kind of bend me

Shen Xu and He Lei chatted a lot that day, until the people who went for a walk went home, and when the cold wind of the first month made them shiver, they held hands and went home.

He Lei, time can really change a lot of people.In my world before, black was black, and white was white. Regarding Sister Li's matter, if I didn't ask about the process, but only looked at the result, I would beat her to death with a stick, calling her a vicious daughter-in-law.

Now, older, life has taught me a lot.There are some things that cannot be simply divided into right and wrong, there are causes and effects.

I started to reflect on what happened back then.That process is very painful.

Every time I think about it, I seem to see my father being pushed out of the operating room under a white sheet.

If, if I can be more rational, cause less trouble, say less thoughtless things, and don't push him to that point, my dad won't die!

It was really painful to feel like my hands were covered with the blood of my loved ones.

He Lei, I haven't been in a relationship in the past 12 years. I don't know how to love someone and how to avoid causing harm.

I hope we can communicate more, tell me what you need and what you don't need.me too.Don't ask me to guess, I can't guess, I'm afraid I'm wrong--

If one day, you are tired of me and want to break up, just tell me directly.I promise, sanely let go of you.

Don't lie, don't hide, no one knows if the next second will be hell.

Back home, Shen Xu helped He Lei pack his things. Six days passed quickly, and he bought a ticket for tomorrow morning to return to his city.

Shen Xu packed some specialties of T City and brought him with him. After washing up, the two of them went to bed.

I don't know if those words today brought back memories, he couldn't sleep for a while, holding his mobile phone to check the news.

Late at night, when I was getting sleepy, my phone rang.

He put his phone next to the pillow, closed his eyes and listened to the WeChat message.

"Shen Xu, before I came to you, some feelings were not so strong. Online dating is still quite unreliable. You also know me. I love someone who I can't ask for for ten years. Like you, I am afraid After being hurt, I dare not give up my whole heart too easily."

"I've been with you day and night for the past few days. Although I tried my best to control it, I still... accidentally fell."

"Shen Xu, I fell in love with another person, a person who would look for me all over the world when I disappeared, a person who would be filled with anger when he heard bad things about me, a person who was willing to hold hands with me, kiss me, and say he loves me Shen Xu, I love that person, if possible, I want to go on with him forever, not ten years, 20 years, 30 years..."

"I don't want him to take this relationship cautiously, I don't want to see him hesitate, every step is frightened, I don't want him to be too rational and forget his original self, and I don't want him to live in the past forever."

"Shen Xu, I'm He Lei. I'm the one you can love now and in the future. I just want you to be yourself, don't pretend, don't be afraid, and don't feel inferior. We still have a long way to go."

"If you can't get over the hurdle, I will accompany you."

"Shen Xu, I love you."

The wechat was very long, and Shen Xu fell asleep after listening to it, with warm liquid dripping from the corners of his eyes, but the corners of his mouth slightly raised.

He Lei, I love you too.

The next day, He Lei left.

Early in the morning, a rare heavy snow fell, and He Lei greeted Si Bao, and Shen Xu sent him to the train station.

He Lei gave him a hug and whispered goodbye in his ear.

Before entering the station, He Lei turned his head, smiled at him, and mouthed three words.

Shen Xu, who was 30 years old, blushed.

He Lei's departure made him feel a little empty.

When he got on the bus, he took out the calendar on his mobile phone, and calculated how many days before the weekend, whether he would work overtime, or whether he would be too busy to meet up.

Putting down his phone, he looked up out of the window. The scenery of T City remained unchanged. He sighed softly. It turned out that love is really beyond control.He seems to have returned to the age of 17, thinking about only one person.

The earth revolves around that person!

While thinking wildly, the phone rang, and it was Lu Qian.

He hesitated to answer the phone, and rarely heard Lu Qian's eager voice, asking him to meet at a cafe near his home.

When he arrived at the place, as soon as he entered the door, Lu Qian stood up from his seat and waved to him with an anxious expression on his face.

Shen Xu patted the snowflakes on his body, and quickly walked two steps in front of him, "What happened?"

Lu Qian: "I saw Mo Fan, Shen Xu, has he returned to T City, has he contacted you?"

