my dog ​​brother

If reading is a kind of blunt punishment for me, then uncontrollably thinking about Ruan Xun is simply a torture of death.

It was something I hadn't experienced before, and the feeling and the endless devotion terrified me.

When I liked Ah Sheng, I never had such a strong emotional investment. I never worried that Ah Sheng would leave me one day. On the contrary, I was always in a situation where I would go down with Ah Sheng forever, In the understanding of walking down as brothers.

I never worried that Ah Sheng would disappear from my world.

But I am worried at every moment that maybe Ruan Xun will disappear from my life in the next second.

This is not my worry.

But I think so in my subconscious, and the fact does exist such a possibility.

Maybe he stayed in country B since then, maybe he suddenly gave up the bar and didn't plan to run it anymore, maybe the next time we meet, he will tell me that he and Meng Xia got back together, or found another Zheng Shiqian?

I do not know.

It was only then that I discovered that the connection between me and him was so weak that it only existed in that bar, and even more often it was only maintained on that man named Zhou Ao.

Maybe it's this tenuous connection that fuels my emotional investment in him, the truth is, my feelings for him are climbing at a frantic pace, and the result is that I miss him more and more every moment of every day.

This is a very emotional experience and description. Most of the time, I want to avoid such states and thoughts as much as possible. Most of the time, I am indeed the same as usual, but there are always those small gaps that make these feelings full My whole brain.

I didn't take the initiative to contact Ruan Xun. Although I wanted to, I was actually more afraid.

Wang Dali said, that is called falling.

It was the same when he fell in love with his wife, otherwise, where did he come from with the determination and will to quit the game, and only eat one vegetarian dish a day for a month, just to buy an S brand for his fierce girlfriend? crystal necklace?

Wang Dali said, buddy, admit it.Denying it is also making yourself guilty. Do you think she will understand you, be considerate of you, and understand you?Then treat you tenderly and kindly to you, naturally the two love each other, and secretly send glances, you and me, and then fly together into the bridal chamber together?

Fart, even if your thoughts are deeper than the sea and higher than the mountains, in her eyes, you just close your eyes and open them, and the day is over.

I ate fried bean sprouts for a month, and my mouth tasted like bean sprouts. I saw her smile when she received the gift. Do you know what she said at the time?She said, Italy, you are so generous.

Fuck me, I'm fucking sick, and I have money and nowhere to spend it.

So, buddy, don't be afraid that you will fall, the key is that you can't be the only one who falls, you have to drag her into the water.do you know?

I didn't expect Wang Dali to pretend to be a grandson in front of his girlfriend all day long, and to speak so eloquently.

I pondered for a while, and I think what Wang Dali said was quite reasonable.

I asked Italy how to drag the other party into the water.

Wang Dali patted his chest and said, just look for me, buddy, I'm all covered.

Wang Dali said, first of all, you have to interact with the other party.Do you know what interaction is?For example, when I was chasing our family Xiaoyuan, I got up early every day to buy her breakfast to occupy a seat, so that I could have breakfast with her and go to class together.

I said, he is an office worker, how can I buy him breakfast, and he doesn't go to class.

Wang Dali smacked his mouth twice and said, I can't tell, Ji Wen, you still like mature ones.Old women are very powerful, it is difficult to grasp.

I gave a dry laugh.

He said, then you have to find things that can interact, such as inviting her to watch a movie, come to our school for a stroll, eat, sing, go to an amusement park, and bring one or two [-]'s The little sister is the best, it will help your relationship warm up.

I scratched the back of my head and said, it doesn't feel right.

Wang Dali glared at me and said, have you ever chased after a girlfriend?How do you know it's not suitable?These moves are the most suitable.

Wang Dali thought for a while, slapped his thigh, and said, how about this, you can take her to hold the dolls, and you can just watch a movie.Clamping dolls is really effective.Girls love furry things, even older women.

I think what Wang Dali said is a bad idea.

I asked Zhou Ao for leave on Friday. Ruan Xun landed around 11:8 p.m., and I rushed to the airport after [-]:[-] p.m.

Although Wang Dali's idea is not very good, I still agree with the central idea. First of all, I have to have further interaction with Ruan Xun, not just in the bar.

I wanted to be in his life, even if it was surreptitiously.

I don't know which flight Ruan Xun is on, and I don't dare to ask him, I'm afraid he will directly reject me like last time, tell me not to come, or prevaricate me with the excuse that he can't drive.

I have never been out of province F since I grew up, and I have never been on a plane. This is my first time at the airport.I have to be thankful that I was right to start early. I was delayed for almost an hour between the two terminals. I asked several airport personnel and finally arrived at the exit hall of the T2 terminal.

