faint star

On New Year's Eve, the two went to Tianjin to play together, listened to cross talk and watched a play, and played happily for two days.On the return trip, both of them were in a good mood, Gu Heng took the opportunity to plan for the Spring Festival holiday as well.

"What are your plans for the new year? It's next month," Gu Heng asked while driving, "How about going to the beach?"

Xu Zhiwei sat in the co-pilot, stared at the phone, and said after a while, "No way. I want to go back to my hometown this year."

Gu Heng continued to seduce him: "Just the two of us, find an island, the sun and sea water are good for your health."

Xu Zhiwei was unmoved: "Let's talk about it later. I want to go back to my hometown this year."

Gu Heng was silent for a moment, then suddenly understood.He said before that he bought Xu Zhiwei's grandfather's old house, but Xu Zhiwei never accepted it.Now that they are back together, maybe Xu Zhiwei is willing to accept him more... His heart beat wildly.

Sure enough, Xu Zhiwei put down his phone and asked seriously: "You said before that you own grandpa's house, is it still there?"

Gu Heng immediately said: "Yes, of course I am. I will go back with you."

He was very happy, and his voice was a little higher.

Xu Zhiwei didn't refute this time, he just looked at the scenery on both sides of the highway outside the car window: "Actually, after grandpa left, I already wanted to drive and put it down, so when my aunt wanted to sell the old house, I didn't object, thinking about it when I passed by in the future It is also a kind of commemoration to take a look outside once in a while. But I didn’t expect you to buy it back, and now I can’t let it go completely.”

Gu Heng understood what Xu Zhiwei meant, but he also felt aggrieved, because the words seemed to blame him for unnecessary actions.

"I was just trying to help you keep a home," he said.

Xu Zhiwei was silent for a moment, and after a while he said, "Thank you."

Gu Heng felt that this thank you sounded insincere, but he didn't want to argue with Xu Zhiwei.His original intention was to make Xu Zhiwei happy, because quarreling over this matter is not worth the candle.He made up his mind in his heart that he must spend the best year with Xu Zhiwei this year, and all kinds of plans in his mind were surging.

As a result, plans always fail to keep up with changes.When it was New Year's Eve, the two of them couldn't catch up to go back together, Gu Heng went back a day earlier, and Xu Zhiwei was on the plane on New Year's Eve.

Gu Heng picked up Xu Zhiwei at the airport, and saw that he was wrapped in a black down jacket, pushing a suitcase, looking a little tired and pale.

"Didn't get some sleep on the plane?"

"I couldn't sleep at all. There happened to be a couple with two children in the back row."

Gu Heng smiled unkindly: "No wonder you look so tired."

There was a traffic jam on the expressway, and when their car slowly merged into the traffic flow, the sky was dark and it looked like it was going to snow.Xu Zhiwei couldn't help his eyelids twitching, and fell asleep unknowingly.When he opened his eyes again, he had already arrived in the city.with the usual golden hour

The congestion in the city is different, but the traffic flow in the city is much less than usual at this time.

Taking advantage of the fact that the big supermarket was still open, the two hurriedly bought a lot of New Year's goods and food.After shopping, the parking lot that was still congested just now became much more empty.

Those who should go home have already gone home, Xu Zhiwei suddenly had a thought - he is on his way home.

Looking at the colorful lights installed on the side of the road, he couldn't help feeling: "Finally, I don't need to stay in a hotel this year."

Gu Heng's face turned hot. It's not that he hasn't thought about Xu Zhiwei's situation these years, but it's still a bit uncomfortable to hear it with his own ears.Now he is very clear about how despicable he used to be, he once took advantage of Xu Zhiwei's isolation and helplessness, and took advantage of it.

As soon as he recalled that memory, Gu Heng wished he could go back to the past and repair himself.

He could only pretend to be nonchalant and say, "Of course, no matter how luxurious a hotel is, it's not as good as our home."

Xu Zhiwei was so disgusted by "our home", he was speechless for a while.

The car drove into the community, and the old community did not seem to have changed much in the twilight, even the small advertisements for the sewer pipes and supplementary classes on the wall were the same as before, but the Chinese toon and loquat trees on the wall on the first floor looked more real than before. Stouter.

"Is it cold?" Gu Heng saw that he was not wearing gloves, so he held the suitcase in one hand and held his hand with the other.

