please keep me quiet dude

Tagore once said that the furthest distance in the world is not between life and death, but when I am in front of you, but you don't know that I love you.Thinking of this sentence, Hou Jing thought with a wry smile that the furthest distance in the world is not that I am in front of you but you don't know that I love you, but that I love you but cannot love you...

what is this?Bitter lover?She obviously...don't love that woman...

Feeling ironic, she sat down, poured herself a glass of wine, and looked at Li Wenxian and Xiao Xiaoyan. The two seemed to be immersed in their world, as if no one else was there, so well matched.Needless to say a word, the tacit understanding between the two is something outsiders like them can't get in.

Outsiders... For example, her?

After taking a sip, I felt bitter, like a choked throat.I feel a little uncomfortable, what should I do?

He poured the glass full of wine again, wanting to see how Li Wenxian paid attention to her so-called rival in love, but in the end, he only saw his own downcast reflection in the wine.For Li Wenxian, she is not even an enemy.That's right, with my little combat power, am I qualified?

Bitterness welled up, and unknowingly, she exited the private room, and the moment she left the private room and turned around, she still didn't see her own existence from Xiao Xiaoyan's eyes...

She lost, lost completely, or there was no loss in the first place...

Leaving the restaurant, she walked alone among the crowd in a daze. Even though it was such a lively night, she felt very lonely, so lonely that she wanted to cry.There are thousands of worlds, but there is no one she can rely on.Left alone in this strange world, she can't find her way home...

When she collided with someone, she said sorry, and she didn't even have the strength to look up at him.But the person who was bumped pulled the hem of his clothes, looked up, and saw the lotus clothes.

"Mr. Hou, why are you careless? What if you get hurt?"

From the moment he saw her, something that Hou Jing didn't understand flashed in He Yi's eyes, and he said something that made her feel comforted. Hou Jing felt that he seemed to be comforted a little bit.Although He Yi may only be polite to herself, she still cares about this and feels tears in her eyes.

"thanks……"

Wiping away tears, He Yi handed her a brocade handkerchief.

"Is it... something sad?" He Yi asked with concern, Hou Jing shook his head, but he was just asking for trouble.

"Could it be... which girl rejected you?" He Yi asked sensitively, Hou Jing wiped away her tears, thinking bitterly, does his expression at the moment look like a broken love?

Seeing that Hou Jing should not answer, He Yi probably knew the answer, and regret flashed in his eyes.

"You don't have to think about it. Anyway, for a person like me, it's strange if a girl likes it. It's normal to refuse." She just... feels depressed. Why should she care about that woman? She doesn't like her, doesn't love her ?

He Yi looked at her hesitantly, bit her lip, as if she had made up her mind, and took out a carefully sewn purse from her sleeve, which made Hou Jing's heart tighten, she wouldn't...

"Then what if you say, I like it?" Sure enough...

Looking up at He Yi's fearless and courageous face, Hou Jing couldn't bear to refuse.She looked at the purse, but asked, "Why do you like me?"

Seeing that Hou Jing didn't answer, disappointment flashed in his eyes.

"Like is like, do you have to have a reason?"

Hou Jing lowered his head and smiled, quite helpless and powerless.

"Yes! In this world, everything that happens is justified and has its roots. Including you liking a person, there are more or less things in him that you want or that only he has. So, why do you like me? ?”

The two of them have only met two or three times, why do they fall in love with her?Moreover, she is so inconspicuous, and she is one of the most beautiful women in the academy, so many men flock to her, just like... Xiao Xiaoyan...

Thinking of Xiao Xiaoyan, Hou Jing felt so congested in her heart that it was difficult to even breathe, no, she must forget about that woman!

"As I said, you... are very gentle..."

gentle?Hou Jing covered her head, she wouldn't... like it just because he gave her red dates to fill her stomach, right?Is this considered gentle?

"In this world, except for my parents, no one has seen my down and out side. You have seen me, you don't blame me, you even give me food, and you are very trustworthy, so... I think you will be a good person worth entrusting. "

that's all?Hou Jing suddenly couldn't laugh or cry.This rich lady is just an immature little girl who doesn't know much about the world...

So she shook her head and looked up seriously into her eyes.

"Miss He, if my inference is correct, you don't actually like me. Your feelings for me don't like it. Like you said, because I have seen your downcast side, because I helped you when you were in distress. I passed you, and then kept the agreement and did not tell anyone about you. Because of this, you think I am a person you can rely on, then have you ever thought that if there is a second person who treats you like this, you will like him ?"

The words made He Yi hesitate, she frowned, and when she thought about the meaning of Hou Jing's words, panic appeared in her eyes...Hou Jing had already foreseen He Yi's reaction, and just stretched out her hand and touched the other party "So, you understand, you don't like me, so...you should leave this purse for those who need it."

