stupid beauty

Back to Lanting Bay, nearly seven o'clock.

As soon as Pei Xun got out of the car, he saw Xu Boyan.

He was startled, closed the car door, carried his schoolbag, and approached him.

The sky was getting dark, and all the street lights on both sides of the road were on. The man was wearing a black windbreaker, standing on the side of the asphalt road with his hands in his pockets. The evening wind blew the hair on his forehead, and his slender figure was stretched on the ground.

Pei Xun approached slowly and stood still: "Why are you outside?"

Xu Boyan questioned knowingly, raised his hand and rubbed his head, took Pei Xun's hand, and entered the room.

Auntie has already prepared dinner.

Pei Xun put down his schoolbag, washed his hands, sat on the table, looked at the table full of dishes, and had no appetite.

Xu Boyan went to the kitchen to get a spoon and served him a bowl of soup.

Pei Xun took it obediently, held the bowl in both hands, took a sip, put down the bowl, and couldn't help but peek at Xu Boyan again.

The latter ate quietly, as if nothing had happened.

Pei Xun looked away and ate in silence.

On the way back, he still thought about where to start, and even regretted mentioning those private matters to Xu Boyan, but now...

Pei Xun breathed a sigh of relief.

It's best for Xu Boyan to pretend not to know.

He didn't think about what to say.

Even after a long time of mental preparation in the car, for him, it was still a bit embarrassing.

Pei Xun even felt a little regretful, he told Xu Boyan impulsively and went to see Liping.

If he didn't say anything, he could pretend nothing happened.

Had dinner.

Pei Xun sat cross-legged in the living room, with his head down, silently helping Xu Boyan dispense medicine.

"What's wrong with Xiao Pei today?" In the kitchen.While cleaning the kitchen utensils, Aunt Qin asked strangely: "Why do you feel so depressed when you enter the house, and you don't talk when you eat. Did you quarrel?"

During this period of time, Pei Xun and Aunt Qin got to know each other very well, and because of Xiao Pei's cute appearance, Aunt Qin's affection for Xiao Pei increased day by day, and she always tried every means to prepare delicious food for the child.

Xu Boyan took a knife, cut a few pieces of pineapple, and whispered: "He is in a bad mood, don't ask him."

"Oh my God." Aunt Qin whispered quickly: "Shut up, don't you have to use your voice, don't let Xiao Pei hear it."

Xu Boyan couldn't laugh or cry.

It has been more than a week since his operation, and he can try to speak slowly, but Pei Xun took the doctor's casual sentence "It's best to rest for a month" as an imperial edict, and didn't let him say a word.

"Speak less." Xu Boyan's voice was hoarse and slow: "It's possible."

Aunt Qin stopped her and said, "Stop talking."

Xu Boyan turned a deaf ear and said, "Aunt Qin, don't ask Xiao Pei what's wrong these days."

Aunt Qin was stunned: "... What happened?"

Xu Boyan glanced at the living room without saying a word.

"My wife called me back today and asked me to tell me to cook something delicious for you." Aunt Qin said, "I'm afraid I'll neglect Xiao Pei."

Xu Boyan put the pineapple into the fruit bowl and picked up the fork: "Don't tell him these words, or he will be stressed."

Aunt Qin laughed: "I know, I know, I'll cook him something delicious in silence, oh why did I start chatting with you again, stop talking."

Xu Boyan smiled, walked to the living room with a fruit plate, sat down, inserted a piece of pineapple, and handed it to Pei Xun's mouth.

Pei Xun paused while squeezing the medicine, and raised his eyes.

He bit off the pineapple with Xu Boyan's hand, and pushed the prepared medicine in front of Xu Boyan: "No."

Xu Boyan put down the fork, picked up the water glass, and took the medicine with warm water.

Pei Xun looked at him as if he was waiting for something, but in the end Xu Boyan finished taking the medicine and didn't say anything else, just let him sit on the sofa and watch variety shows with him.

Pei Xun watched the TV absently.

Aunt Qin cleaned up the kitchen, sorted the garbage, and then took out all the garbage in the house and threw it away.

The living room was silent except for the sound of the TV.

Pei Xun bit his lip and couldn't help it: "Xu Boyan."

Xu Boyan looked at him and raised his eyebrows: "Huh?"

"You... don't you have anything to ask me?"

When Pei Xun said these words, his brows and eyes contained a lot of self-doubt, which faded away from the bright and beautiful, which only increased a bit of worry, his pink lips were pursed lightly, and a pair of bright black pupils looked at him earnestly.

