Was taken away by seniors after breaking up

Zheng Lan didn't really remember that he told Pei Yan that he wanted to see his grandma.

The hospital has been busy for more than a week. It is usually late at night when he reports to Pei Yan every day, and he will be sleepy when he can't say a few words, and he doesn't even hang up the phone a few times.

Later Pei Yan asked him, "Are you tired every day?"

Zheng Lan could only admit, "Yes."

Pei Yan added: "I'm so tired, I don't need to call every day."

Zheng Lan panicked for a moment, thinking that Pei Yan didn't like it, she was a little sad, but she still took his feelings into consideration, "Don't you want me to call you?"

Pei Yan was quiet, wondering why Zheng Lan would have misunderstood this, but Zheng Lan thought Pei Yan was right.

"Well, if you don't want to, forget it..."

Pei Yan chuckled and said, "You were not like this before."

Zheng Lan was taken aback, "What was I like before?"

Pei Yan avoided the question and asked him, "Don't you miss me?"

This topic was too sudden, Zheng Lan didn't react much, and said slowly: "I think..."

"Then why don't you call me?"

Zheng Lan finally understood, this time the voice sounded much happier, "That's good."

"Well, sleep when you're sleepy." Pei Yan said.

"Okay." Zheng Lan really turned off the light and lay down obediently.

Just when she closed her eyes, Pei Yan suddenly asked: "Do you want me to accompany you to see grandma?"

Zheng Lan's heart palpitated, and it took a while to recover her normal voice: "Why do you ask that?"

Pei Yan seemed very puzzled, "Didn't you say you wanted to see grandma before?"

Zheng Lan thought about it for a while, but still didn't remember what he said, so Pei Yan could only remind him: "You said it when you called one night, but you fell asleep after you finished speaking."

"Okay, maybe I forgot. I..." Zheng Lan turned over and pointed her lips to the phone, "I have plans to visit my grandma."

But if you bring Pei Yan...

"But I can go by myself." Zheng Lan hurriedly said again.

There was no gap between his two sentences, and he even answered them too quickly, which sounded a bit strange.

Pei Yan keenly felt that Zheng Lan didn't really want him to go, and didn't make things difficult for him, "Well, then you can go by yourself."

In Zheng Lan's ears, these words had a taste of self-defeating.

He was also soft-hearted. He never felt that Pei Yan should be hidden by him. Thinking of those things in the past, he could only blame himself for not working hard to deal with the relationship between Pei Yan and his family.

There is no chance to do it all over again, now hearing Pei Yan's breathing next to his ears, he only thanked himself for the last thing he could grab.

"Can you take me there?" Zheng Lan asked.

His tone was a little excited that Pei Yan couldn't understand, but the feeling of being needed was better than the rejection that he didn't dare to say.

"Yes, when?" Pei Yan lit a cigarette casually.

Originally, he didn't intend to smoke.

On the day Zheng Lan went to see her grandmother, it was raining.

The weather is especially suitable for sacrifices.

The appointed time was very early, and it was still dark.

Zheng Lan went downstairs and walked out of the community, the lights were dim along the way.

Pei Yan's car was parked at the door, and he himself got out of the car and stood by the door waiting for him.

When Zheng Lan saw someone, she trotted over and asked, "Have you been waiting for a long time?"

"No." Pei Yan opened the door and sat in.

The place where grandma was buried was in the suburbs, and it took more than an hour to drive there from the city, so Zheng Lan chose a very early departure time.

But he knew that Pei Yan was busy, and he was afraid that he would not be able to rest well. The night before, he tried to ask if he should forget it. At that time, Pei Yan was only silent for a while impatiently, and Zheng Lan dared not speak.

He had bought breakfast for the two of them in advance, and heated it up for a while when he got up this morning, and now it was still hot in his arms.

When Pei Yan got into the car smoothly, he took out his breakfast.

It's a simple sandwich and milk.

"Have you eaten?" Zheng Lan asked.

The food in his hand was very fragrant, and Pei Yan could smell it as soon as he got in the car.

"No." Pei Yan still focused on looking ahead.

"Then eat what I brought." Zheng Lan began to peel off the wrapping paper.

