faint star

Before leaving, Gu Heng sorted out the affairs of the studio, explained to his subordinates, and adjusted the schedule.He said that because of personal matters, he had to go back to his hometown temporarily.

He hadn't rested for more than half a year, and he suddenly said that he was going back because of a private matter. Everyone was surprised and gossiped.

"Boss, how long do you want to go back?"

Gu Heng smiled: "It won't take long, I'll be back in two days."

"It's good for you to take a break...we don't want to be lazy." The deputy director in the studio said, and everyone else echoed.

Although Gu Heng didn't say it clearly in the workplace during this period, all signs showed that he and Dr. Xu broke up - Dr. Xu no longer came to the studio, and he didn't come to the photo exhibition.Gu Heng was also depressed a lot, and spent most of the night in the studio, only working.

So Gu Heng finally said that it was a personal matter to go back, and everyone breathed a sigh of relief for him.

Gu Heng and Shen Lian went back on the same flight.Not long after takeoff, Gu Heng fell asleep with earplugs on. He couldn't sleep well at home, but he slept soundly on the transport.

When he woke up, Gu Heng could already see the familiar scenery.Shen Lian twisted a bottle of mineral water and handed it to him: "Seeing that you slept soundly, I didn't ask you to eat. Wait until you get off the plane to eat."

Gu Heng said: "Don't you want to go to the company first? Leave me alone."

He now has an uncanny peace of mind.

After leaving the airport, the two split up.Shen Lian was going to the company, Gu Heng said he was going to meet some friends, and they made an appointment to have dinner together in the evening.

Gu Heng went to visit Huayan.Over the years, Huayan Photography has opened two more local branches, but the main shop on the pedestrian street is still open.

Knowing that he is coming today, Brother Mao Mao and Sister Ning are both there.Sister Ning's hair was cut short, her makeup was more refined and neater than before, but her smile was still the same as before.

"Master is here." She still called Master Gu Heng, leading Gu Heng to the studio while reminiscing about the old days.

The utility room that Gu Heng used as his studio back then was converted into a more delicate small studio.Inside, the lights were set up, the camera was set up, and a little girl was sitting in front of the white curtain, and a staff member was combing her hair.

"Mom!" Seeing Sister Ning approaching, the little girl called out.She is Sister Ning's daughter, born in the year of Gu Heng's college entrance examination, and she is already in the third grade this year.

Gu Heng recalled that year, he and Xu Zhiwei went to the hospital to see Ning Jie and the baby.At that time, Xu Zhiwei hadn't filled out his application form yet, and only told him that he wanted to be a doctor.

Sister Ning called her daughter Uncle, but the little girl thought the title "Young Master" was amusing, so she followed suit.

Gu Heng looked at the lively little girl with a smile, feeling the mystery of time again.

When he pressed the shutter, he seemed to hear Xu Zhiwei's voice from the window: "Should I just sit still?"

That moment can never be captured again.

Brother Mao Mao watched Gu Heng take this group of photos for his daughter, very satisfied.He said that he would definitely keep this group of photos safe.

Save it as a permanent collection for your daughter.

After leaving Huayan, Gu Heng went to a few places to get some things.Seeing that it was almost time, he went to the Civil Affairs Bureau where Shen Lian received his certificate.

Opposite the Civil Affairs Bureau is a park square.Gu Heng bought a cup of coffee, sat by the flower bed in the square, and watched the people entering and leaving the Civil Affairs Bureau.After watching for a while, I found that fewer people came to get marriage certificates, and more people came to get divorce certificates.

Probably you need to pick a meaningful and auspicious day to get a marriage certificate, but you don’t have to pay attention to the divorce certificate, so choose an ordinary day.

Shen Lian and Xiao Ai came out one after the other, the two did not speak, and parted ways in front of the Civil Affairs Bureau.

Gu Heng raised his hand to signal, Shen Lian saw him and walked towards him quickly.

When he got closer, Gu Heng could see that Shen Lian's expression was very calm, probably the matter had dragged on for so long, and today it was just the dust settled.

Shen Lian took the coffee, sat in the park with Gu Heng, looked at the children running around, and said, "To be honest, I'm actually relieved, I feel like it's finally over."

Gu Heng said: "It's just the end of a relationship, everything is just beginning."

Shen Lian said in a low voice: "I really don't know what else to start. I also don't know if my situation is suitable for getting married again. Do I have to tell others from the beginning that I can't have children, so don't start if you don't mind? "

Gu Heng smiled: "There are always people who don't mind...you have to believe in your own charm."

