Do not lose

Trembling with anger, he raised his head to meet Shen Zhenan's eyes, Shen Zhenan didn't change his face, lowered his head and kissed the corner of his lips, and said softly: "I'm not ashamed, I'm not an outsider."

"P-let me down!"

"I do not."

"Shen Zhenan!"

Shen Zhenan looked at the mad man in his arms, and gently put him on the ground, with one hand still around his waist, not daring to let him go, for fear that he would fall, looking at the two trembling legs , The inner thighs were still bruised and purple, a mess.

"Get out." Gu Jue supported the wall with one hand, pushed him with the other, turned his head away from him, "Go out."

"What's so awkward, I've seen, touched, kissed, where I didn't..."

"Get out!" Gu Jue interrupted him, his face was burning in panic, he pointed at the door and shouted, "Get out now!"

"Oh." Shen Zhenan left obediently, and gently closed the door, "I'm right outside, call me when you're done."

Shen Zhenan waited at the door for a few minutes, after a while Gu Jue opened the door, and stood barefoot at the door with a bath towel on, his face blushing unabated, and before he had time to ask Shen Zhenan to find him a pair of pants, he asked He hugged him up and put him back under the quilt. Shen Zhenan climbed onto the bed himself, covered him with the quilt, and hugged Gu Jue in his arms again.

Neither of them spoke. In the strange silence, Shen Zhenan's cell phone vibrated on the table. Without getting out of bed, he reached out to answer the phone and put it to his ear. Gu Jue could hear Han Tian's voice clearly.

"Brother, where are you going? Why aren't you in black?" There was a trace of complaint in Han Tian's voice.

"at home."

"apartment?"

"Ah."

"Oh, okay, then when can you come out? I want to see you." Han Tian said, "Do you need Gu Jue's consent when you come out? If not, forget it."

Shen Zhenan kept looking at Gu Jue, noticing that he was listening attentively, lowered his head and kissed the corner of Gu Jue's mouth lightly, and then answered Han Tian: "I'll look for you in a few days, when will you go to work?"

"Tomorrow." Han Tian sighed, "I wanted to tell you, I'm going to see the woman my dad arranged for me in the afternoon, how should I tell her, I don't want to marry her."

Shen Zhenan said: "See if you can bribe her and let her help you fool your dad. You just have to be careful and don't let her fool you. I'll talk to your brother later and let him persuade your dad."

Han Tian laughed: "My brother? He said yesterday that he wanted to settle accounts with you, and Zhang Putian bothered him when he had nothing to do recently, saying that you and Mr. Gu beat Zhang Putian last time, and now it's all his fault. Let me tell you, if Zhang Putian realizes it, he will trouble you, anyway, Mr. Gu is far away, he can't reach him, so he has to find you, have you been busy recently?"

Shen Zhenan looked down at Gu Jue, met his eyes, and said with a clear heart, "I'm fine, I'll settle accounts with him later."

"Who are you looking for? Zhang Putian or Mr. Gu?"

Shen Zhenan's eyes darkened: "One piece counts."

Han Tian laughed and said: "How do you count on Mr. Gu? He is Grandpa Gu Jue. Can you figure it out? Then he threatened you again, saying that he would not give him to you. Where are you going to reason? Brother, save yourself Go ahead, Zhang Putian, just poke him, if you poke him in a hurry, I'll keep it for you, no matter how bad it is, my brother won't leave us alone, just find a chance and see if we can do it together."

Shen Zhenan looked at the person in his arms, Gu Jue frowned slightly, stretched out his fingers to rub his brows away, smiled and said to Han Tian: "Little bastard, take it easy, you can't handle it yet, wait a minute, I'll Discuss with the Qi family."

"Ah, didn't Grandpa Qi say he didn't care? He was teasing me... hey, you were the one who teased me. He's in charge of his life, so he can ignore it. You lied to me! No, I want to tell my brother, Qi The old man is the worst, just let us juniors play with Zhang Putian, he will pick up the big one when he comes back, and you, you lied to me! Brother, do you still love me? What do you do? Can do this."

Shen Zhenan said in a teasing tone, "I love you the most, you play with Zhang Putian for two days first, I don't have time to talk to him here."

"Oh. Are you in trouble?"

"Big trouble." Shen Zhenan looked down at Gu Jue and hung up the phone.

Shen Zhenan reached out to touch Gu Jue's face, lowered his head to touch his lips lightly, and asked, "Can you trust me a little more? You make me very cold."

One sentence stabbed Gu Jue speechless.

"What did they say about me to make you believe it? They said that I killed someone, but I didn't. Whose family was robbed? Does robbing you count? If it counts, yes, I robbed it. What else? I told you How many people have slept with you, who else? Wasn’t it the second time yesterday? Right, boyfriend. What else? I haven’t thought about how many lovers I have. It’s too expensive to keep a lover , I don’t have this spare money.”

