Do not lose

Rubbing Shen Zhenan's jawline.

Shen Zhenan looked at him, stretched out his hand to hook Gu Jue's neck, and pulled him down. He lightly pecked Gu Jue's lips, and said with a smile, "Anyway, as long as I have you, it's the same everywhere."

"Okay." Gu Jue's face was like water, but the bottom of his deep black eyes was filled with soft light, which was extremely warm.

Shen Zhenan sat up, looked at Gu Jue seriously, and said, "I want to tell you something."

"You said."

"Yesterday, Lin Shenbai asked me to go out, and I went. Then he was drunk, so I sent him to the hotel." Shen Zhenan looked at Gu Jue's calm expression, "He... kissed me."

Gu Jue frowned slightly, and there seemed to be a hint of sternness in his eyes. His fingers were slightly bent, and his tone was gentle: "Where did you kiss?"

Shen Zhenan reached out and tapped the corner of his lips, and said, "This."

Gu Jue stretched out his finger and pressed the corner of Shen Zhenan's lips, then wiped it vigorously, stared at the corner of Shen Zhenan's lips silently, and wiped it over and over again.

Shen Zhenan stared blankly at Gu Jue, seeing that Gu Jue suddenly stood up, went to the bathroom to get a towel, and continued to wipe the corners of Shen Zhenan's reddened lips.

"Jue, this... is gone." The corners of Shen Zhenan's lips ached, and he felt that a layer of skin was about to peel off. He looked at Gu Jue's serious expression, or seriousness.

Gu Jue stopped, and sat without saying a word, with his back straight, sitting upright, with a serious look, his expression was calm as usual, but he didn't speak.

Shen Zhenan took Gu Jue's hand, and continued: "He has helped me a lot, but feelings are another matter, I can tell the difference, and I didn't find his shadow in you."

Gu Jue nodded slightly: "I know. It would be great if you could tell me."

"I used to be confused, but I didn't mess with men and women, and I didn't fall in love with anyone. Feelings are the most vulnerable to temptation and testing. I won't doubt my feelings for you. Then can you..."

Gu Jue: "I believe in you."

Shen Zhenan breathed a sigh of relief, he hugged Gu Jue, and said, "Then let's go to bed early today, sleepy."

"Yeah." Gu Jue nodded, he pressed Shen Zhenan's shoulder, "I'll go by myself, no need to hug me."

That night, when Shen Zhenan was sleeping drowsily with Gu Jue in his arms, he felt that Gu Jue wiped the corner of his lips, and even came over to kiss him, and he heard Gu Jue's voice saying: "Don't let other people kiss you. "

"Yes." Shen Zhenan replied.

"Whose is this?" Gu Jue gently stroked the corner of his lips with his fingertips.

"……mine."

"Ok?"

"Gu Jue."

"OK, good night."

Listening to Gu Jue's seemingly smiling tone, Shen Zhenan suddenly sobered up a lot.He opened his eyes and couldn't see Gu Jue's appearance at this time, but the temperature of the corners of his lips was still there. He touched the place where Gu Jue had kissed. Not only was it not his own, it was Gu Jue's.

This is Gu Jue's answer. Taking advantage of his sleepiness to declare his sovereignty, his usual gentle and gentlemanly demeanor may not be so gentle and peaceful.

"What did you just say?" Shen Zhenan tightened his arms and hugged Gu Jue tightly, "Whose one am I?"

Shen Zhenan didn't get a response, he reached out to touch Gu Jue's face, found Gu Jue's lips, kissed him hard, and stopped in time so that the gun wouldn't go off. He smiled softly in Gu Jue's ear: "I know you're awake, Jue, I'm your... man."

Naturally, this thin-skinned person would not respond, Shen Zhenan expected this to happen, and did not intend for Gu Jue to reply a few words at such a time, and fell asleep contentedly hugging him.

……

Shen Zhenan was immersed in the joy of enjoying Gu Jue's first glance at him every morning.He looked at the sleepy man, couldn't help kissing the center of his brow, the hand around Gu Jue's waist would slowly tighten, and when Gu Jue was more awake, he would get up together.

"You always get up earlier than me, but the monkey told me that you are not like this at school." Gu Jue wiped his face with Shen Zhenan's towel, and he threw away his own towel yesterday, looking at the person brushing his teeth in the mirror and paused .

Shen Zhenan rinsed his mouth, spat out the last mouthful of foam, and said, "I wake up when I've had enough sleep. Maybe it's because you are lying next to me, sleeping soundly and getting up early instead."

Gu Jue looked at him dubiously, he was usually in the school dormitory, and he might go back to the apartment to rest on weekends.Shen Zhenan doesn't like to sleep in the dormitory, most of them are in black clothes, but black clothes close at [-]:[-] in the morning, it used to be very noisy, it was impossible to sleep.

He goes to bed at [-] o'clock every day, wakes up in the morning and goes for a morning run. People who didn't like to go to class before can catch up on sleep in black clothes without any scruples, but Shen Zhenan now goes to class every day, and waits for him in the library after class.

