Qiao Yan Xiao Yu

"You...you were so clingy when you were young, why are you so heartless now, brother treats you badly?" Lu Di said aggrievedly, and her thoughts drifted back to more than ten years ago, "Look at you when you were young It’s like a soft little steamed bun, and it grows so big in a blink of an eye.”

"When you were born, you were red and small like a monkey, with wrinkles all over your body. When I saw you for the first time, I wondered how there could be such an ugly creature in the world." Speaking of this, Lu Di couldn't help but Consciously raised the corners of his mouth, his eyes glowed in the darkness.

"You're ugly." Lu Xiao retorted dissatisfied.

"Lu Xiao, do you know that after my mother left, the days when my father and I depended on each other were bitter, but they were still happy. Then your mother suddenly stepped into our father's life, and the first time I saw her At that time, I felt that this woman was very beautiful. And I also sighed, our father is lucky, and my mother is so beautiful. A French girl is willing to marry a man like our father who has no money and no power. A middle-aged man who is widowed and has a child is actually willing to marry a big girl with yellow flowers. Although your mother is very kind and gentle to me and my father, I really don’t like her, and I always feel that she will rob me Mother's position, I am hostile to her. But in the end, Dad and her got married under my cold violence, and really took my mother's position. I was only eight years old when they got married. Nothing I understand, but it's not that I don't understand at all, I always feel that my father will no longer only love me alone."

"...A year later, that woman became pregnant again, and I thought, this woman is really abominable. She stole my mother's husband and gave birth to a child to rob my father. At that time, I poured abortion pills into her bowl. I have my heart. But I dare not, I think that if I do this, I will not only lose my brother who has not yet been born, but maybe everything I have now is gone. So I thought, the big deal is with you Let's share a father, at least I still have half, if the father loves the younger son more, there will always be half and a third."

"I hated you for as long as you stayed in that woman's stomach, even though you were innocent. Then you were born prematurely. When I saw you for the first time, really, all the hatred in my heart disappeared. Oh, a fragile little life who doesn't understand anything and only knows how to cry, is obviously innocent, why should I hate you. Your mother is so good to me. After Dad and your mother get along, they will start again I can only blame my mother for not being left out in the cold. Because of your birth, I felt the warmth of home for the first time after my mother left. "

"Do you know what was the first human language you learned to speak?"

"It's an alien language that I said before?" Lu Xiao muttered.

"It's 'lefrefeaiee'" Lu Di didn't care about Lu Xiao's complaints, and continued to recall: "Brother in French, my whole family was so happy at the time, and said that I will let you master two mother tongues in the future. Think about it, Chinese Brother only has two pronunciations, and the French brother has such a long string of pronunciations, it seems that I am nagging at you all day."

"However, I think our father is really born to restrain his wife. After your mother gave birth to you, your body has been weak. She left when you were three years old. After your mother left, my father began to degenerate. One day I am addicted to alcohol, and the company doesn’t care about it, and I have to go to school and manage the company all day, so I’m exhausted.”

"At that time, you were only 15 years old, right?" Lu Xiao had almost no memory of childhood, and when Lu Di said this, Lu Xiao suddenly felt sad.

"Well, almost. At that time, the company was just getting started. If no one was in charge, something would happen. Fortunately, my father still has a bit of conscience. After a month of tossing, it stopped and regained its glory. The lifeless work every day, Mostly he wants to use work to fill his brain. In fact, I understand him. He is worried about us. If we were not there at that time, he would have gone with your mother. Later, I finally became an adult. His The tense strings are also broken. Do you think it’s easy for me to raise you up like a father and a mother?”

Lu Di made a twist and turn, and before Lu Xiao could react, he said to himself, "When you were in elementary school, you always developed slower than your peers. I wondered at that time whether you would always be so small in the future. Yes. You are always bullied for being small. Later, some bastard exposed our family background. You were always scolded at school as a child without a mother. The child at that time was really annoying, and no education was useful. I later I couldn’t bear to see you being bullied at school so I took you home and asked the tutor not to let you go to school. Would you hate me for doing this? You are so cold and unwilling to deal with strangers now because you didn’t go there much when you were young Is it because of the school? When you were here, according to our father’s family tradition, you had to go up and down for a physical examination and make a record. So I took you to the hospital for an examination. After the examination was good, a tumor was found Come."

"So you already knew?" Lu Xiao asked.

"Nonsense. The doctor reassured me that this tumor is benign, but the location is not very good. It is recommended to have radiotherapy for a year or so. After radiotherapy, you need to be happy physically and mentally. So I asked you if there is anything you want to do in particular. , the place I really want to go... I thought you would want to travel around the world or something, but you bastard actually told me that you wanted to study."

"You don't understand the thoughts of people who have less than one year of campus life experience."

"You haven't experienced China's more than ten years of exam-oriented education! You can study as long as you want to study, as long as you are happy. Later I thought, you can't be too tired to study, how can you achieve physical and mental pleasure if you are too tired, so I chose French as a major for you. Anyway, you have never listened to every class from novels to colleges, and it is not easy to fail. I don’t feel at ease if I send you to a third-rate school that is almost as good as it is, but a better prestigious university. , I don’t have that ability, and then I chose a university with a language major as its trump card. The school spirit is good, and it is the Yanshi University. The grandson of the principal said that the dormitories and classes on the school side are all arranged. In addition, there are too many freshmen learning French this year, and you don’t have any college entrance examination records, so you won’t be allowed to enter, that bastard... Later, there is no way, I think the school next door is similar, and our company The deputy director and the principal were uncles and nephews, so they had a meal together, and the principal agreed."

