the innermost part of the heart

I learned the whole truth from my mother.It's just that the truth is horrifying.Although it is difficult to accept such a life experience and such hatred for a while, and there is no way to change it for a while and call a godmother who has been called a godmother for 25 years, but there is one thing that Rongchu can be sure of. The one I met today is called "A Ci "The person is his younger brother, Yang Muci.It’s just that he couldn’t tell his godmother—oh no, maybe she should be called sister now—how he could tell her that he had entered his brother’s torture room on the first day he returned to Shanghai. Whispering with his own nose, what's more, he has probably recognized the thief as his father for more than 20 years.Since he couldn't tell, Ah Chu naturally couldn't seek evidence or discuss with him, so he could only say to his sister, "I will definitely find out the facts and try my best to restore the truth."

When sending Yashu home at night, Miss Diaoman once again showed her difficult nature and pestered him to tell him that she loved her. Although Yang Muci was helpless, she was quite conniving.For this girl, he couldn't say how he felt. He was grateful for the joy and warmth she had injected into his few family life since he was a child, and he also felt sorry for her life experience of wandering like him since he was a child, but she always The wavering attitude between provocative and reserved also makes him quite cold.Just like she would take the opportunity to kiss him, but she would not actually kiss him. No matter whether Ah Ying appeared or not, she would actually stop at the last second, which is why he didn't hide at all.This is not the first time this kind of thing happened, at first he would mind to speculate, but later he became indifferent or even ignored it.Only in Yashu's continuous love, he can still feel a little bit of her friendship for him, but how deep is this friendship, who knows?Just like he could say "I love you" over and over again, she could also reply "I love you" without blushing and heart beating, but after they finished speaking, they turned around and went their separate ways, without even a single look of attachment.

Leaving Yashu's residence, Yang Muci's mind was full of Rong Chu, and his original plan of going back to the police department changed accordingly.He didn't want to go back to the home where he felt oppressed even when he entered the door, but there was the only place where he could seek answers.He really wanted to know Rong Chu's life experience, especially since he knew that he had a twin elder brother; especially after he saw Rong Chu - if he looked at the photos, he could still deceive himself and say that it was a coincidence , then after seeing a real person, the feeling that his heart beats almost at the frequency of the other person made him unable to ignore the fact that they might be blood relatives; especially, when his father obviously knew something.

As soon as he entered the courtyard, he sighed unconsciously, feeling oppressed, dull, cold, and exhausted one after another; as soon as he arrived at the door, he was already accustomed to being vigilant, and Yang Muci sighed silently again in response to his obviously over-stressed reaction; At the door of the house, I saw my mother floating up to the attic holding a candlestick like a ghost.That's right, as his father said, it wasn't the first time he saw it, but could it be that he was no longer suspicious just because he had seen it a lot?There are so many secrets in this family, so many that he doesn't even know where to ask them.Every time you ask why, it's like cutting yourself open with a knife, but the slashing of the knife didn't make the fog around him a little bit less. He confessed himself to his father bloody and bloody. Apart from the fatherly love he has repeatedly emphasized, he has not received any credible answers.Lies, another lie, another lie.Ah Ci no longer knew which sentence to believe, or simply didn't believe a word, just seeing his father in pain, he still couldn't help comforting him, at least it was true that his father loved him, right?He followed his father's words, as if he already believed everything, or he convinced himself that what his father said was true, after all, there was no need for his father to lie to him, right?But if what his father said was true, where would they put him?Lost the eldest brother and even he is not wanted?He is dispensable after all, isn't he?His father just told him that he was not afraid that he would get hurt, right?But it seems that it has always been like this, as long as he is not sick or dead, no one has ever cared about his pain, so he has always told himself not to do things that are moaning for nothing.Tonight, it seems that indulgence is a bit too much!Yang Muci reminded himself like this.But when he really saw the so-called big brother's relic, Ah Ci's eyes were still red.That kind of feeling can't deceive anyone, he believes that those things are really big brother's, that feeling that trembles along the fingertips to the bottom of his heart, that kind of induction that is exclusive to the twins, can't be fake and can't deceive people, he can even I felt the faint body temperature that belonged to my brother coming from the little cloth jacket.The defensive line in his heart collapsed in an instant, Ah Ci touched the thing under his palm, the word "Chu" on the longevity lock, his brother's real name was "Chu", Yang Muchu.Rongchu?Ah Chu?If the elder brother is really dead, then who did he meet today?

