kind of bend me

At the age of 17, in this field of hope, this piece of green grass, they commemorated the most beautiful years with laughter and sweat.

That day, Shen Xu cried, but he couldn't remember why he cried, only that someone kissed him afterwards.

The soft touch on his lips was like his illusion.

He opened his eyes, the person he once loved the most was so close.

Shen Xu withdrew his gaze, lowered his head and sighed softly, this place in winter is just a piece of withered grass, and the bare branches of poplar trees are left to guard against the cold wind.

He didn't understand, why did Wan Chen bring him here?

Without explaining, Wan Chen got out of the car and walked straight to the river.

Shen Xu also got out of the car and walked slowly behind him.

Wan Chen put his hands in his pockets and looked at the white water surface, "Soon, this place will also be developed, and we will never see such a scene again."

Shen Xu didn't answer. He once lost the place of his first kiss, and when he saw each other again, he didn't have the emotions he imagined.

The past, all the past.

Wan Chen turned his head, his eyes were no longer as cold and clear as usual, but became gentle, "Shen Xu, I did something wrong in the past, I'm sorry."

Wan Chen's voice was very soft, full of self-blame and guilt, that sorry sound was distant and sad.

Shen Xu stared at such Wan Chen, who was so unfamiliar that he could barely recognize him.

It's been 12 years. After 12 years, he just remembered to apologize. I'm sorry. Does that sentence of sorry really carry so much weight?

He turned his head, his voice was so faint that no fluctuations could be heard. "Forget it, don't mention the past. It doesn't make any sense to apologize."

No amount of sorry can exchange for the home he once owned. Today, when the resentment fades, he can only be a passerby.

"Shen Xu," Wan Chen said, "If possible, I would like to make it up to you."

The corner of Shen Xu's mouth curled up into a smile, "Compensation?" He looked up at the man in front of him, "Do you need money? But, I don't have parents who are bedridden, nor do I have a wife or children to support, Wan Chen, I am alone , how can you be short of money?"

Wan Chen: "Shen Xu..."

Shen Xu turned his head and looked at Wan Chen's eyes as calm as water, "You don't need to blame yourself, you've come this far, just live on! This is your dream, you can abandon everything for it, and now it's come true , cherish it! In the future, I will not return to S City again, and we will never see each other again in this life. Wan Chen, you don’t have to feel ashamed of me. It’s been more than ten years, and I’ve forgotten those things. If you put Treat it as a heart disease, and every year when incense is offered on Qingming Festival, I will offer one more for my parents, I’m sorry for those three words, I’ll save it for that time. Wan Chen, the person you owe is not me.”

On the day of the first lunar month, the wind was biting cold, Shen Xu straightened his collar and walked to the side of the car.

Shen Xu's tall and straight back fell into Wan Chen's eyes, he clenched his fists unconsciously, suppressing the words that were about to rush out.

In the past 12 years, the man is no longer a hot ignorant boy. While the years brought him growth, he also burned an indelible wound on his heart. Under the strong and straight back in the cold wind, there was a long period of loneliness and desolation.

Wan Chen closed his eyes and turned around.

In a few months, nothing here will exist.

The youthful first kiss back then will slowly disappear from the hearts of the two of them as time goes by.

After arriving at the hotel, Shen Xu got out of the car, and Wan Chen opened the car door, "You are staying here temporarily for the past few days, if there is any inconvenience, please tell me."

Shen Xu frowned slightly, this person really regarded himself as the master.

"thank you for your kindness."

Wan Chen wanted to say something more, but Shen Xu turned around and went back to the hotel.

Changing back to yesterday's clothes, Shen Xu checked out immediately, the room fee was recorded in Wan Chen's name, and he didn't try to save face and take advantage of it.

When he returned to the small hotel, he was relaxed, fell into bed and rested for a while, then went to Liu Xuan's appointment.

When they arrived at the hotel, Li Da and the others were already there, and Liu Xuan's fiancé was a small local entrepreneur, he was easy-going, and he got along well with them, a group of cheap guests.

The wedding date is set for next month, Shen Xu looked embarrassed, "Why don't I advance the gift money today, next month, I really won't be able to get married."

City S, for the last time in this life, everyone who should be seen has been met, what has to be said has been said, and what has to be let go has been let go.

The ashes of parents have already been moved to the cemetery in T City, here, let's say goodbye forever!

After dinner, they went to a nearby bar. On the way, Fat Girl joined him.

"I heard from Liu Xuan that you were with Wan Chen in the afternoon?"

"En." Shen Xu took out a cigarette, "Do you mind?"

Fat Girl shook her head, "Shen Xu, have you been in touch with Wan Chen all these years?"

Shen Xu lit a cigarette and took a puff, "No, I haven't seen each other since graduation. If it wasn't for the class reunion, I would never have the chance to see each other in this life."

Fat Girl glanced at him, "Then don't see each other, Wan Chen, he is not a friend worthy of being with. He was not the same as us before, and in the future, it will be even more impossible."

Shen Xu smiled, "I know."

At the end of the show, Liu Xuan asked him when he would go back, and he agreed on the train tickets for the morning after tomorrow, and he could play wildly with them for another day tomorrow.

Just after returning to the hotel, He Lei called and asked the same question.