"Thank you." Lu Xiao reached out and hugged Lu Di in the dark.

Thank you for doing so many things for me without my knowledge.

"Thank you, I'm your brother, I should do it." Lu Di also reached out to hug Lu Xiao, the love in his eyes was so clearly visible even in the dark. "Just tell me, just study and enjoy the life of a normal college student, but why did you hook up with that kid?"

"..."

"Tell me, how did you fall in love with him?"

Lu Xiao closed his eyes, his mind was full of Qiao Luoyan's smiling faces.

"I think he's really missing half of his head. He's always noisy, but he's nice to everyone...that's the kind of kindness that doesn't pay back.” When it comes to Qiao Luoyan, Lu Xiao's eyes are full Started to flash, "Since he insisted on taking me to play games, it doesn't matter if he was scolded for giving me equipment; he is usually so economical but willing to spend money to buy me such an expensive scarf; knowing that I am allergic, he will help me without hesitation." Stop drinking; fight with me but only know how to stomp your feet..."

"Hey, pull it out, I don't understand that kind of thing, you give me peace of mind to cultivate, and don't contact him before the operation, the doctor wants you to maintain a stable mood. After the operation, you can do whatever you like, in the future you Come back to France with me, and go with him if he wants, France does not discriminate against homosexuals, maybe we can get a certificate."

"Um……"

The two chatted trivially for a while, and Lu Di fell asleep in a daze.Probably running up and down today is really exhausting.

But Lu Xiao couldn't sleep, Lu Di suddenly said these words to him, and he couldn't help but feel an inexplicable sense of foreboding in his heart.This tumor is actually quite serious. Lu Di said it was fine because he was afraid that he would worry.

Lu Xiao took out the mobile phone by the bedside and turned it on, but it was a clean screen. At this time, Qiao Luoyan must have fallen asleep.Simply turned off the phone.Tell him the truth after the operation is successful, if it fails...

Lu Xiao didn't dare to think about failure.

In the next few days, Lu Xiao was very obedient and did not call Qiao Luoyan, except for the occasional necessary text messages.Qiao Luoyan never called Lu Xiao. Although Lu Xiao was a little disappointed, he understood that the deadline for the project was getting closer, and now they were so busy that they probably wouldn't be able to eat, so why would they want to make a phone call.

When he was free, Lu Xiao would just read books to pass the time. After all, computers and TVs emit radiation, so we should minimize their use.Lu Xiao felt that in the past, he could spend a whole day reading a book by himself, but now the time for reading is getting slower and slower, and he can't help but want to check his phone.

On the third day, Lu Xiao was taken by Lu Di to the barber shop to have his head shaved to facilitate the surgery.

Lu Xiao stroked his bald head, thinking that if Qiao Luoyan saw him, he might laugh at him for a few days.

Lu Di seemed to see what was on Lu Xiao's mind, touched his bald head, and said with a smile: "Your head is round, which is suitable for bald heads. It's convenient to keep this hairstyle in the future."

Lu Xiao knocked off Lu Di's big hand that was only wandering over his head, "Come on, it looks like he just came out of a prison."

October 27th, ten o'clock in the morning, the day of surgery.

Before Lu Xiao entered the operating room, Lu Di squeezed his hand, a little choked up: "It's okay, minor surgery, we'll go back to City C together after we come out, and go to Qiao Luoyan's house to propose marriage in person."

"His family is not in City C." Lu Xiao smiled, then squeezed Lu Di's hand back, "Brother, it's okay."

Lu Di waited outside the door for several hours. From morning to afternoon, her buttocks did not move, and she smoked several packs of cigarettes. Lu Di felt that life was like a year at this time, and she only hoped that the operation door would open soon, and then the little nurse was excited Running out and telling myself the surgery was a success...

Six hours after the door of the operating room was closed, the green light on the door finally turned on. Soon Lu Xiao was on oxygen and was pushed out by several nurses.

Lu Di hurried over, Lu Xiao seemed to be asleep, his chest heaved slightly, his fair face was not bloodshot at all, and his pale cheeks were almost transparent.Lu Di's heart seemed to be pinched severely by someone. This is his brother, the brother he has loved for 19 years.

"The operation was considered a success, and it will not be life-threatening," the doctor said.

Lu Di breathed a sigh of relief, and his firm back finally bent a bit in relaxation.

Three days after the operation, Lu Xiao woke up completely. He slowly opened his unfocused eyes, opened his mouth, and found that his throat was so dry that he couldn't speak.

"elder brother."

"I'm here."

"We go home."

"Stop looking for Qiao Luoyan?"

"I'm not looking for Qiao Luoyan anymore."

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October 27th, at ten o'clock in the morning, City G.

Today at [-]:[-] noon is the time to hand in the project. After Qiao Luoyan finished typing the last semicolon of the project, he suddenly felt a throbbing pain in his heart, and then he fainted on the desk with black eyes.

Qiao Luoyan had a dream, he didn't remember what he dreamed of, he just woke up with sweat on his forehead.

Qiao Luoyan opened his eyes, and what he saw were Xiao Yao's eyes full of worry.Looking around, he was in the staff dormitory arranged by the company.

After seeing Qiao Luoyan wake up, Xiao Yao immediately breathed a sigh of relief, and the worry in his eyes gradually receded.

"MT, your physical strength is really weak, you actually fainted on the desk."

Qiao Luoyan looked at the clock hanging on the wall, it was already four o'clock in the afternoon, and he fell into a coma for six hours.Qiao Luoyan knew very well that he definitely didn't faint because of exhaustion. He touched his beating heart which was a little bit out of balance. This feeling is even stronger.

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