God is Daozu

I stood up before Gao Lan pulled me up, the light screen of the sky disappeared, the haze is still in this cloudy sky, I saw Gao Lan looking at me in horror, I saw his face full of tears streaming down again tears.

He told me not to rush and speak slowly, and I heard my voice again in the deaf-like silence, time seemed to turn back, and my voice became dry and dull machine again.

"I, I want, I want to go out...out of school, apply for..."

Liu Rong also has a sister, and I want to go to his sister's side.

I heard my voice suddenly collapse again but it was not for myself, I knelt on the ground, I was going crazy, I howled like a trapped animal, I knelt on the ground and grabbed my hair, I vented to the ground , I jumped up and ran towards the school gate, I heard the sound of Gao Lan running in the opposite direction, I got the application when I was close to the school gate, I told my destination to my bracelet, and my bracelet recognized my voice Fail, I'm so frustrated I don't know who to vent to, I'm shamelessly typing like a madman several times before opening the navigation.

This is a place I have never been in contact with. I fell endlessly in a closed pipe. I looked at the falling cabin and imagined whether Liu Rong would fall like this every time he returned to the lower area from here. Feeling depressed.

He once said I wouldn't want to go to this place, I don't understand him.

After a long fall, the cabin opens.

I got to know the world first with my sense of smell.

Clean streets are gone, beautiful zoning is gone, and decent people are gone.

In the strange neon lights, I saw that the dirty streets were not cleaned up, and the snowflakes were stepped on by dirty shoe soles. I stood at the door leading to the lower district and looked at me in the same world as me. Narrow, narrow but crowded with people dirtier than the streets.

A girl with a strong smell laughed before she spoke to me. She took off her hat and saluted me indecently. She looked at me suggestively and then called sir.

I avoided her, and I heard her spat viciously into the air.

The more I walked in the direction of Liu Rong's home, the more oppressed I felt. Every step I took felt cramped and dirty. I imagined what the lofty Liu Rong would look like walking through this world.

I stopped in front of an old house full of graffiti. The walls were covered with obscene words. I pushed the door open as soon as I reached out. Liu Rong’s house was not locked, and maybe there was no need to lock it. I stood here In a narrow home, the interior is very clean, but not clean enough to look decent.

There was a voice behind me, a man was holding a bowl of rice, he stopped to look at me for two seconds and then he yelled at me with something in his mouth

"Who are you? What are you doing here?"

"Hi, good," the man smiled strangely after I said these two words, "...I, I am Liu Rong's, friend."

The man ate and looked at me as if he had confirmed something. He sat on the threshold and ate and said, "That kid doesn't know what to do. He didn't come back for a long time. When he came back, he gave me a sum of money to renew the rent for more than 50 years. , go to the room on the right to burn incense.”

I didn't move, the man frowned and cursed, "Go, that kid said his friend is here, let him go to that house to burn incense."

"I...I want to, look for, Liu Rong's, sister..."

"Hey, hey!" The man waved his hand impatiently, "It's inside, it's inside, go in directly, and Ma De still knocks on the door, he's out of his mind."

I stopped knocking and pushed open the door. There was only a narrow bed, a black box, and an incense burner in the room. I stood in front of the incense burner and suddenly understood something. I opened the box——

Liu Rong's sister smiled at me in the box, with a pair of beautiful red studs on her ears, she looked younger than Liu Rong.

I picked up three sticks of incense, lit them and inserted them into the incense burner. I felt that there seemed to be something under the incense ash. I peeled off the incense ash with my fingers and got a thin card with a bunch of garbled characters written on it.

I remembered that math class was so boring a long time ago, and Liu Rong’s little note fell on my desk. I remember the clear code he gave at that time.

I remember that he translated his password at that time to let me listen to the lecture carefully. I didn't expect that I would stand in such an environment to solve his password a few months later.

I reached out and opened the secret behind the photo, and I saw a letter.

I cried before I opened this letter. I wiped the table in front of Sister Liu Rong with my sleeve, wiped the box, and grabbed the letter with my right hand. I didn’t have the courage to face the final s things.

I am familiar with his fonts, and he was my best teacher during the countless days of exchanging notes.

To my dear friend Qiang Ju, I will probably be dead when you read this letter.

As you can see, my sister died very early. I am going to see her. She is the person I love and miss the most in my life. Please be happy for me.

After I died, I finally had the courage to confess one thing to you. Even though I knew you could forgive me, I still didn't have the courage to look into your eyes and say it. When you see this, I will be relieved.

I was born in an ordinary family in Area 31. When I was very young, a war broke out in my hometown. My sister and I escaped from the dead. I always thought that I was lucky to survive that disaster, but I began to grow up. When I was young, I realized that there is not so much luck in the world.

After escaping, my sister and I lived in a strange man's house, and later my sister took me to escape here. I won't go into details, but I think you already understand what my survival is based on.

I am my sister's greatest pride. I think my sister wants to be a guide and sentinel more than I do, but she knows that she will not become one. My intelligence is her greatest hope, but in this lower district where everything can be sold, my sister does not Instead of expecting me to be rich, she always wanted me to join the army.

I think my sister is one of the few real people in this world. She has seen the back of the world and the front of the world. She did not live a noble life, but she will always be noble. I hope you can become such a person.