"Ask..." As soon as Xu Boyan opened his mouth, a hand covered his mouth lightly.Pei Xun picked up his mobile phone, opened it with ease, and handed it to him: "Type."

Xu Boyan: "..."

Xu Boyan smiled and sighed, discussing with others.

[I can speak in a very low voice, okay?No need for vocal cords. 】

Pei Xun didn't speak, but stared at him.

In less than three seconds, Xu Boyan raised his hands, signaling to admit defeat.

When it comes to his speech, Pei Xun is stricter than anyone else.

Xu Boyan had no choice but to pick up the phone resignedly, and type: [What are you asking? 】

Pei Xun said slowly, "Aren't you even curious?"

Curious about what happened in the afternoon, curious about his depression, curious about why he suddenly said those words in the car.

Xu Boyan didn't speak.

After a while, he typed a paragraph on the phone.

[If it’s something that makes you unhappy, don’t tell me. It’s not too late when you want to tell me when you’re ready. 】

Pei Xun looked up and looked at him.

Xu Boyan handed him the phone.

Pei Xun lowered his eyes.

[It's okay if you don't want to tell me. 】

Pei Xun's eyes dimmed for a moment.

Xu Boyan raised his hand, caressed his cheek, and gently rubbed the delicate skin with his fingertips, without forcing him: "I'll think about it later."

Pei Xun put down his phone and looked at him: "You can't talk about..."

Xu Boyan said angrily, "I'll keep my mouth shut, it's fine."

After finishing speaking, he kissed the corner of Pei Xun's mouth.

Pei Xun's defenses relaxed slightly, his eyes fell on his neck, and he asked, "Is your throat still uncomfortable now?"

Xu Boyan raised the corners of his lips and shook his head.

Pei Xun leaned into his arms, put his hands around the man's thin waist, and said in a dull voice, "Then talk less, no more than ten sentences a day."

"So strict."

"It's been two sentences." Pei Xun counted for him.

Xu Boyan: "..."

A voice came from the entrance, and Pei Xun woke up from Xu Boyan's arms, straightening his body without looking sideways.

Xu Boyan looked at him pretending to be good, his eyes slightly curved, and whispered: "Go to the room."

Because of Aunt Qin, the two usually restrained a lot when they were in public areas, and they were not as arrogant as when no one was at home.

Before Xu Boyan's operation, he also wanted to move to another address, but his parents were worried and insisted on keeping him at home, and asked Aunt Qin to take care of his light diet for a month.

Go back to the room.

Xu Boyan locked the door behind his back, hugged Pei Xun from behind, put his chin on his shoulder, and said softly, "Move out at the end of the month."

Pei Xun tilted his head: "I haven't found a good house yet."

Xu Boyan smiled, and took him to the sofa: "Go and live with me first, don't rent it."

Pei Xun looked at him.

Xu Boyan smiled lightly, and said in a low voice, "What? You still think about helping me."

Pei Xun shook his head.

He does have ideas, but their current situation doesn't allow it.

"It's a bit troublesome to find a house again," Xu Boyan said, "When the time comes, I will move to my place, just bring some clothes."

Pei Xun responded, and then raised his hand to cover Xu Boyan's mouth: "Today, you have exceeded your speaking volume, so you can't talk anymore."

Xu Boyan's eyes bent into crescent moons, he took off the hand covering his lips, held it in the palm of his hand, and cast his eyes on his soft lips: "Then I won't say anything."

After the words fell, soft lips pressed against her.

Xu Boyan kissed very lightly, biting his lips, and the tip of his tongue penetrated into the warm mouth, bit by bit, hooking his wet and soft tongue.

The other hand slowly pressed the back of his head, not allowing him to dodge, with obvious aggression.

Pei Xun slowly closed his eyes.

There was a sudden knock on the door.

The two were startled.

Pei Xun opened his eyes, was stunned for half a second, and pushed Xu Boyan away like a thief.

"Bo Yan, Xiao Pei." Aunt Qin asked from outside the door: "Do you still eat pineapple? I'll bring it in for you? There's a big plate left."

Pei Xun came to his senses, turned his head towards the door, and replied, "Oh Aunt Qin, if you don't eat, you can put it in the refrigerator."

"Okay, then you guys should rest early."

Listen to the footsteps outside until they disappear.

Pei Xun hit Xu Boyan: "I thought you didn't lock the door."

Xu Boyan said in a low voice, "Aunt Qin won't come in directly, she will knock on the door."

Pei Xun was still in shock.

"So timid?" Xu Boyan gently wiped off the wetness on his lips with his fingertips, and said in a relaxed voice, "It's not that Aunt Qin doesn't know about our relationship."

