kind of bend me

As the Chinese New Year approaches, Sibao starts to get busy.

Drinks, snacks, tobacco and alcohol are more than usual, and people are most willing to spend money at this time.

He was busy in and out of the shop by himself, but the little boss next door came here leisurely.

"Is there anything to eat? I'm hungry."

Sibao didn't raise his head, and pointed to a pile of toilet paper that hadn't been placed on the shelves in time, "There are plenty of them, eat slowly, and keep full."

The little boss next door frowned, "We don't like beating around the bush."

Sibao put away the new snacks and clapped his hands, "Hey, can you hear me beating around the bush, but you can't see that I'm in short supply?"

The little boss resigned himself to carrying the toilet paper, climbed the ladder to the shelf, and became an unpaid laborer.

At lunch, Sibao rewarded his temporary employee with an extra steamed bun, but there were protests, "I bought the steamed bun!"

Sibao asked him how he planned to spend his [-]th year, or was he at home alone?

Shen Xu nodded, Sibao couldn't understand, "Why do you say you are so stubborn, can't you go to the second sister's house with me? They have already regarded you as a family, and they usually have a good time when they have a meal. During the holidays, you have to stay alone in this small shop and pretend to be dead. Why on earth are you looking for abuse!"

Shen Xu glared at him displeasedly, "It's not just a few days a year, I can't do it with my family! You're too lenient."

"You----" Sibao swallowed the words he opened his mouth bitterly.

With the winter vacation coming, Shen Xu's little gods got out of the cage and went to have fun.

Shen Xu, who was "blatantly abandoned", closed the door early, hid in the room and played games, when the cat on the computer suddenly cried.

Cat: Hush, have you booked a ticket? Hurry up, it’s almost the end of the new year, it’s hard to buy!

Shen Xu thought for a moment: Yes, it's just hard to buy. I checked yesterday, and there were no standing tickets for a few days.You see, otherwise, I will not go this time, and call me next time at the 20-year reunion.

Cat: (angry) No, you must come, we haven’t seen each other for so many years, you don’t even miss me?

Shen Xu rolled his eyes: You haven't reached menopause, we just made a video last week.

Cat: Can that be the same! Your broken camera doesn't understand at all, I have to take a good look at the wrinkles on your face.

Rising Sun: So what if you see it? Are you planning to shovel them down and sell them?

Cat: (laughs) That's a good idea, I think it works.Fat girl is coming too, you can only get together when you arrive! Fat girl said that she wants to see you, remember to dress handsomely.Anyway, he was my boyfriend, so don't let me down too much!

Xuri: I really can't buy a ticket, you can't let me run on two legs!

Cat: (smirk) Hey, my fiance said yesterday that he will be back in the third year of junior high school, and he will drive through T city, I will send him your photo, just be ready and wait for him at the train station.

Xuri: The third day of junior high school! I’m crazy, why did I go so early! Besides, let your fiancé pick up your ex-boyfriend, you’re the only one who can do this kind of thing!

In the end, Shen Xu repeatedly assured Liu Xuan that he would arrive on time, and only then was he able to end the conversation.

He was no match for Liu Xuan when he was seventeen or eighteen, let alone now that he is old-fashioned.

In the evening, Shen Xu's cell phone rang on time.

He Lei got off work, bought vegetables and went home, ready to cook and eat.

Shen Xu changed into a cotton coat, said hello to Sibao, and went to the night market to buy some stewed vegetables.

There was the sound of choking on the pot, followed by a shovel stirring the ingredients. Hearing the sound, Shen Xu unconsciously sniffed, as if the aroma was wafting from the phone.

"Do what?"

"Stir-fried shredded pork with bamboo shoots, have you tried it?"

"I have eaten it. My mother... also made it before."

Shen Xu stood on the side of the road, waiting for the red light to turn on, he squeezed the center of his brows, to prevent the undue sadness from flooding his head.

After buying the marinated vegetables in the market and walking back, He Lei's dishes and soups have already been served, and it's always simple for one person.

"Then, I'll eat first."

Shen Xu smiled, "Okay, let's eat, then I'll hang up first."

He Lei: "It's okay, let's chat while eating, aren't you home yet?"

Shen Xu's footsteps paused, looking at the lights of Sibao's small supermarket on the opposite side of the road, he simply sat on the stone bench in the flower bed by the roadside.

In winter, it gets dark early, before seven o'clock, the city is already illuminated by brilliant neon lights.

He took out a cigarette and lit it, chatting with He Lei without saying a word.

He Lei asked him how the year was going, he took a deep breath of cigarette, and exhaled slowly through his nose.

"Stay with your parents, it's rare to accompany them a few times a year. What about you, are you going home?"

He Lei's voice was flat, "I won't reply, I came out in my sophomore year. They can't accept it even after so many years, and it's better not to disturb them when it's Chinese New Year's Eve."

Shen Xu looked at the endless traffic on the road, and in a low voice, he only said to one person, "Why did you come out? Didn't he always know that you liked him? Is it worth it to come out for someone who doesn't love you? "

A melancholy sigh moved from far to near, "Although I didn't get any response, I still treated that relationship with respect. I also imagined that if one day he accepted me, at least he didn't have to be with me. Let’s face this problem together.”