Pei Yan asked him amusedly, "How do you eat?"

Zheng Lan paused and said, "I'll feed you."

Pei Yan didn't say yes or no.At this time, there happened to be a red light, and Pei Yan was empty-handed, and did not say that he wanted to eat by himself.

Now Zheng Lan gradually understood some of Pei Yan's thoughts.He hasn't chased him yet, so Pei Yan just likes to be awkward, watching him trying to please, and then responding.

Zheng Lan swiftly raised the sandwich and handed it to Pei Yan's mouth, before he tilted his head and took a bite.

"Is it delicious?" Zheng Lan stared at him, "I didn't put any lettuce on purpose."

Pei Yan doesn't like lettuce in burgers or sandwiches, he only eats cooked ones.

"It's okay." Pei Yan said.

In the next second, Zheng Lan held up the milk again and let him take a sip.

"I also choose milk with very little sugar."

Pei Yan likes to drink something that doesn't contain much sugar, like coffee and milk.But Zheng Lan likes sweet drinks very much, so they choose them separately every time they buy them.

Zheng Lan's carefulness made Pei Yan calm down when he got up early in the morning, the red light was about to jump, he hooked his fingers and said, "Come here."

"What's wrong?" Zheng Lan leaned forward.

Pei Yan suddenly leaned over and pecked his lips, then quickly returned to his original position.

Zheng Lan didn't move stupidly, Pei Yan was happy to see him like this, and said proudly: "I reward you, don't you like it?"

"I like it," the car started, Zheng Lan still maintained that posture, eyes drooping not knowing where to look, and murmured again, "I like it."

Zheng Lan didn't talk to Pei Yan much on the way, and there was no music playing in the car.

Pei Yan drove the car steadily, and Zheng Lan fell asleep not long after.

When he fell asleep, he was holding half a sandwich in his hand, which was his own, and Pei Yan had already finished feeding it.

Pei Yan distractedly glanced at the person who was sleeping soundly in the co-pilot, Zheng Lan tilted her body, her head turned to his side, and the car shook slightly.When he closed his eyes, his upper and lower eyelashes touched together, his body rose and fell softly, and he let out a small breathing sound.

Unable to bear it anymore, Pei Yan had no choice but to find a place on the side of the road to stop, first took the sandwich out of his hand, packed it up, and watched him sleep quietly for a while.

It wasn't until Zheng Lan moved that Pei Yan came back to his senses.He suddenly frowned deeply, and curled up his body, as if he had some bad dream.After a while, Zheng Lan actually started to cry, Pei Yan was stunned to see it, and after searching for a long time, he didn't find the paper, so he wiped it with his fingers.

Not wanting to wake Zheng Lan up, but also wanting to wipe his tears, Pei Yan was in a hurry, so he untied his seat belt and hugged him.

Zheng Lan woke up, half-opened her eyes, but obediently wrapped her arms around Pei Yan's neck, and buried her face on his shoulder.

Just didn't cry anymore.

Pei Yan couldn't bear to be so pitiful, so he patted him on the back and asked, "What did you dream about?"

"Shopping for vegetables..." Zheng Lan was sticky and steamy when she spoke.

"What food to buy?"

"I went to buy lettuce and said I had to cook it before eating. The aunt who sold the vegetables insisted that the lettuce couldn't be cooked, and scolded me if she didn't sell it to me. I couldn't say no to her..." Zheng Lan rubbed her hands.

I feel wronged.

Pei Yan laughed when she heard it, and was blamed by Zheng Lan, who asked why she was laughing.

"How old are you?" When Pei Yan asked, Zheng Lan pushed him away and turned away from looking at anyone.

"Are you angry?" Pei Yan didn't coax her, and put on her seat belt again, ready to go on the road.

Zheng Lan looked around, pointed to the side of the road and asked, "Why stop?"

Pei Yan was suddenly speechless, coughed and said, "I want to drink water."

Zheng Lan looked around in the car for a while, and asked him, "Where's the water?"

Pei Yan had no choice but to think how smart you were at this time, so she had to make up: "You started crying when you were about to go down to buy it. I didn't buy it just to hug you."

"Oh……"

Pei Yan was about to drive, when she turned her head, Zheng Lan blushed.

