please feel my love

After Fu Sirong left Zhu's house, he hurried to the airport.

His head was buzzing all the way, until he sat on the seat, his overworked brain calmed down a little.

There were no flight attendants in the cabin of the private jet, and Fu Sirong stayed alone in the confined space, thinking about the past.

The story Zhu Shinian told didn't mention anyone's name, but he knew very well that what Zhu Shinian was telling was an event that happened to him when he was a child.

On Children's Day more than ten years ago, Fu Sirong, who had just entered primary school, went to a suburban amusement park with his parents.

That day, the elementary school students in the city were on vacation, and there were many more people in the amusement park than usual.

There were people coming and going in the amusement park, Fu Xian was very interested in playing exciting activities, and he always walked to places with many people. In addition, Fu Sirong was short and had short steps, so he was left behind by his parents if he didn't pay attention.

Fu Sirong watched his parents go further and further away, and he went around the crowd to catch up, but he couldn't find his parents.

The little confused ghost who had been separated from his parents stood in the crowd at a loss, looking around in confusion, and fearing that he would be found lost, he pretended to be calm and searched around several facilities.

Fu Sirong searched for a long time but failed to find his parents, and his abnormal behavior also attracted the attention of others.

"Little friend, are you lost?" Three adult Betas stepped forward and asked.

Facing the stranger's question, Fu Sirong shook his head violently.

The three looked at each other, and Beta, a kind-faced woman, squatted down, stretched out her hand to him, and asked in a very gentle voice, "Don't be afraid, let's take you to your parents, shall we?"

Fu Sirong was young and couldn't tell whether these people were good or bad, but his family taught him not to talk to strangers casually.

He took a few steps back, and the other two men who were standing saw that he was so vigilant, and touched the back of his head in bewilderment.

More and more people looked here, and the three who approached to talk felt embarrassed and embarrassed to leave Fu Sirong, who was obviously lost, and they all froze in place, not understanding.

Suddenly a child in overalls came out from the crowd.

He held Fu Sirong's hand with a smile, and said, "So you are here. I have been looking for you for a long time."

Fu Sirong only saw a beautiful little face flashing in front of his eyes, his hand touched a soft object, and then his body was led to run forward.

As the howling wind blew past his ears, Fu Sirong looked at the hands holding each other while running, and quietly quickened his pace to follow.

The child didn't stop until he took Fu Sirong to a place where there were no people.

He supported his knees for a while and asked Fu Sirong, "Are you lost?"

Fu Sirong nodded with red ears.

Although the little friend in front of him was unfamiliar, he was good-looking, with big and bright light gray eyes, and his cheeks were pink from running just now, Fu Sirong instantly let go of his guard.

"I'm lost too. It's not far from the Tourist Service Center. Let's go and find someone to help." The good-looking friend suggested.

Fu Sirong nodded like a chick pecking rice, and the two walked to the nearby service center together.

The two little ones walked into the service center hand in hand, and the staff quickly noticed them.

The enthusiastic staff heard that they were separated from their families, asked them for their names, and prepared to broadcast.

"My name is Yan Shanlan." The little friend raised his head and told the staff his name, then turned his head and asked Fu Sirong: "What's your name?"

It turned out that his name was Yan Shanlan, he was good-looking and had a nice name.

Fu Sirong stared at Yan Shanlan's shining eyes, and silently called his name in his heart.

Seeing that Fu Sirong hadn't moved, the staff asked softly: "Little friend, what's your name?"

"My surname is Fu." Fu Sirong hesitated, but did not say his name.

The staff also saw many vigilant children on weekdays, so they just laughed off Fu Sirong's behavior of only saying his surname.

She walked into the radio room, and soon the announcement rang in the park: "The parents of children Fu and Yan Shanlan are invited to the service center. Your children are waiting for you here."

The broadcast was repeated several times, but it would take some time for the parents of the two to find them.

The staff asked them to wait in the lounge, and the two sat side by side on the bench. The sunlight coming in from the window fell on the two small bodies, elongating the shadows.

Yan Shanlan sat upright, but his legs were dangling in the air.

Fu Sirong lowered his head, and after drawing a few circles along the tiles with his toes, he moved his hand on the bench a little to the side.

He lightly touched the person beside him, "Yan Shanlan."

"Huh?" Yan Shanlan turned his head and looked at him curiously.

"My name is Fu Sirong, you can..." Fu Sirong hesitated for a while, "Call me brother."

He was half a head taller than Yan Shanlan, and the little boy's inexplicable stubbornness and self-esteem suddenly caused trouble. He felt that if he could let this beautiful little friend in front of him call him "brother", it would be fine even if he was laughed at by the father who came over for a while.

Fu Sirong did enough psychological work for himself, and even thought about what he would say to save face after being rejected by Yan Shanlan.

But the good-tempered little friend smiled and softly called out: "Brother Rong."

Fu Sirong's self-esteem instantly swelled to the extreme.

Fu Xian and Zhu Yunxi came to find him 10 minutes later, but Yan Shanlan's parents were still missing.

Fu Sirong said goodbye to Yan Shanlan and walked out the door.

