Don't miss the time when I love you

On a cold moonlit winter night, a red Ferrari was parked downstairs at An Yan's house. The man in the car was staring at the window on the fifth floor, holding a cigarette in his hand. I don't know why the addiction to cigarettes is so heavy today, one after another.

It's 10 o'clock, he hasn't come back yet, he should still be at Yang Xu's place, it's so late, maybe he will spend the night there!

Thinking of this, Bin Hong's slender eyes narrowed, his thin lips were tightly pressed, and his heart felt tense and uncomfortable.

An Yan drank three cans of beer in one breath and couldn't even stand upright. Yang Xu also got drunk with him. Looking at his swaying body, he could only stay at home for one night. Yang Xu was lying on the bed in a daze. The quilt An Yan ran to the balcony and opened the window, and the cold winter wind blew into the house.

"Yanzi, close the window quickly, or both of us will catch a cold." Yang Xu swayed and went to the window and took An Yan's hand to close the window, but he didn't want An Yan to put his hands on his shoulders and hook his neck , buried his head into his strong chest and cried like a helpless child.

"Yanzi?" Yang Xu frowned, suddenly he remembered Xiang Chen's crying face, he had never hugged him with such pity when he was crying, Yang Xu frowned and tightened his arms involuntarily, feeling the warmth of the person in his arms, They were about the same height, but when they hugged An Yan, they lacked the happiness of embracing him.

"Xiang Chen" couldn't help calling out his name, and looked longingly at the brightly lit villa area, "Well, ".

An Yan suddenly forgot to push him away when the kiss came to him, An Yan clumsily moved on Yang Xu's lips, sucking in, the smell of alcohol filled their mouths, Yang Xu was stiff and at a loss.

The cold wind blew through the window, and a red Ferrari was parked downstairs. Bin Hong snuffed out the cigarette in his hand and threw it in the snow. He turned on the headlights and deliberately increased the horsepower to make a roaring sound, like a roaring beast.

Hearing the deafening roar downstairs, Yang Xu pushed the person in his arms away, covering his mouth in astonishment, "Yanzi?"

With blushing cheeks, An Yan squinted her eyes and threw herself into Yang Xu's arms, muttering softly, only she could hear "Bin Hong~".

Yang Xu caught An Yan who had fallen asleep and sighed, lowered his thin body on his shoulders, closed the window and walked into the room.

The people in the car downstairs watched Yang Xu carry the frail An Yan into the house, thumped the steering wheel with his clenched fists, stepped on the accelerator, turned around and left.

On the narrow bed, the night light placed on the bedside table shone on An Yan's well-behaved kitten-like face. Yang Xu gently wiped his flushed face with a wet towel, and another ethereal figure appeared in his mind.

Yang Xu put his fingers on the lips that An Yan kissed just now. He had fantasized about kissing An Yan's plump lips countless times, and he had fantasized about doing something more extreme, but after really tasting the taste, this feeling is not He wanted to, his lips didn't make him nostalgic, he was at a loss and had some inexplicable urge to push him away.

There are faint clouds in the blue sky, and the cold wind blows through the down jackets of Yang Xu and An Yan. They are wearing heavy snow shoes and stepping on the white snow, making creaking noises. An Yan walks faster In front of him, Yang Xu looked up and saw that the hat on his head was a little crooked again. He raised his hand from behind An Yan to help him straighten the crooked gray thread-woven hat. His fingers suddenly stayed in the air stiffly, then he clenched his fist and retracted his fingers into his pocket. inside.

"Remember, this artificial lake?"

An Yan was so mischievous that he stepped on the frozen solid artificial lake and paddled around.

"Remember! Why don't you remember!" Yang Xu followed An Yan on the frozen lake and looked at the empty house not far away. The paint of the villa is no longer as bright as it used to be, and it feels old-fashioned. "We used to come here when we were young. skating".

An Yan looked back at Yang Xu, staring at the empty house with concentrated eyes, and approached him quietly.

"I don't know when Brother Xiang Chen left?" At that time, Xiang Chen always followed Yang Xu quietly like a shy little girl. Although she hadn't seen him for a few years, Xiang Chen had a handsome face and fair skin. Always impressive.

"On October 20 nine years ago, there was heavy rain that day, with heavy raindrops and cold wind whizzing, ".

Yang Xu's body trembled, as if he had returned to that icy rain.

"I thought you would be together!" An Yanru's narration voice on the TV station was low and magnetic, "You look into each other's eyes, they are shining, as if they are glowing."

"Huh..." Yang Xu laughed dryly, straightened his spine, took a deep breath of cold air, turned around and looked at An Yan's cheeks that were blown red by the cold wind, "Really?"

"Yeah." An Yan nodded, "I've never seen you like that before!"

Yang Xu should be thankful that he is pretending well, or should he ask angrily, I have seen you like this before, didn't you notice it?

Yang Xu thought he would be disappointed, he pursed his lips and smiled in relief, stretched out his hand and gently straightened the knitted hat on An Yan's head, this was the last time.

His obsessive beliefs were overthrown by him today. He thought that being loyal to the original An Yan was an infatuation, but now it seems that he has turned himself into a fool. He has never liked two people at the same time. He has always refused to admit that he is The fact that he likes bisexual people, but his heart has never left Xiang Chen, he has been hidden deep in his heart, he wants to thank An Yan for the kiss, otherwise he will never know that he loves Xiang Chen, never from beginning to end.

People are cheap, they always have to know what they want, what they should cherish, and what they reject at the last moment!

Yang Xu was in a trance, as if he saw Xiang Chen's handsome face smiling, he already knew how to cherish and love, but Xiang Chen had a lover by his side, and Xiang Chen was destined not to belong to him.

"Yanzi, do you like Binhong? Look at his eyes, too!"

An Yan was a little surprised, and then indirectly admitted his heart without shyness, saying, "But he is destined not to belong to me."

"Some people, even if they don't belong to me, just meet them!"

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