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Yu Bai looked at him with great interest: "Why, you don't remember?"

"..." Zhao Jun inexplicably smelled the meaning of asking questions from this rather gentle question. Although the dream was a soul with no senses, there was a deep chill.

He tried desperately to recall the assholes he had done—although his subconscious told him that it was more likely to admit his mistakes at this time than to seriously think about it and survive.

"Ah Bai, I..." Zhao Jun was pitiful, "Although I don't remember what I did, no matter what I did, I must have done something wrong, but that was what I did before, not what I am now. , I have long since quit doing that kind of stupid thing..."

He slammed on the brakes.I just heard Yu Bai leisurely say: "You fainted directly in the Yannan Pavilion, I sent you back to the bedroom with Eunuch Li, did you forget?"

Zhao Jun: "..."

He hastily withdrew from his whirlwind thoughts, and finally vaguely remembered what happened back then.

It turned out that it was the day when Yu Bai slashed his neck and induced Jin Chan to have a backflow of blood for the first time.What else happened that day...that day?Zhao Jun tried hard to think back, always feeling as if he had missed something important.

"Stop talking nonsense, I have something to ask you." Yu Bai pondered, "On that day, did you give me the identity document and the token to leave the palace?"

"……"I see.Zhao Jun's face suddenly became very exciting.

Under Yu Bai's scrutinizing eyes, he reluctantly admitted: "It's sort of."

"Yes, yes or no, what do you mean by 'is it right'?" Yu Bai glanced over, "Or, did you send someone to destroy the thing?"

Zhao Jun yelled that he was wronged: "I didn't!"

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For Zhao Jun, it was a night of life and death.

When he was 20 years old, he discovered that he had abnormal heart arteries. After the diagnosis and treatment by the imperial physicians, they all said that the disease was congenital and could not be cured by ordinary medical skills.At that time, Imperial Physician Su stroked his beard and sighed, "Your Majesty, everyone has their own destiny."

Zhao Jun didn't want to accept his fate.Perhaps it was God's pity, Miao Jiang, who is also proficient in Gu art from Zhao's royal family, was gracious. He took medicine for many years and endured it for many years. Once he ascended the throne, he secretly summoned the saint girl of Miao Jiang to the capital to repair it with the power of Miao Jiang's Golden Cicada Gu. Cardiac, prolong life.

Perhaps it was also because the sky never stopped him. On that day, he ushered in the most tragic illness in his life of more than 20 years.Precisely on this night, the chariot of the Miao Jiang saintess finally arrived at Chang'an City.

When he woke up, it was already three days later.For the past three days, he was unconscious and comatose. The gate of Qian'an Palace was closed tightly, like a dark cloud, and everyone was silent.

But at this time, it was too late.

He went to see Yu Bai who also woke up from a deep sleep. The boy's face was stern, no matter how much he pleaded, he didn't say a word, even if he told Yu Bai that the token of leaving the palace and the identity document were the eyeliner placed under him by the queen mother destroyed.

Maybe it was because he witnessed the destruction of hope with his own eyes, maybe it was because he had suffered too many unbearable stimuli these days, his memory stayed in the court staff in the Compassionate Ning Palace.He selectively forgot that promise and replaced it with a deeper loathing of himself.

Yes, only disgust.

Looking at Yu Bai's undisguised profile of disgust, he couldn't help thinking, even if they weren't destroyed, what's the point of leaving the palace token and identity documents?The fault has already been made, and it will not help to make up for it.

He returned from wandering on the line of life and death, looked at Yu Bai again, and seemed to suddenly understand something.Now that you have reached the abyss, why not jump down along the abyss?I don't want to have a long way to go, I just want to be entangled with each other until death, and I will go with Huang Quan.

So from then on, all the false warmth they once had disappeared, and they became enemies who tortured each other completely.When Yu Bai plotted against the queen mother and even murdered his concubine, he threatened Yu Bai's elder sister, whose whereabouts were unknown, and the two often suffered injuries.

