about i love you

After being decadent for two days, a classmate of mine said he was going to Shenzhen, so I packed up my things and went to Shenzhen with him, working a summer job.

After I came back, I always felt like I forgot something. It just happened that the students from the Student Union picked up the freshmen early, so I remembered that I don't know how Chang Xuanfeng did in the college entrance examination, and most importantly, whether he applied to this school.

I put the things in the house, and took some important things to the dormitory. Wen Mengliang never came back, and staying in the house was also boring, so it would be better to go back to the dormitory.

Sitting on the stool to tidy up a bit, I took out my mobile phone and called Chang Xuanfeng, but I couldn't get through.

His original number had become empty, so I logged into the account to look for news about him. Maybe he was online, but it turned out that he was not online, but he had a new and updated signature.

He said that he had changed his number and asked anyone who saw it to remember it.

The tone is very flat, he has not contacted me, maybe he has forgotten, then I will not contact me, maybe he thinks it is strange, wakes up, and hates me.

I chose elective courses during the summer vacation. I made a special phone call with Wen Xiao. I said that I had to work part-time, and I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to get good courses. I asked her to help me choose them, and she happily agreed.

After I hung up the phone, I sat on the bed in a daze for an hour. I took out my mobile phone and wanted to send text messages to Wen Mengliang, but I didn't know what to send.

Wen Mengliang had a good life in Beijing, he stopped following me, and he didn't feel aggrieved, and showed his truest side to his heart's content.It’s just that he always sends me text messages, fixed one every day, at first it was very fixed, only one sentence, that is: He Su, I miss you.

Then the content changed.

He Su, do you want me anymore?

He Su, I miss you. I'll go to Shenzhen to see if you're okay. I'll be there by plane soon.

He Su, He Su, He Su.

He Su, my new book is published again. You used to like to read my book, have you read it now?

He Su, why are you ignoring me.He Su, I'm going to find you.

Only when he said he wanted to come to me would I reply: Don't come.

Other than that, looking at his text messages, I never responded to anything other than a slight discomfort.

He has always listened to my words, but he has never heard of text messages. He sent them every day. At first, his tone was okay, but in the end it became more and more extreme. I can almost imagine his appearance at that time.

He will send later: He Su, I miss you, I want to sleep with you.

He Su, you come to touch me, I feel uncomfortable.

He Su, I'm dying.

He Su, have you seen my underwear?

Apart from frowning, I can't think of a reason to reply to him. The impact of life will not always be good for people. I learn to get used to life, and he learns to adapt to me.

Now that I'm back, it's a total shock to me that he hasn't come back.

Before I came back, I sent him a text message, saying that I was going home, and he replied the text message saying that I got it. If there is no other news, everyone will be tired, but he will not.

I know, he's just a psychotic paranoid to me, and that's what I love the most.

I sat for a while, Wen Xiao sent a text message: He Su, are you here yet?I have a lot of things, please help me move it, I am at the main entrance.

I called directly and said, "Hello? Wen Xiao, when did you come?"

She smiled and said on the other end of the phone, "I just came here, but my mother insisted that I bring a lot of things, and I couldn't take them. My roommate didn't come, so I had to ask you for help. Are you free?"

I gave a low laugh, and tapped the table with my fingers habitually.

He replied, "You wait there first, don't move, I will go there right away."

Everyone can pretend to be courteous and affectionate, but I am just a weak person.

I went to the main entrance to help her carry things. It was very hot and she was wearing a blue dress that reached her knees and shoes of the same color.

After seeing me, he immediately walked over with a smile and said, "He Su, you're here, sorry for the trouble, I'll treat you to dinner when I'm done."

I nodded, went to her side and dragged the big bag, and then reached out to pull the suitcase, she said, "Forget it, no need, I can just take this."

We were walking together, the sun was shining brightly, and she was holding the suitcase in one hand and a parasol in the other.

I asked, "Why don't you hold an umbrella? You're not afraid of getting sunburned."

She smiled, and said generously, "It's okay, I don't have to pay so much attention, just for a while. By the way, He Su, can't you get a tan? It's been a summer, and you are still like this."

I changed her bag to hold it in one hand, and said with a smile, "I was working during the summer vacation, and I stayed indoors all the time. I didn't go out very much, and it wasn't that I couldn't get a tan, or I didn't get a lot of sun."

She nodded knowingly, and was speechless again. After walking for about 2 minutes, she asked, "He Su, do you read novels? I heard that boys like to read fantasy."

I nodded, thinking that even if I think we can't talk together, you should like to watch small romances or something.

She got excited, and asked, "Then, have you read "Incarnation"? It was written with deep love, and it was super well written. I even bought the book after it was published."

I smiled in surprise and nodded slightly.

She said again, "I heard that the game has been released, and I must play it when the time comes."

Girls do like playing games, but I didn't expect her to like it too, it doesn't look like it.

Later, we chatted about some deep-rooted love issues, and it didn't stop until we sent her back to the dormitory. She asked me to wait downstairs and said she would treat me to dinner later.

