is the moon

I already have a vague guess in my heart, but at this moment I still have a little fantasy, and I still have expectations.

Still holding half a bowl of dumplings in his hand, Chi Yue put down the bowl and chopsticks, trying to calm down his tone: "Mom, did you also talk to brother Jiang Jiandong?"

"Yes." Zhao Wanqiu didn't shy away from it, and with one sentence, Chi Yue's last hope was blocked.

"This is a matter between the two of you," Zhao Wanqiu said, "If I look for you, I will definitely look for him."

Grandma was a little confused by the side: "What talk? What else do you want to talk about?"

"It's okay, mom," Zhao Wanqiu said to her with a smile, "It's just that the two children didn't think about it for a while, and I'm afraid they will take a detour."

After she finished speaking, she continued to eat again, with a very casual attitude, she picked up food for grandma, and also for Chi Yue.

Grandma didn't understand, so she asked Zhao Wanqiu, "What detour? Are you back?"

She didn't know what she thought of, so she hurriedly said to Zhao Wanqiu: "Xiao Zhao, you have to persuade them, these are two good boys!"

Mom nodded and said, "I will."

After that, they didn't talk about this topic anymore, and my mother moved the topic elsewhere in a few words.Chinese New Year is the busiest time, and the Spring Festival Gala has already started on TV. The host on TV beamed and said blessings, grandma chatted with Chi Yue with a smile, and Chi Yue also chatted with grandma, but always Is a little absent-minded.

After the New Year's Eve dinner, it was nine o'clock in the evening. The Spring Festival Gala program had been broadcast for a while, and the family members were busy grabbing red envelopes. Even grandma had learned this new technique. To catch up with the young people, Chi Yue didn't grab it, but It was to open WeChat, to open the dialog box with Jiang Jiandong.

Chi Yue: [Are you there, brother? 】

Chi Yue: 【My mother... What did she tell you that day? 】

I didn't think about it when I didn't know it before, but once I knew about Chi Yue, I couldn't sit still. He heard what his mother and grandma said just now.

With her mother's attitude right there, she still used the word "detour" to describe the relationship between the two of them, so Chi Yue's heart was tugged, sour, as if being pricked by a needle.

Parents always look after their children. When chatting with Chi Yue, his mother was very gentle, saying that maybe he hadn't grown up yet, and hoped that he would think about it again, but that might not be the case when Jiang Jiandong chatted. Now, no matter how much my mother liked Jiang Jiandong before, she would still have a bad filter for him, especially since he is bigger than Chi, and Chi Yue has been clinging to him and calling him brother, so my mother may think that he is the one who is acting badly. over him.

Jiang Jiandong didn't answer for a long time, he didn't know if he didn't see it or he didn't want to say it, so Chi Yue felt even more uncomfortable, as if his last hope had been extinguished.

Will he also feel that this is a detour?

Would he also feel that he had spoiled himself?

Or...has he decided to alienate him?

After all, Jiang Jiandong hadn't contacted him during this time.

Chi stared at the screen of the mobile phone tightly, with a tense expression, and too many emotions rushed into his heart, which made Chi more at a loss for a while.

It was grandma's voice that temporarily interrupted Chi Yue's thoughts. The old man was grabbing the red envelopes, but halfway through the grabbing, he found that Chi Yue hadn't.

"Hey, hey, Ayue, don't patronize chatting, you can grab a lot of money!" The laughing voice pulled Chi Yue back from his emotions.

"Hurry up! Everyone work hard!"

"I think the first prize is a TV, so I can't win it!"

My mother was very helpless and said, "Mom, there are so many TV viewers in the country, can we just catch up with good things?"

"Then you have to try." Grandma said disapprovingly, "Otherwise, what a pity."

After talking about grandma, I continued to tap. The red envelopes are made with hand speed. Grandma's fingers are not very flexible, so I still enjoy it.

Looking at them from the side, Chi Yue suddenly had a bold idea in his heart.

Yeah, why sit and wait?

Like is a personal thing, but like is to work hard.

Don't leave it if you like it, this is what Chi Yue once said to Jiang Jiandong.

Chi Yue could feel the differences Jiang Jiandong treated him, so he didn't want to just sit and wait.

The sound of snatching red envelopes around was ding ding dong dong, accompanied by the sound of change arriving from time to time, Chi Yue quickly clicked on 12306, Jiang Jiandong returned to the town for the New Year, and he began to search for the ticket from Beijing North to the town.

It was the Chinese New Year, and it was very difficult to buy tickets to go back, especially since Beijing was a big city with many migrant workers.

After checking for several days in a row, there was no ticket, but Chi Yue was not reconciled and just let it go, so he changed his method to find one by one: if the train doesn't work, just take the car, if the car doesn't work, then transfer, every kind of transportation means Chi Yue I watched them all, and used all the software that can grab tickets. My parents, grandparents, and grandparents were all watching the Spring Festival Gala, and Chi Yue was grabbing tickets by the side.

Probably God paid off, when he got up the next morning, a new wave of tickets was released, and Chi Yue bought tickets to go back to the town on the fifth day of the new year.

His heartbeat has never been so fast as it is now, and Chi Yue repeatedly looked at the interface of the successful booking many times, and even took a screenshot and kept it carefully.

On the morning of the fifth day of the new year, Chi Yue got in the car back to the town.

He didn't tell his parents that he was going to find Jiang Jiandong, he only said that he was going to play with friends. Fortunately, he had booked a return ticket for the day, so his mother wouldn't be suspicious.

