without me

When the wind stopped and it was rare, I counted the days carefully and took out the luggage that I had hidden and packed.

Jiang An was indeed kicked out after that incident, and Yingxiu, who also made a mistake together, is probably not there now, and there won't be any bigger problems.I know that they won't worry about the first day or two of survival for the time being, and apart from the big problem of flattery, Jiang An's ability is definitely a gifted and practical talent. I understand that, so I don't need to worry about it anymore.

After Jiang An and Yingxiu were gone, I wasn't used to asking other maids about their lives, and the new butler the master found knew very little, so I was a bit on guard.

Taking advantage of the dark night, I picked up my things and walked out quietly-Jiang Zhuiyan also went out through this door at the beginning, and the action was very successful, but I could only do it when Jiang Youwei stopped calling for strict supervision. , sneak away.

Just like that time, I saw Jiang Ci at the door.

It seems that there is no need to say too much, too long-winded nonsense.Just as I was about to speak, I patted his shoulder to stop him.

"...I suspect I won't be able to leave today."

Jiang Ci froze on the spot in bewilderment at first, and then I explained: "It seems that my intuition is not very good, but I am going well, and the other person seems to be in big trouble."

"Another person?" He joked, "Sister, you don't mean to elope with someone you admire."

I thought he would be laughed at like usual, but Jiang Ci paused when he saw the person in front of him.

"……Correct."

right?to what?

Jiang Ci reacted for a moment, and his face couldn't express the great shock, as if he would not come out from the east with the big red sun on his head at dawn.

"Okay, it's good... Cough," he deliberately covered his fists and coughed twice, "All in all, if everything goes well, we will be reconciled in the Huguo Temple in the future."

I took advantage of the situation and continued: "If it doesn't go well, just pretend nothing happened and make a decision."

Hope my intuition is wrong...

There was no time to delay, Jiang Ci stretched out his palm in a polite manner, and I finally held it and patted it lightly, just like coaxing them both when I was a child.

"We want to live a good life... The fate that cannot be affected by father's decision is to continue and not end here."

He pursed his lips as if he was enduring something, quickly raised the corners of his mouth, and met me with clean eyes.

"We'll be fine."

The wind was still obedient and did not bother, and the night slid away silently on the eaves. Looking around, there were only a few people who were staying up all night with weak candles, and their hands were constantly mending from near to far.

I looked for the trail in my memory to get closer to my goal, and the place was also unbelievably quiet.With a calm heart, I calmly pushed aside the dry branches, making crisp, crunching movements.

Maybe someone in the shadows is hiding in it, that's for the best.

It's a pity that I waited for a long time, but there was no one.

Wen Liu didn't come...she couldn't come.

Recalling the death of the old bustard that day, it was not so horrifying, but it made so many girls inside cry, but only Shuitao could move a little bit.

It is a voluntary obligation that has been done for the other party for a long time, and to some extent shares some of the other party's responsibilities.

Shen Shijie shouldn't be doing anything to Wen Liu... No, I've already miscalculated once, so it's better not to believe it too much.

At this point, I raised the corner of my mouth, trying to comfort myself: If the other party really went to the appointment, I still don't know how to talk to her about the madam...

I leaned against the tree stump and sat down, looked up at the moon that was about to be full and kept silent, waiting for the other party to be covered by the dazzling sunlight.

When I realized that I had to go back, it was time to eat, and when I walked out, I could hear the sound of energetic cries.

"A cake, sweet." I took out a copper plate from the luggage that I had packed very little, and said, "Let's have a salty one, and add more chopped green onions."

In the meantime, the other party grabbed the shovel and gave a quick response. After tossing and turning, it didn't take long before handing it over, steaming hot.

While eating, I went to Jiang's mansion as if nothing had happened, as if it was just a dream in the middle of the night, and nothing happened.

The new housekeeper, the old man, ran up to me excitedly, his spine bent and invisible from the weight of the old years.He anxiously called me, and said that the master was in a hurry to find me.