Shen Lian looked at him: "Are you serious?"

Gu Heng didn't look at Shen Lian, his voice was calm: "Of course it's true."

Holding the coffee, Shen Lian thought for a while and said, "Can you say these things to comfort me..."

Gu Heng interrupted him, and said, "Maybe you are more or less aware of it, but I didn't say it explicitly - I have liked you for a long time."

Shen Lian was stunned for a moment, but Gu Heng said it suddenly, he didn't know how to react.

Gu Heng looked at Shen Lian and said, "Maybe I should have said it earlier."

The timing is always wrong, and he is too selfish.

Shen Lian said: "Actually... I had this kind of thought before, but I thought I was thinking too much."

Gu Heng continued his words: "Because I had a boyfriend before, and I didn't express this to you?"

Shen Lian acquiesced.

Gu Heng drank his coffee slowly, and said slowly: "In short, I can tell you now - I have liked you since I was a child. It has been so long that I can't remember when it started."

He looked at his watch and said, "It's getting late. My mother and I have an appointment to go back to dinner tonight. You can go too. These things can't be finished for a while... You have to digest it."

Shen Lian was at a loss, he seemed to be unable to grasp the distance between him and Gu Heng.

I don't know whether to be closer than before, or to keep a little distance.He didn't know if his relationship with Gu Heng would develop rapidly in the future, or should he immediately respond to Gu Heng's confession?

But Gu Heng was right, he really needed to digest it.

Gu Heng

Went to the old house of the Gu family with Shen Lian.

It's not unusual for the elders in the family to see Shen Lian, but it's like seeing a rare visitor when they see Gu Heng, they are all very attentive.

Only when Shen Lian came did he find out that his mother was also invited to dinner today.

Set up a round table in the dining room.Gu Heng's mother Bai Yang, Shen Lian's mother Jiang Mingming, and Gu Xin were also there, plus Gu Heng and Shen Lian, a total of five people, it was a family banquet style.

During the meal, Bai Yang was very happy, he didn't say anything wrong with Gu Heng, and even cared about him a few words.

Aunt Jiang knew that her son was getting a divorce certificate today, but she didn't say much, she just asked, "Is everything done?" Shen Lian said, "It's done." Only then did she look relaxed.

Gu Xin didn't talk much, she just interrupted occasionally to cheer her mother up.

They talked a lot about the old days - the trips they used to have together, and some embarrassing things about the three children when they were young.

The meal turned out to be a little warm.

After eating, Gu Heng and Shen Lian went for a walk in the courtyard.Although the weather is cold, it is very relaxing to take a walk after eating.

Gu Heng broke the fish food in his hand to feed the koi in the pond, and said, "It seems that we have known each other for so many years and have such a deep relationship, but we have never been honest about our true feelings for each other."

Shen Lian was much calmer than in the afternoon, he looked at the fish in the pond, compared to the day, the night under the lights was another kind of scenery.

He said: "Yeah. You never mentioned that aspect, so I don't know whether I should say it. Actually, after the college entrance examination, I saw what happened between you and Xu Zhiwei, so I was sure about your sexual orientation. It's just that I didn't understand at that time... ...I never thought that there was such a possibility between the two boys. I always thought that no matter how good the relationship between the two boys is, they can only be best friends, brother."

Gu Heng smiled lightly: "Because you were not born. Xu Zhiwei and I got together naturally. I didn't dare to break you at that time, and there were some influences from my family."

He looked up to the room upstairs, where their mother was presumably chatting at the moment.

Shen Lian said: "Later I also thought about it, you have been so kind to me and cared about me so much, did you have any plans for me. But you never mentioned that. When I fell in love with Xiao Ai, He also supported me quite a bit. At that time, I thought, either you simply treat me as a brother, or you... don't want me to know."

Gu Heng said, "I just hope you have a good time."

When he said this, he suddenly felt sad again, why he didn't understand some simple truths until now.Why did he believe so firmly in his actions?

He and Shen Lian should have made it clear earlier.No charades, no guesswork, they are adults and can have an open and honest conversation.

It is too late now.

Gu Heng asked: "When I was with Xu Zhiwei, what were you thinking?"

Shen Lian said: "Are you telling the truth? I think he earned it."

"Hehe." Gu Heng laughed in a low voice, and the laughter quickly dissipated in the wind.

Shen Lian said

: "To be honest, I have never understood Xu Zhiwei. I just think he is very smart, so I can't figure out what he is thinking. I feel that he is a relatively cold person."