Shen Xu's heart skipped a beat, the waiter came up to him and ordered a latte, and Lu Qian asked him where Mo Fan was now over and over again.

When Lu Qian was shopping with his wife yesterday, he saw a man who looked very similar to Mo Fan, but when he chased him, the man disappeared.

Lu Qian: "That person is Mo Fan, right? I'm not mistaken, it's definitely Mo Fan."

Shen Xu knew that he couldn't hide how big T City was, and they would meet sooner or later.

Shen Xu: "Yes, I met him a while ago."

Lu Qian: "When, why didn't you tell me?"

Shen Xu: "Tell you what to do, Lu Qian, sober up, you are already married and have a son, don't look for him anymore."

Lu Qian's anger rose, "Shen Xu, do you have to do this? Three years ago you helped him leave without telling me, and now, you still want to hide from me! Are we friends or not!"

Shen Xu: "You are my friend, and so is Mo Fan. I don't want to see him live in such pain. Leaving is the best choice for him. Lu Qian, you are too selfish. After three years, you still refuse to Let him go?"

Lu Qian lost control of his emotions: "Even you blame me? Even you blame me!"

His voice was very loud, attracting the sidelines of the table, Shen Xu reminded him that this is a public place, don't be so excited.

Lu Qian lowered his head to ease his emotions, and when he looked up again, his face was full of grief and indignation, "What can I do, my mother committed suicide in front of me once or twice, should I really watch her die with a heart of stone? ? Shen Xu, why can't you think about it from my standpoint, I----"

Shen Xu: "I repeat, Mo Fan and I absolutely did not mean to blame you. You should indeed get married and fulfill your mother. This is what you must do as a son of man. But Lu Qian, since you have chosen this path, Just let Mo Fan go, he is also a person, he also has thoughts and feelings, and he also has the right to pursue a true and complete love! The happiness that you can't give, let others!"

Lu Qian shook his head and looked at him in disbelief, "You can see clearly how Mo Fan and I came here, can you still say such things now? I don't want to argue with you anymore, tell me he is here Hey, what's his phone number."

Shen Xu: "I just met him on the road and nodded. He still doesn't want to recognize me as a friend, and he doesn't even have a chance to talk. I don't know his contact information."

Lu Qian: "Shen Xu..."

Shen Xu: "You don't have to believe it, because even if I find out one day, I won't tell you."

Lu Qian closed his eyes and lowered his head, controlling his anger: "Shen Xu, you don't need to tell me where he is, I will find it, and one day in the future, I will give him happiness. At that time, let's be friends again!"

After speaking, Lu Qian got up and strode out of the cafe.

Shen Xu sat alone for a while, and after confirming that the road was far away, he got up to check out and leave.

The day after tomorrow is the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, a festive reunion festival, which brings a perfect end to the Spring Festival.There are fireworks and lantern sellers everywhere in the market and alleys, and many people surround each stall.

The snow was flying heavily, without any sign of stopping. The ground soon accumulated a thick layer of snow, and when one stepped on it, there was a crisp sound.

This year's T City is very cold.

Shen Xu and Lu Qian used to be best friends, but they never thought that one day, they would quarrel to the point of breaking up.

Lu Qian was two years older than him, and he was warm and kind.When he first arrived in T City, he was also the one who took the initiative to approach Shen Xu, and soon the two became friends.

Shen Xu is very grateful that Lu Qian has been by his side during the darkest years of his life.

They shuttled through the streets and alleys of the city together looking for northern food that suits your appetite, sneaked out of the factory to play games all night, smashed their jobs together in front of the unreasonable factory manager, and hid in the rented house together to eat food for two months. Clear water noodles.

He told Lu Qian all his stories. When his mother died, he wanted to escape to a farther place, but Lu Qian forced him to stay.

Changing the road to him is another way of salvation.

Later, they met Mo Fan.

At the same age as Lu Qian, he is an introverted big boy.

The similar age made them get acquainted quickly. Mo Fan envied Lu Qian's unrestrained, unrestrained youthful vitality. Under their influence, he gradually let go, and a smile often appeared on that overly beautiful face. face.

