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Who can refuse this?

The wind was obviously cold, and the air exhaled from his chest was also cold, even his face and hands were already a little stiff from the cold, but Sui Cannong felt that his heart was still unreasonably hot.

Although I always felt that there seemed to be something wrong with Ji Ling's words, Sui Cannong's first reaction was: Who can refuse this?

So Sui Cannong didn't think about it, and murmured: "...that's fine."

Ji Ling looked at him, her eyelashes trembling slightly.

Immediately afterwards, Sui Cannong saw Ji Ling's shoulders rise and fall, and he lowered his head, as if silently breathed a sigh of relief.

Then Sui Cannong heard Ji Ling say softly: "Let's go back."

Sui Cannong responded.

Because of their own concerns, the two were silent all the way, Sui Cannong's own brain was running at high speed, in a cycle of restarting and restarting.

But because his brain memory is really not enough, every time he restarts, he will be forced to restart within five seconds, and all the information will become a mess.

After returning home, Sui Cannong saw Ji Ling started to pack his luggage.

At first, he only thought that Ji Ling was arranging his clothes casually, but seeing that the closet was about to be emptied, Sui Cannong finally realized that something was wrong.

Sui Cannong sprinted directly to the wardrobe.

"You, what are you going to do?" Sui Cannong stammered and asked.

Ji Ling put down the clothes in his hands, and raised his eyes to meet Sui Cannong's eyes.

"As I said just now, the starting point of our relationship is not right now." Ji Ling said, "So, we need a new start."

Sui Cannong felt his eyes darken.

What happened that night was somewhat complicated. There is a limit to the degree to which a person's brain can function. Sui Cannong felt that he really couldn't stand any new twists and turns.

But Sui Cannong thinks that the "pursuit" and "new beginning" that Ji Ling just said may just be a little more active in the future, adding some little fun between lovers.

But he didn't expect Ji Ling's new start...to start so thoroughly.

"I can understand what you mean," Sui Cannong was a little impatient, "but it's already so late, and even if we want to start anew, we can change to a... less troublesome way. "

Ji Ling shook her head and said, "But you offered to live together at that time, in fact, it was because you had other thoughts, didn't you?"

Seeing that Sui Cannong was speechless, Ji Ling said, "I don't think there's anything wrong with it. From your point of view, you don't have any problems."

"Actually, I know that my so-called pursuit is meaningless, but I just hope...the relationship between us can be purer." Ji Ling said, "I hope that the reason for our relationship this time is not what you want. To protect me or guard me, but you also like me."

"We all need some time and some distance." Ji Ling said, "Maybe when we get some distance away, you will be able to distinguish clearly what kind of feelings you have for me."

Sui Cannong took a deep breath, feeling anxious.

"I don't need to distinguish, because I knew it very early." Sui Cannong said firmly, "Maybe at the beginning... I did have other motives."

"But later on, every time I meet you, I always look forward to it. In my heart...you have always held a different weight." Sui Cannong said.

Ji Ling was quiet for a moment, and said, "I am willing to believe you."

"But this time, I want to be more serious." Ji Ling said, "I want to judge and confirm your feelings for me through my own feelings."

"So just let me chase you, okay?" Ji Ling asked.

Sui Cannong never expected that a relationship could gradually degenerate as it progresses.

Obviously the two of them have done everything they should and shouldn't do, but now they actually came back to the basics.

He felt a little dumbfounded at first, but then, Sui Cannong couldn't laugh because Ji Ling's expression was very serious.

Sui Cannong felt that no matter what he said, Ji Ling still seemed to stick to his inner thoughts. In the end, he could only retreat and said: "But in fact, you are pursuing me, and you are living with me now. These are two things. There's no conflict at all."

Ji Ling blinked.

Sui Cannong felt that he had gritted his teeth and said this sentence: "Even if you want us to have a new start, you can still live here as a...a roommate."

Ji Ling looked a little hesitant.

Sui Cannong could only take another step back: "This way, if it really doesn't work, we can live in separate rooms."