I don't know if there is any other important matter related to me. After all, it is possible that I chased Yan to the Huguo Temple. Jiang Youwei didn't feel ashamed to beg for someone, so he added this "crime" to my work Er Jing's head.

But it seems that this is not the only thing, I have no reason to refuse, Jiang Yushan was indeed there when I went to the lobby, but he was not so stupidly proud, but rather uncomfortable.

Jiang Youwei quickly stood up from the chair, "Xu'er, your whore... acquaintance, you will be married by Young Master Shen to the matchmaker."

It's okay if I don't say anything, my face was filled with some anger and paleness before the words fell, so I had to restrain myself from looking at the two people in front of me.

"So what?"

He held the master's face hard and refused to speak again, and gave him a look, and Jiang Yushan hurried to me.

"I can't get it back after chasing Yan, so now I have to talk to you and the girl." Jiang Yushan smiled awkwardly, "It seems that Shen Shijie still attaches great importance to her, let's work harder if we can, right? .”

What does it mean to work as hard as you can?

I didn't want to tell the matter to the outside world, Jiang Youwei took responsibility for his own decision.Wouldn't that have ruled out my options and qualifications early on?It's a shame to say so openly that it's for everyone's good.

"Pay attention to?"

Jiang Yushan saw that the person in front of him didn't show any signs of easing up, instead he just twitched his cheeks and smiled, and suddenly he secretly shouted in his heart that something was wrong.I grabbed his shoulder and felt the other party's subconscious trembling, "The importance you said is to kill the other party's biological mother in order to give him an identity that Mrs. Shen won't think is too much."

"Ah? This..."

The two gasped at the same time, apparently not expecting Shen Shijie's rebellious heart, to the point where he would use any means to play tricks on the two masters above his head.

Seeing their expressions, I couldn't help but sneer, "Have you told Shen Shijie that we are on good terms?"

Jiang Yushan didn't know how to answer for a while, so he could only carefully look at the expression of the person in front of him, "Uh, yes, of course."

This is for sure, otherwise no matter how to build a relationship, no matter how thin or small the rope is, you can't let it go.

I laughed even more happily.

"So, isn't that clear enough?"

"The person was introduced by you, the source is me, and the relationship is also me; her mother was killed by Shen Shijie, and Young Master Shen also knew of her existence through you."

"Now you ask a person who is closely related to the reason why her mother was killed, to ask her to give Shen Shijie a blow, and let him and Master Shen interact with our Jiang family more? Ask Master Shen to take care of him?"

As if it was a farce, I continued talking, refraining from spitting on them on the spot.

"Hey, Yu Shan, tell me, why is it so funny when you first hear it? It's so absurd, I hate writing scripts."

Jiang Youwei couldn't hold back his face, and knocked on the table in front of him, "Xu'er, these are not problems."

"Really, in the adult world, there is always no position. Identity is infallible and eternal. As long as there is a slightest friendship, it can be used. In a crisis, you can't bear to waste it. When you get through the difficulty, the relationship is gone. It’s gone, I can’t give up.”

I didn't go on with this question, my patience has been exhausted by Jiang Youwei's stubbornness.

"If you can come back after chasing Yan," I saw the other party's eyes light up very quickly before the words finished, and I continued to ask, "Don't you want her to be a concubine?"

He kept silent, not knowing whether he was struggling or didn't have an answer at all, or he didn't want to tell me-it was nothing more than being told.

As soon as this reaction came out, I felt that a string in my brain was completely broken, and the last trace of trust and entrustment from the blood disappeared.

good, very good.

"If Zhuiyan really married into the family, our relationship with the Shen family will be completely inseparable."

As I spoke, my articulation gradually increased, as if I wanted to eat all the words into my stomach.

"Very well, when the Dong Chuang incident happens, we will not be able to escape the punishment of sitting even if we want to escape!"

