he doesn't use a knife

It was already dark when they returned.

Duan Yishuang changed into clean clothes and sat down on the chair again, facing Youqin Honghe who was leaning against him holding a tea bowl.

Qin Honghe was watching him.

There was a deeper smile in those always smiling eyes.

Warm smoke curled up.

Youqin Honghe sat here very relaxed, without any surprise in his expression, as if he had expected all this long ago.

Xue Lanling did not come over for a long time.

Duan Yishuang was a little worried, holding on to the handrail and was about to get up to look for it, when Qin Honghe suddenly said, "Don't worry."

He turned his head to look.

Youqin Honghe took a sip of tea and placed the tea bowl on the table on the right.

Then he brushed off his sleeves and stroked the hem, the light emerald green shirt was reflected in the shadow of the lamp, like straight and leafy green bamboo.

You Qin Hong said: "Since he didn't come, I should take this opportunity to tell you a few things."

Duan Yishuang sat down, but did not relax.

He still sat very upright, and he couldn't even find anything wrong.

Duan Yishuang asked, "What do you want to say?"

Youqin Hong and Xu Xu breathed out, and sighed: "It was my expectation that you could come, but it was also unexpected."

Duan Yishuang said: "As expected, but also unexpected?"

Youqin Honghe nodded.

Duan Yishuang asked: "The reason?"

Youqin Hong said: "As expected, I guessed that you might do such a thing. To be able to persuade Xue Lanling, it would take a lot of effort. I guessed that you can do it."

"But he was really moved by you, which was beyond my expectation." Youqin Honghe raised his hand, looked through the bright fingers through the candlelight, and said slowly, "I thought you could do it, You can do it, and you can convince him. But I don’t think he can be persuaded by you.”

This statement sounds really contradictory.

But Duan Yishuang fully understood what Youqin Honghe meant.

Maybe because he stayed by Xue Lanling's side for too long, he could easily hear some subtext and deep meaning in his words.

He wasn't naive.

But now it is very complicated to learn. Whether it is dealing with people or things, I always think deeper.

Duan Yishuang took a shallow breath and asked, "Is this not easy?"

Youqin Hong said: "Of course it is not easy. It is precisely because I know what kind of person he is that I know that it is a rare skill for you to be able to sway him on this matter."

Speaking of this, Qin Honghe lowered his eyes slightly, and said: "Xue Lanling and I have known each other since we were young, and we each have our own ideas. Before I met him, I thought that there was no one more genius than me in the world. After I came to him, I can truly understand the eight characters "There are people beyond people, and there is heaven beyond the sky."

"It's a blessing or not a blessing to be friends with someone like him. Perhaps it's even more unfortunate to be a friend who understands him and knows he understands him."

Duan Yishuang followed Youqin Honghe's words and asked, "Why?"

Youqin Honghe's eyes trembling in the shadows.

You Qin Hong said: "Xue Lanling wants to die. And I know him too well, so he wants to die. I can't find any reason to persuade him not to die. I even think that if he wants to die, it's not bad. Living in In this world, he and I have nothing to look forward to. If we say that we are dead, it is not a relief. It is just that there is not much difference between living and dying, so it is quite normal for him to want to die. .”

Duan Yishuang said: "But you don't want him to die."

It was an overtone that he understood.

You Qin Honghe took another sip of weak tea, and smiled very lightly: "If possible, I certainly don't want Xue Lanling to die. Maybe this world is really boring, but whether it's boring or interesting, there is still some hope in life."

Duan Yishuang was silent for a while, then he asked: "Is Xue Lanling's past related to the Eight Great Schools?"

You Qin Honghe nodded and said: "It is not only related to the Eight Great Schools, but also related to the Wulin League, and even more related to the Bu Shi Juan that is now stirring up the situation in the world."

Of course he could guess.

Can guess the people and things, but it is not easy to guess what happened in the first place.

Duan Yishuang continued to ask: "What happened back then?"

Youqin Honghe turned his head away, his eyes seemed to fall on the shadow in the corner.

a long time.

You Qin Hong said: "If he is willing to tell you about this matter, then he should say it. If he doesn't tell you, I can't tell you. But I can tell you one thing—Xue Lanling actually He hates no one, he only hates himself."

Duan Yishuang was stunned suddenly.

You Qin Hong said: "At that time, Xue Lanling was definitely not what he is now. He was kind, tolerant, and even gentle. At that time, many people said that he was amazingly talented and elegant. Who has heard his name, seen him? As a person, he will feel like a spring breeze."

"That's the kind of person who chose the most widely spread in the world, but no one has practiced the desire to fly in the world. And do you know why he chose this way?"

Duan Yishuang asked: "Why?"

Youqin Honghe said with a smile: "He wants to be the one who has never been seen before, and he wants to prove that he is different from everyone in the world."

--However.

however.

Youqin Honghe's smile disappeared in an instant.

"It became the source of his hatred of himself."

Duan Yishuang sensed a depressive and painful atmosphere in Youqin Honghe's expression.

He was dazed and dull, as if he was about to bite his tongue and asked: "...why?"

You Qin Hong said: "After Xue Lanling's practice desires to fly across the world, he will disperse his kung fu at a fixed time and endure pain. He can endure it. He has a willpower beyond everyone's imagination. He is very persistent. If he is not stronger than I am powerful, maybe I would prefer him to be my Gu tester. He is just so determined."