In those years, Yu Bai never showed weakness, nor did he back down.It's just that everyone has forgotten that it was destroyed by a third party that made this torture that may end early

Hearing this past incident, Yu Bai suddenly realized that what he had missed was the jackal's only softening of his heart.

If you miss it, you can never look back.

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While the two were silent, the fog gradually thickened.

Suddenly, Hua Jianming's haunting voice came from mid-air: "There is not much time, so talk quickly. It's not a gourd with its mouth sawn."

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Zhao Jun lowered his eyes and said, "That's how things are."

Yu Bai opened his mouth: "You...was it because of me that you got sick?"

——If the saint hadn't arrived in time, would he have died that night?He couldn't help but think of the blood-stained pieces of porcelain, the horrific scar on the front of his neck, and the gurgling blood.

Zhao Jun shook his head, and stopped his wild thoughts in time: "I can't explain my pulse problem clearly, Abai, you don't have to blame yourself."

He sighed lowly: "At that time, I found that you forgot, so I didn't mention it again. You hate me anyway, and you can't forgive me again, so why should I let you go? Broken The jar is broken."

At the end of the sentence, there was an inexplicable sense of grievance.

"I made a wrong step. I made a wrong step. You already hate me. I don't want you to hate Qi Zhao anymore. I hate Qi Zhao for not fulfilling his promise to you."

That brief first encounter was a wound that none of them wanted to touch.

Yu Bai remained silent for a long time, and said, "I'm sick."

Zhao Jun admitted it happily: "I am sick."

"From childhood to adulthood, the most important thing I have learned is to grab what I like. The eagle I raised was robbed by Zhao Kai, the books I liked were destroyed, and once I almost lost my place. At that time I knew that only what I held firmly in my hand was my own."

As if remembering something terrible, Zhao Jun's heartbeat accelerated a lot. He closed his eyes and calmed down his shortness of breath: "When I heard the news of your family's accident, I panicked. , I am afraid that you will leave me again like in my nightmare..."

"Later I took you into the palace, but you refused to pay attention to me because of my status. I didn't hold back, I just wanted you, and I regretted it, but I said it bastardly, and I felt a little relieved, as if I did this , can prove that you will not leave me..."

The past was vivid in his mind, Yu Bai listened to Zhao Jun's intermittent chatter, his expression became more and more silent.

When Zhao Jun stopped, Yu Bai said softly, "But I'm human."

Zhao Jun was taken aback for a moment.

Yu Bai finally couldn't bear it: "I am a person, not an object!"

Years of grievances gushed out in an instant.He has always been restrained, but now he can hardly control himself, and the scenes in his eyes are indelible.

Those who were named in the name of love, brought all kinds of pain to the past.

Those pasts that he knew were wrong, but couldn't help betraying his heart and sinking into them.

Seeing the water in Yu Bai's eyes clearly, Zhao Jun panicked for a moment, and before he could move forward, he staggered.Suddenly, he was pulled out of the dream like this.

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In the imperial palace in the first year of Cheng Yuan, Yu Bai slowly opened his eyes in the middle of the night, and suddenly found that his face was full of tears.

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"How is it?" In Maple Leaf Villa, Hua Jianming leaned over and asked gossipingly, "Have you turned a war into a treasure?"

Zhao Jun shook his head, showing a bit of bewilderment: "It seems... it's getting worse."

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In the early morning kitchen, owner Qi and a certain half-baked god took the place of the cook, kneading the dough and lighting the fire. They were very busy, but they still didn't forget to bicker.

As soon as Zhao Jun thought of the water in Yu Bai's eyes, he wanted to beat his chest and stamp his feet: "You can't hold on for a while, let me say a few more words? Do you know that I am talking about a critical moment!"

"Standing and talking doesn't hurt your back. That's not what you said when you asked me to do something." Hua Jianming rolled his eyes, "I can't even say a few words. I've lived for almost 200 years and I haven't seen any You are such a waste of waste."

Zhao Jun cast a skeptical look: "You really lived almost 200 years?"

Oh, mortals.Hua Jianming shrugged his shoulders: "It's true."

