about i love you

I watched Wen Xiao go back, then turned to Wen Mengliang, he raised his hand to touch my face, but I stopped him, I said, "Let's go, go back first."

He just walked behind me, maybe the weather in Beijing is different from here, he was dressed a little thinly, I saw his face turned red from the cold, and I wanted to reach out to touch him, but he still didn't do so. Walking over from the opposite side, his expression was youthful.

I opened the door, and he walked in. As I was reaching out to close the door, he hugged my waist and kissed me. I can only describe it in three words: fast, ruthless, and accurate.

My lips hit my teeth, and it hurt so much. I frowned and pulled his hair to try to pull him back, but it didn't work, and he hugged him even tighter.

I had no choice but to kiss back. He gasped for breath and kissed me, and after a while his eyes were wet again. I felt that Wen Mengliang's tears over the years were all spent during this time and sent me off.

I reached out to help him wipe away his tears and asked, "Why are you back?"

He held my hand and kept blinking his eyes. He was so pitiful that I almost couldn't bear it.

I said to him, "Well, if you still want to live here, I won't come back in the dormitory in the future. Anyway, you rent the house, and you pay for it. You can do whatever you want."

After I finished speaking, I let go of his hand and walked back to the bedroom. I took out a cigarette irritably, and before I lit it, I was held by him. His expression had calmed down a bit, and he was not as excited as before.

He pressed my hand, took the cigarette out of my hand, and then took out a piece of paper under my gaze and wrote: I forgot to take a contract, this time I came back to get the contract, and I will leave in a while.

It turned out to be like this, I chuckled a bit, and reached out to touch his head again.

He left at night, and I didn't go to see him off. In fact, to put it bluntly, I miss him too, and I love him too.

But love is not a big part of my heart. What I value is only my present and future. I am a selfish person. Sometimes I don't understand the kind of people who want to die or live for others. How the feelings come from, it makes me feel very strange.

I have always been very rational, maybe reason is stronger than sensibility, I looked at myself in the mirror, smiled, and said that thin lips are cold, and I am right.

Life continued to proceed in an orderly manner, Wen Xiao was still spinning around beside me, but we didn't make any substantial progress. On the one hand, it was because I didn't like touching her very much and I had the initiative. On the other hand, she didn't have the kind Feeling, I wondered, could I be wrong.

But why a girl would go to another boy for no reason, I don't understand. Girls' psychology is too complicated and confusing, so it's better to read English.

Putonghua is the first test. After the Mandarin test, the test is CET-[-]. After the busy work, it is the final exam. I spent the whole first half of the sophomore semester in a busy state. I can’t concentrate on other things. I rarely return At home, once they go back, they will smoke and drink, asking for trouble.

After the winter vacation, I sent Wen Xiao to the train. Before leaving, she wanted to say something to me, but was interrupted by a sudden phone call, so she had to leave.

When Wen Mengliang came back that time, she also had something to say and was interrupted. I didn't think about it later, but it happened again this time, which made me a little curious.

When I got home, I got a text message.It was Wen Mengliang who asked: He Su, it's a holiday, can I go home?

My heart hurt like a needle, and after the pain was over, I gritted my teeth and said: Come back, I will go to Ningyuan.

He came back quickly: I will be there in the evening.

I really want to do everything just to see me, I really want to hold him in my arms, press him on the sofa and fuck hard, preferably until he cries, but still looks at me with a smile.

I prepared two bottles of wine, and this time I went to buy red wine specially. I thought he hadn't come back for a long time, so it was a celebration.

To put it bluntly, I don’t quite understand what I’m thinking about every day, every time I think about it, it’s a big loss for Wen Mengliang to like me, but seeing how happy he is, I And some faint satisfaction.

It is a strange perverted sadistic desire in everyone's heart, some people are shallow, some people are deep, but I am lucky, I met a person who is willing to let me vent this desire.

He didn't want to sit across from me, but wanted to sit next to me, with one hand on my lap, and the other holding a glass of wine. He drank better than me, and his face didn't turn red after drinking for a long time, and he wasn't drunk .

I was picking up food for him when the phone rang suddenly. Looking at the notification of the incoming call, I frowned, and then pressed the answer button.

I didn't expect Xu Xiangqian to call me. He hasn't contacted me since I came back from the summer vacation. I was thinking that he might never have known me in his whole life. He has been studying for a few years anyway. No one who has studied art can accept this kind of thing, let alone my parents.

"Hey?"

As soon as I said a word, my ears hurt a little from the heavy metal music over there.

"He Su, Su Su, brother is at the bar now, long time no see, will you come here to work during the winter vacation?"

He said these words easily, but I felt an indescribable inexplicable feeling. The Xu Xiangqian in my impression is not like this.

"I'm eating, what are you doing at the bar?"

I opened my mouth to take the food that Wen Mengliang gave me, and asked unclearly.

