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His surname is Zhang, and his single name is Guan. He comes from a scholarly family.

His biological father was a scholar of the cabinet, and his aunt was born in Li's family, the servant of the Ministry of Rites. She is a cousin of the current queen.

Although he is the eldest son of a concubine, it is not surprising that the aunt rejects his existence.

When he was seven years old, he followed his father into the palace to enjoy lanterns and guess lantern riddles, and happened to catch the eyes of the empress. candidates.

So, he had no choice but to enter the palace. Empress Cheng Jinkouyuyan changed his auspicious name to Duoshan, and received training with a group of children of the same age.

Looking back later, he was able to enter the palace as a son of a concubine and see the queen, it must be something that the aunt did behind the scenes, and wanted to recommend him to the palace so that he would no longer be a threat.

He didn't feel any resistance to becoming a son in the palace, anyway, this is an established fact, instead of crying and protesting, he should think about what is best for him, his mother, and his sister.

It is a good choice to become the male favorite of the future emperor. One day he will be favored, afraid that his mother will be bullied, and his sister will not find a good family?

Even if he may never fall in love with the prince, it doesn't matter, as long as the prince gives him enough power and wealth, no matter how he wants to serve him... Is such a shameless determination considered a kind of strength?

However, at that time he didn't know that he would meet Qingping.

Qingping was not called Qingping at that time, just like he changed his name to Duoshan, Qingping's name in Taogong was Duoshou.

Duo Shou is different from him, but he was born in a poor family with rough hands and feet, and his appearance is also rough. It is only because he is of the right age that he has been trained in the Peach Palace, which is like a world of difference from him.

Duo Shou's temperament is also very different from his. He is cold and alienated from everyone by nature, but Duo Shou is a good-tempered person.

At the beginning, he didn't notice the existence of Shou Shou. He had exhausted his energy in learning skills and researching how to use the Grace Pendant in the Peach Palace. He didn't have time to pay attention to other people's every move. He was picked up by Duoshou because he was rejected by others, and he was grateful to him, that's all.

But at night, he always sleeps lightly. If he has a nightmare, he can only shiver in his nest until dawn. In the past, his mother accompanied him at home, but who would comfort him in this man-eating palace.

The Peach Palace is not far from the Leng Palace. Occasionally, you will hear those maids who have made mistakes and concubines who have lost the favor of the king crying. The world always thinks that they are a group of women who are far away from the core of power, but they don’t know that the Leng Palace is also a place where shady secrets are hidden. , at least he saw...something he shouldn't have seen outside the cold palace.

That night he dreamed that his mother committed suicide by hanging from a beam. He was so startled that he broke out in cold sweat and couldn't sleep anymore. When he was walking outside to dispel fear, he saw the man coming out of the cold palace, and two eunuchs were waiting outside the cold palace.

His eyesight has always been excellent, and he can count the stars in the sky during the day, so even though they were so far away, he still noticed that the two eunuchs were wearing special clothes, and they belonged to the queen.

Even though he was young, he was still intuitively sure that what he saw was not the queen's secret courtiers, but a secret lover.

This huge secret almost crushed him, more real and more terrifying than his mother's suicide nightmare.If it was known that he saw something that he shouldn't have seen, he was afraid that his life would suffer immediately.

When he returned to Peach Palace that night, he had a high fever, but he clenched his teeth and dared not say a word, for fear of revealing what he shouldn't say.

In the nightmare of illness, it was Duoshou who held his hand and sang out of tune country songs to comfort him, and the ugly singing made him fall asleep peacefully and strangely.

In the days that followed, every time he woke up from a nightmare, he would crawl into Duoshou's bed and absorb the body temperature to fall asleep. Later, Duoshou simply slept in the same bed with him, saving him the trouble of coming and going in the middle of the night.

He has always been indifferent, and he does not want anyone to owe him a favor, and he will not owe him a favor. He will repay this favor sooner or later, so he said that he will help him live longer no matter what, so before Taogong eliminated people for the second time, he told Eunuch Sun He would not stay even if Shou Shou was eliminated, he was the one ordered by the Empress, Eunuch Sun would not dare to offend, so he had to keep Shou Shou.

He originally wanted to wait until the East Palace to bring Duoshou with him, as long as he treated Duoshou better, it would be a reward.But on the day of the selection, the second prince actually pointed at Duo Shou, who obviously didn't like Duo Shou but pointed at him!