Jiang Youwei suddenly stood up in surprise, and pointed his hand straight at the person in front of him.

"Jiang Xu, tell me clearly."

"Words? What kind of words?" I replied, "You are too foolish to take the baby with you."

After finishing speaking, he nodded in a certain direction outside the door, as if pointing to an existence that Jiang Youwei didn't notice through the layers of walls and houses.

"Father, you must know General Shen."

"...Shen Shiyun?"

Jiang Youwei froze, and when he blurted out at this moment, he thought of a lot of guesses.

Is Shen Shiyun related to the Shen family?Shen Shiyun still follows King Guangxian?

Didn't he follow the saint a long time ago?

It's really that simple a question, there will be no more stupid doubts in the world.

I dragged Jiang Yushan to my side and stood in the middle of the lobby.Jiang Yushan was caught off guard, and made a "hey yo yo" movement in his mouth, and quickly squinted at me with resentment.

"Stand here," I looked at the other party calmly, "Stand here and listen carefully."

The people in front couldn't help concentrating, and felt that they couldn't imagine the consequences of taking a wrong step.

"Shen Shiyun sneaked out from Shen's residence to join the army when he was young. Shen Jun didn't stop him and didn't care. He was so angry that his younger brother and sister-in-law were furious. They kept saying, 'If you don't come back, don't come back forever'"Sever ties, don't recognize us This parent' or something."

"Heh, the matter of severing ties has been kept verbal and refused to give up. After returning from the battle in the north, he didn't mention a word, as if he wanted to support this promising 'good son'. But after Shen Shiyun was approved by King Guangxian He continued to stay in the team as a soldier, didn't say much, and moved out of the Shen residence directly."

I stared quietly at Jiang Yushan, who was about to slip away from me at any time, but he did not move again.

"For the sake of the reputation of his younger brother and sister-in-law, Mr. Shen forcefully put the matter between a few people and a handful of old servants, and it didn't spread that his grand nephew, Shen Junshe, went to join the army. "

"Until Shen Shiyun made some achievements, this relationship was forcibly maintained by him, and Shen Shiyun tacitly accepted it."

"...So, don't you guys understand?"

"The relationship between Shen Shiyun and the Shen family has never been broken, and the relationship between General Shen and King Guangxian has never changed. The younger generation is still the younger generation, and the kindness of knowing you is still the kindness of knowing you."

Before he finished speaking, Jiang Youwei couldn't bear the emotion and said loudly.

"I never knew there was such a thing, how did you know it?"

I don't go and quarrel with him, "Shen Shiyun was a soldier under my uncle's command at first, didn't I follow him when I was young? You are old and confused and have a bad memory. I can help you recall the memories."

A soldier under Ruan Zecheng?

Jiang Youwei obviously didn't expect this. He only knew that Shen Shiyun was promoted during the turmoil in the southwest, and he only got a name in the court. The most worthy of vigilance is the promotion of King Guangxian, and now he is still fighting under the emperor's hand battlefield.

But how could Shen Shiyun have anything to do with that stupid Shen Junshe?No one went to check!

I thought it was not uncommon to have the same surname, but I realized later that it was probably forcibly erased by some force, and it was a force that was cultivated early from the seedlings.

"So, you can't prove that General Shen will also participate in the overthrow of the emperor." Jiang Youwei saw that the expression of the person in front of him did not waver, and suddenly had a guess, "Didn't you go to meet him?"

Seeing me raise the corner of my mouth without any scruples, the other party suddenly became angry.

"When did it happen? Why didn't you tell me!"

"On that day."

I stared at the corners of each other's eyes, and there were deep wrinkles squeezed out beside them.

"It was the day you told me to hand over the existence of that Zhangtai man to Shen Shijie. I felt that telling you about it... was meaningless."

"Bullshit!"

Jiang Youwei ruthlessly smashed the teapot to the ground, allowing the pieces to fall apart in the dip of the tea.

