kind of bend me

In the scorching heat of July, the large and small swimming pools in T City were overcrowded.

Avoiding the peak hours, the self-employed small boss gave himself a vacation at noon on Sunday, soaked in cool water, let go of his troubles, and enjoyed life.

When she was a child, Shen Xu liked swimming very much.

When I was 12 years old, I participated in the primary school swimming competition run by the city and came back with No.1.

That was the only thing Shen Xu could be proud of in his life.

That day, Lin Yan hugged him wet and screamed and cheered, and Shen Guozhong gave his son a rare thumbs up.

Under the sun, the smiling faces of his parents are the most beautiful paintings in his life.

After rushing out of the water and lying on the waterline, Shen Xu thought of the malt candy on the roadside and the Jianlibao on the dining table that day. The taste of childhood has long since dissipated, but home, the people in the family, will always remain in the memory.

An eleven or twelve-year-old boy next to him swam to him, "Brother, you swim really well, teach us!"

Shen Xu smiled and patted his head, "What big brother, uncle!"

After speaking, he dived into the water and swam towards the group of half-grown children.

As the crowds began to gather, he got out of the pool and headed for the showers.

In the corridor, there was a man in a white shirt standing, Shen Xu walked past him without looking sideways.

Turning on the water valve, the warm water washed over his body like a column.

He was not surprised to see Wan Chen here.

Or it can be said that no matter where he goes, Wan Chen always follows behind.

Just like more than ten years ago, he was Wan Chen's follower, chasing that beautiful figure, and wanted to stay behind him forever.

After leaving the swimming pool, Wan Chen waited under the big tree outside the pool with his arms crossed.

Shen Xu walked in front, and Wan Chen followed suit.

T City in July is like a big steamer. After walking a few steps, the thin T-shirts are soaked with sweat.

Kindergarten is already on holiday, so he rarely opens a shop during the day, so he walks into a cold drink shop around the corner, orders a glass of lemonade, and cools down the air conditioner for half an afternoon.

After him, the store door opened again, the wind chime on the door rang crisply, Shen Xu didn't lift his head, he was holding his mobile phone and chatting with his lover who was far away in a foreign country.

Although the road ahead is bleak, he and He Lei finally came together, and neither of them is willing to give up this relationship easily.

Shen Xu even thought, if, if a year later, they still haven't broken up, maybe he will go to He Lei.

Even if there is not much strong and deep love between them, this relationship should be cherished.

He Lei is the salvation of his life.In the future, except for He Lei's, he may never be able to love anyone again.

The waiters in the small shop were two young girls. There were not many customers in the shop, and the man sitting at the next table quickly became the focus.

Shen Xu faintly heard the two girls whispering happily.

Wan Chen's appearance and temperament are too eye-catching, coupled with his identity and his famous fiancée, it is not surprising that he is recognized by young people.

Shen Xu raised his head, Wan Chen, who was sitting by the window, was silently looking at him.

They are so close, yet the world is separated.

At six o'clock in the afternoon, the sun's rays had receded, Shen Xu paid his bill and walked out of the cold drink shop.

There are already many people walking in the school playground, a few aunts who are fast walking to lose weight are chatting non-stop, shirtless strong men are doing handstands on the parallel bars, and young couples who are in love are sitting on the swings. Two and a half children are playing football without rules in the playground where weeds grow wildly.

As soon as Shen Xu walked into the gate, several friends who had made an appointment greeted him loudly.

Sweating profusely on the basketball court for a long time, during the break, Shen Xu gasped for breath while holding on to the railing.

A bottle of water was handed to him, Shen Xu turned his head, Wan Chen had a faint smile on his lips.

A friend asked, "Xuzi, your friend?"

Shen Xu didn't answer, Wan Chen smiled and hummed.

My friend said, "Let's play together! Can you play basketball?"

Wan Chen: "I used to play it when I was in school, but now I do it with my hands."