"You've lived for almost 200 years, and you can't even perform a time-traveling spell. How dare you show off your age?" Zhao Jun sneered twice, "I think you look more like a waste."

Hua Jianming was really irritated: "Who are you calling trash? You heartless bastard!"

"I...do you think you are so good?" Zhao Jun choked, and immediately asked him to find the topic again, "You should think about why your master hasn't shown up until now, it's so stupid."

Hua Jianming slapped the basin of glutinous rice flour over.

Zhao Jun was shocked at first, and then furious: "You! That's what I used to make rice balls for Ah Bai!"

For some reason, Hua Jianming didn't continue to tease him.Zhao Jun suddenly sensed something was wrong, looked back tremblingly, and saw Yu Bai standing in front of the kitchen door, looking at the two of them quietly.

Afterwards, Hua Jianming commented generously: "He seems to be looking at a Western monkey."

Two Western monkeys covered in glutinous rice flour stood in the kitchen, and one of them wiped his hands on his robe bewilderedly: "Ah Bai..."

Yu Baileng cut him off coldly: "I want to see my sister."

After all these days, I finally agreed to talk to him.Zhao Jun heaved a sigh of relief in his heart, and nodded quickly: "Okay, okay, I'll take you there..."

Yu Bai said, "What conditions do you have?"

Chapter 104 "I have been trying my best not to be the original Zhao Jun, not to be the person you hate."

After a long half an hour, there was a steaming bowl of fermented glutinous rice balls in front of Yu Bai.

"Eat this bowl of Jiuniang Yuanzi." Zhao Jun nodded his chin, "I will take you to Ruoshui City to meet my sister after eating. I will never break my promise."

Yu Bai stared at the small bowl of balls with round heads and round brains for a long time, finally picked up the spoon, scooped one up and put it into his mouth with determination.

The taste of the entrance is very magical.Yu Bai: "..."

Zhao Jun, who was watching anxiously waiting for the result, said, "... isn't it delicious?"

He was asking tentatively—a joke, the rice dumplings he made with his own hands, and he even asked the chef in charge of the entire meal in the villa, how could it not be delicious?

"... sour." Yu Bai was silent for a long time, "Did you put white vinegar in it as rice wine?"

Hua Jianming, who was watching the excitement, burst out laughing.

Yu Bai pushed the bowl, raised his head and asked, "Is there any more glutinous rice flour?"

Zhao Jun said dryly: "Yes... yes."

Yu Bai stood up: "Get out of the way."

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Smoke billowed from the kitchen again.

Half an hour later, Zhao Jun held the hot bowl dreamily and did not let go: "Did you see, Ah Bai made it for me."

Hua Jianming scoffed coldly: "That's because he thinks your cooking is too unpalatable."

"You are jealous." Zhao Jun turned his face away in disdain, "Anyway, your master didn't do it for you."

Hua Jianming gritted his teeth: "Does your surname Zhao deserve a beating?"

"If you beat me up, who will you eat and drink?" Zhao Jun raised his eyelids and gave him a white look, "By the way, don't all you gods eat human food, why are you the exception?"

"...I'm glad you can control me?" Hua Jianming was so depressed that he simply dragged the bowl across and began to eat in big mouthfuls.

Zhao Jun was strangely silent for two seconds: "...that's what I did."

The choking sour taste collided slowly and violently in the mouth.Hua Jianming chewed the sour glutinous rice balls in his mouth, and suddenly fell silent.

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The carriage went straight to Qin's residence in Ruoshui City, and before getting off the carriage, Zhao Jun specifically told Yu Bai that it was best not to tell Yu Wan that he came from the first year of Chengyuan—if he didn't want to cause trouble.In addition, he left without saying goodbye two years ago, and today is the first time to go back after two years. According to Yu Wan's temper, he must be reprimanded.

When he was talking, Yu Bai lowered his eyes and didn't know what he was thinking, and he didn't know how much he listened to.However, he has always been smart, and although the theory of traveling through time is absurd, seeing the vast difference between the scene here and the palace in the past, he should be able to understand that what Zhao Jun said is not a lie.

