I can't hold back my heart

Xu Lingwei came to deliver VIP meals to Wei Xi's mother. Her mother was diagnosed with advanced cancer and said she would not live for a few years, so she persuaded her father to call her back from Italy in advance. She has been in the city hospital for a week. up.

At nearly 11 o'clock in the morning, she went to pick up her mother's new test report, and ran into Wei Xi's mother and aunt. Wei Xi's mother was lying on a movable hospital bed with blood on her arms. She was sent to the emergency room for wound treatment and stitching.

She learned about the situation from Wei Xi's aunt, and found a VIP ward for Wei Xi's mother to rest in advance. When Wei Xi passed by her mother's ward just now, Xu Lingwei saw Wei Xi, but she didn't go up immediately. , but to give Wei Xi time to talk to his mother.

As she expected, when Wei Xi saw her again, there was both disgust, nervousness and panic in Wei Xi's eyes, she chose to ignore it, walked into the ward with the VIP patient meal, smiled and said to Zhang Yu on the bed: "Auntie, I'll bring you dinner."

"I'm sorry, Lingwei." Zhang Yu smiled lovingly, and the memory of Xu Lingwei will always stay in her daughter's sophomore year, the sweet-mouthed and beautiful girl from a rich family who likes to wear red dresses the most.

Xu Lingwei has always maintained the previous persona in front of Wei Xi's mother, and this moment is no exception. She smiled and said: "Auntie, you are too out of touch. I used to eat and drink for nothing at your house for so many days..."

Xu Lingwei's voice was something Wei Xi didn't want to hear again, but since she was here to see her mother and was in harmony with her mother, she resisted the interruption, turned around again, lowered her head to peel the apple, and looked indifferent .

During the period, my aunt said that the child had a fever and she had to rush back to take care of her, and told her to take good care of her mother. Wei Xi then raised her eyes and said, "Auntie, don't worry, I am here for my mother."

It is still during the Mid-Autumn Festival holiday. Even after the holiday is over, she has almost no classes. She has finished all professional courses, and she has already completed the elective credits. There are only the situation and policies that will be taught in the last few weeks and her escape. In the two-year swimming class, she was in a special situation, and the college gave her permission to not go to the class, but she still had to pass the exam, otherwise she would not be able to get a degree certificate.

In other words, apart from preparing her graduation project, she now has full time to take care of her mother.

A few minutes after my aunt left, Xu Lingwei also said that she had something to leave. Wei Xi handed the peeled apple to her mother and got up to go out as well. She had something to say to Xu Lingwei.

Zhang Yu still remembered the last time when Lingwei was stuffed into the car by Xiaoxi at her house and sent down the mountain, and broke up unhappy, and told her: "Xiaoxi, communicate well if you have something to do, don't hurt your relationship."

"Yeah." Wei Xi nodded, not wanting to worry her mother. Her mother still doesn't know the relationship between her and Xu Lingwei and Xu Qiao. She only thinks that Xu Lingwei is her good friend as before.

After Xu Lingwei got out of the ward, she deliberately walked a little further away, went to the place with the metal chair and sat down, waiting for Wei Xi to come out.

"I knew you would come." With a faint smile on Xu Lingwei's face, she patted the seat next to her lightly, "I'm just sitting here waiting for you to come." Her tone was also light, as if they could still chat easily good friend.

But Wei Xi would not forget what Xu Lingwei had done before. She was so nervous that she sat in a seat apart from Xu Lingwei.

"Why did you come back early?" Wei Xi's voice was indifferent, and he looked at Xu Lingwei with cold eyes, as if it was snowing suddenly in midsummer.

There was still a smile on the corner of Xu Lingwei's mouth, and she bent her lips indifferently. She knew very well that this was Wei Xi's style when facing her. Not only was her eyes wary and distant, her voice was cold, her tone was also indifferent, as if their past friendship was no longer there. same.

"I'm back, don't you seem very happy?"

Wei Xi frowned slightly, and looked sideways at Xu Lingwei, puzzled.

I don't know if it was her illusion, but Wei Xi felt that after Xu Lingwei came back this time, she was a little different from before, her hostility seemed to be completely subdued, as if she had changed back to the Xu Lingwei who had no estrangement with her overnight.

It must be an illusion, Wei Xi put this idea aside in his mind.

