The vengeful tyrant always spoils me [entertainment circle]

Just in time for the last subway, Meng Jingyan wandered in the empty carriage for seven stops, and when she got out of the subway station, she scanned a shared bicycle with her mobile phone.

Meng's house is about two kilometers away from the subway station, and the weather in November is already quite cold. After riding for a while, his hands felt a little numb.

In fact, Meng's house had already been mortgaged to the court, but Meng Jingyan's situation was a bit special. His debt was too huge, and he himself had been very cooperative during the prosecution.The court decided to leave a part of Meng's house for him to live in temporarily for a period of time, and he would move out when the auction was completed.

Meng Yukun likes bright and open buildings. When the house was handed down from his father, it was already a huge building. After being renovated twice by him, it finally became absurdly large.

Viewed from the front, Meng's house is still a traditional Chinese building, facing south, and there is even a screen wall of wild goose wings carved with "Blessings from Heavenly Officials" in the courtyard.However, according to the preferences of the new generation, the house is covered with sand-colored marble floors, and the entire back is open and clear with European-style floor-to-ceiling windows.

The door was a heavy gold-clad solid wood door, Meng Jingyan pushed open a crack and squeezed in.He followed the road with a flash light from his mobile phone, without turning on the indoor lights.The crystal chandelier with one hundred and eight beads hanging on the ceiling of the hall was the one that Meng Yukun asked people to polish one by one in Venice, and wrapped them in fine cotton and sent them across the ocean to Dingdu.

It's not that Meng Jingyan can't even turn on the light, but when the light is turned on, one hundred and eight dusty orbs each illuminate a corner of the room, and everything in front of him rushes over, like a big knife with the head of a tiger rolling down. , making people feel heavy and abrupt.

Meng Jingyan was born and raised here, even if he is really blind, he can know where is where without groping.And in fact, it doesn’t matter whether you take a photo or not, after all, everything is covered by white cloth, and those that cannot be covered are also covered with seals. At a glance, they are either pale or bright red.

But as if masochistic, he insisted on using his mobile phone to illuminate the light, and often took a look at these white cloth seals.Even if you can't bear them all at once, you have to go through the things covered under them in your memory one by one.

In the middle of the hall is an old Steinway, which still looks beautiful, but no one in the Meng family can play it.

Next to Shi Nai's "Rainy Night" on the wall is "Yi Xing Trent Fly" written by Yue Changjun, both of which are authentic works that Meng Yukun bought at a high price.It's a pity that now it's just hanging under the white cloth to eat ashes, and it has become a collateral for a discounted auction.

The Duobaoge of Red Bamboo was also covered with a white cloth. Meng Jingyan walked up to it and pointed the flash of his mobile phone at the second from the left in the first row on the top to take a photo, and a faint blue light came back from inside.Those are Meng Jingyan's favorite sparrow blue cups, they were originally a pair, and they were said to be things that flowed out of the former court.

He used to play with that little shadow when he was a child, but when the little shadow left, one of the cups was missing. Song Yulan insisted that the little shadow stole it, so she dismantled the little shadow's luggage and let him go away empty-handed .

In fact, from Meng Jingyan's point of view, the cup was considered Xiao Ying's, and taking it away from him was not considered stealing.

But Meng Jingyan still defended him very calmly: "My brother is short, he can't reach him at all, and I usually give it to him. This time, I may have forgotten somewhere."

But at that time, he had no right to speak at all, and Meng Yukun would only be a peacemaker on the side.Little Shadow was adopted by Meng Jingyan's mother from the orphanage when she was more than three years old, and stayed in Meng's house for more than a year before she spoke her first words.

Once Meng Jingyan's mother was gone, he would hang behind Meng Jingyan like a shadow all day long, except for occasionally saying vague words to Meng Jingyan, he was a dispensable existence in this family.

So even if he was Meng Jingyan's last light and heat in this family, Meng Jingyan knew that he couldn't keep him.

When the woman coldly pointed at the door and called Xiao Ying a thief and told him to get out, he opened his hand to Meng Jingyan and looked at him calmly.

Meng Jingyan was almost 12 years old at that time, so he felt that he understood many things.For example, he knew that it was his mother who advocated that Little Shadow could enter Meng's house. Meng Yukun was originally ambiguous and even criticized.

He also vaguely knew why the woman chased Little Shadow away. She said that he had an incurable disease that would threaten her son's health.

After a little speculation, he would know that Little Shadow was really leaving, and he couldn't keep it, so he stood still.

Meng Jingyan didn't hug him not because he was afraid that the little shadow would get sick, but because he was afraid that if he bent down to hug the little shadow, his gritted teeth would not be able to stop the hot tears from behind his eyes.

Meng Yukun has said a lot of nonsense in his life, but he is right in one sentence, Meng Jingyan is a man now, he can't cry and send Little Shadow away.It's not ashamed to cry, but he's afraid that Little Shadow will suffer even more.

