strayed into the world

[My heart often snows, no matter what the weather is.

It finally freezes suddenly and cannot be negotiated.

I look at the bustling and blooming world, fixed absence.

My heart began to snow, and the snow covered everything silently.

Annihilation of confusion, pride and sorrow.

When everything returns to silence, the world suddenly becomes clear and bright.

So don't be sad for me, I have my beauty and it's about to begin]

*****

As for the matter that everyone never mentioned, I finally had to be forced to mention it.

The day before leaving the hospital.The doctor finally helped Qing Che to check the wound, Xu Chi, Xiao Nai and Quan Ce were all there at the same time for the first time.Silently watching the doctor remove those gauzes for him, one layer after another...

He was like a ceramic doll without any expression, his dark pupils were filled with white and lost his former clearness, he remained motionless and let the layer of gauze on his wrist become thinner and thinner, revealing a long scar, Like a caterpillar living on the wrist.

Quan Ce heard a broken voice, and later he found out that it was his heart... Asking an inexplicable question that he couldn't let go of,

"...Will it leave a scar?"

There is a heavy haze between the brows, which is the rainy season that cannot be waved away.

"Based on the current recovery situation, it may be difficult to leave no scars at all... Besides, it's not surprising that such a deep wound will leave scars." The doctor sighed.Pity for the beautiful, flawless child.

"Is there any way to remove it?" Xiao Nai said.Quan Ce is not the only person who cares about the same.

"It depends on the healing of the wound. According to his current body, the wound heals very slowly, which will hinder the subsequent repair..." The doctor looked at the doll who had been quiet all the time. He was really the one he had seen before. The most beautiful child is also the calmest after waking up. He doesn't care about his own life or death, and doesn't care whether the wound on his hand will leave ugly scars. He has no pain or sadness from the beginning to the end. .

He was as quiet as a crystal clear porcelain. ...

"Slowly there will be a solution."

Everyone can hear the euphemism in the doctor's words, the suffocating heavy...

"It doesn't matter, I don't mind." The thin lips parted slightly, uttering a heart-wrenching sentence.He spoke so calmly.

Everyone in the room was stunned, stunned by his indifference or calmness, speechless.The doctor looked at him in surprise,

"You really don't mind?" Nobody did, at least not in his medical career.

Shaking his head, he doesn't mind...how could he mind the gifts he gave himself...he was just a little worried that others would mind, that he had a very unfortunate life and chose to escape...he was just worried that they would grow wantonly on his wrists, Will it look bad with a bracelet?He had never worn that bracelet before... that bracelet was more beautiful and important than his hand.

Is he too brave or too willful, or is he so fragile that he doesn't know how to say pain... This young man who is clearly still a child has too much forbearance and sadness. When will they let him go? Falling in love with him... what else can I say to comfort him, he finds that as a doctor, he is like a patient being comforted by him, he can only give him medicine, bandage, and only trivial advice,

"Don't do stupid things again, you know?"

"..." There was no answer, he was just trying to think about the meaning of this 'stupid thing', but Quan Ce couldn't bear to take that sentence anymore,

"There will be no future!" Absolutely not.

Looking at Quan Ce's categorical decision, Xu Chi and Xiao Nai have their own thoughts... They don't understand Qing Che's refusal to mention the incident, Quan Ce's crazy behavior, and even more unnatural concern now.You don't understand Qing Che's sudden strength, and Quan Ce's sudden nervousness... You think I'm invulnerable to swords and guns, but I think you're invulnerable to all poisons.The world of these two people is opposite to each other.

Compared to Quan Ce's agitation, Qing Che was extraordinarily calm on the contrary.He is still seriously thinking about that so-called 'stupid thing'...

Feelings are sometimes just a matter of one person and have nothing to do with anyone.

To love, or not to love, can only end on its own.He just made a break, and there will be no future with the past.

******

"Is there anything else I should pay attention to? Do you want to quit or something?" Xu Chi's words broke the solemn atmosphere. He is a doctor, and he is the one who has the most right to speak here.

"You can't eat meaty ones, and the medicine needs to be changed every two days. Don't let the wound get wet within a week, or it will be easy to get infected. He has hypoglycemia, and even a minor illness like this will affect the recovery of the wound. It depends on the family members to take good care of them.”

He said this to every patient who wanted to commit suicide, but this time he seemed to want to say something more, not to them, but to him, squatting down like an elder, facing his own child Seriously, rubbing the brown hair, the voice was so soft that only the two of them could hear,

"No matter at any time, you can't give up. Only when you give up will you have nothing. Understand?"

"...Doctor, I... have nothing."

If you don't pick it up, why put it down.If you don't get it, how can you lose it.Starting from a certain day, his heart has been snowing all year round, no matter what the weather is, it is always suddenly frozen and cannot be discussed.

Looking at the bustling and blooming world, he is always absent.The snow covered the heart lake, obliterating all possibilities of happiness.

and so……

"Don't be sad for me."

I am a flower that does not bloom. I am used to withering before I learn to bloom.

……

Don't know what they said recently.Seeing the expression change from surprise to bewilderment on Qing Che's face, everyone pondered.

*****

For a week after Qing Che was discharged from the hospital, Chen gave him tonic soup every day, and a small mountain of tonics was piled up.Those were all brought by Xu Chi and Xiao Nai, and they were told to give up only if there were few.Qing Che was completely treated as a national treasure, and Chen even didn't let him do anything. Although he could get out of bed and walk around, he rarely went out.

