God is Daozu

The maids of the family put on black clothes.

Qiangju walks in a solemn environment, the servants are silent, the main hall is silent, the secondary hall is silent, the porcelain is silent, everything seems to be the same as before, but it is not the same.

He was walking upstairs, the male servant was silently carrying his luggage and Qiangju's coat, everyone walked cautiously in the silence, Qiangju looked up and saw Auntie's dignified face.

Lu Chan's dream

Professor Bai's Abnormality

Daniel came home early

Qiang Ju realized all this

"I need your coat."

The male servant took off his black suit jacket in a daze, and Qiang Ju put on his clothes and immediately ran upstairs. The aunt was a little puzzled before realizing that Qiang Ju was running towards the top floor, "Stop!"

"You are not allowed to go there!"

Qiang Ju stopped and looked downstairs, "Daniel is on the top floor, right?"

"Come down."

Auntie hasn't spoken to Qiang Ju in such a tone for a long time, but Qiang Ju feels surprised, as if he doesn't care what Auntie is thinking at this moment.

"Even if Mr. treats you like a child, you are not a child who doesn't understand anything. Now, come down and go back to your bedroom."

Qiang Ju shook her head and continued to walk towards the top floor.

"Get down!"

"I won't come down."

Qiang Ju's eyes swept downstairs, "If you can't do anything, don't stop me from doing anything."

After finishing speaking, Qiang Ju solemnly buttoned up the buttons of her coat one by one, and walked upstairs.

He has never been here before, this is the secret of this house, the long corridor on the top floor leads to a white door, under the porch light, the place is terribly silent, Qiang Ju walks to that door, knocks, but there is no response from the door , he waited quietly, like the day he and Daniel were in the bathroom, he bit Daniel's hand and Daniel waited quietly for him to let go, he waited with the same patience now, waiting for the door to open .

at last

the door is open

Exactly the same furnishing as in the dream

Window, carpet, floor lamp, bookshelf, a bed.

Daniel was sitting on the carpet with a book in his hand, looking up at Qiangju in the dim light. Only at this moment did Qiangju suddenly realize that Daniel was really only a year or two older than himself.

Daniel didn't cry, and his expression didn't show any sadness. He was still so cold, and there was hatred mixed with the coldness.

Qiang Ju put her shoes next to Daniel's shoes and walked over. The window sill next to Daniel was the place where Lu Ye committed suicide. When Qiang Ju approached, Daniel tightened his hand holding the album, and Qiang Ju stopped approaching. Kneel and sit not near or far from Daniel.

"I'm here." Qiang Ju said softly.

Daniel suddenly raised his head and looked at Qiang Ju, with a deep look.

After a long time, Daniel's voice sounded.

"Qiang orange."

"Get close to me."

Qiang Ju felt that his breathing became abnormal, no matter how he breathed, he was afraid of being too light or too heavy, so he sat next to Daniel and saw what Daniel was holding.

"This is Mom's photo album."

On the screen, Lu Ye's arrow shot into the distance, taking part of Daniel away.

Daniel slowly flipped through each of the photos, each of which was full of deep emotion in his eyes, each of which was enough for him to look at it repeatedly for a lifetime.

"This picture is when Aunt Yu Ran came to visit her when she was pregnant with me."

In the picture, Yu Ran is standing beside Lu Ye with her hands hanging down, while Lu Ye is wearing a loose skirt and standing in the garden.

"This garden is the garden downstairs. When she died, the flowers kept dying, so there were no flowers."

"This one was taken at the house over there."

Daniel’s expression was very cold, and Qiang Ju understood that this was in his father’s house. Daniel was wearing a hat, and his beautiful blue eyes looked at the little bear on his knees. Lu Ye was wearing a long skirt and squatting on the ground with his knees in his arms, looking at Daniel, happy Satisfied eyes, like a mother and a girl.

"This one is when she is going to the front line."

In the picture, Lu Ye is looking sideways at the document in his hand, saying something to Yu Ran, and then finds that someone secretly took the picture. Lu Ye is angry at first, and then laughs with Yu Ran. The person who secretly took the picture is the young Guan Cangming. He was also holding a girl tightly.

Daniel looked at this photo in silence for a long time, and couldn't bear to turn it back, finally Daniel turned it over.

