about i love you

Sure enough, as I expected, someone called my name within a short distance.

"Su Su, have you eaten yet?"

It's my third aunt, who is eating now. Her house is on the side of the road, and a stone table was built outside the house, which is very convenient.

I smiled and replied, "I have eaten."

The third aunt said again, "Would you like to eat some more? The dumplings made by my family, come, come and eat some. Are you sick and asked for leave? I heard from Yu'er that it's only Wednesday."

I smiled and waved my hand, "I'm full, now I want to find Xu Xiangqian, it's no big problem, you guys hurry up and eat."

She stopped talking, sat down with the bowl in her hand, and muttered something again, I didn't have time to worry about it, so I walked quickly to Xu Qianqian's house.

While walking, I remembered that it had been two months since the last time we met. The weather was still hot at that time. How could it be like this now? The wind was blowing and it was still cool.

We are about the same age, we always played together when we were young, and we did all kinds of bad things. At that time, we were thorns in the eyes of adults, and we wished we could pull them all out.

When I was seven or eight years old, I was not sensible, and I encouraged him to pee in front of girls. He didn’t know anything, so we took off our pants and had sex by the dry river. The little girl detoured when she saw us, which was very successful. feel.

I still remember that when I was 11 years old, there was a strong wind and heavy rain in the village. On the second day, the thick trees fell to the ground. Behind us were a group of little kids, standing on the fallen trees and dangling, just like Like swinging, unexpectedly, so many years have passed in the blink of an eye.

It was like a dream.

"dad."

When I went in, I saw my dad first, talking to Xu Xiangqian's dad, his face was a bit uncomfortable, when I heard me calling him, he ignored me, I pouted, turned around and went to look for Xu Xiangqian.

Uncle Xu said, "Qianqian went to the toilet, you go to his room and wait."

I responded and walked forward.

I vaguely heard my dad talk about borrowing money or something, but I didn't take it seriously. Now that the whole country is developing, I thought, no matter what, it's not enough to have nothing to wear, nothing to eat, and starvation to death.

Xu Xiangqian's younger brother Xu Haowen was doing his homework at the desk, and he was a little excited when he saw me passing by.

"Brother He Su, why are you back today?"

When I was young, I was often reminded by adults to remind me to do my homework. Now, I can enjoy this feeling too.

I reached out and tapped his head, and said, "Have you finished your homework? Be careful that the teacher will keep you tomorrow."

His face became bitter, and he sat down to do his homework unwillingly. The writing was crooked and ugly.

When I was just in the first grade of junior high school, I still had such a proud nostalgic plot. I went to primary school to watch it, but after a long time, I didn’t want to go there. I just went to one place and had no place to stay. It’s not me. It's meaningless.

But even if the teacher who taught me still remembers it in my heart, I can't forget it even if I want to.

When I was young, I was afraid of being punished.

"He Su, why are you back at this hour?"

Xu Xiangqian seemed to have just washed his hands. Seeing me a little excited, he patted my neck directly to cool me down.

"Fuck, it's so cold, take the claws away."

He sneered, and stretched his hand a little further inside his neck maliciously. I took two steps back and said loudly, "Fuck, stop making trouble."

His eyes slanted towards my dad, and I realized that I was swearing in front of adults and children, so I gave him a look and walked into his room.

The rooms here are generally very simple, almost all of the same shape, a living room, and then a room on each side of the living room.

Xu Xiangqian's family has a lot of people, and later it was repaired a little bit, and two more rooms were built on the east side of the yard for Xu Xiangqian and Xu Haowen to live in. My father and Xu Bo were talking in the living room, and when we walked into the room, they didn't Looking at us, we just cast a warning glance at Xu Haowen.

I kind of want to laugh, Xiao Mian, let’s go the old way of my brother.

When I sat on the bed, I really laughed. Xu Xiangqian took a book and blew my head, and asked, "Why are you at home at this time? Did you commit a crime?"

I nodded, lying comfortably on his little bed and didn’t want to move. Suddenly, I remembered that when we were 12 years old, we secretly watched his father’s collection of pornographic films together. At that time, we didn’t know anything. Jing looked at the entanglement of the two white bodies, and had no idea at all.

I nodded, "Slapped my annoying tablemate, how about it, buddy is not bad."

"It's good."

His voice suddenly dropped, and he lay down straight away. The bed was a bit small, so I moved inside to make room for him.

He took a deep breath, and rested his hands under his head. His fingers were slender and very beautiful, and he looked like he was studying art.

After sighing, he suddenly said, "He Su, I'm not going anymore, I'm going to work with your dad."

I thought he was joking.

I just said, "That's great, my dad said, if I don't pass the high school entrance examination, I will also go out to work, so that our brothers can meet each other, right?"

I raised my leg and kicked him, and he moved away, rarely fighting me.

I feel wrong.

