kind of bend me

In January, Wan Chen went on a business trip.

Shen Xu's repair shop is open as usual, and Sibao still comes to visit from time to time. Luo Lin found Aunt Li as a nanny, but she didn't bother him much. Coming here, looking at the various parts that have been dismantled, the little devil can fiddle with it excitedly for a long time.

Wanchen...

A phone call and a few text messages a day.

I asked him on the phone if he had eaten and rested on time, and asked him to stop smoking and drinking in the text message.

Shen Xu went berserk, my friend!Hey, my friend!Can we not do that? !You are at best a friend, not my wife!

Wan Chen said leisurely and complacently, he said that he started as a friend and continued to develop, so it’s okay if you don’t catch up, one day suddenly a little three and a little four will pop up, I will stop messing around!

Shen Xu turned off the phone!

After a while, Sibao came in angrily with his mobile phone, and threw the mobile phone into his arms, looking for you! !Please have a good talk, make it known to everyone, don't you know that Xiu Enai dies quickly? !

After having dinner at Aunt Li's house in the evening, Shen Xu walked home alone.

Walking through the square, passing by the supermarket, bypassing the school... I don’t know where to go, and I can’t finish the road alone.

Two middle school students riding bicycles and carrying schoolbags passed by him on the road. Their backs chatting and laughing made people sigh the beauty of youth.

They were also young.

Shen Xu paused, and the cold evening wind blew into his neck, gradually calming down his irritable heart.

Why, I remembered him again.

One day, two days, ten days, half a month, Wan Chen walked for 23 days.

I don't understand why I remember it so clearly, I don't understand why I look at the calendar countless times every day.

There are many people coming and going in the small maintenance shop every day, and every time there is any movement, they will always look forward to something vaguely the moment they raise their heads.

Aunt Li and Uncle Wan would occasionally mention Wan Chen, and he chewed some vegetables, pretending to listen unintentionally.

While teasing his own little treasure, Sibao sighed, Wan Ge was not around, why did he always feel that something was missing.

what's missing...

what?

On this road, he walks alone and returns alone.

The nagging shadow around me is gone.

On the phone, he never asked when Wan Chen would come back, he dared not ask.

He Lei said he would come back soon, but he never came back.

Wanchen...

He couldn't go on any longer, turned around and went home.

The house was dark and deserted.

After taking a shower, changed into pajamas, and lay on the bed, but couldn't fall asleep for a while.

The broken thoughts came back again.

Wan Chen and He Lei were compared again, how could they be the same?

He Lei is his lover, who promised to be his lover for the rest of his life, and Wan Chen----

It can only be friends.

When he woke up in the morning, he came out of the bathroom, and when he was wiping his face, he accidentally saw two photos on the TV cabinet.

He picked up the family photo, said good morning to the parents in the photo with a smile, and pointed at He Lei's smiling face, I don't know where you are in that world, are you okay?

Can you see him?

Live well, be healthy, eat on time every day, balance work and leisure, and --- Wanchen.

He did the right thing!

Putting down the photos, having breakfast at Aunt Li's house, and opening the store, it was another busy day.

When it was almost noon, the store ushered in a friend who hadn't seen him for a long time.

Li Da has put on a lot of weight in the past two years, and his stomach is even bigger than the last time we met, Shen Xu didn't recognize him at first sight.

Li Da patted his swollen beer belly, which shows that we are living better!

At noon, the two came to a small restaurant not far from home.

Li Da talked about his life in the past few years. In the past two years, he was laid off and opened a clothing store. The business was really good, so he expanded the store and planned to open a branch on another street.This time is also to see the goods, so I stopped by.

Shen Xu smiled, "I'm still like that, you've seen it too, it's a repair shop, there's no problem with eating. I'm already old, and I don't have much to pursue."

Li Da shook his head, took a sip of his wine, "How are you and Wan Chen?"

Shen Xu's hand holding the wine glass froze, and looked up at him.

Li Da glanced at him, "Don't hide it, I can't guess that Kang's name again, what a fool."

Shen Xu didn't speak, but put down his glass.

"To be honest, I was a bit shocked at first. Later, when you think about it, it's not impossible. I just didn't expect Wan Chen to be so ruthless——" Li Da still gritted his teeth when he thought of those years, "He What's going on now, are you still here to harass you? Humph, he's been punished by hanging on your tree, and he's still thinking about you until he dies. Tell me, what do you think? Don't When he was confused for a moment, his heart softened when he saw how pitiful he was. Let me tell you, he has 1 minds when dealing with people like you. It's too easy to kill you. Shen Xu, you can't play with him. He just-- --"

Shen Xu's chopsticks hit the table heavily, making a loud noise.

These words are too familiar, stimulating his brain, making him feel ashamed.

Li Da was stunned, and looked at him puzzled.

