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If Mu Xinghai said this ten years later, Ruan Chen would follow him without hesitation; if Mu Xinghai said this five years later, Ruan Chen would be so moved that his eyes turned red.

But the Mu Xinghai who said "I'll take you away" to Ruan Chen at the moment is the 21-year-old Mu Xinghai. The same sentence has different effects when uttered by different people. Ruan Chen doesn't feel happy and moved, he just finds it ridiculous.

To be honest, even he himself was terrified of his cold-blooded speculation.

He didn't make fun of Mu Xinghai either. After all, he was also a 20-year-old man. He knew how emotional a man of that age could be. If he laughed too much, it would be as if he was laughing at his former self.

and so.

Ruan Chen only responded to Mu Xinghai with a short silence, and then made a final decision, saying: "If you were 30 years old now, and you told me this, I would probably leave with you."

In fact, he has roughly figured out Mu Xinghai's temper, he is a donkey, and he said as gently as possible: "Xiao Mu, calm down."

"You have your future, and I have my studies. I don't want to delay you, and I won't change my life for you. We had a good time when we met, and I think it's already good."

He pushed away the stiff Mu Xinghai, took a step back, walked into the darkness, and said, "Go back. I'm going back too."

He took a deep breath, which was strange, as if he had sucked in a handful of small, sharp ice edges, causing a dull pain from his throat to his internal organs.Looking up and seeing Mu Xinghai's eyes, the moment seemed very long, and he could completely see the light in those eyes like ice water pouring on hot coals. Ruan Chen thought for a while, lowered his head and took out his wallet, and asked, "Flower?" How much did you pay for the medical bills?"

Mu Xinghai laughed angrily: "You are a poor ghost, you still have to pay me a breakup fee, right?"

The title "poor ghost" is a bit harsh, Ruan Chen paused his hands, he took out all the banknotes in the wallet, no matter how large or small, there was probably more than 1000 yuan, and forced it to Mu Xinghai: "I only have So much, I give it to you. If you don’t want it, just throw it away.”

Mu Xinghai really threw all the money on the ground in front of him.

Ruan Chen stared blankly for a few seconds, turned around and left silently without picking it up or looking up.

Mu Xinghai looked at his figure as he walked further and further away, he always felt that this big man had changed a lot since the time he fell in love with him, but he changed back today, Ruan Chen was slightly stooped, his body shrank, his clothes Shabby, walking neither fast nor slow, there is always a kind of bleakness of being independent from the world.

The moment he passed the corner completely, Mu Xinghai vaguely felt that the world about Ruan Chen that he had forcefully entered had completely expelled himself.

ended.

everything is over.

Mu Xinghai squatted down and picked up the dusty money that fell on the ground one by one.

He whispered: "Bitch."

What a mess.

He tried his best, but Ruan Chen still wanted to break up with him, so what was the point of his fight with Lin Mu?

Damn it, Lin Mu said that he would go to the school forum to help him come out, but he still said it casually.

If Ruan Chen was his boyfriend, it would be fine if he came out, but he would have the audacity to admit it.Now Bai is out of the closet and also has a boyfriend.

Mu Xinghai didn't know where to go.

He bought a pack of Yuxi at a 24-hour convenience store, sat on the side of the road and smoked one after another. After smoking, he found a nearby Internet cafe and played games on the computer.

His hand was still bandaged, so it can be said that he was not physically disabled, and the brothers in the next seat gave him a thumbs up and praised him as "awesome".

Mu Xinghai didn't know what he was doing either.

Escape first, escape first, wait until death is imminent.

What if you get out of the closet?These days, gays are not uncommon.

Besides, he was going abroad anyway.When he goes abroad, no matter the flood in the country.

Mu Xinghai was like this. He wrote Do Not Disturb on the message boards of accounts such as WeChat and WeChat, then turned off his mobile phone, and stayed in this Internet cafe where no one knew him. He smoked and played games. When he was hungry, he ate takeout. Slept on the sofa for a while, feeling dazed and numb.

He thought slowly, it's not a big deal.

Ruan Chen... Is there anything about a man like Ruan Chen that he should never forget?It would take him two or three years at most, no, in one or two years, he would be able to completely forget Ruan Chen.

Thinking about it carefully, Ruan Chen never explicitly said a word of liking to him.

Only once, when they were watching the sea of ​​clouds on the mountain, Ruan Chen smiled and said to him: "I really hope this moment can last forever."

Between dizziness and pain.

