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After returning home, Lin Yan went into the kitchen, and Shen Xu stood outside the kitchen door listening to the choking sound coming from between her mother's fingers.

For lunch that day, he ate two big bowls of rice. After eating, he patted his bulging stomach and said that he was too full.

Going out and walking around the corner of the intersection, he couldn't hold back anymore and vomited on the side of the road. He looked disgusted while cleaning. He didn't know what to do after drinking so much at a young age. Is it comfortable to vomit after drinking? !

That night, he didn't dare to sleep, he looked at the dark room with his eyes open, and when he was so sleepy, he pinched his thigh hard.

He can't make his mother sad anymore, he has no right to do so.

Two days later, Lin Yan happily mentioned that there was a good sister in T City in his province, she said that there was a factory recruiting people, and the salary was good, she wanted Shen Xu to try it.

Shen Xu understood what the fuck meant, and took her hand, "Mom, I won't go, I want to stay with you."

Lin Yan raised her hand and stroked his short hair, "Silly boy, did the doctor stop telling you to change your environment, Xiaoxu, mom doesn't know what's on your mind, and mom won't force you if you don't want to talk about it. If you can get out of here Cure your illness, then go! Go to a new place, forget about those unhappy things, and remember to call Mom often.”

Shen Xu felt very uncomfortable, "Mom, let's go together! Take Dad, let's leave here and start over in another place, okay?"

Lin Yan sighed, "Mom will retire in six or seven years. You can't throw away this job!"

The next day, Lin Yan sent Shen Xu to the train bound for T city.

Standing on the platform, Lin Yanqian reminded him to remember to eat on time, pay attention to rest, don't work too hard, mother is not short of money, health is the most important thing.

Shen Xu nodded and remembered that when the train was about to leave, he poked his head out and kissed his mother on the cheek.

"Mom, take good care of yourself, and I'll pick you up when I earn money, Mom..."

The rumbling train took Shen Xu away from this sad place. He bid farewell to S City, relatives, friends, and everything here.

That year, he lost his father, lost, his home.

Shen Xu refused He Lei's video request. First, Si Bao took the camera to video with Liu Ya. Second, he wanted to make all mental preparations to see him again.

He Lei didn't force it, and talked about other topics as he wanted.

The laughter of several older children sounded outside the house, and the fireworks jumped into the air, exploding in brilliant colors.

Shen Xu mentioned the matter of the classmate reunion, and there were only a few days left, so he still hesitated.

He Lei heard the sound of water, and he was washing the dishes.

"Why don't you go? It's good to meet friends from many years ago. Don't they always want to see you?"

Shen Xu: "..."

He Lei heard his hesitation, and turned off the tap, "It's okay, it's been so many years, so what if he really came, Shen Xu, you should let it go."

Shen Xu's voice was low, "It's not that I can't let him go, it's just..."

He Lei's laughter was faint, especially pleasant in the deserted room, "I understand. What you can't let go of are those wounds, the memories you don't want to think about again. Shen Xu," he opened the window, and there was a short burst of noise outside the room. The cannon sounded, "Your life has to go on, and there are some things that you have to face. You are only 30 years old, don't be like an old man, let yourself live a little easier, and don't carry unnecessary burdens on your shoulders. I said However, what your parents hope to see is a son who can live in happiness. Go back to that city and let go of the past. It’s good to meet that person, maybe he has become a fat and fat man now. He's a young man, and there are vegetables leaves between his mouth and teeth. I promise you, it's hard not to let go."

"Haha..." Shen Xu was amused, this person said he was gentle and gentle, and he was really hurtful when he said it, "Okay, you are right, go and meet this rotten old man with vegetables leaves between his teeth That's good. At least we're not that cheap, haha..."

Shen Xu remembered the Wan Chen he saw on the news in the car that day...

The sound of gunfire in the distance disappeared, and He Lei on the other end of the phone played a light music. Shen Xu imagined him lying leisurely on the sofa alone, with one hand behind his head, his long legs on the armrest of the sofa, and enjoying the music with his eyes closed Bringing relaxation and comfort.

He said: "He Lei, wait for me to come back, let's meet!"

Two years later, Shen Xu received a call from Li Meixiang.

Damn, passed away.

Shen Xu rushed back to City S by the train that day, and saw his mother for the last time in the hospital mortuary.

Li Meixiang wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, and couldn't bear to look at her former friends again, "Actually, your mother has been in poor health for the past two years. I persuaded her to go to the hospital many times, but she just didn't listen. You will come back in a year." For a few days, she didn't let me tell you anything, lest you worry. Last evening, she said that she was not feeling well, and she was in a panic, so I said to stay with her, but she insisted. This morning I I was worried and knocked on the door, but I couldn't knock it open. I called your house a few times but no one answered. I asked you Uncle Wan to smash the window of your cabin and look inside. I didn't expect----ah, I'm really confused, if I knew it earlier, I should have come to accompany her no matter what I said last night. Xiao Xu, Aunt Li is sorry for you!"