"You—how could you hide such an important matter from me!"

Besides, he couldn't figure out why, as a supporter of King Guangxian, who supported pulling the emperor down, he didn't even know that Shen Shiyun was an accomplice.

I didn't answer much, but I could see the reluctance and doubts in the other party's heart—the father and son had lived under the same roof for more than [-] years, and I thought I was clear about his hypocrisy.

"You really have never been trusted."

He seemed to have been slashed from the top of his head, and he kept taking deep breaths to calm his emotions, but found that he couldn't regain his composure no matter what, and the more he thought about it.

what to do?King Guangxian definitely has the potential to ascend to the throne. This is not only because it is obvious to all, but also because it is unobtrusive to make changes at this time, and it is time to experience it again.

But the emperor's palm is still huge, even those dead eunuchs can move so far, mother...

I always feel that the sound of the wind is no longer in line with what I imagined. The court is full of dark tides. Everyone, no matter what faction they are in, is trying their best to speed up their pace. Apart from internal troubles, there are also external troubles.

Really, it was destined...?

"..."

I think this kind of thing is doomed long ago. As a young man, I need to spend my whole childhood to see Jiang Youwei's style clearly, and those old and cunning people must have vicious eyes, and it won't take long to determine their reactions and actions.

What exactly do you think?Life-saving is so important that I lose my determination and belonging.

He was a little dizzy unconsciously, as if he saw a pair of huge hands passing through the roof above his head, stretching out his five fingers and covering the entire Jiang Mansion under its shadow, and he would seize the next moment with that completely incomparable sense of oppression. Oneself, firmly controlled and pinched without struggling.

"There is still room for maneuver... There is still vitality, as long as you are faster than those old and immortal."

He who pinned his hopes on King Guangxian suddenly raised his head, "Xu'er, you—"

Before the words fell, I walked towards the door, not wanting to look back.

"I?"

"I don't think you will be able to succeed at all. The emperor has already mastered this trick very well, and it was left over by others."

"And I have no life at all."

"Yu Shan, do you think so?"

Jiang Yushan was mentioned suddenly, but when he subconsciously thought about it, he couldn't figure out why.

"How would I know."

"fine."

I raised my hand to open the door, and walked towards the bright hall beyond the eaves, leaving only one sentence to say lightly——

"Hello dad, as long as you know."

Suddenly, just as I finished speaking, Jiang Youwei rushed up irresistibly and shouted at the door: "Someone tie him up for me!"

Everything happened so fast, even if I had room to react, I knew that I would never be able to resist these strong servants. Turn back and stare at each other.

"I thought you would be a good father in the end. I thought you still had some heart hidden under that layer of skin."

Under Jiang Youwei's order, Jiang Yushan hurriedly left the lobby as if reincarnated, and disappeared after a while.

"I thought you were still trying to live—"

"You want to live, and you want your son to live."

"Don't think I don't know anything! The Ruan family is lonely, you have no reason to let me be the young master of your Jiang family as my mother wants."

"You've been fine since then, and you want me to take Jiang Yushan's place in your chaotic and turbulent situation!"

"You knew from the beginning that if Wen Ruo wasn't your son, you've always used us as Jiang Yushan's guarantee!"

I struggled with all my strength, just to yell the last few words to the person in front of me, as if what came out of my mouth were not words, but my rusty and blunt knife.

"If I don't point it out today, if I leave like chasing a swallow, is it Jiang Wenru who was tied up by you here today!"

Jiang Youwei urged them to move, and a moment later I was pressed and fell to my knees on the ground, only my mouth was still unrelenting.

"You haven't thought about Jiang Ci? Don't you care about the second and sixth children at all!"

"Your wife, whether it's Mr. Chen, Wei Lianzhi, Dong Xi, or my mother, you don't want to care about it, do you? You just need to ensure that you can survive and leave the most satisfactory bloodline. Are you satisfied?"