The moment Ji Ling walked into the guest room with the quilt and pillow in his arms, Sui Cannong had never felt so powerless in his life.

Sui Cannong went into the bathroom, looked at himself in the mirror, and only felt the great sorrow and great joy of life, and then the great sorrow... unexpectedly, he could really experience it all in one night.

Sui Cannong let out a breath, and after a while he lowered his head and buried his face in his hands.

At this moment, Sui Cannong had mixed feelings, but first of all he still felt dazed, the kind of dazed without real sense.

Dazed because he didn't expect Ji Ling to be able to hide it so well, and he was really so dull that he couldn't feel it all the time.

In fact, it's not completely missing. For example, when the two met in the coffee shop, Ji Ling was in a state of high tension at that time, as well as the lemon potted plant and the movie ticket in the book.

But just relying on these small clues, who can really think of all this at once?

——That was three years, Sui Cannong felt that he was really capable of being so carefully cared for by one person for three years.

Sui Cannong was actually a little smug at first, but then, after carefully recounting every bit of what happened in the past few months, Sui Cannong couldn't laugh no matter what.

In other words, Ji Ling never had any thoughts of committing suicide.

Then Sui Cannong's so-called "rescue plan" and "talk therapy" before, in the eyes of Ji Ling... how strange it must be.

He wanted to take a picture of the popcorn, but the other party always stopped him from taking pictures.

I gave the other party a pot of ordinary roses, but the other party refused as if facing an enemy, but the other party turned around and invited to grow potted mushrooms together.

I mustered up the courage to invite the other party to go swimming, but the other party stuffed a big swimming ring backhand...

Sui Cannong slowly put his gaze on the big hole in the bathroom doorknob, recalling Ji Ling's confused expression at that time, Sui Cannong felt that he was melting inch by inch.

Sui Cannong felt that he could understand what Ji Ling was struggling with now.

Ji Ling thinks that all her approach and active invitation before were out of her concern and protection for his suicide-like behavior.

Regarding this point, Sui Cannong was indeed speechless and unable to refute.Because in the beginning, my motivation for doing this was indeed the case.

It's just that later on, the relationship has already changed silently, but the thoughts mixed with it at the time... only Sui Cannong himself knew.

When Sui Cannong walked out of the bathroom, he saw that Ji Ling had already changed into pajamas, and he was standing at the door of the guest room, about to close the door.

Unexpectedly, Ji Ling's expression looked lighter than ever.

Sui Cannong was a little stunned, he thought of Ji Ling's absent-minded state in the past two days, probably because... he thought a lot in his heart alone.

For Ji Ling's reticent, shy and cautious personality, how much courage must he have to express his feelings so frankly like tonight?

Sui Cannong felt that his heartbeat missed the beat again. He felt that the weight of this relationship was too heavy, and he...was it really worth it?

Ji Ling stood in front of the door and said to Sui Cannong, "Good night."

Sui Cannong also said to him: "...good night."

The place beside him was empty and cold, and Sui Cannong's heart was empty.

That night, Sui Cannong wanted to break his head and didn't even understand how the two of them got to this point.

Sleepless all night, with too many things going on in his mind, Sui Cannong first felt embarrassed and ashamed because of his misunderstandings, and then thought of Ji Ling's love for him in the past few years, he couldn't help secretly being happy.

However, the joy disappeared for a while, and Sui Cannong couldn't laugh when he saw the empty pillow next to him.

After waking up the next day, Sui Cannong found that Ji Ling was making breakfast in the kitchen.

Ji Ling seldom cooks, not that he is not good at cooking, but his cooking method is quite special, so Sui Cannong is the chef most of the time, and Ji Ling is beside him helping him.

The special here means... Ji Ling will turn cooking into a very formulaic and rigorous culinary art.

When Ji Ling cooks, every step will be carried out in strict accordance with the requirements and portions on the recipe.There is no such thing as hand feeling in his world, but he will hold a small kitchen scale to accurately measure the grams of seasoning required, and will reduce or decrease the seasoning in the same proportion according to the weight of the main ingredients. Increase.

