chance world

Fu Ruqing opened her eyes the moment Ding Qiyu closed the door. In fact, the reason why she wanted Ding Qiyu to leave tonight was not only the sourness in her heart, but also another reason. She wanted to have an independent space where she could think calmly and let Ding Qiyu leave. Yu thought about it calmly, what should he do in the future?

The feeling of helplessness that had appeared before resurfaced again.Miss Lu was so angry that she vomited blood, and it was impossible to recover for a while. Yu left the weak Miss Lu back. Compared with Miss Lu, she was still the winner, but in the same way, Fu Ruqing didn't feel the joy of victory. An inexplicable guilt lingered in his heart.Because Ms. Lu knew Yu before her, and their mutual understanding was also before her. Fu Ruqing felt that it was as if she had taken away Ms. Lu's beloved, which made her vomit blood and faint... This feeling of guilt and helplessness Very bad, it made Fu Ruqing extremely uncomfortable...

The weak and infatuated Ms. Lu, the silently giving Lian'er, and Yu have affection for them all... What should I do so that I don't feel so uncomfortable and tired?Do you really want to let go?Are you going to give them Yu?Just thinking about it this way, Fu Ruqing felt heartbroken. She wanted to let go, to separate, even to the point of life and death. She couldn't bear it, it was impossible.

Ding Qiyu has become an indispensable part of Fu Ruqing's life. Fu Ruqing is too devoted to the love that he has never had before. Once he falls into it, he will never get out again.She couldn't leave Ding Qiyu decisively, let Ding Qiyu go away and disappear from her life, it was like letting the nightmare of that year repeat itself, she couldn't stand the pain again.However, there are other people living in the lover's heart at the same time, and it is almost impossible for those women to fade out of their lives... At this moment, the idea of ​​"fulfillment" once again emerged in Fu Ruqing's heart...

But as long as I think that the one I love will embrace and kiss others in the future, will no longer be owned by myself alone, and will no longer be called "each other", my heart will tear and ooze blood, and my heart will be full of pain.Fu Ruqing reached out and hugged the little guy who was about to fall asleep into his arms, absorbing the warmth from the little guy's body, and asked with a bit of sobs: "Ying'er, what should mother do..."

"Huh?" The drowsy little guy fell into his mother's arms, and gave out a Nuo Nuo unconscious response, clicked his small mouth twice, and rubbed his small face against his mother's soft chest, as if it was his mother. The embrace smelled good and was very comfortable, and Xiao Hongying opened her mouth and moved her face again.

Feeling the little guy's little strength, Fu Ruqing looked down at the little head with fluffy soft hair in his arms, raised his hand to wipe away a drop of crystal from the corner of his eyes, and revealed the first sincere smile since today on the corner of his lips.Fu Ruqing protected the little guy's weak neck, made her feel comfortable in his arms, and patted her back to coax her to sleep.No matter what, I still have my own shadow. No matter how Yu treats others, Yu at least treats himself sincerely... As for other things, just follow nature...

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After the dinner, only Sister Qing came back alone, and Lian Er knew about it.When Sister Qing came to greet A Niang and went back to the room, although her expression was as calm as usual, Lian Er could vaguely feel that something was wrong with her.Where did Ayu go?This made Lian Er, who had already guessed that this dinner was a chance for Ding Qiyu and Lu Weixi to reunite, to make some guesses.It's a pity that no matter how A Yu chooses in this emotional entanglement between the three, he is always an outsider and has no right to intervene.

I didn't want to "mind my own business", but Lian'er tossed and turned and didn't fall asleep, and finally couldn't bear the depression in her heart, she walked out of Chenluju in cloaked clothes, stepped on her own shadow under the bright moonlight, and let herself go low Walk around with your head down.

Suddenly feeling a shadow covering her, Lian'er stopped and raised her head, and Ding Qiyu, who was sad and frustrated, had already bumped into her. "Ah Yu!" Lian'er exclaimed before she could dodge in time.

"Hiss——" Ding Qiyu was startled, took a breath, and reflexively supported the person who was bumped into his arms, and then he saw clearly that it was Lian'er.

Lian'er's heart trembled, but she was only stunned for a moment, and immediately came out of Ding Qiyu's arms, took a step back, and distanced herself from Ding Qiyu, only to find that the corners of her mouth were swollen and black, and her face was covered with blood. Can you take care of other things?He said anxiously: "Ayu, you are injured!"

Ding Qiyu shook his head: "It's okay, it's just a small injury." Looking down at the blood stains on her body, she said sadly, "This blood is not mine..." She dare not recall the scene of Xi'er vomiting blood now.

Not Ayu's?Whose would it be? !Lian'er's eyes widened, thinking of Miss Lu's sickness when she came to visit A ​​Niang several times at home, her heart was filled with turmoil. Could it be... Miss Lu knew about A Yu and Sister Qing, so she became ill? !Ms. Lu broke her body because of A Yu, and Sister Qing gave birth to a shadow for A Yu. Each of them deserves to be treated sincerely and cherished... Thinking of this, Lian Er seemed to empathize with Ding Qiyu, feeling distressed and embarrassed for Ding Qiyu.A silly girl who loves so much that she forgets herself, but she doesn't think about it at all, who would love her and herself?

Ding Qiyu only felt a splitting headache and didn't want to think about anything anymore, so he said to the dazed Lian'er, "It's so late, you should go to bed early." A small courtyard specially reserved for work.