When it started again, Wan Chen entered the stage, his movements were as nimble as before.After a hot day, there is an occasional breeze through the hair.

Wan Chen grabbed the ball and jumped lightly before the opponent rushed over.

In the severe cold and hot summer, a young face appeared under the basketball hoop, dribbling the ball vigorously with one hand, and recited English texts that he would never understand.

Outside the three-point line, he was calm and composed, the corners of his clothes fluttered, his short hair covered his sight, and with a movement of his wrist----

The boy quickened his pace and rushed to the basket, leaping high.

The basketball flew in the air along its trajectory, and the boy's face overlapped with today's Wan Chen.

Shen Xu slowly closed his eyes.

This person he is too familiar with shouldn't appear in front of him.

They are like imprints on each other, clear positions, deep wounds.

The sun finally set, and the group met for a drink. Shen Xu declined their invitation, and walked home with a sweaty body.

After entering the big supermarket, he went straight to the vegetable and fruit section.

A few fresh tomatoes, a few refreshing cucumbers, a handful of green leafy vegetables, and home-made noodles are his dinner.

When paying the bill, Wan Chen stood behind him, holding a bag of eggs in his hand.

When he got home, he took a quick shower and was brushing his hair when someone knocked on the door.

Outside the door, Wan Chen was standing with four eggs, making a deal with him with a smile on his face.

Shen Xu hesitated for a while, then turned to let him into the room.

In the small kitchen, Shen Xu cut the washed tomatoes into small pieces, and Wan Chen beat two eggs in the bowl and stirred them with chopsticks.

Ten years ago, Shen Xu liked to eat broken eggs, and Wan Chen liked to eat poached eggs.The noodles were served on the table, after Shen Xu pawed them twice, he stretched his chopsticks directly into Wanchen's bowl, picked up a poached egg and stuffed it into his mouth, and grinned at him with a rascally smile on his mouth covered in egg yolk.

Annoyed, Wan Chen stuck his chopsticks into his bowl, but even after a long time he couldn't get a few broken eggs.

The tomatoes were put into the pot, and there was a sound of "Zi La", Shen Xu stir-fried them with a spatula, and Wan Chen shredded the cucumbers.

After boiling the water in the pot, Shen Xu took two handfuls of noodles and sprinkled them in. Wan Chen took advantage of this time to wash the cutting board and wipe the kitchen.

The steaming noodles came to the table, with two poached eggs in one bowl and broken eggs in the other.

Wan Chen picked up a poached egg and put it into Shen Xu's bowl.

Shen Xu looked up at him, the expression on Wan Chen's face remained unchanged.

The theme song of a popular TV was playing on the TV, the noisy voices of children came from the open window, the bedroom door was open, and the coolness of the air conditioner came in gradually.

After eating most of the bowl of noodles, Shen Xu leaned on the chair and sighed comfortably.

Wan Chen on the opposite side is still eating noodles slowly, taking small bites always so calmly, as if time has returned to 13 years ago.

In the cozy hut, on a small table, two big boys sat head to head, who stole the egg from the other's bowl, and whoever licked the noodles from the corner of the other's mouth.

They once loved each other like that.

Times have changed, and things have changed.

A child put in coins, and cheerful music played from the rocking car outside. The door of Sibao's small supermarket was slammed, and someone's mobile phone rang, which lasted for a long time.

None of them paid attention to them, those voices seemed to be separated by layers of glass.

They are enclosed in a quiet world, a world with only each other.

Shen Xu put down his chopsticks, lit a cigarette, and threw the cigarette case to Wan Chen's hand.

The room was soon filled with the smell of nicotine, Wan Chen also put down his chopsticks, but did not take the cigarette.

He raised his head and calmly looked at the man behind the smoke.

"What are you thinking?"

Shen Xu lowered his eyes and took a long breath, "Thinking about us in the past, thinking about that period, I thought it was the most beautiful time."

At the age of 17, thinking about it now, those joys and happiness are overdrawn at once for the next ten or decades.