Pei Xun: "It's different, it affects me, what if Aunt Qin is in front of your mother..."

The sound gradually becomes smaller.

Xu Boyan understood it.

It turned out that Pei Xun was worried about his image.

He couldn't help laughing, put his arms around Pei Xun's waist, and hugged him: "Don't worry, my mother likes you."

Pei Xun didn't believe it, and pressed his face against his broad chest, listening to the steady and strong heartbeat from inside, he muttered: "Auntie has never seen me, how could she like me."

"Because I like you." Xu Bo said with certainty, "So she will like you too."

The corners of Pei Xun's lips couldn't help but lightly twitch: "Even without you, she will definitely like me when she sees me."

Xu Boyan hummed, put his finger on his chin, stared into his eyes, and said hoarsely: "You are so beautiful and cute, everyone will like you."

Hearing the words "everyone will like you", Pei Xun blinked and asked, "What about you?"

Xu Boyan turned his head and kissed him tenderly: "I like it too."

It may be caused by psychology, every time Pei Xun heard Xu Boyan say the word "like", his heart seemed to be warmed up by his hands, and the blood gradually heated up, extending from the heart to his cheeks.

Pei Xun looked at the face in front of him.Xu Boyan's pupils are extremely black, and when he stares at them motionlessly, it seems that he can suck people in.

The two made eye contact.

After a few seconds, Pei Xun didn't know what to think, and his eyes dimmed: "Will you always like me?"

Xu Boyan was slightly taken aback by this unreasonable sentence.

But combined with Pei Xun's abnormality today, Xu Boyan knew better, took his hand, and kissed him on his lips.

Then, she raised her eyes and looked into his eyes: "Yes."

The tone is gentle and the eyes are firm.

Pei Xun stared at him.

The appearance of the woman made him emotionally depressed, and many memories were continuously squeezed into his mind. He felt like a balloon that was constantly inflated.

No matter how he changed the topic or looked away, he would think of it inappropriately, like a tide flooding him, suffocating him.

"Xu Boyan." Pei Xun held back, but still didn't hold back: "Am I really bad?"

Xu Boyan was stunned: "What?"

"If it's not that I'm bad, why..." Pei Xun gradually opened his eyes, asking himself and answering: "They don't like me, they don't want me anymore."

Xu Boyan: "..."

Pei Xun couldn't figure it out.

He remembered that when his parents divorced when he was a child, the two sat on the sofa and discussed his future with a blank expression.

His father would rather go out without leaving the house than with a small oil bottle.

His mother wanted to go abroad alone.

In the end, after several rounds of negotiations, his father promised to give [-] a month in child support, and his mother accepted the condition of raising him as an adult.

On the day when Pei Xun's college entrance examination ended, Li Ping booked a plane ticket and didn't even want to wait a moment longer.

It's been three years since I left.

He hated them in his heart.

Hate why they got married?Hate why they gave birth to him?Hate his father why cheating?Why hate his mother and put the hatred of her husband's cheating on him?

Those who leave, leave forever.

Why is it still showing up?

"I saw her in the afternoon." Pei Xun looked at Xu Boyan: "Actually, I don't miss them at all, but other people have parents by their side, and I don't, so it feels strange."

Pei Xun's tone was light and shallow.

Xu Boyan's heart was suddenly pulled.

Pei Xun twitched the corner of his mouth and asked, "Xu Boyan, do I look bad to you?"

When asked this sentence, Pei Xun's eyes dodged, and he was extremely unconfident.

He even felt inferior, he didn't know what he was inferior to.

Maybe it's because Xu Boyan is too kind and excellent.

After all, when people look directly at the sun, they will feel dazzling.

Xu Boyan shook his head silently.

Pei Xun: "Before I met you, I had no friends or family members. It seemed that I couldn't even like someone and open my heart."

"I can choose to keep all this from you. As long as she leaves tomorrow, I will see her less and less in the future, and I will meet less and less, but..."

Pei Xun couldn't continue, his voice choked with sobs.

But, I'm afraid you'll ask.

Every time I ask, I will find excuses to prevaricate you.

I can hide it from you for a year, two years, three years...

But if we keep going, I can't hide it from you for the rest of my life.

Sooner or later, you will know.

You will know everything about me.

I am different from others.

It was the one that was abandoned.

Then, it will be picked up by you again.

What you picked up was the one that no one else wanted.

For the first time, Xu Boyan was at a loss for Pei Xun's sadness.

Although Pei Xun spoke intermittently throughout, he guessed roughly.

Everyone has a past that they don't want to talk about.