He remembered that Little Shadow walked towards him on his own initiative, and amidst the woman's hysterical curses, said the last sentence to him: "Meng'er, I'll save you."

Meng Jingyan felt that she could understand him. He was feeling uncomfortable and confused, so he didn't call him brother, but called his mother's baby name. He wanted to ask himself to save him, but he made a mistake.

Not long after, Meng Jingyan heard from her classmates that the cleaning workers near Meng's house picked up a skinny little boy on the frozen lake.In the winter, the little boy was lying on the lake holding a big rock. He was wearing an old sweater, which was so dirty that the color could not be seen. He died before he was sent to the hospital.

Meng Jingyan will never forget that day in his life, since he heard the news, he began to vomit non-stop, until finally he vomited bile and did not stop.The memory seemed to materialize on that day, like a cold liquid that was abandoned by his body along with his gastric juices and bile.

The repeated high fever for three days and three nights made him start to forget everything related to Little Shadow, starting from his name, to his appearance and his movements.

Meng Jingyan has shown some talent for never forgetting since he was a child, but that time, no matter how hard he tried to keep those faded memories, it was like trying to hold back a vanished shadow, and in the end only those memories remained. Trivial little things, and that phrase "meng'er", which is not big or small.

After he differentiated into Omega, the doctor said that his inability to feel and release pheromones may also be related to the high fever.

Meng Jingyan thinks that he killed Little Shadow.His little shadow who hardly spoke, stuck to him from morning till night, whose name he had forgotten.

He doesn't regret anything else, because he knows that his words are beyond his reach, but he regrets why he grudged the last hug.

In the repeated self-questioning, he was not even sure whether he was trying to keep Little Shadow from being sad, or simply wanted to prove that he was a man.

Little Shadow hugged the stone when he died, did he think the stone was him?This regret slowly fermented into all kinds of different things.In countless dark nights, Meng Jingyan woke up profusely in sweat from nightmares, and a small voice of grievance still echoed in his ears: "Why didn't brother hug me?"

This complex emotion woven with remorse, self-blame, anger, and anxiety finally melted into an extremely small but unrecognizable thorn, stuck on his sinus, making his heart hurt every time it beats, making his heart ache. He couldn't sleep or eat, and he couldn't find it everywhere.

Meng Jingyan looked at the almost invisible star of blue behind the white cloth, and the thorn started to work again, the invisible pain started from the stomach, squeezing him desperately from top to bottom, as if trying to squeeze him into his lungs. All the air was driven out, but he didn't have a single tear.

Because it doesn't make sense.

Meng Jingyan turned around and walked into the dark bathroom, her clothes slipped off her body.The air was filled with half-cool, lukewarm water vapor, which aroused waves of goose bumps on the skin.The water was lukewarm, and he took out a bar of soap and dabbed it from head to toe, then rinsed it off quickly, as if washing away the fucking day.

Before five o'clock the next day, Meng Jingyan's alarm clock rang, and he quickly washed and dressed.When he went out, Yu Chen's second-hand Sonata was already shaking at the door.

"Brother Meng, hurry up and get in the car, I brought you a roujiamo!" Yu Chen has a round face, and he wears a pair of round tortoiseshell glasses, making him look extra round.His voice is very loud, if it wasn't for the fact that Meng's house had no neighbors, someone would have to sue him for nuisance.

Meng Jingyan locked the door, and quickly got into the co-pilot. Even though the days were not as good as before, Yu Chen always felt that Meng Jingyan was still afraid of the cold, so he followed his old rules and adjusted the temperature in the car not too low.

Meng Jingyan took the breakfast that Yu Chen handed over, and looked down: "Didn't you have to lower your fat recently?"

Yu Chen chuckled: "Brother Meng, have you looked in the mirror recently? How can you lose your fat now? It's really the most suitable to play the second male lead who is frustrated in love. This morning is a tough scene. I'm not qualified as a manager, so I can't get you good resources, but I have to let you have breakfast."

In fact, Meng Jingyan knew very well that the problem of his lack of good resources was not at all due to Yu Chen.Something happened to the Meng family, the wall collapsed and everyone pushed, how many people were anxious to disassociate themselves from this rapidly collapsing maelstrom, for fear that they would have anything to do with the Meng family.

Not to mention that there are not many sects capable of pulling Meng Jingyan a hand, and people will never think that they have too much money.Although Meng Jingyan didn't rely on the Meng family much in the early years, but seeing the Meng family's building collapsed, Meng Jingyan has also degenerated into a half-hearted little actor, and it doesn't seem like he can jump back to the dragon's gate again. , [-]% of them want to go ashore to be a blood-sucking boy, whoever sticks to it will be unlucky, and no one is willing to be a good person with high costs and no rewards.

From their point of view, if Meng Jingyan wasn't asked to pay back the money, it wouldn't be an exaggeration to ban him from the entertainment circle.