love letter to you

The virus has witnessed a lot. The doctors who went to the front line to rescue the dying, the silent dedication of the logistics, the meager vitality of the people, how many people suffered from the virus, and how many relationships could not last during this period. At first, I thought that we were in different places with most Couples quarrel and break up because of missing, until I saw a photo of you and a girl. In this special period of closure, everyone can’t find anything to do at home and can only watch videos. It’s a coincidence that that day was On your birthday, that girl sent you an intimate photo saying 'Happy birthday, I hope my At's is not someone else's boyfriend. "You are indeed not someone else's boyfriend, but aren't you my girlfriend? What bothered me the most was that the girl was your ex-girlfriend. I didn't know what to do at the time. I could only maintain my poor self-esteem." Let's break up'.At 12 o'clock in the middle of the night, after I sent the message, I uploaded your contact information without waiting for your reply. Sitting on the steps at the top of the stairs, my heart suddenly hurt, I couldn't hold back my tears, I dare not I made a noise, afraid to wake up my family, so I called my friend. I didn’t know what I was talking nonsense. The scared friend hurriedly comforted me. At first, I naively thought that I had misunderstood, and you would come to coax us. You can still be together for a long time, but I still think too much. Three days later, when I was sleeping at night, I suddenly had a dream. I dreamed that you and your ex-girlfriend got back together. I opened my eyes and stayed for a long time. Then I looked at my phone and saw The official video of you and that girl is so beautiful. I suddenly remembered that we hadn’t taken a single photo during our time together. I don’t like taking pictures, and you didn’t mention that, the chat records sent by that girl You are very much like the two of us, you said you would love me forever, why don't your words count?During that time, I was depressed for a long time, and my parents were puzzled. Finally, when they saw the bloody wounds on my hands, my mother broke out. My mother slapped me hard and hugged me and said, "I beg you. Don't be like that, tell mom what's wrong, okay, you tell mom. 'I looked up at my mother, she was crying, but I didn't feel anything, my hands were numb and I didn't feel anything, then I looked at my father, I don't know what his mood was at that time, I only know that my father, who has always been strong, has red eyes and doesn't look I, looking at the mirror that I shattered, the red liquid remained, which was shocking.I stayed in the hospital for a long time, and my mother watched me every day, as if she was afraid that I would do something, I don’t understand, I have told her many times 'I will be fine, don't watch me' She turned a deaf ear and still said, 'Mom is fine, Mom will stay with you. 'I'm bored, I want to be alone, I just want to be alone.

The author has something to say:

Why didn't 'I' ask 'you' for clarification, because 'I' was arrogant and thought it was impossible, impossible