"Why are you so nervous?" Xu Lingwei laughed, loosened her shoulders, put her hands on the iron chair, and slowly moved to Wei Xi's side, "I won't eat you again."

Wei Xi didn't want to get too close to her, so he stood up from the chair immediately.

"It's boring." Xu Lingwei had no choice but to move back in the same way in the opposite direction, before Wei Xi sat down again.

Wei Xi asked her straight to the point: "What is your purpose for coming back this time?"

"So you're so afraid of me? Wei Xi." Xu Lingwei laughed again, and slowly raised her right hand to admire. The color of her long manicure was reflected in the pupils of her eyes, which were doubled in size after makeup, like the color of blood.

If Wei Xi was alone, then she would not be afraid of Xu Lingwei, but she is not alone, she has a mother who raised her up, and a little girl who wants to love her forever, these two are very precious to her , she was afraid that Xu Lingwei would transfer her hatred to her mother and little girl.

"Relax, don't be nervous." Xu Lingwei comforted Wei Xi, she saw a trace of fear in Wei Xi's deep and incomprehensible eyes, and there was a strange feeling in her heart that she couldn't explain.

When she was about to say something more, her father's assistant, Uncle Zhang, came out of the ward suddenly, and called her with a panicked expression: "Miss Xu, madam asked me to find you back."

"Then goodbye first, Wei Xi." Xu Lingwei stood up, said goodbye with a smile, and went back to her mother's ward.

Wei Xi just sat there and watched Xu Lingwei walk into the VIP ward in front. Could it be that Xu Lingwei also has family members who are sick and hospitalized?

After sitting there for a while, she also got up and went back to the ward to take care of her mother.

There was a young female nurse standing beside the hospital bed. She set up a small table for her mother on the bed. The dinner Xu Lingwei sent was placed on it, including rice, chicken soup, green vegetables, and a small plate of fruit, which were nutritionally balanced.

"This is the nurse Lingwei hired." Seeing her daughter's return, Zhang Yu took the initiative to explain, and then asked with concern, "Xiaoxi, have you reconciled with Lingwei?"

Wei Xi was silent, she was thinking why Xu Lingwei would suddenly help her when she hated her so much before.

There are two beds in the VIP ward, which is convenient for the accompanying person to sleep in. After 9 o'clock in the evening, mother fell asleep. Wei Xi walked out of the ward lightly and went to the corridor to call the little girl.

"Sister Wei Xi, is Auntie feeling better?" Li Li had been waiting for Wei Xi to contact her, and asked immediately after answering the phone, very anxious.

A warm current rose from the bottom of my heart, "Well, it's much better, and I'm already asleep now." Wei Xi replied softly.

She kept the volume down, but the reverberation could still be heard in the corridor.

"Sister Wei Xi, I want to visit my aunt in the hospital tomorrow, is that okay?" The sweet voice of the little girl came from the phone again, seriously asking for her opinion.

She really wants her mother to see the little girl, but she is a little afraid that the little girl will run into Xu Lingwei when she comes over. Xu Lingwei still remembers what Xu Lingwei did to the little girl before, so she doesn't want to take risks.

She hesitated.

"I'll leave as soon as I see Auntie." Li Li acted like a baby. She felt that, as sister Wei Xi's girlfriend, she had the responsibility to visit Auntie at this moment. Sister Wei Xi had always been very kind to her family. It is impossible to do nothing.

"Okay." Wei Xi couldn't help but soften his heart and compromise.

She thought it over clearly, Xu Lingwei has always maintained her previous appearance in front of her mother, even if she meets her, she will not easily tear her face in front of her mother, she and the little girl are already together, this is a fact, it is impossible to hide Xu Lingwei's life , Some things have to be faced, the little girl has always been very brave, and she has to hold the little girl's hand to face it with her.

"Li Li, I will send you the specific floor and ward number later."

"Okay." Li Li happily responded.

Wei Xi said worriedly again: "Forget it...you should contact me when you get to the hospital, and I'll pick you up."

"What? Sister Wei Xi, I'm not a road idiot, so I won't get lost in the hospital." Li Li turned over on the soft bed and laughed dumbfounded.

Wei Xi insisted, "I'll pick you up."

During the day, there were many people in the hospital, and they were rushing to each other. She was afraid that the little girl would not be able to find someone to ask for directions, and she still remembered that the little girl had a shadow. If she didn't go to pick it up, the little girl would be afraid.