"Abai." As the trip was about to end, Zhao Jun said softly, "Although there are many things you haven't experienced, I should still say sorry to you. You may not understand now..."

"Will I understand in the future?" Yu Bai suddenly said coldly, "Even if I understand, that person is not 'me'."

Zhao Jun was silent for a long time, only raising the curtain for him.

Looking at the back figure that disappeared into the house, he put down the curtain of the car, pressed the position of his heart, and sighed for a long time: "Go back."

Feng Shishi asked in surprise, "Don't wait...don't you wait for Ah Bai?"

"He's gone, I'm afraid he doesn't want to come back." Zhao Jun didn't know who he was comforting, "Forget it, if there were no accidents, he should have left me at this time."

Feng Shishi squinted his eyes, looked and looked at Qin's house, and finally couldn't help saying: "Hey, I seem to...see a person descending from the sky into the house."

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Ruo Shui City, Qin House.

A group of servants held their breath and concentrated, each of them hid without a shadow, and did not dare to breathe.Occasionally, a few people whispered, proving that unusual and important events were happening in the family.

"I heard that Madam's younger brother is back..."

"Then Madam should be happy. I often hear Madam talk about this younger brother."

"What do you know? I heard that my uncle and young master lived at home to recuperate from his illness. He wanted to leave before his injury healed. Seeing that his wife refused, he left by himself. After leaving for two years, he never heard from him. No wonder his wife was angry. Woolen cloth."

The gossip of the servants faded away.

Just as Zhao Jun reminded, he entered the Qin family's gate smoothly, and met Yu Wan by chance when Yuanzi was waiting for others to communicate.Seeing him turning his head and leaving, Yu Wan made up her mind not to give good face to this guy who wandered the world without saying goodbye, but before she got further angry, Yu Bai couldn't help but shed tears.

Facing the figure who was turning to leave, he choked up and called out to his sister.

At this moment, he is really just a 17-year-old boy. He is not as good at acting like a spoiled child like he will be in the future. He is full of withdrawn and sharp self-protection after undergoing great changes in his family and himself. The panic and bluntness left at a loss.

"Sister, you... how have you been all these years?"

"Don't bother Mr. Yu to ask." Yu Wanqing snorted coldly, "I want to know if I'm alright, so why go away without telling me? I can't afford Mr. Yu's greeting."

There was silence behind him, probably still thinking that everything would be fine after she finished the training, as before.

——Take a step back, the more you think about it, the more angry you become, and the more you think about it for a while, the more you suffer.Yu Wan couldn't help but sarcastically said again: "Mr. Yu left without saying goodbye for two years. Once he came back, he was able to turn the test gold building upside down. He is very capable. Why do you need me as a sister? Did you come back today to show off your power? "

Still silent.

It's really long.Yu Wan's seven orifices smoked, and she turned her head suddenly: "You..."

The dark white and red eye sockets came into view impressively.

Whether it's Yu Wan's reprimand or sarcasm, they all prove to him the fact that he has really returned to the time he dreamed of, with his relatives by his side, without worries and fears - after enduring for so long, he suddenly I couldn't bear it anymore.

Knife mouth and bean curd heart, this is probably the most similar place between the siblings.She suddenly panicked, stepped forward to meet him in three steps at a time, and grabbed his shoulder: "Ah Bai, what's wrong with you?"

"Did your master treat you badly?" Yu Wan's voice became severe, "Or is someone bullying you again? Ah Bai, look at me!"

Yu Bai shook his head vigorously, wiped away the tears that were about to overflow from his eyes, and smiled at his elder sister: "No one bullies me... Sister, I just miss you."

In the nearby pavilion, Qin Xianzhi hugged his little girl and secretly watched the movement through the small window. After seeing the siblings hugging each other and crying, he finally breathed a sigh of relief.

——If this is the case, it will be over.

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For Yu Bai at this time, this is undoubtedly a dream day.When he was lying on the bed at night and was about to fall asleep, he still didn't dare to close his eyes, for fear that when he opened them again, he would return to the cold palace and face the emperor with the heart of a jackal alone, just like all his dreams these days.