The anger that the plan was destroyed suddenly hit him, making his face contorted and hated so much that he almost vomited blood.

He has always been a smart and calm person, and he accepted the fact that he loves Dashou without much struggle.

Love him, but can't get him.

How ironic and sad it is to truly fall in love with someone in a palace full of cruelty, betrayal, calculation and desire.

Besides, before he met him, he was destined to belong to another man.

Later, he heard that the second prince should be named Qingping for Duo Shou. He smiled slightly after hearing this, and felt that the second prince was also interesting, and the changed name was much better than the original one.

Not long after he came to the East Palace, he accepted the fortune and became the prince's favorite without much effort, but he often thought of Qingping, Qingping's ugly country songs and Qingping's hands when he was alone.

Then, in despair, he discovered that he was also the seed of infatuation.

Duoshan didn't have much time to fall into sorrow, and he quickly decided that even if he couldn't stay together, he should try his best to make Qingping's life easier.

Life in Ganluyuan was poor, so he asked Eunuch Sun to deliver things, asked the people in the imperial dining room to get him some things, and asked the maids to do the sewing work for him... Most importantly, don't let Qingping know what he is doing behind the scenes, He does not want his gratitude!

The prince doted on him very much, and he needed to accompany him in everything. He was bored occasionally, but he had to deal with it. No wonder he didn't even smile all day long.

The prince never blamed him for his coldness, he just said that his temperament was born like this, since he can't change it, he shouldn't change it.

However, one night when the prince was stroking and playing with his hair, Hu'er said gloomyly:

"You have someone else in your heart, don't you?"

After all, he was young at that time, although he knew that he should pretend nothing had happened or even ignore the prince, he still trembled stiffly, revealing the secret he wanted to hide.

"Don't be afraid, I won't kill you." The prince stroked his cheek affectionately, his voice was so gentle, but his eyes were so cold, but what he didn't say was "It's not you who wants to kill".

Duoshan understood in an instant that if one day his love for Qingping was discovered by the prince, Qingping would undoubtedly die.

So he was very careful, cautiously concealed his contact with Qingping, and secretly made up his mind to never see Qingping again.He even ordered Eunuch Sun to persuade Qingping, and pushed Qingping into the arms of the second prince to make him die. The farther away the better, the better for both of them.

It's a pity that the sky doesn't follow people's wishes, he doesn't see Qingping, but Qingping comes to look for him.

I haven't seen Qingping's monkey-like strange face for two years become more attractive, showing a handsome prototype, but two years of hard work has made Qingping darken, his hands and feet are rough, and he looks more like the son of a poor farmer than when he first came to Peach Palace.

When Qingping told about the second prince's illness, he couldn't help but shed tears as soon as he opened his mouth. The tears fell drop by drop on Qingping's face, but burned his heart.

He forced himself to act like a good friend, and simply helped him solve the matter, but how could he calm down so easily, it turned out that Qingping fell in love with the second prince because he was thinking about it.

He was willing to give Qingping everything, but Qingping only wanted the second prince...

Compared with jealousy and hatred, he didn't want to see Qingping cry, so he even helped the second prince, only wishing Qingping to be happy, only wishing Qingping to be happy, only wishing Qingping to show a smile, only wishing Qingping to be loved by him.

His cold and calm heart throbbed only for Qingping alone.

The irony is that, just like his infatuation, the prince has always loved him, and his status has not been shaken after marrying the princess. The young and proud woman hates him but cannot move him.

He knows very well that even if the crown prince loves him undiminished, in the future when the crown prince ascends to the throne and the crown princess becomes a queen and gives birth to a prince, he will encounter an accident one day.

The best way out is to leave the palace and become an official. Maybe the crown prince has to devote himself to one night when he misses him deeply, but it is always better to decay and sink in this palace.

His plan should have been perfect.

When the second prince beat the prince, the prince persuaded him even though he was jealous. He said that this was an opportunity given to the prince by God, and it happened to show his generosity and tolerance. Besides, the second prince is a younger brother, and the elder brother is tolerant. The younger brother is an expression of brotherly respect. Some people in the court are worried that the prince will be arrogant. This is a good opportunity to change the perception of the officials.