These are the most gentle words that Hou Jing feels she has said so far when she came to this world.The truth always makes people feel cruel, but people are like this, don't get carried away by being irrational, just like her before.

Only by recognizing the facts and facing the reality can one be redeemed, just like she did to Xiao Xiaoyan... After thinking about this, Hou Jing suddenly felt enlightened, yes, why did he bother himself, no matter what feelings he had for Xiao Xiaoyan , it doesn't matter, she is always impossible with her.

For a person who is impossible with yourself, why should you expect?

Regardless of how her useless status as a dandy can please that woman who is unmatched in the world, just from her status as a woman, does she want Xiao Xiaoyan to break the world and fall in love with herself and fall in love with the fake Phoenix? of her?

In her world, the two women were already living in the cracks, let alone in this era?

Impossible, just impossible...

"But... I still want to thank you, Miss He, thank you... for liking me because of an illusion."

After talking to He Yi, she disappeared into the crowd, but she never noticed, He Yi's eyes that love her, maybe, even if she pays attention, it won't change anything...

Hou Jing wandered through the crowd for a while, then went to a restaurant, asked the waiter in the backyard of the restaurant to ask for a ladder that could climb up the roof, and brought several jars of good wine, for which she paid a lot more some silver.

Cao Cao once said that Du Kang is the only one who can relieve worries.She needs something to numb herself, not for getting drunk, but for introspection.She can drink wine, and in that slightly drunk state, she can think about many things clearly, or... forget many things.

Alone...quietly...quietly...

"Ilikeforyoutobestill" held up the wine jar and shouted to the moon.

A shadow blocked her moonlight, frowned, and was about to drive away, but Xiao Xiaoyan suddenly appeared in front of her in white clothes. Against the backdrop of the moonlight, she really had the ethereal feeling of becoming a fairy and leaving the world. She froze for a moment, thinking that she was delusional.

"What... were you talking about just now?"

The hallucination even spoke, it seems that his hallucinations are really powerful, Hou Jing smiled, that's all, hallucinations are hallucinations.

So she hugged a wine jar, like hugging a pillow, grinned, showing her snow-white teeth, and smiled so recklessly.

"What are you laughing at?" The hallucination frowned, Hou Jing thought to herself, this hallucination is really vivid.

"I like you……"

"Ok?"

Ignoring the surprised gaze of the other party, he took a big sip of wine instead, "Ilikeforyoubestill means, I like you, is silent. This is a poem, a poem that makes people feel distressed. It was written by a Chilean poet. Yes, I knew this poem when I was in the sixth grade of elementary school. When I saw it for the first time, I felt that the person who wrote this poem was stupid, really stupid. How can people be so stupid? Woolen cloth?"

Chile?Primary school sixth grade?

The hallucination frowned, and Hou Jing was not happy, so she stretched out her hand and smoothed the frown for her brazenly.

"Didn't I tell you that I don't like your frowning? If you want to do this again, I don't want you anymore. "

Hou Jing was talking nonsense, and when the other party didn't react, she stuffed the other party with a jar of wine, and she hugged her into a ball, like an insecure child. She suddenly stretched out her hand and grabbed the moon in her hand Inside, "I like that you are silent, as if you have disappeared, you listen to me from a distance, but my voice cannot reach you. It seems that your eyes have flown away from me, like a kiss, sealing you mouth. As all things fill my soul, you emerge from all things and fill my soul. You are like my soul, a butterfly of a dream. You are like the word melancholy. I like that you are stillness Yes, it seems you've gone away, you sound like you're lamenting..."

At this moment, Hou Jing was thinking, if her Chinese teacher knew that she recited poetry so affectionately, she would probably be very pleased...

"This... poem... is very strangely written." Hallucination commented, "Yeah, a fool, hehe. By the way, do you want me to sing you a song? You smiled so much at that Li Wenxian today Gentleness, I don't like it. What's so good about that man, he asked you to play the piano for him yourself, and it took a lot of trouble to send the piano down. If he really loves you, he should play it for you! "

Drinking wine, talking to himself, tilting his head,

"What song do you want to listen to? Popular, country non-mainstream, or divine comedy?"

"What about the occasion?"

"It fits the occasion..." He tilted his head, looked at the moon in the sky, then grinned and smiled.

"Then you are not allowed to look at me, I will be shy." He covered his face with his hands, then hugged the jar and turned his back to her, clearing his throat.

"You are so hard to forget, floating up and down in my heart, your smile and your every move are all my memories. You are so hard to forget, floating up and down in my heart, how much courage is needed to change yourself, How to calm down the turbulent mood..."

After singing, she took another sip of wine,

"I'm not confessing, don't get me wrong."