"But precisely because he needed to perform his kung fu at a fixed time, the Chongshan Gate at that time had to be rushed back to protect him for a period of time. It was also because he had such a period of time...the Chongshan Gate was shut down in one fell swoop. Invaded without resistance, and left no one alive."

Youqin Honghe's thoughts gradually drifted away with that period of the past.

The voice also gradually became hoarse.

"He hated himself, hated himself for confidently choosing the most difficult martial art in the world, which became a burden, and caused the entire Chongshan Gate to be destroyed overnight. He hated himself for being unable to stop it at the time, and hated himself for insisting on choosing such a martial art , and hated myself for not being able to die immediately, and hated myself for sacrificing the last thought left to him by the sect master in order to get out of the desert."

"He became heartless, unfeeling, and indifferent. He left everything behind him. He was still like him, and he was not him."

A pair of mist gathered in Duan Yishuang's eyes.

He said foolishly: "But it can't really blame him."

If there is no alliance between the eight sects and the Wulin League, if there is no interest that drives them to destroy Chongshanmen.

At the age of 19, Xue Lanling should be the most energetic and admired by people in the world.

not today.

Youqin Honghe took a deep breath.

Then under Duan Yishuang's gaze, he stood up, approached, and took out two porcelain bottles from his sleeve, one white and one blue.

Youqin Honghe looked down at him.

Duan Yishuang moved her lips but did not make any sound.

Because Youqin Honghe said: "He has been awakening the Gu worms in his body since he went to the Northland... Let me tell you first, he asked me to put the Gu worms in, not my original intention."

Duan Yishuang's eyes turned red.

You Qin Hong said: "...I can't persuade him, he wants to die. Among these two porcelain bottles, the white bottle is poison, and the blue bottle is medicine to cure Gu... If you can really persuade him, that would be great." But, to be honest, if he really doesn't want to live, maybe death is more suitable."

Duan Yishuang pushed open the tightly closed door.

Xue Lanling was leaning against the window, with long hair reaching her waist, golden feather tassels shining brightly.

He walked to a place not far from Xue Lanling, hesitated, and said softly: "Do you want me to know these things?"

Xue Lanling turned to look at him.

They stared at each other for a while under the candlelight.

He heard Xue Lanling ask: "After you know, do you still think I need to live?"

Duan Yishuang replied with red eyes: "I don't know if you need to live, but I don't need you to die."

He looked at Xue Lanling's beautiful face, staring at it obsessively, staring like crazy.

He always sees him that way.

I used to admire his beauty and look at his profundity, as if I was peeling the cocoon to see the poisonous poppy all the time.

But now he looks at him.

Dazed and confused, painful and obsessed.

It was hard for him to imagine the courage that 12-year-old Xue Lanling would use to live.

Live in endless hatred of yourself.

Perhaps for the Eight Great Schools and the Wulin League, Xue Lanling wanted them to pay the price the most.

But for Xue Lanling, the sufferer wants to pay the price even more.

"Before I met you, I knew that there is no banquet that never ends. I knew that Mu Chang would eventually have his own way, and Li Xingchen would also take on the responsibility of being the young owner of Baiyang Villa. We will part ways sooner or later."

Duan Yishuang spoke softly, like a hoarse crying voice, "But I can bear all the differences, except that I can't accept losing you."

"Xue Lanling." He called him like this, his voice became firm and calm in an instant.

- "You can hate yourself, but you can't stop me from loving you."

The burning candle was very dim.

Duan Yishuang's eyes were amazingly bright.

He seemed to have seen countless stars in the world before he could put them into his eyes.

They stared at each other for a long time.

Until Xue Lanling raised his chin to him and said calmly: "Take out the things."

He subconsciously handed over the two porcelain bottles in his hand.

By the time he realized it, Xue Lanling had already held both the poison and the antidote in his hands.

But he didn't dare to snatch the bottle of poison.

He is more like a person who is about to judge himself than Xue Lanling.

Duan Yishuang didn't blink.

He stared fixedly, watching Xue Lanling raise his hand and put the blue porcelain bottle to his lips.

Xue Lanling bit open the cloth pendant that sealed the mouth of the bottle, and drank the antidote inside in one gulp.

The protruding Adam's apple slides up and down in the reflection of the haloed outline.

Then that bony hand was lowered, revealing the bloody face.

He heard Xue Lanling ask in a low voice, as gentle as a gust of wind that was about to fly away.

Xue Lanling asked him, "Are you satisfied?"

He realized it later, stretched out his arms and rushed forward, crashing into the arms of the wind.

It is the only hug in the world.

The author says:

So Ming Yu Pendant is the same as the leader, they hate themselves more than their enemies.

They all hate that they are powerless and that they are useless when things happen. They always feel that if they didn't have this or that at the beginning, maybe nothing would have happened.

The difference is that Ming Yu Pendant used death to pave the way for the leader, she had nothing to worry about.

But the leader still has Xiao Yi.

The leader has given up on everyone, and love is the most unreliable thing for him, because he lost all the reasons why Ming Yuzhuo, who was falling in love, passed the news.

But love is a very powerful force.

It can make the leader want to live for Xiaoyi.