love letter to you

The lockdown is finally over, I'm back at school, and you're back, we finally met, you're a little darker, your hair is cut into a cut, the red string I gave you is gone, we're the same as before, you still love to laugh , I still like your smile, but it doesn't show it anymore, we don't talk about like and love anymore, everything is so logical, except you go back outside every night to make an hour of phone calls, are your two little girlfriends Half an hour for one person?My disgusting jealousy always shows up at this hour every night. What should I do? I can’t escape. Every time I want to draw a line with you, your sweet words come, and our love keeps appearing in my mind. when.I used to go to the milk tea shop to wait for you after school. Now I just go home alone. You used to tie my shoes. It’s funny to wear shoes with laces every day when I tie my shoelaces. You used to blow-dry my hair every day, but now I wash my hair and blow-dry my hair while you’re on the phone.Finally, you are going home, and we are finally separated.I was at school the day before you left, and I didn't go to see you off, I was afraid I wouldn't let you go, 'I don't think you are like her before, what's going on? 'My friend asked, I was in a trance, in the past, what a beautiful word, it was so good in the past. "How is it like before?" I laughed at myself, I will never get over this hurdle in my heart, I feel disgusted when I think of what she did and what I did. 'I'm in the car' 'Remember to miss me' 'You can come to me when you are on holiday, the stinky tofu at my house is delicious' I read the messages you sent me, I was so annoyed, my eyes were sore, I watched too much on my phone Alright.I sat in the car looking for you sullenly. For five hours, I thought a lot. I am still young, but you are not so young. Can I wait until the day when you are tired from playing and want to relax?I thought again, is it cheap, is it her?I arrived before I knew it, you came to pick me up, I was motion sick and dizzy, vomiting and diarrhea, 'this road is too roundabout, next time don't take a car that takes this road. 'You frowned and said while wiping my mouth, I looked at you, and I thought, is it worth it?You took me to your house, just like you described to me, the classroom was big, with grass, then your sister's room, then your room, you took me to the bed, looked at me and said 'sleep a while?I'll take you to dinner later. 'I nodded, my mind was so dizzy that I fell asleep without knowing anything.After a long time I heard your voice saying 'Okay, I will send it to my aunt tomorrow, remember to tell my aunt that your friend will send it to her. 'It's your little girlfriend, the voice is so nice, are you going to deliver something to her mother?But I remember that I said before that I would take you to my house for dinner, but you didn't go anyway.You hung up the phone, then went to the bed and squatted down, touched my face and said, 'It's time to wake up, go eat, eat before going to bed. 'I opened my eyes and looked at you, you were still smiling, but I didn't look so happy anymore, I knew that I should let go, but you are the love I met so hard, how can I say goodbye.