Chi Yue went out early in the morning, and got into the station several hours in advance to wait for the bus. His heart was beating irregularly. This was indeed the most daring thing he had ever done.

But as the time passed, checking tickets, entering the station, when he was actually sitting on the train and felt the train moving, Chi Yue didn't know what mood he was in.

There were a lot of people on the train, and Chi Yue bought a hard-seat ticket. A child with a mother next door was crying, and an uncle in his 50s on the other side was shaking X outside.

The carriage is very crowded, and it is like this every year during Chinese New Year. Everyone is waiting anxiously, wanting to go to the place that haunts their dreams, and to meet the person they want to see. Jiang Jiandong sent out a message.

He hadn't told Jiang Jiandong that he was coming.

Later on New Year's Eve, Jiang Jiandong came back to him. He admitted that Zhao Wanqiu had looked for him, but he only told Chi Yue that he was fine and don't worry, so Chi Yue's heart twitched again.

Jiang Jiandong's reaction once again confirmed the thought in his heart.

Want to see, do not want to see.

I want to go to him, but I am afraid that I will be rejected.

Just so tangled and hesitant, the car finally arrived at the stop.It seems like a lifetime has passed, and it seems like only a moment.

Chi Yue finally sent Jiang Jiandong a message.

Chi Yue: [brother, are you home? 】

Chi Yue: [That... I'm going back to the small town. 】

Chi Yue: [I want to find you, okay? 】

After sending the message, Chi Yue's heartbeat became fast, fast and irregular.

He took the bus back to the family home, and saw him again at Jiang Jiandong's house.

It's been a long time since I saw Jiang Jiandong. It seems that Jiang Jiandong has lost a little weight, or he hasn't. His expression is still indifferent, making it difficult to see any emotions.

Neither Song Ruyun nor Jiang Wangyao was at home. Jiang Wangyao didn't come back this year. Song Ruyun didn't want to see Jiang Jiandong, out of sight and out of mind, so there were only the two of them in the room. Jiang Jiandong opened the security door, and the two of them They stared at each other silently for several seconds.

It was Jiang Jiandong who spoke first: "Why are you here suddenly?"

Chi Yue pursed his lower lip, not knowing how to answer.

Jiang Jiandong let Chi Yue into the house and went to boil some water for him. The kettle hummed, which seemed particularly abrupt in the quiet room.

Chi Yue's cheeks were red from the cold, and he came out too quickly, so he grabbed a piece of clothing and left.

There was even a little snowflakes that day, and the weather was gloomy.Jiang Jiandong's expression was tense: "You are quite courageous, you just ran over without saying a word."

Chi Yue was shivering from the cold, Jiang Jiandong couldn't possibly have a good temper, he was not a person with a very good personality, but it was just such a cold sentence that made Chi Yue's emotions accumulated over the past few days suddenly explode up.

Jiang Jiandong was standing by the dining table, and Chi Yue was sitting. He suddenly stepped forward and hugged Jiang Jiandong's waist, and buried himself in his arms.

"Brother..." Chi Yue said softly, "Don't alienate me, okay?"

"I know my mother may have said something bad to you, but don't take it to heart. I really, really..." Chi Yue's body was trembling uncontrollably, and Jiang Jiandong's body froze all of a sudden Living.

Chi Yue leaned closer to his ear and said, "I really... like you so much."

Surprised, unbelievable, distressed.

Originally, Jiang Jiandong was quite angry that Chi Yue came over, and ran over without saying a word, and it was still snowing, so it was not safe.But at this moment, he suddenly understood why Chi Yue did this, his heart was sore, as if he had been thrown in the snow, or had been pricked with a needle.

——Actually, it’s all because of him.

Maybe it's because Chi Yue's personality is too good, too brilliant, too enthusiastic, so Chi Yue used to say that Jiang Jiandong was listening, but Jiang Jiandong himself has a very boring personality, he is used to silent Do.

In the past, Chi Yue never expressed any unhappiness, he always gave people a positive feeling, like the moon in the sky, shedding his own light without hesitation, so Jiang Jiandong took it for granted that he was happy every day Be happy, thinking that just doing it is enough.

Jealous in a muffled voice, nervous in a muffled voice, Jiang Jiandong has always been depressed, he always thought it was his own emotions, until today he realized that Chi Yue would also be uneasy and afraid, and Chi Yue shrank into his arms My whole body was shaking when I was inside.

Jiang Jiandong then hugged him tightly, almost pushing Chi Yue into his bones.

Sometimes you can’t feel it if you just do it in silence. Two-way feelings can’t be done just by doing it. Sometimes expression is as important as doing it. Keeping silent will only make the person you like feel sad.

Chi Yue's body was still shaking, he was really afraid, Jiang Jiandong didn't speak for a long time.

So for the first time, Jiang Jiandong opened up all his thoughts and showed him carefully.

"Your mother did talk to me that day. We talked for over an hour." Jiang Jiandong said.

He tightened his hand holding Chi Yue a little more, and his tone was low.

"He said we were not suitable, that you and I were too young."

Chi Yue's body trembled even more, like a prisoner waiting for trial, he had already sentenced himself to death in his heart.

Jiang Jiandong looked down at him, his eyes were dark, like the sea, and his emotions were surging.

"I think we may indeed be immature, we are all too young, but..." Jiang Jiandong paused and then said, "But I don't want to let it go." His tone was firm.

Chi Yue suddenly raised his head, blinked his eyes, and was a little dazed for a while.

"Maybe I'm not good enough now, we're not good enough." Jiang Jiandong said awkwardly, "But let's forget it, let's try, try, okay?"

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