Still tide

Miao Jiayan's birth was an accident.

His mother had just graduated and was an intern at the school, so she didn't want to have a child so early.When she first learned of her pregnancy, she had no intention of keeping the child.

Although Miao Jian wanted to stay, there was nothing his daughter-in-law could do if she didn't want to have him.

Miao Jiayan almost had no chance to come to this world.

The "little bit" of the difference lies in the fact that during the ultrasound examination in the hospital, the young female doctor said a word: "It looks like a girl."

At that time, the pregnancy was less than [-] days old, and the embryo hadn't formed yet, so I didn't know how to look at it.

Miao Jiayan's mother hesitated for a while, before she opened the curtain and walked out, she turned around and asked, "...is it a girl?"

"It looks like it," said the female doctor.

How nice the girl is, the girl kisses her mother.In that era, there were actually many people who preferred boys. The concept of passing on the family line has been passed down since ancient times, and they all wanted to have boys.But their family is different. Miao Jiayan's mother finally left him because of this sentence "looks like a girl".

Everything is as it should be. I actually went to the clinic when I was seven months pregnant. The doctor who saw the doctor was a retired doctor in the hospital. She pointed at the screen on the machine and said firmly: "Look, it's a little girl. "

Miao Jiayan's mother was so pregnant that not only did she not gain weight, she also lost a lot of weight. She was stroking her belly and felt the little guy turning over inside.

She smiled softly and said, "Hi, little girl."

So when the nurse told her in the delivery room, "It's a boy, weighing six pounds and four ounces", Miao Jiayan's mother said in shock, "Impossible..."

The nurse smiled and carried the purple-red child over. The wrinkled and ugly child had eyes closed, a small mouth, and was crying "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh"—it was indeed a boy.

The little clothes and toys prepared for me are all prepared in the style of girls, and even the names are named after girls.It was a boy, and that messed everything up.

Miao Jiayan's great-grandmother was still there at that time, but she was so happy, it was so rare to hold the little guy.While persuading Miao Jiayan's mother: "Hey, don't dare to cry! Your eyes won't work after crying in confinement! If you don't care about girls, you can just raise them as girls, they're all the same!"

Grandpa Miao said at the time that he changed his name to "Miao Jiayan" and looked like a boy.Grandma Miao said, "It doesn't matter if it's 'Jia Yan', it looks good or sounds good, and it doesn't matter what it's called.”

In the end, "Miao Jiayan" was still registered on the account.Her mother really followed the words of her great-grandmother. She gave him long hair, tied it into pigtails, and wore colorful and beautiful little hairpins every day. When she called him, she also called him "girl".

Miao Jiayan is very delicate, her eyes are not too big, and she looks like her mother.The skin is very fair, with two croissant braids and a beautiful little skirt, she looks like a cute little girl.

Miao Jiayan's mother took him at home for two and a half years before returning to work in the city.At first, Miao Jiayan was very attached to her mother, crying every time her mother left.At that time, going to kindergarten was not popular in rural areas, so Miao Jiayan grew up like this until she was more than five years old.

It's time to go to preschool. Miao Jian asked his grandma to cut his hair, and he can't do this anymore.

Miao Jiayan's mother was still unwilling, but she didn't say anything.

Unexpectedly, Miao Jiayan, who was always obedient, refused to cut her hair no matter what she said, clutching the pigtails in her two small hands, crying so hard that she couldn't breathe, he had never cried like this before.Grandma Miao couldn't bear it, so she hugged her back again.

At first, adults only thought that he was unwilling to cut his hair. After he really realized that the child was a little "abnormal", Miao Jian tried various methods, soft and hard, and even took him to the city. He was seen in a children's hospital, but in the end he couldn't get rid of his "problem".

No one in the Miao family has ever complained in front of Miao Jiayan's mother, but for some unknown reason, she gradually became less and less close to the child.

During this day, Miao Jiayan was frightened first on the road, and then was beaten by his father when she returned home. After all the tossing, she seemed to be exhausted, and she looked dazed.

When Chen Chao mentioned his hair before going to bed, he originally wanted to persuade him to cut his hair, but what Miao Jiayan said later made Chen Chao feel like he didn't want to say anything.

Later, Chen Chao only said: "If you don't want to cut it, don't cut it, just keep it."

Miao Jiayan stopped crying after shedding a few tears, and tried her best to stick to the wall not to squeeze Chen Chao.

In the middle of the night, he always dreamed, startled and startled, Chen Chao was woken up by him several times, and then he turned over in a daze, with his legs pressed against Miao Jiayan's. Miao Jiayan, who was asleep, felt safe, and she didn't startle again for the rest of the night.

Miao Jiayan slept with Chen Chao for several days, and didn't leave until Chen Chao's father and uncle came back.

In the past few days, Miao Jiayan has been extremely clingy to Chen Chao.They did everything together, and Miao Jiayan always followed Chen Chao quietly.

This year was not very good, the air pressure in the Miao family was always low, Grandma Miao never showed a smile, Miao Jian and his wife didn't talk much, and they left in the afternoon on the first day of the new year.

The aunt and sister didn't stay any longer, and left the next day.

The family members were gone, Miao Jiayan should feel relaxed and happy normally, but he didn't look very happy.

He often lay down in front of his small table, with his face resting on his arm, staring blankly at a point, not knowing what he was thinking.

Chen Guangda originally said that he would come back for the Chinese New Year, but changed his mind temporarily, saying that he would not bother, and that he would not be able to buy tickets.