"This one is when Aunt Yu Ran came with her younger sister. Yu Ran's younger sister looked only a little older than Daniel. Daniel was sitting on the grass playing with a bear. Yu Ran's younger sister reached out to Yu Ran. Lu Ye said What afterglow laughed."

"This one..."

Daniel was silent.

In the picture, Lu Ye has lost a lot of weight. Her long hair is scattered behind her head. Standing in the garden, the white flowers on the tree fall on her hair. She turns her head and smiles tiredly and lightly at the person taking the photo.

"She's ill."

Daniel closed the album.

"The following photos were all taken by Aunt Yu Ran, they were well taken, and there are no bad photos of her left."

"She loves me very much."

"... This disease took away her health, dreams, and her ability to be a normal person. Her personality has changed a lot. She rarely smiles. Many things in the house are broken. Aunt Yu Ran will always be in trouble every day after school. Come, I'm swapping between two houses."

"Sometimes I sleep in the first section, sometimes I sleep here."

"Every time I come back, I am a normal mother."

"No cigarette butts, no debris, just her smiling face and arms."

"...She really works hard."

"Trying hard to be a normal mother."

"... trying very hard to love me."

Daniel looked to the window sill

"I love her."

"The day she was buried, I wanted to sleep with her. I kept running to her and being picked up by others. When I left the house with her, I only took my favorite bear. The bear lay beside her..."

"When I was hiding, she always came to me with that little bear..."

"The flowers are all dead."

"She never saw me again."

"Sometimes..." Daniel looked back at Qiang Ju, "I would regret putting the bear by her side. Sometimes I wanted to hug that little bear to face the dark night here, but found that there was nothing left. There's nothing to hug, it's just me and her legacy here, gone."

Daniel reached out to wipe the tears from Qiang Ju's face, Qiang Ju wept quietly, listening to Daniel's words, "Qiang Ju, don't cry."

Qiang Ju stared at Daniel's calm expression and couldn't help crying.

"I've been able to accept all of this, and I'm past the age when I need a bear," Daniel wiped Qiang Tang's tears, "Don't cry, I'll take you down."

Speaking of which, Daniel stood up and held Qiangju's hand. Qiangju and Daniel changed their shoes and walked down. The servants were all on the first floor, from the top floor to the bedroom. Everything was so silent. Daniel took Qiangju to Letting go of the door, Qiang Ju watched Daniel's back disappearing into the corridor little by little.

No one ever bothers you.

Never knowing you're not alone is enough.

Daniel returned to the bedroom, only turned on the floor lamp, Qiang Ju suddenly ran to Daniel's bedroom and knocked on the door.

"what happened?"

Qiangju didn't answer.

Daniel opened the door and Qiangju looked up at him.

Qiangju still had tears on her face, she opened her arms to him and smiled, only seeing Daniel

"I'm Little Bear, hug me."

Daniel was shocked, and hugged Qiangju tightly.

What he had lacked for more than ten years was repaid in this moment.

Daniel slept peacefully beside Qiangju and hugged Qiangju. Qiangju opened his eyes in the dark. He looked at Daniel's silhouette in the dark and felt a kind of hopelessness.

He yearns for him, admires him, he is more violent than pheromone confrontation training, he affects all of him, dominates his emotions, dominates his thinking, all of these things are not enough, and love is even added.

Qiang Ju looked at Daniel, as if he was looking at the lair he was rushing to without hesitation, he was willing to do so without hesitation, this terrible attraction, even if he vaguely foresees the crisis, he can't control himself.

He is like the end of his blood flow, he makes him grow like crazy, he makes him not know himself, and makes him see himself clearly, he is his yearning, desire, he makes him hurt, the pain is piercing.

Qiangju opened her mouth in the dark night, stared at Daniel, and recited silently, like a hymn sent by a believer

Your silence is bright as a lamp, simple as a ring

Qiang Ju covered her mouth, afraid of her own choking.

You are like the night, with silence and stars

Daniel, you know what, I know this poem better than ever.

Your silence is the silence of the stars, far and bright

Qiang Ju's breathing was hot, and he could hardly hold it back. He could no longer speak, but he couldn't control the voice in his chest.

I like you

Is silent