Han Zigao

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The severe pain oppressed Han Zigao's heart so much that he could barely breathe. He really couldn't imagine how he would spend his days without him in the future.

The footsteps are heavy, but the tears are still flowing. How many tears does a person have to shed before they can really be drained?

Qian'er, with you, I, Han Zigao, really have no regrets in this life.

In the evening, I went back to the west hall, walked to the door, wiped away my tears, showed a smiling face, pressed the hair band under my forehead to cover the broken forehead, and smiled when I entered the door: "Xian'er! I'm back."

The emperor heard the movement, looked up, and also showed a smile: "Aman, you are back, come quickly."

Zigao showed a beautiful smile, and ran over and said, "Qian'er, today, I asked you for a good lottery, you have to promise me, don't worry too much, take your medicine well, you will be fine soon." It will be fine."

"Ah Man, okay, I must take the medicine well." Chen Qian said with a gentle smile.

Zigao came over and hugged him, alas, I miss him so much after being away for a day.

A few days later, Emperor Wen issued an edict to send Maoer to East Yangzhou to be in charge of 15 soldiers and horses, but in fact Maoer was still young, only [-] years old, but he couldn't. Once Maoer was transferred from the capital, Zonger could go smoothly After succeeding to the throne, Erze Maoer has certain military power, and if he really grows up for a year or two, he can still protect Zong'er.

What he is most worried about now is his younger brother Chen Xu. With his shrewd and ruthless mind, he doesn't want his younger brother to survive in this world.But as long as Han Zigao is really willing to help Zong'er, his younger brother alone is not Zigao's opponent.

His requirements for Han Zigao have dropped from 10 years to 8 years, then to 6 years, and now to 5 years.As long as you promise not to let go of military power, be vigilant against Chen Xu for 5 years at any time, as long as you live for another 5 years, or if you find out that he has changed within 5 years, you can catch and kill him.

Every day he threatened him with not taking the medicine, and finally, every time Han Zigao put the medicine in his mouth and fed him.He began to fear whether it would infect him.But he is actually suffering from internal injuries and old diseases, which may not be contagious, not to mention that Han Zigao is very stubborn.Whether it is contagious or not, he can't screw him.

He directly hugged his head with his hands, and kissed him with medicine in his lips, he couldn't move left and right, Han Zigao was in his prime now.Another brave and invincible general with great strength.

So Chen Qian had no choice but to give in.In the end, he often blushed because of his medicine.Han Zigao often laughed that he did it on purpose, because he liked this way of feeding medicine.

He was actually worried that Han Zigao would not have sex for too long, and once he voluntarily lay down on the bed and asked Zigao to ask him.Zigao was so frightened that he immediately rejected him.

Tell him that I will wait for him to recover. Although this is actually impossible, Han Zigao seems to be no different from usual.He also jokingly laughed at himself for being so horny.

He smiled and fed him medicine and food every day.Then if the weather is fine, help him or hold him to the yard to bask in the sun.

The two reminisced about the good times in the past. Sometimes when the emperor was tired, he would hold him in his arms and coax him to sleep. At this time, Han Zigao would often look at his face in awe. Sleeping face, all kinds of tenderness and sadness will appear in the eyes.

Now almost all the memorials are approved by Zigao.

Zhongju also came every few days to bring the memorial. He also wanted to serve the decoction, but was generally rejected.But he was reluctant to leave, and the emperor would not allow him to come every day. If possible, he would also like to live outside the palace and serve medicine and meals like the prince, but the emperor always said "Zhongju, you go back." He had no choice , had to leave with tears every time.

His daughter-in-law is the emperor's younger sister. She and her husband-in-law came to Yuye several times to visit the emperor, but they didn't stay long. Zigao was afraid that the emperor would be too tired, so he always asked them to go back after a while.

Shen Miaorong and Zong'er came the most. Han Zigao was much gentler to Zong'er. The most important thing was that he had not agreed to Chen Qian's request. He felt guilty and felt that he might really lose his life, and felt sorry for him. Talk to him very gently every time, and occasionally hug him.

But Zong'er is already grown up, and Zong'er doesn't like Han Zigao very much, deep in his heart, he is a seductive and troublesome male favorite.He hated him in his heart, but he just guarded the emperor's father and didn't show it.

Daughter-in-law Wang also came over, she looked much older than Zong'er, of course she was also older.

But Chen Qian never saw any other concubines.

On the last day of March, Chen Qian ordered all the concubines in the harem to bring their children to see them. All the concubines came, and the remaining children in the palace, including Princess Feng'an and her children, But the sons who didn't stay with each other came to see each other.

He looked at each of them, and asked all the sons and daughters to kowtow to Yafu, vowing to respect Yafu as their own father in the future, and all the children followed suit.