"Let's go west, I want to take you to see the sky over there." Shen Zhenan said, he looked at Gu Jue with a smile.

"it is good."

……

After five days in Tibet, the last stop was at Namtso.

Shen Zhenan is as familiar with this area as the tour guide he hired. The story left here is unknown to Gu Jue, but Shen Zhenan carries a heavy weight on his body. It is rare for him to stand alone like this, silently looking into the distance. .

"Decision." Shen Zhenan reached out to hold Gu Jue's hand, and came to hug him. This place is too clean, and he didn't want to suppress his emotions.

"I have been to Tibet many times. When I came for the first time, a friend failed to go back. He died here, no one cared about him, and even the body was never found. His favorite thing is this lake. , but in fact he has never been here, he said, he wants to bring his closest relatives to see. I come to this place again and again, and I dare not bring the person he said here, in fact, even if I come, he can’t see it It's gone." Shen Zhenan looked into Gu Jue's eyes, "I don't know when I can bring that person over to have a look."

Shen Zhenan pulled Gu Jue to sit on the ground, he smiled, looked at the lake, and said: "Uncle Ke, find a time, and definitely bring him to see you. He has always been very sensible, has grown up, and will grow up with you Just as handsome, maybe more handsome than when you were young, he is very good, very good, I will definitely bring him here. Also, what about the man next to me now, isn’t he handsome? He is my wife. I didn't expect how I fell in love with men, but I really like it too much, and there's nothing I can do about it."

Shen Zhenan turned his head, put his hand on Gu Jue's head, smiled, and said, "What should I do? I really want to kiss you right now."

Gu Jue smiled, grabbed Shen Zhenan's collar, kissed his dry lips, traced his lip line lightly, and poked in bit by bit...

Shen Zhenan hugged him, turned against the guest, and deepened the kiss...

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29. quarrel

On the afternoon of the last day of the National Day holiday, Gu Jue looked at Shen Zhenan who was lying on him and looking at the photos. He felt as if he was still in that lake, looking at the highest sky, the most beautiful clouds, the clearest water, and the best hug. people...

"Uncle Sha's photography skills are pretty good." The photo Shen Zhenan was holding was the one where he and Gu Jue were sitting and kissing in Nam Co. It was taken far away, but the side profile could still be seen.

Uncle Sha is the tour guide called by Shen Zhenan. His original name was Shamu Shake. Shen Zhenan kept calling him Uncle Sha when he couldn't remember.

It took a lot of money to go back and forth. Shen Zhenan’s arrangement was tight. Gu Jue wanted to share the expenses with him. Shen Zhenan looked at Gu Jue and said, “I live with you, use your clothes, wear your clothes, and warm your bed. , You didn’t even ask me for money. Let’s not talk about money or not, just pass it back and forth, isn’t it all from the same family. Don’t you plan to live with me?”

"...to live?" Gu Jue felt that this word was a little far away, at least for now, he was secretly with a man without telling his family.

Shen Zhenan looked at the confusion in his eyes, and they crossed over the barrier of gender in one step, never wanting to look back.But after all, two people being together is not just about two people.

Shen Zhenan put down the photo, looked at Gu Jue seriously, held Gu Jue's hand, and said, "I never asked you, do you plan to be with me for these two years or this lifetime? If Your dearest person stops, will you listen or not?"

"……I have no idea."

"Gu Jue, I... am very disappointed."

Shen Zhenan let go of his hand, he wanted to grab him desperately, but he didn't want to be wishful thinking, he didn't think much, but one thing he was sure of, what he wanted was the rest of his life, not these two years.

Shen Zhenan took the mobile phone in the living room and said, "In this case, I won't force it."

Gu Jue looked at his back, what does it mean that since this is the case, he will not force it, so what does it mean to leave like this?Hearing Shen Zhenan's footsteps walking away, he opened the door and left resolutely.He was suddenly frightened and flustered, and the last burst of strong fear surged up, and he hated himself for not being able to say a word to persuade him to stay.

Gu Jue clenched his fist subconsciously, and punched it on the glass table, causing pain. He stared at the photos scattered on the floor in a daze, watching in silence, those intimate appearances were so dazzling.

Shen Zhenan's words kept ringing in his ears: In this case, I will not force it.

In this case, I don't force it.

He really never thought about the future, he even always felt that there would be no future between them.He can't give Shen Zhenan any promises, any guarantees, but he also wants this person to accompany him, he is so selfish.

Is he playing with his feelings?It's more like telling him: I can be with you now, but I might leave you later.

……

black.

Shen Zhenan was wearing a black shirt specially made in black, holding a microphone and looking at the young men and women below. He was half drunk, hooking Fan Ge's shoulders, and swaying his steps.

"Today, I am happy!"

"Why?" Someone suddenly shouted enthusiastically from below.

"Ah? What did you say?" Shen Zhe