There's nothing wrong with that, but sometimes Ji Ling prepares to make a plate of fried potatoes at noon, and maybe after the potatoes come out of the pan, it's already time for dinner.

For example, at this time, Ji Ling turned his back to Sui Cannong, with his head down, holding a knife slowly, cutting a tomato into very uniform cubes.

It can be seen from Ji Ling's tight forearm that he is very focused at this time.Sui Cannong didn't dare to disturb him at first, and after a while he cleared his throat and said, "Good morning."

Ji Ling turned around holding a plastic knife, looked at Sui Cannong, and said, "Good morning."

"I'm going to make you an omelet," Ji Ling said, "but because this knife is not very easy to use, it took me longer than expected to use it."

Sui Cannong's expression became a little subtle.

In fact, just the day before, in the same position, Sui Cannong was still brainwashing Ji Ling, "How can a plastic knife be so safe and easy to use forever? I feel that I can use it for a lifetime."

But now Sui Cannong only felt his face burning, he coughed and said, "Well... I'll place an order for a better set of kitchen utensils in a while."

Ji Ling shook her head and said, "In fact, there are some advantages, because I don't have to worry about hurting my hands, and I can cut tomatoes into standard cubes."

Sui Cannong could only reply in embarrassment.

Tomato juice is relatively rich. When Ji Ling picked up the diced tomato, the juice flowed onto the back of Ji Ling's hand.

After putting the tomatoes into the pot, Sui Cannong saw Ji Ling raised his hand and licked the juice from his fingertips.

Then Ji Ling raised his eyes and looked at Sui Cannong.

After a long time, Ji Ling put down his hands, his lips were stained with a little bit of water, the eyes of the two intersected, and Sui Cannong's pupils shrank.

Sui Cannong opened his mouth slightly, but Ji Ling looked away in the next second.

He turned on the faucet, rinsed the remaining juice on the back of his hand, and said softly, "Can you break an egg for me?"

Sui Cannong was stunned for a while, and after a while he coughed and turned to look for eggs.

Ji Ling fried the eggs to the right state, then he tilted the pan and slowly covered the fried rice with the eggs.He was going to shape the egg into a perfectly rounded oval shape.

Sui Cannong watched Ji Ling cover the egg on the tomato fried rice.

Ji Ling focused on shaping the semi-fluid egg with a spatula. After a while, he put down the spatula and said to Sui Cannong, "It's done."

Sui Cannong picked up the spoon and hurriedly scooped up a mouthful to cheer him up, but he was scalded until he grinned.

After swallowing hard, he cleared his throat and said, "Mr. Xiao Ji, I have something to tell you."

Ji Ling nodded.

Sui Cannong said: "The omelet rice you made is delicious."

Ji Ling looked at him and hummed again.

Sui Cannong said: "Because the omelet rice you made is delicious, I declare that you have successfully chased me—"

The second half of Sui Cannong's sentence "So we can officially get a date now?" Before he had time to say it, Ji Ling shook his head, and he said to Sui Cannong: "You are too hasty."

"I don't think I have successfully chased you." Ji Ling said seriously, "I haven't even...have experienced the feeling of pursuing you openly."

"No, shouldn't I have the final say?" Sui Cannong's heart skipped a beat, "So in your eyes, what is the pursuit of success?"

"I don't know." Ji Ling thought for a while and said calmly, "Maybe it's just a feeling. When I feel that I have succeeded, then I should have succeeded."

"The omurice is getting cold soon." He reminded.

Sui Cannong had a splitting headache.

However, Ji Ling looked very determined, knowing that he couldn't beat him, Sui Cannong had nothing to do, so he could only pick up the spoon again resignedly, and stuffed a big mouthful of omelet rice viciously into his mouth.

Ji Ling turned around, turned her back to Sui Cannong, and quietly cleaned the pot.

It's just that what Sui Cannong didn't notice was that a faint, almost imperceptible smile flashed across Ji Ling's eyes the moment he turned on the faucet.