Shen Xu clenched his fists tightly, frowning tightly.

"Wanchen... Wanchen... isn't he----"

In the afternoon, after seeing off Li Da, Shen Xu walked slowly on the way home alone.

The whole city is shrouded in a festive atmosphere. Red lanterns and Chinese knots are hung all over the streets and alleys. There are trinkets with a taste of the New Year in the glass windows, and smiling children hold oversized toys in their arms.

There are still three days before the New Year, Wan Chen, can you make it back?

will care.

More and more concerned about everything about that person.

Only then did he refute what Li Da said without thinking, Wan Chen was not the kind of person he thought.

He once again told the five humble guests about the past, just for Wan Chen.

The painful past tore the heart of not one person, and they all spent the long years in torment.

Wan Chen was wrong, and he was also wrong.

Li Da was silent for a long time after listening, and turned around to tell him what was in his heart until before getting into the car, "I can't understand your kind of love. However, no matter what, I still hope that you Can be happy." With a sigh, he continued, "Brothers have completed the task, and the wife and children are all warm and warm. Among the five sluts, you are the only one who is still single. Shen Xu, you If you just look for this person, don't bother. You are 40 years old, you guys have spent half your life..."

Couples holding hands walked past him, elderly people over half a century old supported each other across the road, and groups of primary school students chased and ran away.

Shen Xu slowed down his pace, took out his phone, hesitated for a long time, and finally sent a text message.

When are you coming back

He put the phone back in his pocket and waited for the faint vibration.

Missing, missing that cannot be deceived.

Time seems to be pulled back to 20 years ago, and the indelible feeling returns to the body little by little.

The sycamore tree in front of the house, the small window showing light, and the figure elongated by the street lamps, Wan Chen, 17, raised his eyes and stared at him.

The feeling of being trapped in memory...

After a long sigh, Shen Xu walked home alone.

In the evening, Sibao bought cooked vegetables and took Shen Xu to Aunt Li's house for a meal, during which time he asked about Brother Wan's return date.

Aunt Li scooped up a small spoonful of egg custard, blew it cold, and fed it to the baby, "I said I would definitely come back on the morning of the New Year's Eve, but I'm too busy, so I might not stay long, I have to go back on the second day of junior high."

Sibao frowned: "Just stay at home for two days." Turning to look at Shen Xu, "I'm too busy, I don't even have time to talk properly."

Aunt Li smiled, "There's no way, he's already at this age, and he wants to fight those young people, how can he do it if he doesn't work hard."

After the meal, Sibao encouraged him to play mahjong, but Shen Xu waved his hands, and went home alone under the pretext of being uncomfortable.

The phone in his pocket didn't ring, and the man was so busy that he didn't even have time to reply a text message.

After washing up, he turned on the TV and sat on the sofa, but his eyes were always on the phone on the coffee table that wouldn't ring.

At nine o'clock in the evening, Shen Xu felt a little restless. He didn't even make a fixed, boring phone call all day today. Yes, what happened?

At ten o'clock, Sibao's noisy voice sounded outside the window. After a few reprimands, Lorraine grabbed him by the ear and pulled him back home.

Shen Xu lay on the bed, placed his mobile phone on the bedside, turned it on, and after adapting to the light, he saw the screen clearly showing the time.

No missed calls, no unread text messages.

Like this silent night, silent.

It's eleven o'clock, time to go to bed.

He closed his eyes, but his mind was thinking wildly uncontrollably.

Thinking of their carefree childhood, teenagers with constant disputes, falling in love, breaking up, reuniting...

After being entangled for 20 years, today's Wan Chen hides his wounds and stands in front of him with a smile.

He said, Shen Xu, I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

Can't sleep.

Shen Xu lifted the quilt and picked up the phone.

It is past eleven o'clock in the evening. People who have been busy all day should be asleep, and then call----

What can I say after calling?

Why didn't you text me back?Why don't you call?Why deliberately worrying people? !

Annoyed, he threw the phone at the end of the bed, and continued to sleep with his head covered.

At twelve o'clock, he got up, put on his clothes and shoes, and opened the door of the house.

Something kept pressing on his heart, and he couldn't sleep at all.

Running round and round along the square like a fool, the white air he exhaled dissipated in the cold night.

Falling down on the concrete floor exhausted, he put his hands on the ground, panting heavily, and looked up at the sky in the middle of the night.

Who said that exercise helps sleep, damn it, he is so awake now that he doesn't feel sleepy at all.

However, the only good thing is that the pain of lack of oxygen can temporarily stop his thinking brain.

Don't think about it anymore, Wan Chen.

In his 40 years of life, he has loved two people.

One is Wan Chen and the other is He Lei.

He Lei is like warm white water, not irritating, but comfortable, giving him the bland happiness he wants most.

And Wanchen----

Whether it is love or hate, it hits the heart strongly.