"You have achieved your goal, are you happy? I am kneeling at your feet now, tied with a rope from your Jiang family, and with a head on my head that you can take away at any time!"

Amidst the shouting, his voice quickly became hoarse, and his strength quickly flowed from his body. The unwillingness and anger that had been accumulated and suppressed for a long time burst forth, and even if everything was exhausted today, he would tear it apart nakedly in front of Jiang Youwei. Let him see clearly what the flesh and blood I gave birth to look like. I kept panting to maintain consciousness, and the other party's voice without any emotion came from my ear.

"Drag it down and break his leg."

The knee was being dragged and made a harsh movement, and I finally took a vague look at the other party in the corner of my vision.

Jiang Youwei didn't move after noticing, just whispered.

"As you wish, after death, be your wife."

……

The sun was almost invisible as it set beyond the hills, except for a smudge of red around it, a harbinger of gloom, dutifully bringing a palpable chill.

Jiang Ci hurried back to the Jiang Mansion without daring to stop, chasing after the old housekeeper to ask about the situation, and then left without stopping.

He hastily opened the door, and inside was a young maid who was packing up the cloth head for the bedridden person in front of him, and he saw that there was blood and flesh on it, which was very vicious.

"...You go out first."

Seeing that the other party wrapped up all the things that had been processed and took them away, Jiang Ci forgot to bring the wooden chair, and squatted down directly on the side of the bed.

He asked softly: "Sister? Sister, are you awake now?"

After hearing the voice, I barely lifted my heavy eyelids.

To the surprise of the other party, instead of answering this nonsense question verbally, I opened my thirsty mouth and struggled to squeeze out a sound.

"If you go, hurry up."

"Huguo Temple can't protect you until the verdict...unless you are ordained."

"After that, I'll wait a little longer. After Jiang An and Yingxiu's lives have stabilized and stabilized, I'll go back to Huguo Temple to find you."

Jiang Ci asked in surprise: "Jiang An and Yingxiu?"

I lay down on the bed and breathed out my turbid breath, and he clearly went to pour water and held it next to my face, and sipped it cautiously.

The moistened throat showed signs of comfort, and I slowed down my voice to respond to the other party's doubts.

On the same day, after the meeting with Shen Shiyun, the father and son did not have any discussion with me, which made me clearly realize that the issue of survival cannot be entrusted to Jiang Youwei.In my eyes, the two suddenly became like entertaining themselves, and I lost my intention to tell.

I was exhausted and dragged back to my room. I originally asked Ajiu to call Yingxiu, and if Jiang An was there, I would go to Jiang An.

And this young butler came to me very obediently.

"Is there something urgent for the young master to tell Jiang An?"

He arched his back with an apologetic smile on his face, obviously it wasn't my fall that hurt him - he had been like this in the early years, telling the master all the time, "I am your slave, I am your loyal dog".

I cut straight to the point, without any foreshadowing or sloppy eyes.

"Master wants to rebel."

"what?"

Jiang An stared blankly, his eyes wide open, and his mouth couldn't be closed at all.

"I said, the master is going to rebel."

I repeated what I said just now, and I knew what the other party would say.

Sure enough, his panic was immediately replaced by a smiling face.

Are you kidding me?

"Don't make fun of Jiang An."

"I'm not fooling you," I stared seriously at his trembling eyes, "I really want to rebel."

Jiang An gritted his teeth and was about to say something, but I interrupted forcefully and irresistibly.

"I'm going to give you two options now...to be honest, I don't think they can be successful."

"Did you hear it at the door? So many times...you must have heard it." My eyes fell on the other person's face again, and he bit the skin of his mouth, bleeding from the bite.

Actually, is there any help?this person……

"Two options—"

"One, wait here to die, wait until the master abandons everything, including you, and foolishly believe that the emperor will tolerate your power to develop, and wait until the strength is sufficient to open the door respectfully and let them enter."