He either sat on the window sill in a daze all day long, or lay down on the desk to write and draw pictures. His injuries were almost healed. He was still wearing long sleeves, and the pure white cloth had the fragrance of soap on it.When Xu Chi came yesterday, he said that he looked good, not as pale as before.Qing Che just smiled, talking less than before.

The attitude of the servants in the villa towards Qing Che changed suddenly, from indifference before to respect now.I can't help but gossip in private, but I don't dare to really figure out the whole plan.

Quan Ce is rarely seen these days, and he has been seen a total of once since returning from the hospital.I don't know if they are hiding from each other on purpose, but they rarely see each other under the same roof.Except that Chen would be seen coming in with all kinds of chocolates every few days.

They're almost back to where they were before.He moved from Quan Ce's master bedroom back to his own small room, never daring to step into that study again.Even if she had to pass by, Qing Che would stand far away and would not die.

The memory did not fade with time, but became clearer and clearer as night fell.Confused, vague, scene after scene, bothering him sleepless every night.He would still be afraid of the pain that suffocated him that day, afraid of seeing his dilapidated self when he went in, afraid of remembering the helplessness at that time... not mentioning it doesn't mean he can forget it...

When you have nothing, you have to learn to be strong.

*****

Today, the sky is rarely clear.

The little maids were watering the flowers in the garden, and the laughter in twos and threes reached his ears, which made him feel at ease.Nesting himself on the soft couch by the window and curling up into a shrimp, he got used to this position even though it would make his hands and feet numb for a while.

The sunlight coming in from the window was warm and soft, warming his cheeks, making his eyelids heavier and heavier, and he fell asleep unconsciously...

……

Here, an underground casino.

"Master, it's that man. He already owes us more than 100 million and is still gambling. He is still telling people everywhere that he is Liao Laosan's friend. He is your friend."

Quan Ce has been very depressed recently, worrying that he has nowhere to vent, when he heard Liao San's name, he suddenly had an idea.

"It came just fine."

Quan Ce waved his hand, stopped his subordinates, and walked towards the gambling pool by himself.The deep eagle eyes were filled with a cold silver light, looking at the young man in sight.Sexy lips parted slightly,

"I heard that Quan has a new 'friend', why didn't I know."

The man turned his head and was startled when he saw Quan Ce suddenly appearing. He took a few steps back to distance himself from him.

"All, all."

"So it's you. That..." Quan Ce gracefully pointed at the few remaining chips in the hall with his slender fingers, "Excuse me, what's your name?"

The man's complexion was even more ugly, his face turned blue due to continuous staying up late, his cheeks were sunken, and the veins under his eyes were swollen.Quan Ce judged that besides gambling, this man also had the habit of taking drugs, so he continued without giving him a chance to answer,

"Liao San didn't give you enough money? It's because the business has been sluggish recently and there's no good stuff."

The man's pupils trembled when he heard Liao San, since Quan Ce knew his purpose, he should say it directly.

"Naturally. The best 'goods' were all bought by Quan Zong. Naturally, Mr. Liao's business is not doing well. Quan Zong, you picked up a big deal, and Xia Qingche is more than that price."

Hmph, what an idiot!

"How come it's cheap?"

The man leaned close to Quan Ce's ear and whispered softly. The wet and hot breath hitting Quan Ce's neck made him feel nauseous for a while, but the next words that broke into his ears really stirred up all the flames of his anger.

"Don't think that he only has a good-looking face. His body can definitely satisfy the whole president...I promise to be as sensitive as his person...Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh from ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Startled by a shrill scream, the casino was instantly silent, only to see Quan Ce twisting the man's shoulders and leaning against the man's back at an extremely twisted angle, the sound of dislocation of bones creaking in the silent air.It seemed that at any moment, white bones would come out of the flesh and blood, making one's hair stand on end and sending chills down one's back.

In fact, Quan Ce didn't realize that he would do it. He planned to play with him, but he didn't expect his instinct to react.Even though he had expected everything that happened to Xia Qingche.But the second he heard it from the man's mouth, the turbulent flames in his chest instantly overwhelmed his proud rationality, and the idea of ​​killing was so clear...

The others hurried out of the casino, leaving only Quan Ce's subordinates to close the gate.The man standing in the center had a resolute and murderous look on his handsome face of mixed oriental and European descent.

The bloodthirsty eyes looked down at the man who was panting like an ant. This dirty body should have been torn apart long ago... With his fingertips stuck in the flesh, Quan Ce lifted the man's dislocated arm, stepped on his back, and forcefully As soon as he pulled it, the man started to yell, but Quan Ce ignored it completely, and there was nothing other than killing in the eagle's eyes.As the cries grew louder, Quan Ce pulled the man's arm off his shoulders, leaving bloody flesh and tendons, dripping with blood, and the casino instantly turned into a purgatory on earth.

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!"

"Just use these hands..."

It was these hands that defiled the angel of God...

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

【"Don't... I'm dirty..."】

Quan Ce, who was bathed in blood and blood, was like Shura from hell.Gorgeous red lotuses bloomed every step he took, smelling the bloody wind, he remembered that angelic face...

Xia Qingche, we're even...

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