People told me that all those who got off the plane came out from here.

I stood in the middle of that place and waited, not daring to go too far for fear of missing it.

Halfway through I was so thirsty that I had to find somewhere to buy water.

As a result, until 12 o'clock in the evening, almost all the people around to pick up the plane had left, leaving me and another fat man standing alone at the exit, waiting to see through.

I really want to slap myself, what water to buy, what water to drink.If you bear it for a while, you will die!

I think I missed Ruan Xun.

Disadvantage of apprenticeship.

I called Ruan Xun to ask if he had already landed.

If yes, I'm off.Of course I wouldn't be stupid enough to tell him I waited for him at the airport for 4 hours and missed it.

But the phone is off.

The fat man who was waiting with me said that the plane he was waiting for was delayed.

I wonder if Ruan Xun's is too late.

By 1:[-], I almost fell asleep lying on the railing, and my phone was almost dead.Occasionally chat with the fat man, he said he was waiting for his girlfriend, he asked who I was waiting for?

I thought for a long time and said, my brother.

Then the fat man's girlfriend came out, and the fat man left happily.

I grabbed the railing and shook it vigorously, full of anger, I kicked a few times at the bottom of the railing, making a bang bang bang sound.

Not relieved, on the contrary kicked so that the back of the foot hurts.

I squatted on the ground and played with shoelaces for a while, feeling a little helpless and frustrated, I couldn't connect to a computer well.

I was about to make the last call to Ruan Xun, but when I took out my phone, I found out that it was out of battery.

What a shit.

I sat down leaning against the railing as if giving up, when I suddenly heard the sound of someone talking from the aisle behind me, probably another passenger from another plane came out with their luggage.

I grabbed my body and looked in through the railing. I no longer expected to see Ruan Xun. I have experienced such scenes countless times before. Every time I searched with hope, the results were all in vain.

But just when I gave up, he appeared again.

It was as if my heart was suddenly squeezed by someone's hand, and the strong pressure even made me feel that the blood could not be sent to the brain.

It may be because of the lack of oxygen in the brain. Without any thought, I immediately got up from the ground, grabbed the railing and turned over, about three or four times. I just wanted to run to Ruan Xun at the fastest speed.

I didn't think about what to say, what kind of opening remarks I wanted, whether it would embarrass him or myself, I just wanted to get closer to him sooner.

I stood in front of him, and smiled a little contrived, but I didn't pretend at all in my heart, so I called him, brother dog.

He was obviously taken aback, to be precise, the group of people next to him were all taken aback.

Only then did I realize that my sudden appearance was not a surprising situation, but just added embarrassment and embarrassment, especially when there were a bunch of colleagues or subordinates standing next to Ruan Xun.

My mind turned quickly, never before so clearly, I just wanted to settle this kind of situation that seemed to catch him off guard.

I pretended to be very indifferent and said, why, can't I pick you up without a car?I just wanted to give it a try.

Ruan Xun looked at me for a while, laughed, then stretched out his hand to frame my shoulders, and half pushed me outside.

He didn't say anything, he didn't mock me, he didn't expose me, he didn't feel touched or surprised.

On the contrary, a few colleagues next to him looked at me with a strange look.

Really observe.

It is the eyes that examine me like studying specimens.

Especially the old woman with glasses.

She got into the car with me, and Ruan Xun called her Secretary Huang.

I reckon the old woman is about 50 years old, her eyes are very sharp, she is a little thin, her lips are painted red, and she looks very mean.

When they got into the car, Ruan Xun chatted with her about work for a while.

When the car drove downstairs to their company, Secretary Huang asked Ruan Xun where to send him back?And by the way where are you taking me?who to send first.

If someone else asked this question, I would definitely not be able to notice the nuances of this kind of questioning, but maybe this woman's eyes were a little too sharp, which made me think more unconsciously before I realized This way of asking hides a lot of information that I have never paid attention to.

Ruan Xun gave an address, which was the apartment where I lived for one night before.

Secretary Huang asked again, what about him?

Of course I went back to school. Although I waited for 5 or 6 hours, I only saw Ruan Xun for 10, [-], [-] minutes, but for some reason, this unequal exchange made me quite satisfied.

When I was sitting in the car, I fancied myself that the distance between me and the soft dog was one step closer.

Ruan Xun said, Secretary Huang, he followed me.

When he said this, my heart beat rapidly for a while, my palms were sweaty, and I didn't dare to look up at him, I could only stare at the stains on the sneakers.

I really didn't have any unhealthy or noble imaginations because I could be soberly in the same room with him, and my heart beat faster. At first, I just felt lucky, it was great, and I could stay together for a while longer.