Chen Chao asked him where he was celebrating the New Year, and Chen Guangda said it was at a friend's house.

On New Year's Eve, Chen Guangda drank and called home. Grandpa and Grandma Chen were watching TV and had no time to talk to the alcoholic. Only his uncle chatted with him, and then gave the phone to Chen Chao.

Chen Guangda said drunkenly on the phone: "Son, when I put you in grandma's house, my father thought in his heart, when will I be able to bring my son back again. Dad told you... Dad has bought the house, and it is nearby. Beside the high school, you don't want to take the exam... If you don't pass the exam, let's spend money to go to the high school!"

"How much did you drink?" Chen Chao asked him helplessly, "Your tongue is straight."

"I didn't drink too much, so where did I go?" Chen Guangda continued, "Dad has been afraid for the past two years, afraid that he won't get up again...I'm sorry for my son."

Chen Chao was most afraid of these nasty words, especially when his father drank too much and became stickier. Chen Chao said, "Just do it."

Chen Guangda babbled for a long time before hanging up the phone. Chen Chao accompanied his grandparents to watch the Spring Festival Gala and sing "Unforgettable Tonight".

This is Chen Chao's third year at his grandma's house, and he only has the last semester of junior high school left.

Compared with when he first came here, Chen Chao is not so uncomfortable living now.The second floor of this small building is full of his things, and here he has friends and Miao Jiayan.

Miao Jiayan's only dress can no longer be worn, it is too old.

He secretly wore them in his room in the spring when the weather was getting warmer.A mirror on the cabinet door reflected the boy's gradually elongated figure. In the mirror, Miao Jiayan was wearing soft hair, her eyes were still innocent and bright, but her dress was ugly.

During this semester, Ding Wentao and Shasha's one-sided love ended without a problem, and Sasha explicitly rejected him.

Xiao Ding, a tall and tall boy, fell into the pain of losing his love and sighed all day long.

Chen Chao's room is often filled with three people, one sitting in front of the table doing homework, one leaning against the corner of the table doing homework, and one not doing homework.

Ding Wentao sighed forcefully, and leaned against the wall to continue his sorrow.

Chen Chao and Miao Jiayan looked at each other, Chen Chao smiled, but Miao Jiayan didn't dare to laugh.Ding Wentao looked at the two of them and said, "I have no sympathy."

Miao Jiayan had been writing a paper for half an hour, and he couldn't write it in.Chen Chao took a look, and saw that the papers were copied directly from the exercise book. The quality was not very good. Chen Chao said, "Don't write if you don't want to."

"It's due tomorrow." Miao Jiayan calmed down and continued to work on the questions, "I can't do it without homework."

"Copy the answer." Chen Chao pointed to the header printed on the top of the paper, "Don't you have this book?"

For the homework that Chen Chao didn't want to do, he probably just copied the answers, so he didn't waste time.Miao Jiayan had never done this before, in his heart there was no such thing as copying answers.He looked at Chen Chao and shook his head, not daring.

"One stick." After Chen Chao finished speaking, he ignored him.

Ding Wentao kept looking at the two of them, and when they finished speaking, he suddenly said, "Brother Chao, do you think I'm gay?"

"Pfft——" Miao Jiayan was drinking water at that time, and held the big water glass to her face. When Ding Wentao said these words, Miao Jiayan choked there, took the water glass away, and coughed heart-piercingly.

The water choked into the intake pipe, making it difficult to breathe.

Chen Chao asked Miao Jiayan to spray water all over her body, and it was also on the paper at hand. First, she wiped her hands on Miao Jiayan's clothes in disgust, and then turned around and asked Ding Wentao, "Is there something wrong with you?"

"You said I saw you two talking here, why am I so upset?" Ding Wentao leaned against the wall and said with a stiff face, "I'm jealous."

"You took the wrong medicine." Chen Chao said.

Miao Jiayan coughed until tears came out. Chen Chao looked at the water on the test paper and didn't want to touch it for a while. He stood up and opened the window to wait for it to dry.

Miao Jiayan wiped it for him with her sleeve, and Chen Chao said, "Don't wipe it, just let it dry."

Ding Wentao stayed for a while and then left. Miao Jiayan coughed for a while, as if her throat was badly coughed, and she was still uncomfortable, coughing twice from time to time.

Chen Chao was working on the question, and suddenly asked: "Why are you reacting so strongly?"

Miao Jiayan blinked: "Huh?"

"Ah what?" Chen Chao didn't stop doing the math, talking to him.

Chen Chao originally thought that Miao Jiayan had a shadow on the word "homosexuality", and when he heard it, he became nervous reflexively.

Miao Jiayan didn't make a sound, and sat upright beside her.

Chen Chao looked away from the draft paper, and glanced at Miao Jiayan.

"I haven't asked you yet," Chen Chao continued to do the question, and asked, "Do you like anyone?"

Miao Jiayan was sitting upright at first, but now her back subconsciously tensed again, and she was speechless.

Unlike Ding Wentao, Chen Chao and Miao Jiayan talked about this matter all day long, but they never mentioned it.Miao Jiayan was not used to this topic for a while, and she was also embarrassed. He was very introverted and didn't like to express himself. Chen Chao asked him a question that made his face turn red.

"Why are you blushing? Just tell me if you ask me." Seeing that he had remained silent, Chen Chao said.

"I didn't, I didn't..." Miao Jiayan could only answer.

Chen Chao raised his hand and tapped the top of Miao Jiayan's head with the pen, saying, "Hesitating."