Xu Zhiwei dodged and took his luggage.

Gu Heng couldn't help teasing him again: "What's wrong? Afraid of the old neighbor?"

Xu Zhiwei said frankly: "Yes, I can be regarded as someone else's child in this community, and I am somewhat famous."

Gu Heng was about to move again, but he held it back for the time being.When they arrived at the door, the neighbors across the door had already posted Spring Festival couplets, Gu Heng remembered that he forgot the first couplet.

"I'll find a pair and stick them up early tomorrow morning."

Xu Zhiwei didn't say a word, he suddenly became timid due to the closeness to his hometown.

Gu Heng took out the key from his pocket and handed it to Xu Zhiwei.Xu Zhiwei took it, the lock on the door was changed, and the key was different from the one he used before, but he finally opened the door again after nearly ten years.

The door light in the corridor was on, and reflected in front of the door, Xu Zhi was slightly stunned, the house was very empty, smaller than he remembered.

He was worried that there would be a stale smell when he opened the door, but there was no such familiar nostalgia.In this small old home, he was still a primary school student and fell asleep crying with the quilt in his arms. He imagined that his parents would come back to pick him up together, but he was disappointed again and again.Later, he got used to living with the elderly, learned patience and learned how to lie skillfully.

Now Gu Heng held his hand: "Let's go in."

Xu Zhi was slightly dizzy, he put down the box, sat on the sofa for a while, then stood up again.I took a look at the door of the room.

Gu Heng stroked his shoulder: "There are part-time workers who come to clean it regularly, it's very clean here. The bed is new.

Yes, I just changed the sheets this morning. "

Xu Zhiwei looked around the room: "There was no wallpaper here before."

Gu Heng explained: "Maybe it was posted by the previous tenant. Wait until the end of the new year and have time to repair it."

Xu Zhiwei sighed: "It's too old, no wonder others have to put up wallpaper, it's basically the same as before."

He walked into the room and touched the cabinet next to the bed: "I didn't expect this cabinet to be still in use."

Gu Heng was thinking about other things, he was thinking about Xu Zhiwei back then.When they first got together, Xu Zhiwei was 17 years old, lying alone in this small old room at night, thinking about him wholeheartedly.

Thinking of that scene made him feel as drunk as if he had drunk a glass of strong wine.

They have done it in many places, but they have never done it in this old house.

Gu Heng stretched out his hand to wrap Xu Zhiwei's waist, and stroked it gently.Xu Zhiwei held his hand and said nothing.

After a while, Xu Zhiwei calmed down.He put his luggage away and started to prepare for the new year with Gu Heng.

The kitchen in my hometown is very small, and there is no room for two people to sit side by side in the kitchen.Gu Heng was cutting vegetables at the dining table outside, while Xu Zhiwei was cooking in the kitchen.First steam a piece of fish - fish is a must, and there is more than enough every year.Then fried spring rolls and steamed buns, they all love to eat.The cold dishes and stewed pork were all bought ready-made, Xu Zhiwei re-plated them beautifully.

After the dining table was cleared, a hot pot was placed in the middle, and Gu Heng opened another bottle of wine.The two sat down face to face, the first time to celebrate the New Year like this.

After the New Year's Eve dinner, they leaned against the sofa and sat face to face at the coffee table, eating snacks and playing board games, with the red and green stage on the TV as the background sound.

After playing two games, Gu Heng drank most of the bottle of red wine, sat next to Xu Zhiwei and started talking nonsense: "The two of us, don't we look like a newlywed couple returning to their hometown for the first time to celebrate the New Year?"

Xu Zhiwei was amused by him: "Are we still a young couple? Divorce and remarriage are more or less the same."

Gu Heng half-crazed through drunkenness: "Okay, okay, it's a remarriage, it's a marriage anyway. Then call me husband and listen."

Xu Zhiwei pushed him with his elbow: "It's New Year's Eve, don't pretend to be crazy by drinking."

Gu Heng felt a little sad: "You used to call me husband when we were together."

Xu Zhiwei cheated: "When? I don't remember."

"When we were in high school, you called me husband at that time."

"That doesn't count."

Gu Heng was in a hurry: "Why doesn't it count? We were together back then, and you were my first love."

Xu Zhiwei's fingers trembled, he felt that Gu Heng was probably confused.

"Your first love wasn't me."