"Okay." Li Li didn't refuse any more, and said with a smile, "Sister Wei Xi, I'll be there at noon tomorrow."

"Well, good night, see you tomorrow." After hanging up the phone, Wei Xi stood there for a while, when she stepped out of the corridor and was about to go back to the ward, she heard someone calling her.

"Wei Xi." Xu Lingwei leaned against the white wall in the corridor, her voice was smiling, she didn't know when she started standing here.

"You eavesdropped on my phone calls?" Wei Xi asked coldly, a little angrily.

Xu Lingwei still smiled, no longer leaning against the wall, but straightened up and approached her, the lights in the hospital corridor were very bright, that kind of cold white light, Xu Lingwei was still wearing a red dress, with a kind of thriller in a horror movie Sensation, the fiery red lips parted slightly, "I said I happened to pass by and thought it was interesting, so I stopped and listened for a while, do you believe it?"

The tone is lazy, as if chatting with a good friend.

Wei Xi didn't respond, but just stared at her seriously and cautiously, trying to find her intentions from her always smiling face, although Xu Lingwei's behavior today was not as aggressive as before, Wei Xi still had lingering fears.

"I'm serious." Xu Lingwei stood still, folded her arms in front of her, with a helpless tone.

Wei Xi didn't care if it was true or not, and didn't want to hear her gossip anymore, so he opened his lips indifferently: "I'll transfer to you how much it cost to find a ward and dinner."

"10 billion." Xu Lingwei blurted out, seeing Wei Xi's more serious and cold face as expected.

"Okay, I won't make fun of you." Xu Lingwei suppressed her smile and became serious, "I said it was to repay Auntie, the previous summer practice, and the relaxation last time. Although you sent me down the mountain mercilessly later, I I still remember Auntie's kindness."

"How much?" Wei Xi persisted and asked again, not wanting to owe Xu Lingwei.

Xu Lingwei waved her hand, "No, I asked you for so much money before, so you should take it from the money."

Dad told her that Wei Xi didn't want the money she tried to compensate Wei Xi before, and the money she asked for from Wei Xi was also stored in a card, and she didn't spend a penny.

Wei Xi's expression softened, and he asked in puzzlement, "Xu Lingwei, what exactly do you want to do?"

"I don't know." Xu Lingwei let out a faint breath, raised her right hand, and her fingertips seemed to hold a cigarette, but in fact there was nothing there, "Just think that I suddenly want to be a good person. A good person must do good deeds, right? It is fate that I happened to meet Auntie today."

Wei Xi remained silent, doubting Xu Lingwei's words.

They watched each other quietly under the cold white light. Wei Xi didn't quite understand Xu Lingwei now, let alone how Xu Lingwei saw her now.

After a while, Xu Lingwei spoke again: "Wei Xi, my mother's stomach cancer is at an advanced stage, and the doctor said that she only has 1 to 3 years to live. You said that if I start to accumulate virtue for her now, can it prolong her life?"

Wei Xi was shocked.

But life is so fragile sometimes. Wei Xi's impression of Xu Lingwei's mother is still at Xu Qiao's funeral. rush.

His throat seemed to be choked by something, and it took him a while to make a sound, "Is this why you returned home early?" Wei Xi asked.

"That's right..." If it weren't for this, it would be impossible for Dad to let her return from Italy in advance.

It was my mother who was crying and fussing on the hospital bed and not cooperating with the treatment, which made my father relieved.

When she received a call from her mother asking her to go back to China, something filled her empty heart in a foreign country. The plane ticket had been booked for her at home. She took her documents and boarded the plane without packing her luggage. When she arrived at the airport in City H, she saw her father who had aged a lot after not seeing him for just two months. "Where's Mom?"

"Your mother is...in the hospital."

Xu Lingwei's relaxed and happy mood because of returning to China was swept away in an instant, replaced by endless panic and fear, her heart seemed to be suppressed by a heavy iron, and she was a little out of breath.

On the way to the hospital, Xu Lingwei didn't dare to ask any more questions, and Xu Nian didn't elaborate, the father and daughter just kept silent in such a tacit understanding.

When she arrived in the ward, her mother was losing her temper. The nurse brought her lunch, but she didn't want to eat it. Xu Lingwei thought that she was like this when she was a child, and she didn't want to eat. Her mother always coaxed her to eat patiently.

