Don't miss the time when I love you

At two o'clock in the morning, Bin Hong only found a barbecue shop that was not closed. There were a few simple wooden tables, chairs and benches in the shop. Garlic and small onions, in the cold weather in the Northeast, eating some garlic not only fights the cold but also kills bacteria, An Yan sits next to Yang Xu and picks up garlic with cold hands, and Yang Xu carefully notices that An Yan is a little cold With red hands, he naturally held his hands and breathed on his lips.

Sitting opposite the two, Bin Hong clenched his fists with his hands on his lap, focused his eyes on their movements, and pursed his lips.

At this time, the bloated boss brought the disposable tableware for three people on a tray, and said in a deep voice, "your tableware for three people".

The men put the tableware for the three of them respectively and turned to leave to grill skewers. It was already early in the morning when the waiters were off work, and there was another table of customers in the small shop besides theirs, so leaving one person was enough to handle it.

Yang Xu picked up the hygienic chopsticks at An Yan's hand, took off the chopsticks cover, and slowly rolled up the paper chopsticks cover, like a chopstick rest on the side of An Yan's bowl, broke off the hygienic chopsticks, rubbed them across the chopsticks The sawdust was quietly placed on his homemade chopstick rest, "Eat more in a while, and see how thin you are!"

In Yang Xu's eyes, An Yan will always be a malnourished person who is short of food. Every time Yang Xu sees him, he can't help telling him.

"Well, does Auntie know you're back?"

"I didn't tell her that it was already midnight when I got home, so if I don't bother her, I just treat her as a surprise."

"That's right, Auntie will be very happy." An Yan picked up a bunch of beef skewers from the tray and ate them.

Bin Hong felt that their conversation was so natural, they didn't look like friends who had been separated for several years, this feeling was more like a couple who had lived together for a long time, and he didn't give him a chance to intervene at all, he didn't exist in the conversation between them, He sat on the chair like pins and needles and twisted his body.

"Bin Hong, Yan Zi said that you usually take good care of him! Thanks." Yang Xu sensed something was wrong with Bin Hong and turned the topic to him.

"Small things..." Bin Hong reluctantly pulled the corners of his mouth, Yang Xu gave him the feeling that he took care of his family members for Yang Xu who was away from home.

He took good care of An Yan, so he went to bed!

During college, he heard Yang Xu mention the word "Yanzi" countless times.

There was a high school graduation photo on Yang Xu's upper bunk bed. It was not until graduation that Yang Xu took off the somewhat yellowed photo and stroked it gently with a smile on his face. Bin Hong had always known the existence of the photo. The Yanzi in his mouth is a rustic swallow, so he snatched the photo and searched for the reason why Yang Xu University did not have a girlfriend for four years among the few girls in the photo.

"Give it back to me, Binhong, don't break it!" They were about the same height, tearing apart in the chaotic dormitory.

"Let my buddies guess whether your swallow is..." Bin Hong pointed his back to him and pointed at the mediocre-looking girl with two croissant braids in the photo and said, "Is it her? It sounds like this rustic name suits her well." .

"No"

Hearing Yang Xu's negative answer, Bin Hong raised the photo above his head, frowned, and then pointed to a thin girl wearing glasses and said, "That's this! She's pretty good-looking, your photo is all yellowed I can't see anything anymore!"

Yang Xu pursed his lips and carefully pulled the photo out of his hand, pointed his index finger at the boy with a dull expression in the corner of the photo, and said, "It's him!"

"Boy?" Bin Hong followed Yang Xu's fingers and looked at the handsome and well-behaved boy, puzzled, then shrugged his shoulders disapprovingly and said, "I have been in college with you for four years, and I didn't know you were crooked. What a failure!"

Bin Hong often goes to same-sex bars, watching couples kiss openly, he does not reject chatting and drinking with them. Compared with the hypocrisy between men and women, the love between men and women is more pure and unprocrastinating.

"Aren't you surprised?"

Bin Hong looked at Yang Xu's stunned expression and patted him on the shoulder with his big hand and said, "Dude, why haven't you seen it before, so the car you chased in the rain just after school is also a boy?"

Yang Xu pursed his lips, his eyes darkened, and he nodded, "I'm sorry for him!" He took a deep breath and looked at the yellowed photo in his hand.

Bin Hong felt a little uncomfortable looking at his good buddy's dejected and sad look, hooked his shoulders and looked at the person with a dull expression in the photo, "Go and go, forget what I said, catch the ones who haven't left you."

. . .

He was the one who swore to Yang Xu back then: Catch those who haven't left!

He was the one who sent him into Yang Xu's arms with his own hands. Life is really ridiculous!

Bin Hong's self-deprecating sneer attracted the gazes of the two opposite people.

An Yan saw that Binhong's expression was a little strange, and put a slightly cool hand on his warm hand and said, "What's the matter, Binhong".

Bin Hong quickly withdrew his hand as if he had done something wrong, and glanced at Yang Xu with a guilty conscience. Yang Xu looked at him incomprehensibly. Bin Hong hated this feeling, like a third person inserted between them, timid and cowardly .

Bin Hong lowered his head and picked up the meat skewers on the plate, took a bite and said, "No, it's all right."

An Yan and Yang Xu looked at each other, Yang Xu raised his eyebrows and gave An Yan a piece of real egg, smiling, "It's better to eat less real egg!"

Even though he urged him, he still couldn't help but want to give him all the things he likes!

Bin Hong sent Yang Xu back home first, took a look at Yang Xu's mother by the way, exchanged some greetings and then left, Bin Hong drove the car very slowly, hesitantly glanced at An Yan beside him.

An Yan didn't notice Bin Hong's gaze, and kept looking down at the old silver watch his father left him in his hand, "This watch is always inaccurate recently!"

"I'll buy you a piece tomorrow, and you'll cry if the rest is left." Binhong knows all about An Yan's misplaced things. Several times he left his father's belongings in his house. An Yan thought he lost them and cried. died!

"I remember that I also lost my watch when my father just left. I cried so much that it was Xiaoxu who helped me find it."

At that time, Yang Xu was bending over to find his watch while comforting him who was crying.

When Bin Hong heard An Yan whispering the man's name, he couldn't help clenching his hand on the steering wheel.

The cold moonlight fell on the dark red floor, they were lying on the narrow bed and hugged each other tightly, Bin Hong looked down at the sleeping face in his arms, he looked obediently like a child, his brows frowned, his heart was tense, deep Take a breath of cool air in the room.

He leaned down and kissed An Yan's plump forehead with trembling lips, and the person in his arms moved his body and attached his hands to his strong chest, and fell asleep again. An Yan's bed was too small, so he had to hug him tightly so that he would not fall off.

Bin Hong will always remember Yang Xu looking at the childish An Yan's admiring expression in the photo, smiling sweetly, and touching the photo with his fingers. Bin Hong turned over, put on his pants and coat, walked to the window and looked at the empty Dim street lights beside the street.

Recently, because of An Yan, he has lost his enthusiasm for anyone. He knows that this is not a good sign. He used to be confident that he can control his feelings freely. He is a rotten person, but now he is not sure!

Yang Xu has been secretly in love with him for so many years, but now An Yan is monopolized by him. They are like brothers for four years in college. He buys food.

Bin Hong sighed and held his aching forehead. He knew his love for An Yan. Yang Xu quit his stable job to carry furniture just to pay for his mother's medical expenses. Yang Xu said to Bin Hong: Night and ghosts, I am more afraid of his sad frown.

"My contribution is less than one-thousandth of Yang Xu's, why should I keep you by my side, and return to Yang Xu's side while we are not dependent on each other for life and death!"

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