Gu Heng hugged Xu Zhiwei by the waist: "It was you who held hands, hugged, and kissed for the first time, and of course you were the first love."

Since they met, they haven't mentioned the other person's name for a long time, but it doesn't mean Xu Zhiwei has forgotten

.Both he and Gu Heng have good memories.

Xu Zhiwei couldn't help but said, "But at that time, you were still thinking about someone else. I was at most half your first love."

Gu Heng looked at Xu Zhiwei's face.At first he was attracted by this face, and he still remembered that afternoon at the end of June, when they first met.At that time, he was too arrogant, took himself too seriously, and took Xu Zhiwei too lightly.He thought that this encounter was only about himself, a little sweetness that he could reach.

It took him a long time to understand that this was the encounter between the two of them, and that fate had long ago guided him to the most important other half of his life. He should have been grateful and cherished, but he turned a blind eye.

"No," Gu Heng repeated stubbornly, "You are my first love."

Xu Zhiwei hugged Gu Heng's shoulders, let him lie in his arms, combed his hair with his fingers, and finally said helplessly, "I don't need you to tamper with memory to make up for something."

Gu Heng took his hand, slowly clenched it, and half laughed at himself: "You are always like this, why are you so sober? Why can't you trust me..."

He felt powerless and didn't say any more.After all, it wasn't because of the harm he caused Xu Zhiwei in the past.

Injuries are injuries, and even when wounds heal, there will still be scars.

Xu Zhiwei was amused by Gu Heng's depressed and deflated look, and he kissed Gu Heng's forehead: "I'm really happy that you can accompany me back for the New Year."

Gu Heng stared at him deeply: "Really?"

Xu Zhiwei nodded.

Gu Heng said again: "Then I will come back with you next year."

Xu Zhiwei thought for a while: "Let's talk about it next year."

Gu Heng was very firm: "Definitely."

The next morning, Gu Heng felt in a daze that his surroundings were a bit cold, and when he stretched out his hand to feel the space, he suddenly woke up.The other half of the bed was empty, the pillows were neatly arranged, and Xu Zhiwei's clothes were missing.

Gu Heng was in a hurry, and rushed out of the room wearing only pajamas, not even socks.

The living room was also empty, except for a plate of dumplings and a pot of porridge on the table.Gu Heng touched the porridge with his hands, and the porridge was still hot.But Xu Zhiwei was not there.

Gu Heng was a little puzzled, last night they agreed to go out to play together today, but Xu Zhiwei went out alone this morning?

He picked up his cell phone and wanted to make a call, but he was inexplicably scared.

He was afraid that Xu Zhiwei on the other end of the phone would tell him that getting back together was just a sweet dream, and it was time to wake up from the sweet dream.He finally felt cold, grabbed a coat and put it on, and walked to the window holding the phone.

He glanced out of the window, and suddenly realized that it snowed last night maybe early in the morning, and there was a piece of clean white in the distance. It snows and suddenly becomes a cartoon.

Downstairs there was a man sweeping snow. He was wearing a familiar hat and a navy blue down jacket.

Bright and lovely colors in the world.

Gu Heng didn't care about the cold, opened the window and shouted downstairs: "Zhiwei!"

Xu Zhiwei turned around and waved at him.

Gu Heng brushed his teeth, washed his face as fast as he could, put on his clothes and rushed downstairs.Xu Zhiwei had already finished sweeping a small area, leaning on the bamboo broom and smilingly watching the children playing in the snow in the distance.

Seeing Gu Heng approaching excitedly, Xu Zhiwei suddenly had bad thoughts, he raised the bamboo broom and slapped it on the branch beside the road, and the snow on it instantly swelled up, covering Gu Heng's face.Gu Heng was shivering from the cold, and rushed forward to surround Xu Zhiwei: "This is a sneak attack!"

Xu Zhi smiled and said, "Who told you that you can't get up early in the morning?"

They were very close, and Gu Heng could clearly see that the tip of Xu Zhiwei's nose was turning red from the cold. He finally settled down and wanted to kiss his lover's lips. with.

But Xu Zhiwei got closer, leaning face to face with Gu Heng, as if absorbing his warmth, and when his lips touched, he greeted softly: "Happy New Year."

The author has something to say: I am so happy to see everyone find the little elephant in Chapter 10 [Truth]