"Dad... I did see a face that looks exactly like mine today. I can't explain it, I can't let it go, I even have a faint fear, I can't face it!" The broken emotions wanted to find an exit, But his father's answer didn't help Ah Ci other than making Ah Ci feel flustered and exhausted.Muttering, Ah Ci repeated "exactly the same", and in his mind, the face of that person, Rong Chu's face, familiar yet unfamiliar face still flashed in his mind.

At this time, Ah Chu was also panicked and frightened. Not to mention his life was threatened several times a day, the secret life experience full of blood and shady scenes, and his own brother who yelled at him arrogantly were all in his mind. Can't circle around.

Episode Three

To his young master, Ah Chu couldn't tell everything without saying anything, but since the young master asked, he would never allow him not to answer, and he really owed the young master an explanation for what happened today, and he I just happen to need a personal confidant.So Ah Chu found the seemingly most important but insignificant of several things and said, "This afternoon, someone pointed a gun at my head and said to me that she was going to shoot me, and then she clicked the button. Pull the trigger and the gun goes off... I'm afraid of death."

"I never knew that I was so afraid of death, like a coward." In fact, what Ah Chu cared about was not that he was afraid of death, who is not afraid of death?He has seen a lot of dead people, and he has seen more people who are afraid of death, but he doesn't care if he acts like a coward in front of his younger brother, he will look down on himself, right?So he later left himself in the torture chamber and left?

A few innocuous words from the young master couldn't comfort him, but when the young master said "I'm afraid of death too", Ah Chu was slightly shocked.Even Young Master Rong, who cares so much about face, dares to admit that he is afraid of death when he puts on his identity all day long, so is his behavior at that time not so embarrassing?The young master admits that he is afraid of death in front of him, is it similar to his expression of fear in front of his younger brother?

"...You are a human being, not a god." Ah Chu had to admit that the young master's words really comforted him.

As for his own life experience, Ah Chu did not dare to mention it and could not mention it, not to mention that all this is just the fourth wife's one-sided statement, he still needs to confirm and find out, the secrets behind this life experience alone will also make his sister and himself It is difficult to find a place in the Rong family.Who would be willing to bury a landmine by his side?What's more, the master is no longer here. Isn't it foolish to expect the eldest wife to protect a concubine and her younger brother?Even if the young master is willing to take pity on his old relationship for many years, the eldest wife will definitely persuade the young master to drive them out with the consideration and reason of the safety of everyone in the big family.So Ah Chu's words were very cryptic, turning from the threat of death to his own panic.

But once people start complaining, they will inevitably bring out their truest thoughts, "I thought that returning from studying in the UK this time would bring some changes to my life..." After all, he is already a doctor of medicine, Foreign countries have won awards, but their identities are different from those in the past.

"Change? Sublimation or vanity?" Rong Shao's words instantly made Ah Chu vigilant and annoyed at his slip of the tongue.The sublimation that he thinks is undoubtedly an expression of vanity in the young master's eyes (don't ask why, just watch the conversation with Ronghua before Rongsheng, and his attitude towards Ah Chu afterwards, he always thinks that Ah Chu is his little follower).

"You're acting weird tonight, what did Fourth Auntie tell you?..."

With the young master's keenness and understanding of himself, Ah Chu knew that he couldn't be fooled, but it was absolutely impossible to tell him frankly what the fourth wife said to him, so Ah Chu decided to go all out and decide to talk about another matter that he was extremely concerned about. ——That's Yang Muci, anyway, that person is there, and the eldest lady has seen it, so the young master will know sooner or later, right? ! "I encountered a very strange thing today...Unbelievable, unprecedented...I can't let go, I can't face it (the two brothers are in sync)."

"Then can you tell me what happened?" Rong Shao asked, and suddenly felt that he seemed to be prying into people's privacy, especially Ah Chu's expression was unspeakable, so he didn't wait for Ah Chu to return. He then refuted the words himself, "Don't force yourself if you don't want to say it."

It's not that Ah Chu doesn't want to say it, it's because he doesn't know where to start.Thinking of that person, the scenes of encounters and getting along with each other passed by in my mind, but I didn't know what it was like.There are joys and sorrows, anger and resentment, and more, but as he said, he can't let go and face it!he doesn't know how to face