So fucking cute.

Pei Yan thumped the steering wheel.

Zheng Lan was taken aback and asked, "What are you doing?"

Is it just... so irritable without drinking water?

"Nothing, the steering wheel is stuck." Pei Yan explained indifferently.

Zheng Lan thought that he was still angry because he didn't buy water, so she said: "Then don't open it, I'll go buy water."

"Okay." Pei Yan stopped the car.

Zheng Lan quickly ran down and bought two bottles of water at the nearest convenience store on the street.

One bottle is mineral water and the other is peach flavored juice.

He sat back with a bottle in each hand and asked Pei Yan which one he wanted to drink.

Pei Yan took away the mineral water, and the two opened the bottle caps to drink.

In fact, Zheng Lan wasn't thirsty at all, she just drank with Pei Yan.But Pei Yan didn't seem too thirsty, and only took a sip of mineral water.

Zheng Lan was also worried that he bought the wrong water, "Isn't it good?"

Pei Yan really didn't know what to say, how could a mineral water be delicious or not, how could he ask about it.

He hummed casually, looking at Zheng Lan's face that hadn't been wiped clean.

The corners of the eyes are still stained with water, and the lips are also red.

Feeling guilty, he pointed to the one in Zheng Lan's hand and said, "I want to drink yours."

"Okay."

Zheng Lan handed it over without hesitation, Pei Yan grabbed the bottle, but even shook his hand, pulling him closer to him.

"Why... um..."

Pei Yan bit Zheng Lan's lips, rolled her tongue in, supported the back of his neck with the other hand, and opened her eyes to see Zheng Lan's frown.

After kissing enough, Pei Yan let go of both hands, Zheng Lan's hand holding the water softened, and the bottle fell down and rubbed against Pei Yan's leg, falling down and smashing.

Pei Yan bent down to pick it up and threw it back into Zheng Lan's arms. The man still maintained his original posture panting and staring at him obsessively.

Pei Yan teased him: "You still want to kiss?"

Zheng Lan was confused for a moment, but she wanted to nod like that.

Stretching out a hand to touch the tip of Zheng Lan's chin, Pei Yan reminded him: "It's too late."

Zheng Lan regretted giving up.

The rest of the road is not long, Zheng Lan has been sober.

There was actually some tension.

After returning to China, he often went to see his grandmother, but almost always alone.

This time he was not only accompanied by someone, but also Pei Yan.

When buying flowers at the entrance of the cemetery, Zheng Lan bought more flowers than usual.

Including Pei Yan and Bai Hao's two shares, they can't even see the path under their feet when they are hugged alone.

Pei Yan said let me come, but Zheng Lan missed her lower body and raised her head from a pile of flowers.

Those eyes were watery, but somehow lost their expression.

"I'm sorry, Brother Pei, because, because of something, I may have to go in by myself this time."

After he finished speaking, he didn't dare to look at Pei Yan again, and lowered his head, the tip of his nose was almost touching the petals.

Zheng Lan had been very hesitant before, but Pei Yan still chose not to ask even though he didn't know why.

When grandma passed away, Zheng Lan was the saddest one.

He raised his hand, clasped Zheng Lan's head, and rubbed and pressed gently.

"Then go in, I'll wait for you here."

Zheng Lan didn't seem to expect his understanding, blinked a few times, and said, "Okay."

After walking a few steps, he turned back and said, "I'm sorry."

Pei Yanzhen shook his head indifferently.

He didn't start thinking about it until he couldn't see Zheng Lan's back.

Zheng Lan's change started two years ago when his grandmother passed away.

After returning to school, Pei Yan always thought that the death of his grandmother had hit him too hard, which caused Zheng Lan's series of anomalies.So he chose to accompany him, not asking and ignoring him, just coaxing and comforting him.

Looking back now, it seems that there was a mistake.

Pei Yan's hand lighted on the side of the car.

According to Zheng Lan's personality, he was hit by his grandmother's death, so he would not alienate himself, but should always cling to him.

As he himself said at the beginning, he seriously lacks a sense of security, so why would he push him away when he needed a sense of security?

Why do you say they can't go on?

What went wrong?