Mother has many problems, she often quarrels with her father, and Xu Lingwei often feels that her mother is unreasonable, but her mother dotes on her and her younger brother.

Seeing her coming, my mother stopped making trouble all of a sudden.

Xu Lingwei stayed with her mother in the ward without going home. The nurses and nurses said that after she came back, her mother's mood stabilized a lot, but when she asked her mother's attending doctor if her condition would improve, the doctor gave her The answer is that the odds are slim.

She still had a smile on her face, but the smile didn't reach her eyes, she watched Wei Xi silently, always feeling that Wei Xi might empathize with her a little bit at this time.

Wei Xi's indifferent eyes released a trace of compassion, and Xu Lingwei noticed that Wei Xi always seemed to have a faint melancholy temperament, which strongly attracted her.

"You and Li Li...should be together, right?" Xu Lingwei changed the subject, and Wei Xi immediately became nervous.

Sure enough, she really likes that little sister, Xu Lingwei bent her lips and smiled, she couldn't express the envy in her heart, and she didn't know where the original jealousy had gone, but Wei Xi still looked at her very vigilantly.

Xu Lingwei reflected that she seemed to have really done a lot of things to target and hurt that little sister before, no wonder Wei Xi was so nervous and even looked at her like an enemy.

Wei Xi tensed up, waiting for Xu Lingwei's next words, but Xu Lingwei just raised her hand to her mouth, yawned softly, "Go to sleep, good night." Then she left.

After standing still for a while, Wei Xi also went back to her mother's ward.

In the early morning of the next day, Li Li got up early in the morning. She bought a lot of vegetables online, and went downstairs early in the morning to go out to pick up some food for herself.

After taking a large bag of meat and vegetables to the kitchen, Li Li formed a team for them according to the recipe, washing and cooking the vegetables.

At 7 o'clock in the morning, grandma came down to cook porridge, looked at her indifferently with sunken eyes, and left the kitchen without saying anything.

At 8 o'clock in the morning, Li Xuan went downstairs and heard "ping-pong" in the kitchen. He thought it was the old lady who had started preparing lunch early in the morning. When he went in, he found that it was Ah Li who was holding a kitchen knife, randomly chopping the sticky board and returning it. The fish that was bouncing around carelessly shrugged its small shoulders, and couldn't chop it right. Li Xuan guessed that she must be about to cry from fright.

Li Li's eyes were red, and she didn't think there was anything wrong with eating fish before, but now she was asked to start from scratch, and she was so flustered that she couldn't do anything.

"A Li, what are you doing?" Li Xuan walked into the kitchen and snatched the knife from her daughter.

Standing beside her father, Li Li said with some embarrassment: "Sister Wei Xi's mother is sick and hospitalized. I told her to go to see my aunt at noon. I didn't want to go empty-handed, but I wanted to try to cook some nutritious lunch."

"That's it." Li Xuan nodded understandingly. It's a good thing for her daughter to have such a heart, but her daughter doesn't have much cooking experience, and her performance just now can be called a kitchen killer.

"A Li, help daddy get a bowl of porridge for your mom, and come down later, daddy will deal with this fish for you first." Li Xuan said to his daughter.

"Okay, thanks Dad."

Li Li knew that killing fish was not good, so she quickly filled a bowl of porridge and fled the scene. When she came back, her father had already cleaned up the fish and cut it into pieces.

"I'll do the rest." She took back the power from her father, "Dad, go up and accompany Mom."

Li Xuan said worriedly: "Remember to call Dad if you have something to do."

Li Li fully agreed that after sending her father away, she would really show her talents.

She clicked on the video recipe, read it first, and silently remembered that she strictly followed the recipe. First, marinate the fish with wine for 20 minutes, and then fry the fish. Dealing with oil is always the part Li Li is most afraid of. Covered by the pot cover, he managed to fry the fish until golden, but his wrist still couldn't avoid being splashed by the two drops of oil, it hurt a little, luckily it wasn't his face, Li Li comforted himself, added sliced ​​ginger, and poured it into the pot again Pour hot water into the pot and start to stew the fish soup. After the stew is finished, add some tofu and baby vegetables, season with salt, put some in an insulated box, and put the rest in the microwave to warm it up for your parents. and grandma.