Shen Xu bent down and gently stroked his mother's face, "Mom, Mom, I'm Shen Xu, Mom, I'm back, look at me, Mom..."

Li Meixiang couldn't listen anymore, turned around and left the morgue.

Shen Xu pressed his face against it, his mother's face was icy and cold, no matter how warm it was, his tears dripped down on the woman's An Xiang's face, and there was no response.

"Mom, are you angry with me? Blame me for leaving for so long, blame me for refusing to stay with you. Mom, I was wrong, I was wrong, Mom, wake up, I am with you, I will be with you from now on I'm watching you, don't leave me behind, okay, mom..." Shen Xu's grief-stricken crying rang out in the morgue for a long time.

When he got home at night, Li Meixiang gave him a bowl of noodles, but he couldn't take a bite.

After Aunt Li left, he lay on the big bed in the master bedroom, hugged his mother's used pillow, and told his mother interesting stories about his work and life in T City.

Mom, do you still remember Lu Qian, I mentioned to you, a very good friend.He has always taken good care of me, and I told him everything about me, because I was afraid that I would go crazy if I kept holding back. Fortunately, he didn't look down on me.Mom, I'm a lucky person. I knew Liu Xuan and the others when I was in school, and now I meet friends like Lu Qian at work. Mom, don't worry, I can take care of myself.

Mom, have you seen Dad, is Dad still angry with me?Mom, please persuade him a little more.If I had known... If I had known, I would rather he beat me to death than hide for a while.I really regret, I regret not being able to accompany you more.Mom, Mom, I miss you, Mom...

In the middle of the night, Shen Xu was hungry, he got up and went to the kitchen, turned on the gas to boil water, put instant noodles on the table, and went to the living room.

The dim light from the kitchen shone faintly on the small living room, where the off-duty mother was sitting alone at the dining table, eating boiled noodles without vegetables.

She raised her head slowly, but the woman in her 40s was full of vicissitudes of life, with wrinkles crawling around her eyes and lips, and her once black hair was half white.

A lonely, desolate sigh overflowed from the corners of his lips, echoing in this deserted home.

A line of tears slid down Shen Xu's face, how many stupid things he did, in the end, in the end, he selfishly left his mother in someone's house.

A person, quietly passed away.

Shen Xu knelt down beside the sofa, more and more tears dripped down on the sofa, the choking sound gradually amplified, turning into a heart-piercing wail.

The damned person is him, it's him!

He raised his hand and slapped himself hard on the face, time and time again, blood came out of his mouth, mixed with sad tears and snot.

If you can, let him replace your family and die!

Shen Xu was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment. He was poisoned by gas. Fortunately, Li Meixiang took the key in advance, fearing that something might happen to him. He came down to check in the middle of the night. He smelled the smell of gas and rescued him who had fallen into a coma.

When Shen Xu woke up, Li Meixiang cried while hugging him.

Silly boy, how can you do such a thing, how can I explain to your parents...Xiaoxu, auntie knows that you are sad, but you can't do such a stupid thing!Your parents know how sad they must be... Xiaoxu, from now on you will be my son and I will be your mother, Xiaoxu, please don't do this again...

Li Meixiang was really kind to him, and he knew it.He also promised that he would never do such a thing again.

After returning from the hospital, Li Meixiang ate and slept at his house every day, paying attention to him all the time.

After taking care of his mother's funeral, he asked Aunt Li to sell the house.

There was nothing left to miss in this city, so he set foot on the train back to T city with simple luggage.

Half a year later, the house was settled. City S is a first-tier city after all, and the price was very high.He used the money to buy a house in T city and still had a lot left.

Later, the No. [-] Kindergarten moved in to be their neighbor, so he opened this small shop. The business was pretty good, and the children’s money was always the best.

For so many years, he hasn't talked about a relationship again.

He also thought that sometimes he would think about it when he encountered a good one, but he was quickly rejected by himself.

He was afraid, Wan Chen ruined his home, and also ruined all his expectations for love.

He was afraid that if he fell in love again, he would repeat the same mistakes.

Drive yourself crazy, drive your lover crazy, he is not worthy of love.

It has been 12 years, and the hatred towards Wan Chen has gradually faded, and he has thought about Wan Chen's words rationally.It was the two of them who caused this tragedy.

Who is responsible for who is responsible, who is right and who is wrong, no matter how much he argues, his parents will not be brought back to life.

Therefore, it is best not to meet each other again.

Until He Lei's appearance, the hidden ice in his heart gradually melted.

He, who is deeply sinful, can also find happiness once.

Belongs to him, ordinary happiness.

He Lei, wait for me to come back, let's meet!

OK, I'm waiting for you.

The author has something to say: the memory is over, and the next chapter will officially appear.