The prince listened to his persuasion and asked the emperor to make the second prince king. Although the emperor only named the second prince a county king in the end, the prince had a heart to promote and value the second prince.

Although King He's poisoning caused a small setback in his plan, which really worried him, but the prince finally woke up and was safe and sound. On the contrary, the death of the princess who regarded him as a thorn in his side made him feel like God is The feeling of being on his side.

However, he never expected that Qingping would enter the palace because he was worried about him, and he was afraid that something would happen to him if the crown prince had one.Qingping didn't know that the prince was already fine, he pretended to be sick just to force the emperor to make up his mind to kill King He, and even worried that the prince's situation was unknown and he was in a dire situation.

Seeing Qingping, he was still full of joy, and he was in a rare good mood to grab a piece of fish for Qingping to eat.I also thought that Qingping chose the right time, the emperor came up to check on the prince's condition, and the queen was also there, the prince had no time to run to him, he had to lie on the bed and pretend to be sick.

Although King He's goal of beheading the prince has been achieved, it is too obvious that King He recovered from his illness as soon as he beheaded the prince, so he had to pretend for two more days.

Therefore, it is better to stay in peace and eat breakfast, and enjoy this rare peace and satisfaction with joy.

Qingping has a calm and tolerant temperament, but he has been unable to adapt to this gloomy and bloody court. He is too kind and naive and always thinks of others as good, but he doesn't know that there are not many good people in this court, and even he is not a good person.

In order to win the favor of the prince, he has done many things. Although his hands are not bloody, they are already dirty. Duo Hui once said that he does not want to be an enemy of him no matter what.

But he never dreamed that the prince would actually come... The emperor returned home due to physical discomfort before he arrived at the East Palace. I saw him helping Qingping to catch fish with a smile on his face.

Duo Shan understands the prince, because he understands too deeply and thoroughly, he is timid, and he knows that Qingping's life will not be saved without the prince's clarification.

It was at that moment, the moment when he smiled at the prince, that he was convinced that his feelings for Qingping were so deep that he would never see him encounter any misfortune, even if it was exchanged for himself.

He doesn't understand why he loves someone so much, he really doesn't understand.

Why did he still... still poison the wine even though he knew that he would suffer if the crown prince had it.

He may not be able to figure out this question until he dies, as long as he thinks that Qingping may die in front of his eyes, his heart aches to the point of madness, wishing that it is himself who dies.

On the night when the crown prince was poisoned, he sat in front of the window with the lamp on, looking at the dark sky without moon and stars, waiting for the news of the crown prince's death was also waiting for the news of his own death.

It wasn't the news of the prince's death, the bodyguard who was always by the prince's side also died after the prince's death, but that night he was ordered by the prince to ask him a word.

If there is an afterlife, will you love me?Treat me like that guy?

Duo Shan was stunned, so stunned that he didn't even know what to say, the prince who was poisoned by him wanted his promise before he died...why?

In the end he nodded, agreed, and was also stupid.

The scene of being by the prince's side for the past five years is vivid in his mind. In fact, he didn't have much time to focus on the prince himself. What he saw was always the power the prince possessed, so he thought over every word and every action the prince said, for fear of missing something. One sentence made the prince unhappy.

But he misunderstood the prince...

It turned out that he had misjudged the crown prince all along. This man who was about to ascend the throne actually loved him as much as he loved Qingping.

People have been poisoned to death by him, but still come to ask him about the next life, what's the use!

That night, he shed tears for the prince.

The death of the prince the next day shocked the imperial city, and the imperial doctors who rescued the prince that night said with one voice, saying that the prince's residual poison had invaded his heart and died.

Not only the Queen was shocked by this statement, but Duo Shan was too shocked to speak.

He quickly figured it out, this must be the crown prince's order before he died, and the imperial doctors did not dare to disobey and had to obey.But how could the empress believe this statement, she knew very well that the prince was already fine, and lingering on the sick bed was just a show for the emperor, how would she accept the fake show now that it had come true.

It wasn't until this time that he realized that the prince's infatuation with him was deeper than he imagined. If he knew this, why would he need to poison him? He could...

No!There is nothing left for him, nothing can be redeemed.

***

Immediately afterwards there was chaos in the imperial city, and the second prince changed from the king of Changshun County to the king of De, so the prince was given the posthumous posthumous title of Huairen, and the emperor was seriously ill.His existence was forgotten, and even Qingping had no time to visit him.

