah Ci laughed, it was helpless sadness, but there was no other way but to laugh.There is no place to share the honor, and there is no joy of being recognized. No amount of hard work and hardships in the process suddenly become ironic and ridiculous.But they all have stubborn personalities. Even if they are lonely along the way and no one cheers, they will definitely follow the path they believe in to the end!

Ah Ci suddenly felt his hair wet, and he was so frightened that he rushed to pick Ah Chu out, "Brother, why are you crying, I won't tell you if you want to cry." If I knew it earlier, I would just talk casually according to the information.

How could Ah Chu let go?He insisted on pressing Ah Ci to prevent him from watching, "I didn't cry, I didn't cry, you continue to say, that's saliva." In order to hide it, Ah Chu even said such shameless words.

Ah Ci was taken aback for a moment, knowing that Ah Chu was determined to know all about his past, so he sighed, hugged him tightly again, and then continued, "When I returned to the boarding school that night, I told my uncle the last time I was going to tell you about his past. I found the cigarettes that were given to me. But you know, the cigarettes that have been stored for more than half a year, the smell...I spit it out after one bite, along with the dinner that day."

"It made me sick at the time, and I originally said that I would never touch cigarettes in my life." Ah Ci tried to pick something light and said, feeling Ah Ci