I said I had already eaten, and she went back. Boys are not allowed in the girls’ dormitory, so I put the things at the door and left. When I walked halfway, Shi Yang called me and said that Wen Mengliang was back, let me I'll pick you up at the station.

In the past, I always wondered how he could figure out this kind of thing by himself, running around all day, being silent, unable to hear, unable to touch anything, and whether anything would happen.

I laughed when I saw him at the station. I really wanted to laugh. I haven’t seen him for two months. His eyebrows and eyes are still exactly the same as they were two months ago, with a slight delicacy, but inadvertently exuded from the peak of his eyebrows. some sharp.

I walked forward, and he came this way, just got out of the car, there was no smile on his face, and he looked like he refused to be thousands of miles away.

While walking, he changed his expression, and when he came to me, he had a smile on his face, and stretched out a hand to hold mine. It was too hot, and I didn't want to move, but his hand had already been stretched out, and I Just holding his hand, he showed a very light smile.

Looking at me a little cautiously, happy and unhappy, I can't understand.

After returning home, he went to take a shower, and I looked at the things he brought back. They were useful, and there was even something to eat.

In this way, I stayed again, and when I was in my sophomore year, I was quite busy. Because the freshman rule does not allow me to take the English test for CET-[-], so I will take the test in the second half of this year.

Although the preparation is almost the same, there are still necessary worries. There is also a Mandarin certificate, including some other scattered things, which adds up to a lot of learning pressure.

After class, I put more effort into professional classes. I brought my computer to school, and I usually don’t go to bed until after eleven o’clock at night. When there are not many classes, I go to the cake shop. It can be regarded as an orderly process.

In October, when I went to take an elective class at night, Wen Xiao had already found a seat and waited there. When he saw me passing by, he picked up the books used to occupy the seat.

I walked over and sat down, and she smiled and asked, "Why are you willing to come this time? Didn't you come to class before?"

I put my book on the table, and said, "I'm a bit bored today, and I suddenly wanted to come over, so I called you in advance, do you come every time?"

She shook her head and said that she hadn't been here for a long time either.

I suddenly wanted to reach out and rub her hair. She was wearing a bright yellow coat, which made her skin fairer. When she was not smiling, her eyes were very big. When she was smiling, her eyes were curved with aura, which is a good idea. girl.

After class, she suddenly stopped me and said, "He Su, don't you have a house outside? Take me to see it sometime, I want to see it."

I froze for a moment, then nodded, said goodbye to her and turned to leave.

I haven't been home for two weeks. When I got back, Wen Mengliang was typing in front of the computer. I heard that he was writing a new novel recently and was saving the manuscript.

I put the bag on the table, took out a cigarette and stuffed it into my mouth, then took the lighter and lit it, and let out a comfortable breath.

He accidentally turned his head and saw me, then frowned tightly, took out a piece of paper and wrote a line.

Handed it to me, it said: Don't smoke, the doctor said.

I nodded, put out the cigarette in the ashtray, and pointed to the side for him to sit down.

He sat down obediently and looked at me with his eyes open. I reached out to stroke his hair, pressed his head on my shoulder, and kissed his hair curls lightly.

He quickly stood up again, and wrote another sentence, saying: Come back more in the future, okay.I miss you so much at home.

I nodded with a smile, brought his head over, and kissed his lips, his lips were soft, still the same feeling as before, my hand slipped down from the back of his neck, stroking on his back.

He kissed back with a smile, eyes twinkling.

I tossed him for a long time at night, in the end he was about to cry, and waved his hands to prevent me from touching him. I took him to the bathroom to clean it, and did it again in the bathroom. He stared at me, and finally turned his back to me fell asleep.

When he woke up the next day, he opened his eyes, and then leaned over and kissed my chin. My beard grew a little, and it should hurt. He frowned, stretched out his hand to touch it, and then wanted to get up.

I asked "what do you do?"

He took out his mobile phone from the bedside and typed: I want to shave you, it's too painful.

I pressed his shoulders to make him fall asleep, and leaned in front of him and said, "You go, go to Beijing, I don't want to see you anymore."

He froze for a moment, then laughed again, and wrote on his phone: What's wrong?

I lay flat on my back lightly, not wanting to talk, and took his mobile phone to type.

I wrote a long paragraph, I wrote: I am very annoyed by you here, I still have to study, when I get here I want to apply to go abroad and learn English.I still need to study professional courses, but you hang in front of me every day, I can't study hard at all, Wen Mengliang, you go, I don't want to see you, don't make me angry, I don't want to hit you.

After I finished writing, I handed it to him, and I touched another cigarette. Now cigarettes are everywhere in my house. When I am unhappy, I can just smoke one, which is very convenient.

He froze his hands after reading it. After a while, he lay down in front of me and looked at me. After blinking his eyes a few times, tears flowed out and hit my face. I glared at him, and he quickly reached out to wipe it off.

Wiping and crying, wiping and crying, writing on the phone with trembling fingers: I don't want to leave, don't chase me away.

The author has something to say: I really want to hate me.