She steamed the rice later, and made scrambled eggs with tomatoes and boiled cabbage heart according to the recipe. These two dishes failed many times, but fortunately, she bought a lot of dishes, and finally tasted them before her tongue was almost numb. from expected.

After 10 o'clock and almost 11 o'clock, Li Li quietly went out with two insulated boxes, and left a note for her parents, saying that there was stewed fish soup and vegetables in the microwave.

Li Yuren didn't go downstairs until 11 o'clock, and wanted to send his daughter to the hospital, but her daughter was gone. He saw the note, glanced at the microwave oven, smelled the aroma, and thought it tasted good, but the kitchen used by his daughter was miserable. Some, the kitchen utensils were messy, and there were vegetable leaves on the ground and in the sink. He smiled helplessly and dotingly, and started to tidy up the kitchen.

Li Li took a taxi to the city hospital. When she got off the car and entered the hospital under the scorching sun, she called Wei Xi and waited at the door on the first floor.

Wei Xi immediately got up from her chair to go downstairs when she received the call, but her mother stopped her and asked with a smile, "Xiao Xi, who's here?"

"It's the girl I like."

About half an hour ago, Wei Xi confessed to his mother: "Mom, I want to tell you something."

"In love?" Zhang Yu asked jokingly.

Unexpectedly, the daughter gave a very serious "um" and then said, "Mom, I like girls."

Zhang Yu remembered that her younger sister Zhang Rong had discussed with her about Xiaoxi's relationship with her before, and her sister had asked her if she could accept the possibility that Xiaoxi might like girls. What she said at the time was that as long as Xiaoxi is happy, what does it matter to boys and girls? relation.

Now, her answer is still the same.

"Hmm." She responded with a smile.

Wei Xi has always known that her mother is always tolerant of her and rarely interferes with any decision against her, but in this matter, she is more or less panicked, "Mom, don't you think I'm weird? ?”

"What's so strange?" Zhang Yu squinted her eyes, even though she was old, her eyes were still dark and bright, and there was always tenderness and kindness in her eyes, "It's just that the world is incompatible, but in this life, You have to live for yourself, as long as you are serious about dating, your mother will support you."

"Xiaoxi, is the girl you like Lingwei?" Zhang Yu asked with a smile.

Wei Xi blushed slightly and shook her head, "No."

"Oh, who is that?" Zhang Yu wondered what kind of girl could make Xiaoxi's iron tree bloom.

"Mom, she will come to see you later, so you can see her."

The mother and daughter looked at each other and smiled, and Zhang Yu waved her hands childishly, "Go, go." She couldn't wait to see the girl her daughter was talking about.

Wei Xi found Li Li at the door on the first floor, she was standing outside under the eaves, without stepping in.

"Sister Wei Xi." Li Li's eyes lit up when he saw Wei Xi walking towards her.

When he wanted to hold hands, he found that both hands were holding insulated boxes, which was restricted. Wei Xi naturally reached out to take one of the boxes, and took Li Li's hand that had just been released with the other hand, and asked with a smile: "What are these? What, lunch?"

"Yes." Li Li nodded, a little shy, "I made it according to the recipe, and I don't know if it suits Auntie's taste."

"Don't worry, mom will definitely like it." Wei Xi turned her head to the right, and noticed that there were two spots on Li Li's white arm like a lotus festival. It looked like it was splashed by oil. She remembered that Li Li was very afraid oily.

Li Li noticed her distressed gaze, blinked her big eyes, and said with a smile: "Sister Wei Xi, I'm fine, really."

"Don't do it again next time." Wei Xi said with a firm expression.

Wait for Li Li to say "OK" before relaxing.

When she arrived at the door of the ward, Li Li's palms were sweating wildly, Wei Xi comforted her: "Don't be nervous, my mother is not scary."

Li Li nodded, and wanted to let go of Wei Xi's hand first, but Wei Xi held her tightly. Just when she was confused, Wei Xi pulled her into the ward.

She saw the woman sitting on the hospital bed with a gentle face, she was definitely the gentlest person she had ever seen.

"Hello, Auntie." When they met for the first time, holding hands with Wei Xi in front of the elders, Li Li was so nervous that he stuttered.

The author has something to say: My sister's mother likes her very much!

Suddenly found that it has not been updated so early in a long time~