Gu Heng said: "No. He is actually afraid of being hurt, so he will keep a certain distance from unfamiliar people, but he will also be careful not to hurt others, as long as he trusts people, he will be very considerate. He is very gentle and cute in private, not aloof at all, he is easy to coax, and almost never gets angry, unless he is really lied to..."

He covered his eyes.

Shen Lian felt that something was wrong - he thought that Gu Heng wanted to be with him, and was already thinking about taking this step.

did not expect……

"Gu Heng, are you crying?" He asked in a low voice.

Gu Heng put down his hands, he looked at Shen Lian and said, "Today we are all telling the truth. Tell me, you invited me to dinner the day you came to Beijing, do you know about Gu Xin's arrangement? Do you know that Zhiwei is listening to you?" Our conversation?"

Shen Lian's face turned pale, and he instinctively wanted to deny it, but Gu Heng was looking at him with piercing eyes, which made him unable to deny it - he was familiar with Gu Heng, and knew that Gu Heng's expression meant to pursue to the end.

And the moment the lie is exposed, it will actually become easier.He doesn't have to cheat anymore.

"From the very beginning, I felt that this game underestimated your IQ," Shen Lian said, "How could such a coincidence happen. You will definitely doubt it. But Gu Xin said it doesn't matter, it's going with the flow, and she loves a People will turn a blind eye and close one eye, saying that you will not pursue whether I am involved or not."

He asked Gu Heng: "Since when did you doubt me?"

Gu Heng said: "From the moment I knew the recording existed."

In fact, that day, he held Xu Zhiwei's hand and asked Xu Zhiwei to monitor him, but Xu Zhiwei denied it.

Only he himself knows that on many nights, Zhiwei's painful and disgusted expression at that moment replayed over and over again in his dreams, causing him to wake up in a cold sweat, with an indescribably painful heartache.

If he could go back to that moment, he would never question Xu Zhiwei like that again.

Shen Lian smiled wryly: "Then for the past six months, you've still been kind to me... It seems that we've known each other for so many years, but there's still something we don't know about each other."

Gu Heng said: "I thought I could turn a blind eye and pretend to lie to myself."

But it's not really possible, after this day, his longing for Zhiwei has not eased.

Shen Lian relaxed, he said with emotion: "It seems that this plan is to underestimate your IQ and overestimate your feelings for me. I thought...forget it."

Gu Heng calmed down a lot: "Speak out what you have."

Since this should be their last long talk, they should both be telling the truth.

Shen Lian had a premonition, he said: "If you can say anything... In fact, for a while, I was annoyed that you were so nice to me. Isn't it ridiculous? I really didn't understand at that time. When you were in junior high school, you cared too much for me. It made some boys in the class come to me, and I was really angry with you at that time.

"

"At that time, I was jealous of you and annoying you, so I didn't want to ask you for help when I was beaten. In the end, it was you who saved me, otherwise I don't know how long I will be bullied.

"Now that I think about it, we were all quite naive at that time. But then I gradually realized that you are different to me. It is impossible to be as caring as you are with ordinary straight boyfriends. Later, I gradually enjoyed your care. ..."

"I later admired your courage to break up with your family, but at that time I just thought it was cool to create a posture that you didn't need the family's living expenses. Later, when I got to work, I realized how rare what you did. I met Most of them are the second-generation ancestors, relying on the family to squander and start a business, which is basically a trap. Only then did I finally understand what kind of person I am liked by."

Shen Lian concluded: "So, this time when Gu Xin asked me to 'do me a favor', I didn't refuse. I thought there was still a possibility between us..."

Gu Heng said: "But this is no longer a matter between the two of us. It is Zhiwei who is hurt the most by this matter."

Shen Lian remained silent, he said: "Maybe we have not been right all along."

Gu Heng didn't want to continue talking.They've said it all.

He stretched out his hand to Shen Lian: "Shen Lian, we've known each other for so many years, and that's it."

Shen Lian did not expect that today is not only the day of his divorce, Gu Heng means that his friend will die.He smiled bitterly: "You still lie to me that I'm attractive?"

Gu Heng said: "I didn't lie to you. It's just that that person shouldn't be me."

Shen Lian asked again: "What should I do from now on?"

People are most afraid of regrets. If they have gone through many detours, only to find that the best thing is already in front of them, but the opportunity is lost, what should he do?

Gu Heng said: "No matter what happens in the future, it is enough that today's choice is not wrong."

They shook hands.This is the last time.

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