Sitting up suddenly, I opened my eyes wide and asked, "You can't fucking tell the truth, can you?"

"Fuck, what did I lie to you for? Really."

He never said anything like not going to school before, except that he was not sensible when he was a child, and when I was studying, my grades were not the best in my elementary school.

He was the one. At that time, the teachers had nothing to do with the two of us. I used to think that we were children who were specially favored by God.

Originally thought that he would continue to hang out in a junior high school, but he didn't expect that he would go to learn painting later.It’s okay, it’s also quite a face-lifting thing to have a painter friend in the future.

I stood up, walked to the table, and saw the paints and brushes lying quietly on it.

The thing is quite simple, but it is a white box with many grids of the same size inside, each grid is filled with paints of different colors, and there are 2b and 4b pencils placed aside.

Not at all professional.

But I know that with just a pencil, he can also draw very good things. During the Chinese New Year last year, a group of people had nothing to do and went to play on the roof. The small white tower used.

A little girl said, "Brother Xiangqian, draw it, it's so beautiful."

He just took his broken pencil and started to draw. The sound of strokes on the paper is very strange, unlike when writing, it sounds like a pleasant rustle.

I was stunned when he finished painting. Fuck, I didn’t expect Shibie to treat him with admiration for three days. He is really a good painter.

The shadow design is just right, super like.

He likes to draw so much, and he draws so well, why doesn't he go to school?

I didn’t ask him anything before when he said he couldn’t go to school and changed to painting. As a man, he should have his own responsibility, and he should have an idea in everything he does. The path he walks has a future. That’s true. .

But don't be like me.

It's far away, fuck, why doesn't he go up?It's a convulsion.

Thinking about the picture of the old man with epilepsy in the village when he was ill, I suddenly shuddered.

No, I must ask.

"Do you have any cigarettes?"

I haven't asked yet, fuck.

I fumbled in my pocket, but I didn't bring any cigarettes. When I go home, I usually don't bring cigarettes back. Usually, these things are kept at Liu Siqi's place, and I only ask him for them when I need them.

"No, why didn't you go up all of a sudden?"

He was a little downcast, and there was a little bit of vicissitudes on his immature face, which made my heart tremble. I hate this kind of person the most, because he is stupid and hypocritical.

"My dad said that there is no money for me to go to school. I have to go out to work by myself. Let's go to work first. Then I will go back to school after earning money. It's the same."

When I think about it, I think it’s okay. When I was in the first year of junior high school, there was a boy with yellow hair in the third year of junior high school. It is said that he came back to school after working part-time. Except for being a little older, his grades were still good.

However, Uncle Xu has no money for him to go to school?Can't.

"You need a lot of money to learn this? More expensive than me?"

To be honest, I think the tuition fee of three or four hundred is quite expensive. At this time, my dad gave me fifty cents to buy things, and I think it is a big amount.

"It's gone anyway, fuck, why ask so many questions?"

I nodded and sat back on the bed.

Part-time job, I don't know what part-time job is like.

Anyway, no matter what my test scores are at that time, I will always have to do a summer job to earn some money after the long vacation after the senior high school entrance examination.

Xu looked forward and I didn't speak, and I stopped talking, and the atmosphere in the room was a little awkward for a moment.

I originally wanted to find him to reminisce about the old days, why did I become such a bear?

"Actually, my dad stopped giving me living expenses a few weeks ago."

He said something that blew my soul out of the sky.

He said another word and blasted me back.

"Actually, I'm not my parents' biological child. It's normal for them not to like me. I have to raise myself and I have to repay my kindness."

I can't tell if he's being sarcastic, I just don't believe it.

I lay back again, propped my head and asked, "Who told you?"

He said "my grandma."

Well, now I have to believe it.

I thought we were related by blood, but in that case, there is no more. I suddenly realized that I was thinking about something.

Quickly getting back to the topic, I asked, "When did you know?"

"last year."

Damn, you didn't tell me that you don't treat me as a brother.

"Then you have no living expenses, how did you live these few weeks?"

He covered his eyes, and I wondered if he was crying. I didn't think about how I would react if I encountered such a thing.The empathy mentioned in the book is completely nonsense and useless.

He let go, didn't cry, but looked very tired.

"Lu Qiang has been helping me. I stayed at his house for a while before. When I earn money, I will return the money to him."

Lu Qiang is a classmate he met when he was studying painting. I know this, and the relationship seems to be quite good.

In fact, two people who haven't seen each other for a long time have nothing to talk about when they chat. It's nothing more than telling each other about each other's life, people who appear, and so on. That's what we used to do.

Just this time it's a little different.

"My dad seems to say that he can lend it to you? You should go ahead."

I remembered what my dad said vaguely when I came in, and he opened his mouth to propose.

He glanced at me like an idiot.

"I've already made up my mind, come to me when I have no money, I'll cover you."

Yes, good man.

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