Shen Xu was lying on the bed tiredly, with the mobile phone stuck to his ear, he closed his eyes and chatted with him relaxedly.

He Lei is his masseuse, as long as he listens to his voice, it seems that the fatigue will be relieved.

This feeling is very good.

"The car the morning after tomorrow should be able to get home after two o'clock in the afternoon."

"Aren't you going to come around to see me? Don't you want to surprise me?"

Thinking of the oolong last time, I felt so happy, Shen Xu said, "Don't dare, I will run away if I am let go again. I will go home and rest for two days, and I will go to you after recovering. No matter what happens, I will let you go." Seeing me at my best, you really won't dislike me, a decadent middle-aged uncle! Don't hit me, I'm glass-hearted."

He Lei: "Is this so lacking in confidence? Who was it that boasted in front of me yesterday that there is only one person in the class who is not disabled?"

Shen Xu laughed haha ​​for a while, rolled around on the bed, wrapped the quilt tightly, and lowered his voice in the silent room.

"He Lei, I miss you."

Missing, increasing day by day, like a 17-year-old first love, always thinking about someone.

He thought that he would never feel this way again.

now……

Falling in love with someone you haven't met, isn't it special 2

There was a pause on the phone for a while, and a gentle, clear voice came over.

"Shen Xu, I miss you too."

On the second day, the five sluts gathered together to visit the famous scenic spots in S City in a crazy manner.

Liu Xuan chased Shen Xuman to the temple with incense sticks for worshiping Buddha, Fei Niu slammed Li Da on the head with the leftover chicken bones, and Wang Qi took a mobile phone to record their laughter.

At the age of 30, they maintain a forever young friendship.

Finally, they went back to their alma mater together.

On the school playground, 18-year-old Liu Xuan held up the microphone to declare love, and 30-year-old Liu Xuan stood a little far away using a drink bottle as a microphone and shouted the words that made a big splash on the campus.

I am here to solemnly tell you that Shen Xu is not gay, he is my boyfriend... No one knows him better than me.You are not qualified to humiliate him and hurt him... Shen Xu is someone I love with all my heart, and a person worthy of my love.

Liu Xuan threw the drink bottle heavily on the ground, and there was thunderous applause from the audience.

Fat girl oh yeah and then shouted at them, Shen Xu, I love you too.No matter when, you will always be our friend.

Li Da patted his beer belly to beat the time, Shen Xu, you are our pride, I love you too, Liu Xuan, come on!

Wang Qi shook his head and said, how can you do this kind of thing in the sacred campus, and arrest each of you for the crime of obstructing public morality. After finishing speaking, he ran to the place where Liu Xuan was standing, shouted loudly, Shen Xu, I love you too, you are a man, so hold on to me.Know that no matter when, we are by your side.

The five sluts laughed loudly, laughing at their exciting youth. In those years, they were absurd, they were childish, they were fearless, and they were their own masters.

Shen Xu raised his thumb high, his dazzling smile overlapped with that of 12 years ago.

They share the same name, friend.

Back at the hotel at night, after taking a shower and lying on the bed, Shen Xu took out his phone and wanted to call He Lei, but when the phone turned on, a text message popped up.

"Shen Xu, is there still a possibility for us?"

An unfamiliar number, Shen Xu thought for a long time before guessing a possibility.

Could it be, Wan Chen?

He frowned, disgusted by this possibility, regardless of whether it was true or not, he blocked it decisively.

Early the next morning, he refused his friend to see him off and got on the train alone, sending a text message to bid farewell to his partners one by one.

The reunion after 12 years drew a perfect curtain.

It was enough that his friends were well.

When we meet again, maybe it will be another 12 years.

The train whistled, pulling Shen Xu to bid farewell to the city forever.

This time, he smiled and left.

Arrived in T city at [-]:[-] in the afternoon, took a taxi to the square in front of the house, and saw a person standing outside the rolling gate of the small shop from a distance.

Dragging his luggage, he walked across the square, instead of going home directly, he searched for a bag of snacks in the Four Treasures store and put it in his mouth.

Turning around, the man was looking at him curiously.

27 looks eight years old, wears gold-rimmed glasses, looks a bit taller than him, well-dressed, if his appearance can be graded, it must be above 85, especially that smile----

Damn, why is he smiling at himself, so obscenely!

Shen Xu turned around, bit the snack bag and asked Sibao vaguely, "Then who is it?"

Sibao took a look and shook his head, "I don't know him, I've been standing there for a while."

Shen Xu glanced at the man vigilantly, pulled the luggage and stood in front of the rolling shutter door, squatted down and opened the door, turned around, the man was still staring at him, this time, the corner of his mouth was grinning almost to the back of his ear.

If it wasn't for something in his mouth, Shen Xu would have scolded, you perverted!Bai has such a gentle face, if he wants to laugh, he will go to the mental hospital to laugh.

The rolling gate was pulled into the air with a bang, and the harsh sound made Shen Xu's mind jump, and he turned his head, staring at him in disbelief.

"You, you, you wouldn't be--"

The snacks fell on the ground, Shen Xu's mouth was opened wide.

The man greeted him with a smile, and the familiar gentle male voice rang in his ears without warning.

"Hello, Shen Xu, I'm here."