In the chaos, he heard about Duoxi defecting to the second prince, but he only sneered when he heard it. He had expected Duoxi to make such a move, and decided to persuade Qingping to stay away from the palace. accident.

What's more, the second prince has only family affection and no love for him. In the future, what will he rely on to survive in this court, it is better to leave early.

After the death of the first emperor, King De came to the throne, the queen mother did not forget that Prince Huairen died strangely, and forced the emperor to give her an explanation within a hundred days.

Duo Shan knew early on that the new emperor was not a thing in the pool, and sooner or later he would find out what he did, but he didn't expect that the new emperor would send people to surround his residence without investigating at all. Reasons are needed".

He doesn't care about life and death, he just can't let go of Qingping, but it's useless for him to live, he doesn't want anything Qingping can give, that simple and gentle person only needs the second prince, as long as he can't afford Shao Jin, only love Shao Just one person.

Shao Jin likes Da Xi.

It's just that he didn't expect that he misread not only the prince, but also the second prince...

After Qingping left, the emperor sent someone to send a three-foot white silk to praise him for his death for Prince Huairen, and asked him to go on the road early.

Listening to the new emperor's instructions, Duoshan suddenly laughed.

He misunderstood Shao Jin. Although Shao Jin had to kill him, he still cared about Qing Ping's feelings, so he didn't kill all the people around him, and only wanted him to go on the road alone.

He pretended to write something to deliver to his family, and asked someone to borrow the Four Treasures of the Study for him, but what was written in the small script was a big secret that knowing it was a capital crime.

He stayed in this palace for eight years. In the first three years in Peach Palace, he heard a lot of secrets from maids and eunuchs. In the next five years, the crown prince loved him very much. Xin Ta knows the inside story in detail.

He simply selected a few important articles to write, and finally added the queen mother's adultery.But he didn't have any real evidence, he just took a look at it at the time, and it might be troublesome to exchange this matter with the queen mother in the future, but the new emperor is born capable, he believes he will find a way.

After the ink was dry, Duoshan sealed the letter and delivered it to Eunuch Sun.

"Give this letter to the current Holy Majesty. Remember not to let anyone see it, or your life will be in danger." Duo Shan remained calm as if nothing had happened.

Then he took out an envelope from the secret compartment and handed it to Eunuch Sun.

"Here is a 20 taels of silver note. If you want to see the emperor, you will definitely need it."

Eunuch Sun took the envelope respectfully, his eyes were red.

"I'm going to take care of Qingping for me." Duoshan said indifferently.

"Take it easy, maybe Qingping will really beg for His Majesty's mercy." Eunuch Sun begged on his knees.

"It's useless, the emperor has his difficulties, you shouldn't have let Qingping come here before, let alone tell him those words, he will only feel uncomfortable if he knows." Duo kindly won a little.

Eunuch Sun was crying and unable to answer.

Duoshan looked at the pure white satin cloth, then glanced at the blue sky outside the window, and smiled.

"You step back and leave me alone." Duoshan said gently, as if he just wanted to read a book for a while, rather than... going on the road.

He has nothing to miss in this world, and the only thing he can't worry about is Qingping.

Only Qingping...

Seeing Duoshan's expression like this, Eunuch Sun knew that he was thinking of Qingping.

"The old slave invited Mr. Qingping to see you for the last time."

"Why bother..." Duo Shan sighed as he watched Eunuch Sun leave his back.

He didn't want Qingping to see his death, he only hoped that Qingping would always remember his handsome appearance.

So, he was on his way early, but he didn't know...

Qingping, you have to be good, if anyone dares to treat you badly, I will not let him go even if I am a ghost!

Qingping, in the next life I will be ordered by the prince, can you leave it to me in the next life?

Qingping, why can't I let you go?

After the death of Prince Huairen, the young master thought deeply about him and accompanied him to the mausoleum.

Seventeen years old.

***

When he woke up, a deep daze wrapped around his body, and his chest ached.

The surroundings are very quiet, and even listening to Telford pouring water for him, he tried his best not to make a sound. It was because the atmosphere was so quiet, so tense, and so careful that he couldn't deceive himself that everything was just a dream.

He didn't cry, although he has always been the one who can't hold back tears.