Shen Xu's cigarette was smoked to the bottom, and the cigarette butt fell to the ground, and he lightly crushed it out, "You must love him very much. Only the strongest love can make people have this courage. I...may not be able to do it."

He stood up, patted the ashes off his buttocks, and walked across the road. He saw Sibao walking towards him from a distance, and shouted loudly as he walked, "You've gone to the daughter country!"

Shen Xu smiled and said to He Lei on the other end of the phone: "I'll call you in the evening, I'll have dinner first."

After hanging up the phone, he waved the stewed vegetables in his hand to the starving ghost opposite.

Fortunately, he still has four treasures, a family that will never abandon him.

There was burning pain on his face, the skin in his mouth was torn, Shen Xu spat on the ground, it was full of blood foam.

When Wan Chen grabbed him by the collar and threw him out of the library, he couldn't believe what he just heard.

Wan Chen said they were done.

finished?Just because he hit Ke Qiwei?

Shen Xu refused to accept, very dissatisfied, and jumped up to argue with him.

But Wan Chen's stern look made him completely silent. On the way home, the more he thought about it, the more angry he became, and the more he thought about it, the sadder he became.

He and Wan Chen are neighbors in the same building, and they have been fighting since childhood.

When he was a child, he twisted his ears, and he patted his head.

The bigger one is that he punches him, and he kicks him back.

If they get older, they won't fight anymore, but will feel distressed for the extra injuries on each other's faces.

He still clearly remembers how handsome he was when he blocked his father's slap.

But today, Wan Chen made a move on him.

Shen Xu, we're done.

Sitting by the pear tree in front of the house, Shen Xu's mind was full of these words.

At first, he was too excited, thinking that when Wan Chen came back, he would rush up and fight first; later, he gradually calmed down, thinking that when Wan Chen came back, he would explain things clearly to others.

Later, Wan Chen came back, he stood up slowly, and called out miserably in the darkness, Wan Chen.

Wan Chen turned his head to look at him, his upright face under the moonlight looked extraordinarily indifferent.

Shen Xu walked over slowly. After being frozen for too long, his hands and feet were a little stiff and numb. He stamped his feet and rubbed his hands, and said to him in a slightly out-of-key voice: "You, you're back. I'm here, wait It's been a long time for you."

Wan Chen lowered his eyes and thought for a while, then turned around, "Shen Xu, let's talk."

After saying that, he raised his foot and walked towards the small park.

On a winter night, the small park was deserted, and the dim street lights could not clearly illuminate the two people who were a few steps apart.

Shen Xu obediently followed him to a corner of the park, where there were two old-fashioned swings, one of the wooden boards was missing, and the iron frame made a creaking sound when it was shaken.

Wan Chen stood beside the swing, turned his head, looked at Shen Xu in the darkness, "Tell me about your plan, how do you plan for the future?"

Shen Xu didn't understand why he suddenly brought up this topic, hesitated for a while and said, "I said before, I don't want to go to school anymore, I will work for a few years to earn some money, if I can help you then I will help you, if I can't help you, This money will be kept for us to buy a house.”

Wan Chen: "Us?"

Shen Xu couldn't see the expression on his face, and explained earnestly, "Yeah, we are not allowed to buy a house in the future? You can't live at home after graduating from university! It's not easy to talk about our matter with parents. , Alas, it’s a day if it can be delayed! Maybe after we get along for a long time, they might—”

Wan Chen interrupted him, "I can tell you clearly, no matter your parents or my parents, they will never accept this until they die."

Shen Xu was not very happy in his heart, although he understood that what he said might be right, but--

"Do you insist on saying such things? Then what do you say? You can't make a clean break with them, cut off contact!"

Wan Chen was silent for a while, then said, "Shen Xu, will you listen to what I say?"

After a little hesitation, Shen Xu let out a "hmm".

Wan Chen: "Okay, then listen. I want you to go to a junior college. If you fail the exam, you will study for another year until you pass the exam. Money and house are not things you should consider. After you graduate, then Find a decent job. I don’t want to hear you mention homosexuality to your parents, your friends, or future classmates or colleagues. Shen Xu, if you say it again, I will break up with you completely, and in this life, you will no longer know a person named Wan Chen."

The small park was so quiet that a needle could be heard. Shen Xu looked at the white mist floating from Wan Chen's mouth, and couldn't understand why this person who had said countless love words to him could speak so decisively now. .

Shen Xu clenched his fists so tightly that his nails pinched his palms so painfully.

In the end, he could only let go weakly.

"You have arranged my future, what about you? Can you tell me about your future?"

Wan Chen's voice was still so calm, in the cold late night, those words rang heavily in Shen Xu's heart.

"I will go to S University, and I will enter the ideal place after graduation. I will work hard to climb up, maybe in ten years, 20 years, 30 years, one day, I will step on the shoulders of most people and go to success. It's the life I want, the life above everyone else."

Shen Xu didn't want to hear these empty words anymore, he just asked, "Wan Chen, is there me in your life?"

Wan Chen paused for a long time, but never thought that every minute and every second would be torture to Shen Xu.

Before he was completely disappointed, Wan Chen said, "As long as you are willing to work hard and be self-motivated, as I said, I will reserve an important position for you. But Shen Xu, I also said, I can't stop Waiting for you, it's impossible to love a waste forever."