Self-inflicted self-inflicted rebirth

The black car was galloping through the night, the outside of the car was blown by the cold wind brought by the changing seasons, and the inside of the car was peaceful and very quiet.

Staring at Su Li's back, Su Chen looked at the little golden retriever dog in a ball, tightening himself and pressing his head against the car window, Su Chen couldn't see Su Li's expression at this time.

"Master Su, Master Yao, do you want to intervene?" Chi Yu's voice came from the front row.

Su Chen looked at the lights of thousands of houses outside through the glass, and at the speeding vehicles one after another outside. This city is very big, but it is also very empty.

"Don't worry about fools who judge others by themselves."

The car parked downstairs of the apartment, Su Chen helped Su Li out of the parking space, looked at the rear of the car speeding away, and then saw Su who threw off his hands and crouched in place, crouching under the street lamp Leave.

Su Chen's fingers unconsciously climbed onto the cigarette case in his pocket, the cold wind was howling, and he spun around his lips when he was angry and wanted to curse, then slowly walked towards Su Li, bowed his head and said, "Go home."

Su Li didn't move for a long time, as if he wanted to stay like this until dark, until dawn, until the end of time.

"What are you talking about?"

Still no response...

Su Chen didn't know what happened to his child, and he didn't even know what it was because of, it was very sudden.

When I was at the dinner table, it was fine at first, but then I drank one cup after another until I was so drunk that I couldn’t get up on the table. At this moment, the cold wind was blowing, and my mind was probably a little clear.

"Is it cold? I'll give you the clothes."

"No."

Su Chen was taken aback by the muffled and slightly crying voice.

"What's the matter? Is there something that I don't know about? Work? Or fell in love and got dumped?"

Su Chen reached out to support Su Li's arm and lifted it up, but was ruthlessly thrown away.

Su Chen watched the child's legs shaking and staggered a few steps towards the apartment, and shook hands in the direction of Su Li's back. Su Chen only felt that his chest was very tight and congested.

"I slept."

When he arrived at the apartment, he turned on the light in the living room, and it was still the thin figure from the back that responded to Su Chen, and he didn't even call himself "brother".

This strange attitude, this feeling made Su Chen very uncomfortable.

"Su Li."

Su Chen clearly saw Su Li's steps pause, and then continued walking towards the bedroom as if he hadn't heard anything.

The anger in his chest seemed to surge up in an instant, unable to be suppressed, Su Chen crossed the living room and followed behind Su Li, pushed against the bedroom door at the moment it closed, and squeezed into the bedroom along the crack of the door.

"Crack." The bedroom door closed.

The only thing that was shining in the darkness was a small night light next to Su Li's desk. Hearing Su Li's slightly rapid breathing, he stared at Su Li with a stunned expression in the dark night.

"what happened to you?"

Seeing Su Li's momentary loss of focus, and watching him pointing at the door with trembling fingertips, as if in a begging tone: "Go out, I want to be quiet, I'm sleepy."

Grabbing the trembling fingertips tightly, Su Chen stared at Su Li who panicked for a moment.

"I once said that I don't want to be angry with you, but it doesn't include you being so vexatious, talking, what's wrong with you?"

With the help of the dimly lit night light, Su Chen could see Su Li's facial features, watching him tightly pursing his lips, watching him look down at the floor without saying a word.

After a while, Su Chen saw the pair of misty eyes in the darkness, which looked so pitiful.

"If you don't go out, I'll go out."

Su Li shook his arm lightly, but he couldn't shake it again. The end of his hand was still firmly held by Su Chen.

"Where are you going? Where can you go at this time? After drinking a few glasses of wine, you lose your temper. You have to keep me from knowing why you are like this."

Pulling the person towards him, Su Chen reached out and touched the back of Su Li's neck, as if to comfort something.

"Huh? Baby."

In the darkness, Su Li was quiet, the hand held by Su Chen exerted a little force, sobbing and sniffling, he said: "Don't call me that, since you're going to lose me one day, don't be so nice to me. "

The hand on the back of Su Chen's neck was stiff, very puzzled: "When am I going to lose you?"

Su Li's obsidian-like bright eyes in the darkness stared straight at Su Chen, a crystal clear teardrop meandering down, Su Li stretched out his hand to push Su Chen's chest, opened the distance, and grouped to a corner of the bedroom bed .

Su Chen frowned, looked at Su Li who smelled of alcohol and was scribbling on the floor with his fingers, and said softly: "The ground is cold, get up and sit on the bed."

Su Chen looked down, the child who had been raised for a few years had never been like this before, maybe there was, but it was well hidden, and it just came out through today's alcoholism.

Su Chen turned his head and walked towards the door, touching the wall with his hands. Suddenly, a voice came from the quiet room, an aggrieved voice: "Don't turn on the light, don't."

Su Chen's hand lightly pressing on the switch stopped, turned around and looked, Su Li slightly revealed a pair of eyes, time seemed to stop at this moment, they looked at each other.

Su Chen took down his hand, put it back into his pocket, suddenly laughed, and said coldly, "You're really used to it."

After saying that, Su Chen moved his long legs, stepped forward and picked him up, before Su Li could struggle, he threw him on the bed.

Su Chen landed on the ground with one leg bent and knelt on the bed. For some reason, Su Chen always felt that if this matter was not resolved today, it would show up again someday.

"Are you just turning your back on me like this? Bao'er? Can you solve the problem just by covering your face?"

"You go, I don't want you here anymore." There was a voice of humming, crying and grievance in the quilt.

Su Chen's faint indifference seemed to disappear in an instant. He lowered his head and looked at Su Li's insecure posture. He was once trapped in a messy rented room, but he had to endure it by himself. All cold and frost.

Su Chen sighed, and said helplessly, "I really owe you, get up."

As soon as he spoke, his fingers touched Su Li's waist with a strong force on his leg, and he turned him over.

Su Li raised his head as if his nose was sore. He obviously didn't want to do this, so he suppressed his emotions and rolled over a few times without turning over: "You want to lose me, you want to fall in love, get married and have children."

"Who told you?" Su Chen raised his head and gently picked Su Li's chin, straightened his head, and made his eyes look directly at his own.

"Who told you?" Su Chen asked patiently with coaxing.

Su Li's eyes drifted away, he turned his face slightly to the side, and said in a muffled voice, "No one, I saw it myself."

He said, since you are going to leave, it is better to leave now and live a happy life with others. Anyway, I was alone before, and I will be alone in the future. I am used to it.

As the last word fell, Su Chen only felt a severe pain in his chest, as if a big rough hand was tightly grasping the beating heart, pulling it back and forth.

Su Chen looked at Su Li who was lying face up on the bed, his breath suddenly stopped, and then it turned into a sigh, he couldn't help but hugged Su Li, and murmured: "Little fool."