"two……"

I stretched out two fingers to signal, then nodded at the other party, and sat with my arms and legs apart, looking sleepy.

"Leave from Jiang's mansion and take Yingxiu with me."

"It can't be a voluntary resignation - for example, the 'big gift' sent by the Ye family..."

After Jiang An heard this, he quickly knelt on the ground in horror, "Eldest young master, you can't help it! Master, master will definitely kill Jiang An!"

"I want your life? Wouldn't it be a good bet?"

I pretended to have nothing to do with myself, "I can think of a solution for your life, but if I don't take a gamble this time, I dare say you will surely die."

"You are still young, not much different from me."

"Well...you like Yingxiu, right?"

He froze for a moment, he couldn't see his face from the bottom of his head, he only knew that he nodded and admitted.

"If we don't take a gamble this time, we will all have to meet Hades."

"I can give you almost all the silver taels I have accumulated up to now. The amount is quite a lot, right? Enough to find a way out."

"Remember, if you don't gamble this time, we will all die—including you and Yingxiu."

Jiang An was still kneeling on the ground and did not dare to look up, while I raised my legs to make myself more comfortable.

"You kneel on the ground, I sit on the bed, who decided this?"

He trembled and said, "Jiang An is a slave, it should be...so."

"But if we win the bet, not only will you temporarily recover one... two lives, you won't have to kneel down to me anymore."

"What a deal, isn't it?" I couldn't help but laugh a few times, half-cursing at the silent person in front of me.

"Jiang An, are you a dog?"

He was silent.

"Speak, are you a dog?"

"..."

"Tell me, are you a dog or not? Don't get me wrong, even if you escape from the cage, you'll just turn into a wild dog, have sex with other wild dogs, and then be caught and cut up for meat."

"..."

My complexion changed, and I took out the folding fan next to him and threw it at him fiercely. The man didn't even dare to cry out in pain, he just gasped in pain.

"Call me."

Seeing that the other party was still silent, I made up my mind and smashed the teacup on the table in front of him with a loud clang.

"...Okay, good slave," I calmed down while breathing, "For the sake of being the only son of the old housekeeper, I want to get you a favor."

Speaking of this, Jiang An suddenly raised his head, his eyes were full of surprise.

I clasped my hands together, rubbing my thumbs up and down.

"Yingxiu has lived together for so many years, she can't... just pass her life like this."

Deliberately leaving some leeway for Jiang An to extend his feelings, he saw that the other party's emotions were more clearly reflected in every part of his body.

How could they not think about it?I just think it's impossible, or I already think it's a ridiculous thing.However, his own head is now in jeopardy, and problems have surfaced that cannot be avoided.

Escape or face it, I secretly set a gamble for myself in my heart, if it succeeds, it will not be much better for me, but it will improve the situation of the fifth and sixth child; if it fails, I don’t mind taking two lives, At worst, go to Yan Luodian to pay back.

I used a very contemptuous way to describe the kneeling man in front of me, and I feel very familiar with it—in the past, I used to hold this attitude every day, childishly dismissive And numb unwillingness to the status quo.

"..."

"Jiang An, I will give you a chance to be reincarnated. To be a human or a dog. You may have the only right to choose, which is rare in your life."

"If you become a human being smoothly, it won't be the last time you have the right to choose, for many, many things."

The other party moved his knees slowly and raised his chin slightly, as if he was willing to look at me.

I fished out a bulging money bag from the pillow, and threw it heavily to Jiang An's knee, making a heavy and crisp sound.

"Have you decided? Our Jiang family broke the dog."

He fought for a while to think, and finally raised his head towards me, the mark on the side of his mouth seemed to have been cut off a piece of flesh.

It's just a layer of dead skin.

"...Master, what should I do?"

I restrained my contempt, lowered my head, and there was an obvious smile on my face.

"Go, as I just said, go 'die once.'"