Xu Xiangqian was too noisy, so he didn't hear it, he seemed to be drunk, and said loudly, "He Su, don't mention it, the girls here are very upright, they look like a coquettish, you are here Brother, let me introduce a few to you. Ah, no, no, my family He Su likes men, hey, it’s okay, there are men too, and with my family’s serious appearance, you can do whatever you want.”

I replied indifferently, "You are drunk, go back quickly."

"Where are you going back? Back to the dormitory? No! It's a holiday today, but it's my leisure time. By the way, are you really not coming, He Su? It's really super coquettish."

Ningyuan is quite chaotic. I did hear that there are many sex services, but generally speaking, I am far away from these things and have never been in contact with them. I don't know for a while whether Xu Xiangqian is involved.

When we didn't fall out before, he never called me to kiss like this. He hugged a group of coquettish women who came out to sell and called my family to be susu, and he sincerely rejected me.

I said again, "Xu Xiangqian, you are so fucking drunk, go back to sleep, fuck, you dare touch anything."

I'm not as domineering and flamboyant as I used to swear now, but I still have eyes, but Xu Xiangqian can't see them.

There was a clear kissing sound coming from the phone. He seemed to have brought the phone very close on purpose, and the sound of lips and tongues entangled came out of the phone. The wine and food I drank just now poured out, and I immediately ran into the bathroom.

"I'll go to Xu Xiangqian, your mother, you are just looking for trouble when you have nothing to do, can you save me a little worry?"

Cursing as I walked, my spirit was severely impacted, and my brain was buzzing and hurting. Damn, he actually hung up the phone.

I was rinsing my mouth by the sink, and Wen Mengliang looked at me worriedly.

I turned around and touched his head, he still looked up at me as before, I suddenly grabbed his hair and pressed it under the faucet, and flushed it against the water, the weather in February, the water was cold and pierced his bones, he was shaking After a moment, there was a slight whimper.

I turned around and walked out, taking out a cigarette with trembling hands, after a while he came out, his hair was still wet, looking at me with some despair.

After a while, he opened the door and went out, never to return.

I suddenly remembered that the first time I hit him in high school was because of Chang Xuanfeng. Chang Xuanfeng had sent me a text message before, saying that he had scored more than 600 points in the college entrance examination, and that he was a bit of a loser in my school, so he would not come. , Going to the north to study at university just happened to cut his mind.

I think he really understood, Wen Mengliang, why the hell don't you understand.

Now I won't look for him everywhere like I used to. I know he is capable and can handle things well by himself. I decided to take the postgraduate entrance examination, so I have to start preparing at this time, and I don't have so much free time to worry about these heartaches.

I didn’t go out to work during the winter vacation. I stayed at home and did translation work. I also went out to work as a tutor for a third-year junior high school student in Wenyang City. I also earned more than 3000 yuan, which was much easier than going out to work.

Later I contacted Shi Yang, and he said that Wen Mengliang had already arrived in Beijing, and I couldn't hear anything else from his tone of voice, so he hung up without asking any further questions.

Just live well, just be good.

About March, Lu Qiang called and said that he would come back in the second half of the year, and that Wen Wen would come back with him. He was very happy and praised Wen Wen in front of me, saying that Wen Wen was sensible and still Smart and well-behaved.

I have never asked about the acquaintance of the two of them. In fact, the beginning and the process are not important, but the ending is important.

On my birthday, my mother called me to celebrate my birthday, talking about an eternal topic.

She asked me, "Have you found a girlfriend? They are all 21."

I said "I found it."

When she asked me before, I was always perfunctory. I didn’t expect that I would answer like this this time. I was very happy. My sister also yelled over there, "Brother, I want to see you, brother, when will you come to see us? It’s been a long time Gone. I miss you so much."

He Yan grew up in other places. She has a more active personality. She doesn't have the introverted feeling of the girls who were born and bred in our place. It's pretty good. I told my mother to send her photos when the time came. She was very happy. I guess she I haven't been this happy for a long time. It's as if I didn't fall in love or find a girlfriend, but gave her a grandson.

I'm afraid it will be difficult in this life.

I want to smell Meng Liang.

He spent so many birthdays with me, but this time there was no news at all. I looked at Wen Xiao opposite me with a smile on my face, but felt anxious and panicked in my heart.

"He Su, happy birthday."

She boldly raised her glass and took a sip, then frowned and said, "Hey, it's too spicy, I don't know why you guys like to drink this."

I ordered another bottle of orange juice and said, "Don't drink it if you don't want to drink it. Don't force yourself, drink orange juice."

She squeezed her eyes and smiled, "He Su, you are such a good man, whoever is with you is so happy. By the way, I always wanted to tell you something before, but I was always interrupted."

I raised my head slightly, smiled and said, "Ask."

"He Su, you and your roommate, isn't that the kind of relationship?"

"Ok?"

I don't quite understand.

"That's right, hey, that's right. In fact, I'm the one with the deepest roots of love. Once in my freshman year, I went on a trip, and when I came back, I saw you kissing your very obedient roommate in the corner."

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