"You will definitely associate me with Xiaotian and say how much I like him? Yes, I like Xiaotian a lot. He is very smart and well-behaved. I have known him for ten years. Since I left Zhijing, I have I know him, I know his brother, I know Qi Li. Xiaotian and I trust each other. He is a brother. I will give my back to him, and then... I will leave my heart to you. You don’t know, before, Zhang Putian He also played this trick before, and it was Xiaotian who he was able to deceive, and Xiaotian told me a joke later."

Shen Zhenan smiled: "Gu Jue, it's time for us to calm down."

One sentence at a time, Gu Jue was dripping with blood.

Shen Zhenan smiled very lonely, he let go of Gu Jue, got up and stood on the edge of the bed and looked at Gu Jue, his eyes were deep, and said: "Don't get up, I'm going out for a while, what happened yesterday, I'm sorry, I was impulsive, and I won't let you down in the future." Will."

I was impulsive, because I was so impulsive because of the true love, but he said no, he was saying, should he first examine the people around him clearly when he encounters such a situation in the future?Think again, whether it's worth it for him, and give it all to him.

Gu Jue watched him go out, and gently closed the bedroom door, like a kind of isolation, he chilled Shen Zhenan.Shen Zhenan left his back to his brother, left his heart to him, and gave him the greatest trust, but he stabbed him in the heart.

Don't even want to stay together?Gu Jue's heart ached.

……

Shen Zhenan lay on the balcony and looked at it for a while, this winter is also very cold, he looked at all kinds of people in the distance, he seemed to lose his way for a moment, and his heart was empty.

He turned downstairs, bought a pack of cigarettes and a lighter at the convenience store, went back to the apartment, closed the door gently, sat in the living room, and lit his first cigarette.He hadn't smoked for a long time, he took a deep breath, exhaled a smoke ring, leaned on the sofa, closed his eyes, it was the way Gu Jue looked at him yesterday, so indifferent.

He took a deep breath and looked deeply into the distance, the white sky, which is often the case in winter, is so white, it looks very depressing, like a pot, enclosing everything in a limited space, very narrow .

Shen Zhenan smoked until there was only half a pack of cigarettes left. He looked at it for a while, and it was past three o'clock. The door of his bedroom was tightly closed. He went to heat the porridge, filled a large bowl and brought it in.

When Gu Jue watched him come in, he seemed to come back to his senses, watching him enter the door. Shen Zhenan had a strong smell of cigarettes on his body, and he didn't feel it. When he got close to Gu Jue, Gu Jue coughed lightly.He suddenly realized that he stood a little farther away, took off his coat and threw it on a chair far away, then fed Gu Jue gruel, Gu Jue stretched out his hand, and Shen Zhenan gave it to him.

Shen Zhenan went into the bathroom, found a suit of clothes, took a shower, brushed his teeth, and felt that the smell of cigarettes on his body had faded a lot.

Gu Jue never ate much. Shen Zhenan drank the rest, took out the bowl, and came in again. He drew the curtains and closed the door. There was only a faint light in the room. Ointment on the table, lifted the quilt and went to bed.

He stretched out his hand to hug Gu Jue's waist, gently pressed him into his arms, stretched his hand behind to smear Gu Jue's wound, comforted Gu Jue, and called him softly: "Je."

Gu Jue buried his head in Shen Zhenan's shoulder, stretched out his hand and gently hugged Shen Zhenan's waist without struggling.

Shen Zhenan finished smearing, found his pants and put them in Gu Jue's hand, squatted beside the bed, looked at Gu Jue, and said, "I'm going out for a while, don't go anywhere, come back soon."

Gu Jue looked at him quietly, Shen Zhenan kissed him lightly on the forehead, took the phone from the table, and left.

This time, it was already dark when we came back.

Gu Jue saw the cigarette butts in the living room, he stood on the balcony and looked at the gate of the community, but Shen Zhenan never came back.

After a while, the door opened and Shen Zhenan came back. When he opened the door, he saw Gu Jue standing on the balcony. The sky outside was already dark and the wind was strong at night. Gu Jue only had a thin shirt and a pair of cloth trousers on him. , the figure is particularly slender and thin.

Shen Zhenan frowned, and said, "Aren't you afraid of catching a cold?"

Gu Jue looked at him, Shen Zhenan didn't come in from the gate of the community, he should have been in the community all the time, did he have to come up after staying for four hours?Gu Jue walked in, Shen Zhenan took off his coat and asked him to put it on, the clothes were still warm, Gu Jue felt warm and looked at Shen Zhenan.

Shen Zhenan's complexion was deep, with blue stubble on his chin, and dark blue under his eyelids, he looked not very energetic.Shen Zhenan packed some light vegetable porridge, put it on the dining table, and placed it in front of Gu Jue. He leaned on the back of the chair and watched Gu Jue eat quietly.

On Gu Jue's fair neck, you can still see the winding blue and red hickey marks, which were left by him yesterday. At that time, he just wanted to swallow this person alive and hide it in his stomach, so that no one could reach him. leave your mark on you,