Seeing his emaciated face, the concubines burst into tears, but he frowned to prevent them from crying.

Finally, in the evening, he waved them all back.

It was only this time that Han Zigao knew that Shan'er had been transferred to be king elsewhere, but he was not given military power.

The Queen Mother also came at last, seeing him like this, shed some tears.She doesn't know many things, but her daughter Chen Weier's tomb says Han Zigao's dead wife. She once asked Chen Baxian, and he only said that he was the person her daughter liked before she was alive, but Weier died of a sudden illness before she could marry him , but he is Chen Qian's male favourite, and he wants to be his successor, so she instinctively feels that she is not worth it for her daughter.

Chen Qian once put her under house arrest for Han Zigao, so she always hated Han Zigao, but at this time, when she heard that the emperor was seriously ill, she couldn't help but come and see him.

In April, under the imperial decree, no one was seen except Han Zigao and Zong'er.

From now on, the memorial to Zhongju could only be placed at the entrance of the main hall, and Shen Miaorong could only stop at the entrance when sending Zong'er over.

Chen Qian fell asleep more and more, and when Zhongju and Shen Miaorong really wanted to see him, Han Zigao asked them to take a look while he was asleep.

Chen Qian coughed up blood more and more times. Every time he coughed, Han Zigao felt as if his heart was being cut by a knife.

In fact, it is obvious that Chen Qian's chest hurts a lot, but he is strong-willed, and often sweats from the pain, but he always has a smile on his face. He doesn't want to make the man he loves sad.

Han Zigao was as careful as a hair, every time at this time, he really wished he could bear the pain for him.In private, he ordered the imperial doctor to add more painkillers. No matter how much those medicines were drunk, they would have a sleeping effect. After taking the medicines, Chen Qian often fell into a coma.

But Han Zigao did not allow himself to shed tears in front of him, and the emperor always looked happy and never shed tears in front of Han Zigao.

Both want to keep their smiles for each other.

Han Zigao often held him in his arms and let him fall asleep on his own.He rested his head on Han Zigao's left chest, listening to his beating heart, and fell asleep relatively peacefully.

But every time after Chen Qian fell asleep, Han Zigao's tears would fall uncontrollably, watching his beloved step by step away from him, but he was helpless, this kind of torture was really like being lingering.

When the emperor was sober, he kept asking Han Zigao to agree to his words about protecting Zong'er. In fact, he wanted him to have a reason to live. He had already seen that Zigao had expressed his determination to die with him, but he really couldn't bear him to die. .

As soon as he thought that this peerless face would be destroyed with his departure, he wished he could smash everything, the feeling of destroying everything, his heart ached so much that his breath trembled.

Only then did he know that everything, the world, the country, his own life, Zong'er's life, everyone's life, including his possessive desire for him, everything is not as important as Han Zigao's life, if he can live If you go down, you can give up everything.

But Han Zigao never really promised himself, which made him more and more anxious.

Once he burst into tears and said: "Zigao, even if I beg you, don't let me die with regret, okay?"

He begs him constantly, tears streaming down his face.Why is it so difficult to ask someone to live? ?

Finally Han Zigao said with tears in his eyes: "Qian'er, I promise you to try it first, I can't promise too much, if I can't stand it, I will still go to you."

This was the first time he let go, Chen Qian breathed a sigh of relief, and finally nodded and smiled: "Okay!"

Days passed, and the two of them were waiting, waiting for that day to come, waiting for the ruthless god of death to take the life of Han Zigao's most beloved person.

Chen Qian would say a lot of stupid things when she was sober. He said: "Aman, you can really treat my brother as me. I don't care. I'm just waiting for you in the underworld. Even after 100 years, I will still wait for you." For you, let's reincarnate together, in the next life, I don't want to be so much older than you, and if I am so much older, I will spend less time with you."

"Well, Xi'er, I won't let you wait for too long. I'm afraid that my appearance will change after a long time, and you won't be able to recognize me by then."

"Silly boy, even if I forget who I am, I will never forget your face. How can I not recognize you? Even if I am burned to ashes, I will still remember you! However, I want you to remember that I will always wait Looking at you, you can treat Chen Xu as me, but I don't want you to fall in love with him!"

"Fool, I only love you, and I will never fall in love with anyone else. Xi'er, I didn't do well in the past, but I know that no one can replace you, you must believe me, I am just you Alone."

"I believe you, Man. I believe, but I want you to live happily. Even without me, you must live happily!" Han Zigao didn't speak. silence.

"Aman, I have a secret decree, you carry it with you, if you find any changes in Chen Xu or the other princes, you can take them down on the spot." Chen Qian took out the secret decree that had been written and handed it to Han Zigao.

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