He couldn't cry, the tears were stuck in his chest, and he couldn't find an outlet.

Just thinking of Duo Shan Qing Ping makes my whole body tremble with pain, and I can't breathe like a big stone is pressed against my chest.

Why did Duo Shan fall in love with him?What's so good about falling in love with him, he can't do anything, it will only drag him down, and he can't even repay his feelings.

Duo Shan has passed away, and no one can answer this question for him.

Then, he thought of Shao Jin again.

He didn't know how to describe how he felt towards Shao Jin, he just felt that Shao Jin was so far away from him all of a sudden, so far away that he couldn't see him, let alone catch him.

In addition to emptiness, there is also a bit of hatred. It turns out that he has served Shao Jin for five years, but now it is nothing. With Duoxi, there is no affection between him and Shao Jin.

Thousands of feelings surged in his heart, he was in pain but didn't shed tears, he was angry but couldn't curse, he just stayed quietly in the room and didn't do anything, didn't want to do anything, couldn't do anything...

Maybe this is called "sorrow is greater than heart death."

The New Year is approaching, in the past he would always make some sweet cakes and spend New Year's Eve together with Shao Jin, and Shao Jin would tell him stories when he was in a good mood.About the Nian beast, about the firecrackers, about the auspicious words in the New Year's festival, he will listen attentively and engrave every word Shao Jin said in his heart.

Now, they no longer have to worry about lack of charcoal for heating.

Now, what kind of year is it!

Not long after, Shao Jinnian thought that he served him wholeheartedly, and decreed to confer concubine Cheng on him.Qingping did not accept the order.

He neither knelt nor accepted the imperial decree, but shook his head, shook his head, and shook his head again, making the eunuch delivering the imperial edict and Telford around him panic, but none of them could persuade him to change his mind.

Qingping didn't wait for the emperor to punish him and went back to Ganluyuan. He took off his Chinese clothes and put on the old clothes left in Ganluyuan. The old clothes were remade by him, the color had faded a little, it was half-new. The peach color that is not old and covered with dust is like a peach blossom that is withering and about to rot.

Defu also came to wait on him, and the persuasion from Zhenri to back and forth was still useless.

Qingping washed the water tank in the Ganlu courtyard again, washed and dried the bedding, and filled two tanks of water every day when he got up, and then sat in the yard to boil the hot water, and added water when it was dry, and added water after it was dry, until Sunset.

Others whispered that he was crazy, but only he himself knew that he was not crazy, he was just tired, very tired, this kind of life could at least calm him down a bit.

It was as if he had returned to the old days in Ganluyuan, but now he didn't need to cut firewood, and he didn't see the second prince come back with fresh fish, and no one would come to chat with him...

Why did he find out how happy he was at that time until he lost it? He never thought about why he was looking forward to Shao Jin's return every day, why he felt happy as long as the two of them had dinner together, and felt warm just staying in the same room with him , why did he lose Shao Jin only to find out...that he loves him deeply.

After staying in Ganluyuan for a few days, he begged Defu to bring back the two hens that he had raised in Ganluyuan. They should still be staying in Qiandi at this time.

After a while Defu really came back with two hens, but he was not happy.

Even though he was born stupid enough to recognize two hens, he still has the ability to recognize two hens. He has fed those two hens for more than three years, and every feather and every movement is clear. The hen brought by Defu is obviously not the same Those two.

Qing Ping didn't ask any further questions, he knew that there would be no good results if he asked, the two hens might have already served as lunch.

It turns out that even they have ascended to become fairy chickens...

Not long after the news of his madness reached Shao Jin's ears, Shao Jin ignored it at first, and after a while he suddenly called him to sleep, only a few waiters around him knew that the emperor had not forgotten this person.

But this time was the same as last time, Qingping still shook his head, as if he didn't hear anything, and insisted on not going.

He doesn't want to go, if he doesn't go, he can still relive the warmth of the two sleeping together in his memory, if he goes, he will have to face the fact that Shao Jin is no longer exclusive to him... Facing Shao Jin will never be exclusive to him fact.

Only in his dream can he feel the sweetness of the past.

Angry at Qingping's two disobedience to the emperor, in the end he regretted that his old relationship did not offend Qingping, but he did not mention Qingping again, as if he was thrown into limbo.Not long after, something happened that changed their relationship.