I'll tell you a story about her death, about the beginning of my downfall.

My tuition and fees are based on my sister doing decent and indecent jobs, when I understand all this, I can't be naive, I'm not a real person, so in this gutter I choose to fall along with it, I crave money.

But my older sister didn't want to, we had many quarrels, and when she cried I couldn't do anything, I spent a lot of my life in such quarrels.

I tried so hard to be a conscienceless person, I thought that was the only way I could live comfortably, but like she told me, I couldn't be that person, I was destroying myself.

I think you already know that I work for a terrorist organization.

As you know, terrorist organizations are keen to search for their weapons of war. I have known for a long time that there is a group of people in the lower area who are searching for guide sentries. Every time I want to sell myself to them, I am afraid that I will not be able to face them. To my sister, I thought she was so stupid, we were ravaged by war, we were enslaved by the Upper District, why did she want me to be a soldier?

Later I realized that the stupid person was myself.

As now, I lost her one winter many years ago, which is ridiculous, and I don't think you can imagine what a world it was, how poverty ruined her.

My sister's menstrual period came too late. One day when she was carrying things, she felt a pain in her stomach. When she stood up, her back was sore. She was hit by a heavy object. She squatted down and only heard the laughter around her. She saw My pants are red.

Life in the Lower Borough was difficult as local wars continued that winter.

This was one of the few days when I saw her cry. We were a family that used toilet paper that year. She told me that this was the day when she hated being a girl the most in her life.

Unimaginable, she used cloth to put ash and sand into it and sew it up as a sanitary napkin. She said she hated her delicate body, she believed what other people said, she ate chili crazily, and she wanted to kill her menstrual period.

She is going to feed me.

The menstrual period did not disappear as she wished, and her menstrual period suddenly came for two weeks, and during these two weeks she was in more pain than ever.

I learned to steal. No matter how poor I was before, she never allowed me to get into bad habits.

The first time I ever stole in my life was a sanitary napkin.

This is the thing I regret most in my life. She slapped me so hard that she fell ill.

She may have been ill a long time ago, and I was the fuse of her collapse.

She can't work anymore, there is no money in the family, the time when I need money the most in my life is that winter, I count the things at home and then fall off the chair, I don't want to stand up, only she is calling me weakly in the room sound.

I need a lot of money, and I know it's not enough to just sell my body.

I found a terrorist organization through those gangsters, but things were not as good as what those gangsters said. I was slapped and locked in the cabin. I cursed and begged them, but no one paid any attention.

It was at that time that I met my sponsor. He thought that it was not suitable for me to be trained as a weapon of war. He thought that I could join in the research of weapons of war. From that moment on, I lived a decent life.

I ran home with the money, I don't know how long I was in the pod, my sister was dead when I got home, the saddest thing is, I couldn't find my sister's body, she died in a certain street , cleaned up like garbage.

I learned from other people that my sister came to me wrapped in a coat and slippers. She called my school and asked those gangsters where I was going. She stood on the street waiting for me, and finally she huddled in the corner of the street and waited. I.

Someone told me that when she saw my sister, she asked my sister what she was doing outside in the winter, she was freezing to death.

My sister huddled in the corner and looked at the place I was going to pass after school. She smiled like a lunatic and said, I am not cold, I am bleeding, and the blood is hot.

Later she said that seeing Liu Rong told him to come back quickly.

Sadly, I didn't rush back.

My sister’s childhood was a little girl in a blue and white dress, running on the streets of District 31, Qiangju, even I can’t believe that she didn’t even become an adult when she died, she died so ridiculously, I didn’t even want to go imagined poverty.

I hated this world, I hated terrorist organizations, I hated the upper district, but after becoming a sentinel, I was so passionate that I forgot what kind of future was waiting for me.

I suddenly discovered in the laboratory that I was an executioner, and my experimental subject was as young as my sister when he died.

I think, if I had known that I had a conscience, I shouldn't have fallen, I avoided my conscience, I avoided my blood, I couldn't touch the light, I couldn't go to the darkness.

I think it's time to get my conscience back.

I have prepared for my death, I have no regrets, I hope you will not feel sorry for me, I will tell you the location of my home before the fall of Area 31, if there is a chance in this life, Area 31 can be rebuilt, please send me Take her sister back, where she will become the little girl who used to run free.

This is the last lesson I'm going to teach you, I'll show you the back of the world

After the heavy snow, you can see the blue sky.

I wobbled and sat on the threshold with the letter in my mouth, the faint smell of incense made me suffocate, I looked at the world, I seemed to see Liu Rong's sister huddled in the corner of the street, watching the pedestrians in a hurry. Legs, she squatted there bleeding blood to warm herself, until the blood also turned cold, in this strange world, Liu Rong never came back.

I feel warm hands hug me through my hair, I see Daniel's blond hair, I breathe with my mouth open, I speak in staccato

"In... this, this world."

"I, luckily, escaped."

After I looked Daniel in the eyes and said this sentence, I was stunned for a second. I realized that this absurd world was my world, and I cried to him.

I no longer feel safe on his back, I hug his neck, I don't know where in the world to put us.

"Dan, Daniel, I can't see..."

"I can't see..."

Blue sky