Lian'er came back to her senses, turned her head and called out in a low voice: "A Yu!" Ding Qiyu didn't hear it, and went into the yard anyway.Lian'er pinched the hem of her clothes and struggled for a while, but finally couldn't overcome the worry in her heart, so she ran quickly to find medicine, and was going to rub it for Ding Qiyu.Moreover, Lian'er knew that Ah Yu was very sad now, although she didn't necessarily need her, but Lian'er just wanted to be with her.

After Ding Qiyu entered the room, he had his own space, no one looked at him anymore, and finally he could face his heart freely, and he couldn't hold back any longer, tears flowed out like a bank bursting.She staggered to find the wine she had stored in a corner of the workshop, as if she had found a life-saving medicine, she picked it up and poured it into her mouth.

She never thought that she would fall in love with different people so bastardly, never thought that she would face such a choice.Telling her to let go of anyone would be an unspeakable torment.Let her really enjoy the blessings of everyone like in her crazy dream?How should she speak to Qing'er?She didn't know what would happen to Qing'er after she knew what she was thinking as an asshole.Speaking out means hurting, not saying it means giving up.

The love for those women is not deep or light, but it is divided into first come first served.So this pain of parting, she can only endure, unable to resolve.She can only leave her most vulnerable and indulgent side to the old wine, to the moonlit night, until tomorrow, everything will be as usual.

Yuanjing's famous wine, Zique, has the heritage of a century-old imperial capital, and is much thicker than other wines.It's like a memory buried deep in my heart, the more I think about it, the clearer it becomes, and the more I taste it, the richer it becomes.

When Lian Er ran back to get the medicine and came back, Ding Qiyu had already drank a lot and was sitting in the corner of the room blankly.There was no light in the house, Lian Er could smell the strong smell of alcohol when she entered the room, she quickly put the medicine in her hand on the table, lit the candlestick, only then did she see the distraught person in the corner, a look that Lian Er had never seen before Even on the day when I first met Ah Yu, even a homeless little beggar covered in mud and hoarse, his eyes were strong with sunlight. Ah Yu's gaze has never been as strong as it is now Generally lifeless, empty and indifferent.Lian'er felt extremely uncomfortable, and wanted to go to help her, but was stopped by Ding Qiyu.

Ding Qiyu stared at the person in front of him, tears were still streaming out of his eyes, his face was flushed, his body smelled of alcohol, his thinking was fuzzy, but the pain did not decrease for a moment, this time, even the alcohol could not anesthetize himself.

Lian'er felt even more distressed, grabbed Ding Qiyu's hand and wanted to raise the jar, and persuaded him patiently: "Ah Yu, don't drink, don't drink, okay?"

It's okay if no one is around, but now someone comforts me softly. Under the influence of alcohol, Ding Qiyu, whose mind is muddled, can't control his emotions well at all. This gentle comfort stimulates all the fragility and discomfort in his heart. A hoarse voice said: "I feel bad...I want to drink..." Then, like a child who has done something wrong, she couldn't help saying all the things she was afraid of, "Xi'er...she knows that I have become a fu Uncle, she vomited blood... She was sick because of me, so weak... But, what should I do? I already have Qinger, I can't be with her anymore, I... I can only let go Ah...Qing'er, Qing'er is sad too...She is sleeping with Ying'er in her arms, and she doesn't want to talk to me anymore..."

When Lian Er heard these words from the bottom of her heart, she couldn't tell what she felt.Ayu loves Miss Lu and Sister Qing, but has never faced up to his feelings for her... But Ayu is like a helpless and sad child at the moment. Er tried to comfort her and said: "Miss Lu will be fine, she will be fine, Sister Qing—" But Lian Er was just a little girl, she felt extremely uncomfortable, and she wanted to comfort Ding Qiyu. Weeping, but still pretending to be strong to finish the sentence, "...Sister Qing loves you so much, and you treat her sincerely, and she won't really ignore you..."

Ding Qiyu, who was unconscious, didn't seem to hear Lian'er's words of comfort. He leaned his head against the wall behind him, looked at the beams and said to himself: "What should I do? To live up to Qing'er, to live up to Xi'er, to live up to Zhu Ripple?" At this point, Ding Qiyu paused, his eyes once again fell on the girl in front of him, he became a little focused, and murmured, "I...I can't let you down..." The outburst of emotions was out of control, and the truth was blurted out up.

Lian Er didn't have time to think about who Ding Qiyu was referring to as "Zhu Yi", when she heard the last sentence, her heart trembled suddenly, her throat soured, and tears welled up.The question that had been kept deep in his heart and was afraid to ask, unexpectedly received a positive answer from Ding Qiyu himself at this moment.In Ayu's heart, he has his own place... No matter how many people Ayu has in his heart, no matter how many places he occupies, and whether Ayu is talking nonsense, with this sentence, it is enough It's gone... Even if Ah Yu forgets everything when she wakes up tomorrow, these words are enough for her to remember and sweeten for a lifetime.

"You...why are you crying?" Ding Qiyu saw Lian'er's expression clearly, the smiling face in tears made her feel very distressed, she couldn't see the little crybaby crying, even if she was drunk and stupefied, subconsciously I just wanted to reach out and wipe her tears.

Even if Ayu has her own place in her heart, she can only stay by her side as a sister as she is now. Lian'er doesn't want to have more useless extravagant hopes, and the hard work of "estrangement" during this period cannot be wasted .Lian'er turned her head to the side, raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, leaving only a sincere smile and said: "Ah Yu will not let anyone down, to meet Ayu, each of them is happy , I won’t regret it.” Lian’er didn’t include herself in “them” anymore, she was afraid that what A Yu said was really just drunken nonsense, she didn’t want the sweetness she just got to be fleeting.