Mu Xinghai began to doubt: Did Ruan Chen ever like me?

Ruan Chen should like him, no, it was obviously Ruan Chen who liked him first, otherwise why would he always peep at him with shy and hot eyes, blushing when talking to him, and dare not even meet his eyes.He is so sad and crazy now that he even doubts this.

In fact, it didn't take too long.

Mu Xinghai only disappeared from the world for two days, and then he turned on his phone again. He thought, if his parents couldn't contact him again, they might have to call the police.

As soon as I turned on the phone, countless messages popped up.

It was all from his friends.

He used to have a social life every day, he had to chat with many people, and he was always well-informed.

Mu Xinghai was in a serious mood, he thought, maybe someone has come to ask about his coming out, right?

If Ruan Chen denies it, he can deny it as Ruan Chen wishes.

What if Ruan Chen admits it?In his heart, a small voice asked unwillingly.

Mu Xinghai muttered: "You're a bitch."

Really cheap.He thought, if there was a one in ten thousand possibility that Ruan Chen had no choice but to admit it, then he would too.

Mu Xinghai took a breath.

Open WeChat, first of all there are such messages:

[woc, brother, your ex-girlfriend is on the hot post]

[Senior, in fact, Jiang Tingting told us that you cheated on me before...]

[[Transfer] Hot discussion on x network]

【Where are you? ?Brother, don't be too hard on yourself! ! 】

Mu Xinghai: "..."

Mu Xinghai hadn't slept for almost three days, his mind was rigid and he couldn't turn around. He didn't understand what happened for a while.After opening them one by one, I finally understood.

It was Jiang Tingting who had the incident.

But to his surprise, he thought that Jiang Tingting's cheating partner was classmate c, but this time it was Jiang Tingting's mentor who broke the news.

Mu Xinghai's heart was numb and he felt nothing at all.

He was not angry at all, as if it had nothing to do with him.

The friend said: [Brother, you are so pitiful. 】

Mu Xinghai sneered, thinking: Where is this?After a while, Lin Mu broke the news that I was gay, that would be wonderful.I have already been dumped by Ruan Chen, that would be pitiful.

Mu Xinghai smashed the jar.Things couldn't have gotten any worse, he thought.

He even said a few words for Jiang Tingting in a fair and impartial way: [Although she cheated, the crime is not so serious, so there is no need to gloat like this.What are you doing?Witch trials? 】

【She didn't hurt those of you who have no interests, right】

【Mr. Song's articles are all inclined towards himself. Can you guarantee that he is telling the truth? 】

[He wrote it as if he was an infatuated kind, and it was all Jiang Tingting's fault.To be reasonable, he is a teacher in his thirties, and Jiang Tingting is a student in his 20s. Can he be a fool? 】

This paragraph of his response was spread, and it became the evidence of Jiang Tingting's "whether he will play tricks on men".

Look, the ex-boyfriend stood up to support her after being cuckolded by her. This is his infatuation with her.And I heard that this ex-boyfriend was going to pay for her to study abroad together, so he was almost taken advantage of.

Mu Xinghai asked himself, if he really loved Jiang Tingting, he would definitely not be able to be so calm and self-possessed.When they are together, they are more like friends than lovers.

If you don't care, you will be chaotic, and if you don't have feelings, you will be insincere.

He wants to hate people now, so he can still say a few words for Jiang Tingting.Besides, he also fell in love with Ruan Chen before they broke up. The two of them belonged to each other, and he thought he had no right to criticize Jiang Tingting morally.

At this time, Teacher Song posted a lot of evidence that Jiang Tingting stepped on several boats, and listed four or five men including him, each performing his duties.Specifically, Mu Xinghai didn't count the number carefully, he only saw that Ruan Chen was put in the last one, and he was a brother with no money who specially helped Jiang Tingting write a thesis.

Even at this moment, Ruan Chen looked so inconspicuous, and was only taken away by one sentence.

When I saw this passage, I saw Ruan Chen's dog-licking reply to Jiang Tingting.

Mu Xinghai seemed to be stripped naked and thrown into the sea of ​​ice. He hadn't slept for several days, which caused his drowsy head to wake up in an instant.

His eyes, which were already bloodshot, suddenly became bloodshot with anger,

Damn, damn, Ruan Chen and him have never been so humble and cute.

Could it not be worse?No, he still underestimated life.

——Damn it, stop looking for Ruan Chen, he's going to ask Ruan Chen now.

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