my dog ​​brother

I froze for a moment, not knowing what he was referring to in this endless sentence, but because I didn't know, I had a lot of guesses and imaginations, and because of this, my heart was a little restless.

I said happy.

Because I really can't be unhappy.

He is standing in front of me, I can see him so close, I can talk to him, I don’t have to wait so hard like waiting for his text message, I don’t have to be as depressed as when I saw him under the IFC that day, I don’t have to Think about whether there is a distance, whether there is difficulty, whether it is impossible to obtain a result.

I think that's fine.

It's good to see him, and I feel that I have the courage to change everything in the future when I see him.Even if I know that I am not smart and have no extraordinary talent.

I think I really liked Nguyen Xun, and fell in love without me realizing it.

So I do.

Ruan Xun reached out to take the box, he raised his eyebrows with a smile and said, don't you hate me?

I turned around holding the box and said, I'll get it.

I felt my face was burning a bit, but I still said in a low voice, I don’t hate you, brother dog, when did I hate you?

Ruan Xun laughed twice, wrapped his arms around my neck, and said, what happened to the text messages scolding me before?

I said, Brother Gou, why do you still remember, how many years have passed since then.Then you beat me, and I didn't hold any grudges.

He tightened his arms, leaned on my shoulder, and said, even if I give you ten guts, you won't dare to hold grudges.You dare?waste material.

I said, dare not.

He was so close that I felt like my nostrils were filled with the smell of him, if only he was always this close.

I couldn't help turning my head to look at him, he was looking at me and smiling.

I've never seen his kind of smile, it's just a very tolerant shallow smile, not his usual presumptuous and indifferent smile.

Such a smile is like a lock, firmly locking me on the edge of his world.

I felt as if he wouldn't be offended if I took one step further, as if he wouldn't hate me for bringing our relationship one step closer.

Is it possible that he will give me a chance?

Is it possible that he will try to accept me if I try hard enough?

I heard Ding Yanqi's surprised voice, he said, Ruan Xun, why are you here?

Ruan Xun let go of me and said, I came back to see your art exhibition, don't you welcome me?

Ding Yanqi sized him up, and then sized me up again, which made my stomach jump. I didn't do anything bad, so I acted like a thief.

He licked his mouth and said sarcastically, since when did I have this kind of treatment in your heart?

I quickly lifted the box and said, Brother Ding, this is a gift from Brother Gou.

Ding Yanqi pursed his lips and said, gift?

I said, yes, Brother Gou said he wanted to give you a surprise.

Ding Yanqi laughed twice, stared at me with raised brows, and said, let me see what he gave me.

He opened the box two or three times, and then said to Ruan Xun with a clear look, what did I say, I just made up my mind, I bought it at the airport.

Ruan Xun said, don't forget it.

I looked down and saw that it was indeed a book. There were many of them, but the types were too mixed. There were two magazines in it, the kind that had been flipped through several times.

This gift is too shabby, I am too embarrassed to hand the box to Ding Yanqi.

On the contrary, Ding Yanqi took it over without hesitation, and then said in a slightly joking tone, don't tell me that you came back to see my art exhibition.

Ruan Xun smiled and said, go in and take a stroll.

In the evening, Ding Yanqi invited me to dinner. I sat next to Zhou Ao and A Sheng, but I kept looking at Ruan Xun with my eyes. Of course I thought that no one noticed, but Ding Yanqi had already seen it.

Once I glanced over, I met Ding Yanqi's eyes.

He bent the corners of his mouth very gently, with a flat expression.

I was a little flustered, not knowing what Ding Yanqi would think of me.

I got up to go to the bathroom, and Ding Yanqi was waiting for me outside the door when I came out.

He was very direct, he asked me, Ji Wen, do you like Ruan Xun?

I was left speechless by his question. I wanted to say I liked it, but under Ding Yanqi's gaze, I felt unprecedented pressure. Even though he was very gentle, I still couldn't help thinking that he was asking questions.

Question me, and my qualifications.

I understand that the gap between me and Ruan Xun is not only material and economic, but also time gap.

Ding Yanqi himself is the distance in front of me.

Ruan Xun has a past described by Ding Yanqi as entanglement. I don't know if it will be unforgettable. After all, I have never even talked about love, but I can imagine the imprint of that relationship in his life.

I said, like it.

I'm not so cowardly that I dare not admit it even if someone asks me.

Ding Yanqi said, Ji Wen, you are not suitable.

I ask him why?

Ding Yanqi said, because you should not waste your time walking out with him, you should have a better choice.

I grabbed the marble tile of the door frame, my heart almost collapsed into a black hole, I said, Brother Ding, I like him.I will get better.

Ding Yanqi said, Ji Wen, you are already fine.The bad one is Ruan Xun.I hope he can get rid of that relationship as soon as possible, but I don't want you to be the one who brought him out. There will only be hurt in it, and there won't be much happiness.