It may not be appropriate to describe a man as beautiful, but some people make you think of this word inexplicably.Mo Fan is different from Shen Xu, he prefers the femininity of women, no matter how hard he tries to become manly, that face betrays him first.

At first they were a threesome, but later it became Lu Qian and Mo Fan.

Shen Xu didn't know they were together until several months later.

Shen Xu was naturally happy for them, but still faintly worried.

Mo Fan's parents passed away when he was young, and growing up with his uncle didn't put much pressure on him, but how could Lu Qian's parents in the countryside accept such a thing.

Their happiness lasted for two years. Two years later, Luqian's parents sold their house in the country and moved to the city. Their affair was discovered soon.

Then comes coming out, the determination to die.

During those days, they lived in darkness and could hardly see the dawn.

Lu Qian's mother came to Mo Fan's work unit and beat and scolded him. After Mo Fan was fired, she found their place to live again, and poured pots of dirty water on Mo Fan.

Mo Fan dared not tell Lu Qian that he could always make up various reasons for the extra injuries on his body.

The most egregious time, Lu Qian's mother took out the strength of doing farm work all the year round and picked up the shovel and threw it at Mo Fan. The shovel hit Mo Fan's forehead with a last blow.

Mo Fan passed out at that time, but this time he couldn't hide it anymore. When Lu Qian found out, he was so excited that he went to find his mother, but during the quarrel, his mother was so angry that he opened the window and wanted to jump off the building.

It was so noisy, beating and cursing for two years.

No matter how hard it is, Mo Fan can bear it, because he knows that Lu Qian gave him equal love.

Lu Qian's mother couldn't bear it anymore, and committed suicide again. Blood dripped from the cut wrist, which was shocking.

Lu Qian was forced to propose a fake breakup, so he must stabilize his mother first.

At the same time, his mother asked someone to introduce Lorraine to him.

It took another year on and off like this, and one day they were discovered again when they got together secretly.This time there was a lot of trouble, his mother didn't eat, drink, or take medicine. She passed out after two days of suffering, and Lu Qian was completely subdued after being sent to the hospital.

His mother forced him to take Lorraine to register, and the wedding was held soon.

But Lu Qian still couldn't let Mo Fan go, he asked Mo Fan to wait for him for two years, and he would definitely divorce after two years.

But he forgot that Mo Fan is also human, and Mo Fan suffered no less than him.

Lu Qian saw him once a week, not for a long time.

They started bickering endlessly, and all love changed.

Half a year later, Lu Qian's mother somehow found Mo Fan's residence, said a lot of nasty things, and gave him a heavy slap.

Back then it didn't matter even if his head was broken, but now he can't bear the weight of just a slap.

He swallowed the whole bottle of sleeping pills, and called Shen Xu. His words about how tired he was to live made Shen Xu suspicious, and rushed to his place to save his life.

In the ward, Mo Fan cried out in grief about the pain of these days.

He couldn't hold on any longer.

Shen Xu couldn't bear to see him like this, so he advised him to leave, leave the city, forget about Lu Qian, and start over.

He helped Mo Fan take care of everything without telling Lu Qian, and sent him to the train.

He thought that they would never meet again in this life.

Lu Qian looked for Mo Fan like crazy, and after learning that Shen Xu helped him leave, they fought for the first time.

Lu Qian's fist was heavy, with love for Mo Fan and hatred for reality. After the punch, he fell on the side of the road and cried out of control.

Shen Xu sympathized with him very much, and felt that he was pitiful, but he did not regret doing so.

Since then, Lu Qian no longer had a smile on his face, and he couldn't even pretend.

They are like strangers.

Snowflakes float on the tip of the nose, a little cold.

Shen Xu walked home step by step with his hands in his pockets stepping on Shenxue.

When he reached the side of the square, he looked up and saw that Sibao was talking to someone standing at the door of his house.

When he got closer, Sibao went back to the house, and the man was still standing there with a trolley case beside him, looking at his back, he felt familiar.

When he was about to take a closer look, the phone rang, and he took it out to see that it was a number that gave him a headache.

Also at the moment when he saw the number, there was a flash in his mind, he frowned, and looked at the man who was slowly turning his head with uncertain, angry and incredible eyes.