Qingping went to the woods alone that day, and now Defu brings charcoal every day. He doesn't need to collect firewood, but he still wants to come here to have a look and look for the shadow of the past.

This forest is located in the imperial palace, although it is not big, there are still some small movements. Qingping saw a few rabbits in it several times. I don't know if they can be kept here, or they just entered it by accident and lived there.

However, he never knew that his life would be related to the rabbit.

He just stood in the woods for a while, and a shoulder shot from nowhere and shot at the tree beside him. Qingping was still stupid and didn't know how to dodge, but just looked in the direction of the arrow, wondering if it was the arrow. Who has the courage to shoot arrows indiscriminately in the palace.

Before he could figure out a clue, another arrow came flying, but this time what was shot was not a tree, but his arm...

Then, Qingping Tingbu approached from far to near, and a woman said angrily:

"Dog slave! Who allowed you to stand here and block the way, so I missed the rabbit!"

Qing Ping was stunned, and it took him a long time to realize that he had been hit by an arrow, and there was a numb pain in his left arm, and it was him who was scolded by the woman.

He seemed to recognize this woman, but he couldn't remember who it was.

Is it another celestial family who doesn't take human life seriously?

"Who hurt?" a man's voice asked.

"It's just a servant of the palace. I don't know which palace it is." Seeing his shabby clothes, the woman replied like this, her voice still tinged with anger.

"The palace slave... no! He is not a palace slave." There was a trace of panic in the man's voice.

In the evening, Defu didn't return to Ganluyuan, so he went to the woods, and found a pool of blood in the woods, and there was an arrow hole in the trunk next to him, but he couldn't find Qingping's person. It didn't take long for Defu to figure it out. There is only one person in this palace who has the guts to do such a thing.

When the first emperor was alive, he loved Princess Anle the most, far more than he loved King He, so that Princess Anle has an arrogant personality and no one dares to marry her.

As soon as Defu saw the arrow and blood stains, he knew that Qingping was probably injured. Who else in the palace would dare to shoot arrows into the woods casually, except Princess Anle.

He didn't need many guesses, he also knew that Qingping was probably hidden by Princess Anle's people and waited to die. In the past, several eunuchs and maids in the palace suddenly disappeared, and everyone said that they were shot and hidden by Princess Anle.

Defu was as anxious as a headless fly. He searched all the people he could find, and finally found the Eunuch Sun he met in Peach Palace.

Now that Eunuch Sun is without his master Keyi, his status in the palace is not as good as before, but how kind he is in his hand. The 20 taels of silver note given before his death, the money can make ghosts turn the clock, the two of them can't see the emperor, find Wouldn't it be okay for me to talk about this matter in front of the emperor and ask him to take care of it?

They didn't have much hope at first, after all Qingping resisted the decree twice, it was already a kindness for the emperor not to pursue the matter, how can they expect the emperor to save people at this time.

But the emperor chose to go. Not only did he go in person, but he also ordered a thorough investigation of the matter, and found out the matter of Princess Anle's cruelty to the court ladies and eunuchs over the years.This matter has not been made public. It is only said that Princess Anle and her mother, Concubine Xian, were willing to guard the mausoleum of the late emperor, and their wish was fulfilled.

Qingping was tied up and thrown in a remote corner behind the rockery. Because the arrow wound had not been treated for a long time, it had already festered, and he also had a high fever and could not recognize clearly.

After all, Shao Jin was thinking about the past love, couldn't let Qing Ping go, so he stayed overnight in the Ganlu Courtyard.

In the twilight, Qing Ping finally subsided from the fever, Yoyo woke up, seeing Shao Jin but stiffened in a daze.

Shao Jin was delighted that Qing Ping was fine, but it was evident that he was repelled and a little sad, he who has always been reticent wanted to say something to ease the suffocating atmosphere.

He had a gentle voice and a face full of pity.

"Whatever you want, I will reward you."

This time Qingping didn't refuse, but what he wanted made Shao Jin hate the words "You have no jokes".

"Little man, I only wish to leave the palace and become an official."

He remembered how kind words he left the palace to become an official when he had the opportunity, and he always remembered that he dare not forget, what kind of last words he had.

Shao Jin originally wanted to touch Qingping's emaciated face, but his fingers were stiff in mid-air, deeply hurt by Qingping's words...