A scar that doesn't want to be uncovered.

"Why do you suddenly think..." Xu Boyan looked at him, "Tell me all this."

Pei Xun lowered his head, his face was hidden in the shadows, and his voice was very soft: "I was just thinking, if we are together, you have the right to know, I don't want to hide it from you, I don't want to have a secret, it feels so uncomfortable to hold a secret .”

"Pei Xun." Xu Boyan grabbed his tightly knit hands, squeezed his fingertips, and said seriously: "You are not bad at all."

Pei Xun said nothing.

"Don't deny yourself because of the past." Xu Boyan stretched out his hand, wrapped his arms around Pei Xun's waist, gently hugged him into his arms, and whispered to him: "You are fine, really fine."

Pei Xun closed his red eyes, his fingers retracted unconsciously, and his voice choked up: "Xu Boyan."

He called his name without saying anything, just wanted to make sure that this person was there, Xu Boyan seemed to know what he meant, and stroked his back with his hand.

Xu Boyan: "I am here."

Two short words brought great strength to Pei Xun.

It seemed that suddenly, those unspeakable and extremely heavy past events suddenly became light and light, and no longer weighed heavily in his memory.

That night, Pei Xun talked a lot about his past.

It was as if he had found a safe tree hole where he could tell the whole story carefully and without any scruples.

Xu Boyan listened one by one, with no waves on the surface, but mixed feelings in his heart.

He suddenly understood why Pei Xun didn't have sex on the basis of affection before.

I understand Pei Xun's attitude of avoiding talking about his family.

Even earlier, Pei Xun said that he was like the Pluto in the sky.

And everything that happened today...all have answers.

The bedroom was silent and the lights went into sleep mode.

They were lying on the bed, Pei Xun's head was obediently resting on the crook of Xu Boyan's arms, his eyelashes closed, and under the dim light, his lips opened and closed: "...There are still many things I have forgotten."

Xu Boyan could hear that his voice was a little sleepy, and kissed him softly between the eyebrows: "I won't talk about it if I forget it, I'll talk about it when I remember it."

Pei Xun leaned into his arms, smelled the reassuring and familiar fragrance from the other person, and murmured: "I won't have the courage to say anything from now on."

It wasn't every day that he was brave enough to say those things calmly.

Xu Boyan didn't care, and called him, "A Xun."

Pei Xun responded with a buzzing voice: "What are you doing?"

"It's nothing, I just wanted to call you."

Maybe it was because of Pei Xun's openness, Xu Boyan was inexplicably excited, which showed that he was different from Pei Xun.

It seemed that the two hearts were getting closer. Even though Pei Xun didn't say those three words to him, he had already "heard" them.

Xu Boyan couldn't help tightening his arms, hugged him like a treasure, and clung to his ear, softly telling his love: "I love you."

The hot and humid breath wrapped around the pinnae, staining the white earlobe with blood. Pei Xun's heart seemed to be slowly torn open, and hot sugar water was poured into it, dispelling the bone-chilling cold, and gradually warming up his whole body.

Xu Boyan lowered his eyes, looking at the person in his arms, his eyes flickered.

His eyes were straight and he didn't speak for a long time, Pei Xun couldn't help raising his eyes.

Under the light, his eyes were clear and bright, like stars in the Milky Way.

"Suddenly remembered something I heard before." Xu Boyan said.

Pei Xun: "What?"

Xu Boyan lay flat, his eyes were calm, as if he was thinking about it: "There is a star farthest from the sun in the universe. It is at the edge of the solar system. There is almost no sunlight that can travel 59 billion kilometers to find it."

Having said this, Xu Boyan paused, and said softly, "But there is a Charon who will always accompany it during its journey."

Pei Xun: "Yes, that's why I envy it."

"Don't be envious of it," Xu Boyan looked at him with his head tilted, his eyes were full of deep affection, and his voice was soft: "Pluto has Charon, and you will have me in the future."

Pei Xun blinked, and slowly raised the corners of his mouth. He propped up his body slightly, opened his arms to embrace the man, and rested his head lightly on his generous chest, listening quietly to the heartbeat from the man's chest that shook the eardrums. Voice.

Yeah, he doesn't have to envy Pluto anymore.

Because, Pei Xun also has Xu Boyan in his life.

Pei Xun closed his eyes contentedly, and said in the deepest part of his heart: Thank you, Xu Boyan, thank you for accepting everything about me and being my own Charon.

The author has something to say: the evil August is finally over, I am really too retrograde this month, next, I will insist on updating until the end, this chapter will give out red envelopes for reviewing.Thanks for the support!