Pei Yan realized that something was wrong.Many fragmented emotions appeared in his mind, but it was always impossible to piece together a complete logic.

He was fascinated after thinking about it, and he felt that this matter had something to do with the old man's death.

That Fang Zheng Lan carried the flowers and walked deep, he remembered the place where grandma was buried very clearly.

Stopping in front of the stele, Zheng Lan divided the flowers into bunches and arranged them beautifully.

"You used to like flowers very much, and you always make pictures of flowers in embroidery." Zheng Lan said in a low voice.

The rain was not heavy, and it was inconvenient for him to hold flowers, so he didn't hold an umbrella.

The black umbrella was put away and held in his palm.

"I came to see you so suddenly today..." Zheng Lan slowly squatted down and looked at the monument, "It's because something happened."

He took a deep breath.

"When I was young, I didn't worry about it. I didn't have my parents to take care of me. I always pestered you. In fact, I grew up by your side. You love me very much, I know. But I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I always let you down .”

Zheng Lan clasped his hands together and pressed against his lips.His eyelids trembled, and when he closed his eyes, tears fell down.

"In fact, I always dream of you, dreaming of everything," Zheng Lan smiled again, "You praise me, hug me, or beat me and scold me, of course...you never said anything about me, it was all my dream See you. I, I at least dreamed about the day you died. I didn’t wake up that whole day. You should think I’m useless. Since you were a child, you said that you have to be responsible, but I didn’t do it. I did. That's the worst part."

"The day you left..." Zheng Lan couldn't continue.

He looked down at dazzled.

There was a bunch of pink ones that Pei Yan chose, and he touched them with a smile.

"Grandma, this bouquet was given to you by Pei Yan. It's strange, Pei Yan said you would like it, even I don't know what color you like, he said you told him secretly before, did you tell him? If you don’t like it, please entrust it to me in a dream. We will give you a better color next time. Of course, if you don’t want him to come or send you flowers, you can also tell me, and I won’t bring him next time. "

"Did you see Pei Yan the day you left? I don't really know yet. I brought Pei Yan to see you before. You seem to like him very much. In fact..." Zheng Lan sniffed, "I also Like him a lot. Really, like him a lot. I love him."

"Here I can only tell you, I'm sorry, your only grandson may make you very sad, yes, he likes boys. Don't you keep asking me why I have such a bad relationship with my mother? Because my mother knows, I think my mother can't accept her son like this. You are so old, can you accept it? I didn't expect that it seemed to irritate you in the end. I'm... very sorry. "

"I, I tried it," Zheng Lan laughed like tears, "Pei Yan and I separated for a while, uh... two years."

"For two years, when I dreamed of you, I also dreamed of him. I couldn't sleep every day. I didn't want to make you feel bad at all, but I..." Zheng Lan bit her lip, "I can't help it."

"Later when he came back, we met once by chance. I found that he didn't seem to have changed. He didn't change as if... he was still standing there waiting like me. I failed you two once. This is my life. , the most regrettable thing so far. So grandma, I now decide..." Zheng Lan raised her head, unable to speak any more, and covered her face with her hands.

"I decided to be a responsible person from now on. No matter whether he still loves me as much as before, I still love him very much, so I still want to be with him, if possible, I want to be with him forever Together. Considering that you still may not be able to accept it, I will not bring him to see you for now, but flowers are the wishes of a junior, and you actually liked him a little before, so let him give them to you?"

Zheng Lan pursed her lips, pinching the petals with her fingers unconsciously.

"Almost... I'm almost finished. I just want to tell you this today. Your nephew is unworthy. I wish you a better grandson in your next life. Grandma..." Zheng Lan's mouth slowly fell, and she burst into tears, " I really miss you, and I love you too, but I like boys, I'm sorry, I can't change it..."

Both knees fell to the ground slowly, Zheng Lan's eyes were narrowed until there were only slits left, her lips trembled uncontrollably, she shrugged her shoulders and sucked her nose, her head still hit the ground firmly and heavily.

"Sorry……"

"Sorry……"

"Sorry……"

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-10-0409:51:26~2021-10-0516:29:03期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: one daughter, one forget-me-not;

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: 7 bottles of little friends who love to eat cp;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!