I don't know if he is comforting me or perfunctory me.

I don't think Ding Yanqi has any malicious intentions, but I still feel very uncomfortable.

I said, Brother Ding, is it because of Meng Xia?You said they were over.

Ding Yanqi sighed and said, do you know that today is Meng Xia's birthday?Ruan Xun made an appointment to meet him at night.If you and Ruan Xun continue to develop, is this the result you want to see?

I clenched my fists and tried hard to control the slight shaking of my body. After thinking for a while, I looked up at Ding Yanqi and said, Brother Ding, why did you hate Ruan Xun more than Leyu?

He was startled and didn't speak.

I know why, because Ding Yanqi loves Leyu so much that he can't bear to hate him.

I am very sad, but if I choose, I still want to see Ruan Xun today, no matter what reason he came back, as long as I see him, I will be happy.

After eating, Ruan Xun left.

I watched him get into the car, and I still didn't hold back and asked him, brother dog, where are you going?

Ruan Xun said to deal with something.

I said, will you come to the bar later?

He glanced at me and said, it's too late, I don't want to go.You go back early from get off work.

I nodded and said, are you really not coming?Ding Ge said he was going to the bar.

Ruan Xun smiled and said, I might be late.You are off work.

I know he won't come, I just don't give up.

Zhou Ao asked me why I didn't leave today, it was already past 12 o'clock.

I said, tomorrow is Sunday, I can stay a little longer, and I won’t be able to sleep even when I go back to the dormitory.In fact, I just wishful thinking and reluctant to leave, maybe Ruan Xun will come?Just wait a little longer.

Zhou Ao smiled and asked me, Ji Wen, is it because of the person mentioned last time?

I nodded.

He said, if you really like it, go after it, at least you won't have any regrets.

I said, Brother Zhou, what if he has someone he likes?Do I chase it too?

Zhou Ao said, is he single?

I said, it seems to be.

Zhou Ao said, if you are single, just chase after him, you don't care if he likes someone or not.When Zhang Yan chased me, I also had someone I liked.The person I liked at that time is gone now, only him is left, so you see, if you are destined to be together, it is meaningless whether there is someone you like.

I was a little moved, and I said, Brother Zhou, what if he looks down on me?

Zhou Ao sized me up and said with a smile, do you like a blind man?

I said no, he was just much better than me.

Zhou Ao said, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, who knows if it is really outstanding, you tell me who you like, I will give you advice.

I almost wanted to tell Zhou Ao, someone grabbed my ear.

I fuck.

Ruan Xun said, tell me who you like, and I will help you as a consultant.

How I want to turn around and grab Ruan Xun's shoulder and tell him loudly, I like you, I like you, I like you, I like you!Brother Gou, I like you!

But I was discouraged when I heard his voice, and the little courage and commotion that Zhou Ao had aroused just now disappeared without a trace.

Not only that, I still have a trace of resentment in my heart.

The one surnamed Ruan is an idiot. He doesn’t even know that because of his words, I will never skip class again. I plan to apply for a driving school to learn to drive. I plan to arrange tutoring for myself. A good job, I will not embarrass him, even if I am not so good, but I will definitely get better and better.

I said, it is impossible for me to tell you, never to tell you, to make you laugh at me.

Ruan Xun frowned and said, you must not like Ding Yanqi, what did the two of you go to the bathroom for dinner at night?

Zhou Ao said, Ding Yanqi is not bad.Talented, gentle and considerate, he should take good care of Ji Wen, so he doesn't have to worry about being bullied and squeezed.

Ruan Xun said, fart!Ding Yanqi's tenderness and thoughtfulness are fucking fakes. Have you ever seen any artist who is not neurotic?Which one is not harsh to death?If we really want to be together, let's see if he doesn't have all sorts of bad things and disgusting people, and I still expect him to be gentle and considerate, and it's fine if he doesn't pick on you until you want to commit suicide by jumping into the river.

I said, Dingo is very nice, not like what you said.

Ruan Xun flicked my forehead and cursed, so you are stupid.Back then Ding Yanqi liked Le Yu so much, but when the two of them were together, he often left Le Yu on the grounds that he wanted to find creative inspiration alone, sometimes for a week, sometimes for a month.Isn't this fucking making people widowed?Otherwise, why do you think Le Yu would come to me?

Look at you, reading is not good; when it comes to looks, you don’t look outstanding; when you talk about smartness, you take my salary and fight against me all day long; once again, when it comes to bed skills, have you ever had sex with men?Just by looking at you like that, you can tell that you are as tender as a bird.What do you think you can compare to Le Yu? He was admitted to the MMM Conservatory of Music in Country C. He started playing the piano at the age of five and has always been the focus of attention. He also received an award. I forgot. Anyway, it has gold content.

You said that there is such a big gap between you and Le Yu, would Ding Yanqi treat you better?

Zhou Ao said, Boss, I just found out today that you are so jealous of Painter Ding.