He walked halfway, turned around and saw Yan Shanlan sitting alone on the bench, hesitated for half a second and ran over.

"Thank you." Fu Sirong looked into Yan Shanlan's eyes, twisting his fingers behind his back.

Yan Shanlan smiled and said, "It's okay, you can go there quickly."

Seeing him laughing, Fu Sirong didn't know where he got the courage to speak out the delusions in his heart: "You look good, can I marry you when I grow up?"

Yan Shanlan was startled by Fu Sirong's words, her beautiful eyes opened wide.

He asked, "What if we were all Alphas?"

Fu Sirong replied without thinking, "Then I can do it too!"

Yan Shanlan is good-looking and has a good temper, how could he be an Alpha?

Fu Sirong didn't believe it.

Yan Shanlan thought for a while, and finally agreed to Fu Sirong, "Then we have an appointment."

He stretched out his little finger to hook Fu Sirong, "I'll wait for you."

After saying goodbye to Yan Shanlan, Fu Sirong was severely laughed at by his father on the way home.

At that time, he was young, but he had a very strong self-esteem. He felt ashamed after being ridiculed by his father, and dared not recall the details. Every time his father mentioned it, he angrily told him to shut up.

Although Fu Xian liked to laugh at him, he still cared about his son's self-esteem and rarely mentioned this matter again.

As a result, after a long time, Fu Sirong forgot about it.

He actually forgot!

Fu Sirong supported his head and sat on the seat.

At this time, he was extremely thankful that there was no one in the cabin, so that he could quietly review these embarrassing past events alone.

Many people do some embarrassing things when they are young that they will definitely regret when they grow up, and Fu Sirong is no exception, but in order to avoid future embarrassing situations that would make him feel embarrassed again, he often forces himself to forget this part of the memory.

As a result, I forgot and forgot, and actually forgot such an important thing.

For the first time, Fu Sirong hated his own brain.

When I was young, I was so brave that I dared to say to Yan Shanlan that I just met him that I wanted to marry him, but when I grew up, I not only forgot the promise, but after I got married, I kept guessing whether Yan Shanlan loved me or not.

Although the promise has been fulfilled now, but he forgot about it, no matter how he explained it, he couldn't justify it.

And when it really came down to it, it was actually Yan Shanlan who was a model, who was on the advertising screen and was seen by him, so he had delusions about this Omega, and that night he sent out the invitation to surpass.

If Yan Shanlan hadn't done anything, by the time he remembered it, he might have missed it completely.

Fu Sirong now thinks back to the past, and finds that it seems that after this incident, his father gradually interacted with Yan Chu.

But at that time, he was unstable, he didn't know that Yan Chu was Yan Shanlan's mother, and he didn't like to listen to the chats of his parents, so he missed many details.

He has been missing it all the time, and Yan Shanlan probably remembers it all the time, but he never mentioned it once, assuming it never happened.

Fu Sirong's heart of shame was so broken that he couldn't stick it together anymore.

Even when he was killed at the negotiating table six years ago, he never felt so ashamed.

He didn't dare to be narcissistic before, but now that he thinks about it carefully, the back view on Yan Shanlan's phone screen might be him, but Fu Sirong didn't know when it was taken, and he didn't dare to think about it.

Yan Shanlan has always loved him, so he didn't hide it, but the ridiculous thing is that when he saw it, he wanted to squeeze out "the person in Yan Shanlan's heart".

He fell in love with the same person twice, but he never expressed his feelings properly. He was jealous of someone, and in the end, that person was definitely himself.

Fu Sirong almost didn't know how to write the word "shame".

He leaned on the armrest of the seat, turned on the phone, and the screen was still on Ji Snapdragon's search interface.

Please be aware of my love, these seven words appeared in front of Fu Sirong again.

Yan Shanlan planted snapdragons in the garden just to confess to himself, but he put the flowers in front of his eyes twice, but he didn't realize it once.

Fu Sirong wished he could wake himself up with a stick.

Before Yan Shanlan planted Ji snapdragon grass in the garden, Fu Sirong didn't know this kind of small flower and grass at all, but later he saw that Yan Shanlan liked it so much, he even made dried flowers for himself, and he didn't even investigate the reason carefully.

If this is an unpopular variety, Fu Sirong can justify it if he doesn't know.

But Gao Yun knew it!

Not only did he know the meaning of this flower, but he also knew that this flower was given to him by Yan Shanlan!

Fu Sirong didn't expect that he was inferior to Gao Yun.

He didn't dare to think about how disappointed Yan Shanlan was at that time, and he didn't dare to count how many embarrassing things he had done.

Yan Shanlan watched his jokes for a long time.

But Yan Shanlan was definitely not the only one who knew about that incident when he was a child.

This story was told to Zhu Shinian by his mother, that is to say, his parents knew about it, but even when he and Yan Shanlan got home from a fight, they didn't tell themselves.

Only a little bit, he completely lost his wife.

Fu Sirong lay expressionlessly on the seat, with his hands on his face, blocking the direct light from the ceiling.

Grinding his back molars, he silently cursed a few obscenities.