——If you say that you have come to the future, is your future self in that deep palace?

This question is like a hawk hovering in the sky, staring at the only flower seedlings on the barren land.

If you say you have to go back sooner or later, can you make this period as long as possible?

…As if he had absorbed enough strength from this period of time, he would have the courage to endure the next three years of confinement, and grow flowers of hope from his barren and dry life.

After many days of mental tension, it was rare for him to relax, and Yu Bai gradually fell asleep.

In the dream, he stood on the top of a very high mountain, surrounded by white mist, like a fairyland.He looked around, but gradually saw a figure from the thick and indissoluble mist.

The man hesitated and said, "Ah Bai, I... I'm here."

Zhao Jun?Yu Bai was slightly stunned, but heard a voice coming from his body: "Got it."

— that's not what he was answering.

Zhao Jun took a step forward slowly: "I've been thinking about a lot these days. Abai, would you like to hear it?"

Dreaming about you counting me as unlucky, who wants to hear you beeping about self-repentance—and, stay away from me!

Yu Bai roared inwardly, but the roar was silent.When Zhao Jun's voice sounded again, he just realized belatedly and nodded himself.

"These years, I have been thinking about how to avoid such a bad start. In the final analysis, I am still not confident." Zhao Jun said in a low voice, "At that time, you were so focused on leaving the palace that you refused to let go no matter what, and I I didn't leave your self-confidence, and I was even more afraid that you would abandon me after waiting one more day. After all, you never seem to need me."

nonsense.Yu Bai snorted coldly.

"I've been trying my best not to be the original Zhao Jun, not to be the person you hate."

He spoke in an extremely calm tone, but there was an unconcealable sadness in that tone: "But after so many years, I still have no confidence when facing you. You want to be free, but I just want to stay by your side .”

"I don't know how long I have to work hard before you are willing to look back at me. Maybe a few years, maybe a lifetime. I'm afraid I won't be able to wait, and I'm afraid you won't see me waiting for you."

Obviously should treat each other coldly, but Yu Bai didn't know what happened, his eyes were a little sour.

...Maybe it's because I've never seen such a pitiful emperor, even in a dream.

He vaguely thought that six years had passed, and he was still 17 years old, seeing everyone and the whole world with the eyes of 17 years old.

The voice was so far away that it seemed to be in the sky: "Ah Bai, from the beginning to the end, no matter how high-sounding it was when I said 'let you go', it was not my true words."

"I don't want you to leave, and I don't want to be friends with you. I want to quarrel with you like all ordinary couples in the world, and support each other until we die."

Ordinary couples, until they die... It seems that at a certain time in the future, someone once held his hand and made a solemn promise like this.

It's a pity that it is a dream in the end.

A sourness that did not belong to him suddenly surged in Yu Bai's heart.He guessed that those emotions might come from himself six years later.

Will six years be enough to turn around a bad start?

At this time, Yu Bai couldn't answer this question.

What about him in the future?

Zhao Jun walked towards him slowly, his voice was as soft as if he was about to be swept away by the mountain wind: "Ah Bai, can you...can you look at me?"

Think beautiful.Yu Bai stood silently, his heart throbbing in pain.

No matter how many years have passed, Zhao Jun is still the same bastard as before.

However, the man had already stepped forward, encircling the body in an extremely cautious manner.He leaned on the man's shoulder ignorantly, and the tip of his nose was filled with a warm and dry breath, which inexplicably reminded him of the lazy sunshine in a winter afternoon.

Realizing what happened, he was full of surprise and hurried to escape, but found that this body was not under his control at all.

He watched helplessly as he also raised his arms and wrapped them around the man's waist little by little.The mountain wind was mighty, the stars were dim, they kissed in the gradually dissipating white mist, with an intimacy he had never imagined.

...My brain must have been eaten by a dog, no matter now or in the future.

This was the only thought left in Yu Bai's mind.

The author says:

If nothing else, the ending is in sight (?′ω'?)