For Wanchen, he doesn't care about being expelled from school, or being the laughing stock of everyone, even if he is cast aside again and again, he still grits his teeth and wants to follow.

He loves Wanchen, every cell and every drop of blood in his body tells him that he loves Wanchen.

Love to the point of losing my mind.

It was because of such a deep love that in the next ten years, it hurt my heart.

Now, over forty years old, he is mature enough and sensible----

Damn!

His fist hit the ground hard, but the pain in his body still couldn't change the fact he didn't want to admit.

He blindly avoided, closed his eyes not to look at the wound on Wan Chen's body, those vicious words rang in his mind again.

Wan Chen, why are you pretending to be great? You think that I should be grateful to you for going to jail for me and saving He Lei for me.My surname is Wan, I am not as kind as you think, you have become what you are today, you are to blame... The insidiousness and cunning in your bones cannot be changed... Ah, you are great again, and you have exhausted yourself just to take care of me to the hospital.I am still stubborn about whether I am too ignorant of flattery. 20 years ago you said you would never fall in love with a crap.Now, you have to spend all your time on this trash.Wan Chen, you are at a loss.

Today, you have succeeded in making everyone think that we should be together, very good, in order to satisfy everyone's wishes and pay off the debt, I can compromise, let's be together... This is the result you want, Wan Chen, are you satisfied? ?

Ridiculous myself, childish again.

Those cruel words should be said to Wan Chen, or to himself.

After finishing speaking, there was no feeling of joy at all.

Just, cover up.

Cover up the flustered self, and don't want to go back to the past self.

He still loves Wan Chen.

He lowered his head weakly, and he became the loser again in this long-term emotional contest.

Lost, crushed.

The cold wind at night cooled his body temperature, he got up slowly, and walked home dejectedly.

One step, two steps, three steps...

One step, two steps, three steps...

The sound of footsteps from far to near, accompanied by an urgent call.

"Shen Xu."

The voice that seemed to come from the sky made Shen Xu stop.

"Shen Xu."

The voice did not disappear, with a slight panting.

With his back to the person who made the sound, Shen Xu gradually clenched his fists.

The man adjusted his breathing and said again, "It's so late, why haven't you slept yet?"

The voice was familiar, it had sounded for 40 years in his life.

"Well, I can't sleep, what about you? Why, you came back suddenly, it's so late..."

The man seemed to chuckle slightly, "Yeah, quite suddenly, just... I want to come back and have a look."

Shen Xu frowned, "Can... stay for a few days? Years ago, why don't you leave?"

The man paused for a moment, "There's no way for the train at six o'clock in the morning. It's too busy over there, so I can't get away. I'll try to get back on New Year's Eve."

The six o'clock train in the morning?Now, it is almost one o'clock in the morning.

So, why come back?Business?still……

Damn crazy!

Shen Xu controlled the curse that was about to blurt out, suppressed the anger in his heart, and said as calmly as possible: "Well, hurry up and go back to rest, I won't be able to sleep for a few hours."

After the words fell, he took a step.

"Shen Xu," the man hurriedly called him, "Can you turn around? I want to see you."

An inconspicuous text message inexplicably caused a sudden impulse. He caught the latest train and returned to T City in a long and dusty way.

He didn't calm down until he was sitting on the train.

It was already twelve o'clock at night when we arrived in T City, Shen Xu should have gone to bed long ago, and he couldn't even see him face to face, what could he do when he went?

Reason told himself this, but his feet didn't listen.

A little closer to T City, it seems like this, you can get closer to him a little bit.

After getting off the taxi, I ran along the familiar road like a fool.

Five hours is fine, even one side is fine.

Maybe, the lights in Shen Xu's cabin are still on; maybe, he occasionally gets up early; maybe, he can take a look from a distance through the balcony window.

Even, a blurred back.

I want to see him, I want to see, I want to see...

This was the only thought left in Wan Chen's mind.

When he saw the figure running in the square, his heart beat violently.

Could that person be Shen Xu?

It's Shen Xu!It's Shen Xu!

"Shen Xu."

Those uncontrollable thoughts burst out with this urgent call.

In this life, he really can only love this person.

Shen Xu's heart seemed to be filled with something, so full that it was about to overflow.

Moving his feet, he turned around slowly.

Wan Chen under the dim streetlight, he couldn't see clearly, but it was deeply engraved in his mind.

How many times he smoothed the man's brows and laughed at his youthful maturity; The expressions are very interesting.

The lips he had kissed countless times told him over and over again.

I love you.

This love lasted a lifetime.

It was also deeply rooted in his heart, like fate, and could not be removed.

They have come a long, long way from childhood to teenage years to youth to middle age.

On the road, there are dazzling sunshine, gentle stars, holding hands, and the pain of parting. In the end, they still come together.

All the way, a lifetime.