What Wan Chen took away was not just two years. In Shen Xu's life, he was the one who took the most weight.

Wan Chen said slowly, "If you want, we can go back to..."

Shen Xu smiled, this time without any sarcasm or resentment.

He smiled and looked at the man, "Wan Chen, what kind of life did you pursue when you were a teenager? You have to sacrifice a lot to climb up to such a high position. Are you satisfied now? ? Will you stop? Are you willing?"

Wan Chen couldn't answer, so Shen Xu stubbed out the cigarette.

"Back then you gave up on me in that way. Although you used to hate you very much, now you don't feel much. It's just that I was too stupid. I didn't understand at that time. We can only be people in two worlds forever. Together, slowly, the differences will be exposed one by one. I may not even understand the topics you are talking about. The high-quality life you yearn for is a burden to me. When I tell you When you mention someone's gossip and complain about conflicts at work, you will look down on such a low-level me even more. In the end, you will still end up breaking up. Wan Chen, since you have chosen such a path, don't regret it, close your eyes Gritting your teeth, you can always go on. You will have a wife who loves you and a lovely child. Ten years later, you will be grateful for all of this.”

Wan Chen lowered his eyes, there was only a little bit of noodles left in the bowl in front of everyone, but it was hard to swallow.

"Shen Xu, I regretted it. I really regretted it the year you left City S completely."

That house full of cobwebs, that home made even more bleak by the moonlight.He cried and called Shen Xu's name with tears in his eyes.

"At that time, I must have been punished by God. What I did to you was like a shackle, and I couldn't breathe. I regretted it. Every day, I can only think of your kindness. Shen Xu, do you believe that Well, I regret it to death. But I still don't have the courage to come to you. As you said, since I have chosen this path, I have chosen this path in exchange for giving up on you. No matter what, I can only go on. .I also want to walk on two parallel lines with you for the rest of my life, and it has nothing to do with you. But, Shen Xu, this time, I can't do it. "

Wan Chen's eyes were burning, and he stared affectionately at the only person he had ever loved in his life.

"In the past ten years, I have lived a very lonely life. I lived alone in my own home, and I couldn't even hear gossip and complaints. I tried to live a normal life, dating women, and drinking with friends. But in the end, I still can't lie to myself. The person I love is not any one of her. In the next few decades, I don't want to continue that kind of loneliness. I know how difficult this road is, and I understand that you will not Let it go easily. But Shen Xu, I must try and work hard, I don't want to regret it again, I don't want that kind of loneliness to occupy my whole life."

Shen Xu quietly listened to his regret, the noise outside the house gradually subsided, and the theme song rang out again on the TV.

Shen Xu let out a helpless sigh from his mouth.

"It turns out that you regretted it. More than ten years, your ten years..."

That night, Shen Xu lay on the bed, thinking about many things.

He Lei sent a message, but he didn't reply for a long time.

Wan Chen's 13 years, he always thought it was wonderful.In the 13 years without him, Wan Chen lived the life he longed for.

Later, after a long time...

Wan Chen, I regret it.

"If I hadn't sent those photos, Uncle Shen wouldn't have had an accident, I didn't, I didn't do those cruel things to you. Shen Xu, we are still together now. For more than ten years, I have been making this assumption. When I was exhausted, I imagined you by my side, listening to my complaints about my troubles at work, listening to your wordy words that I don’t like to hear, and imagining that you would be happier than me when I climbed new steps. Let me celebrate for me in a crazy way that I couldn't predict, in the dead of night, I imagined that you were lying next to me, and never left."

Shen Xu, I have always loved you.

The next day, Shen Xu received a call from Lu Qian.

As soon as Wan Chen stepped into the small shop, Shen Xu stood up excitedly from his chair, his expression changed drastically, and he shouted several times into the phone, "Lu Qian, Lu Qian!"

"what happened?"

Shen Xu ignored him, grabbed his wallet and keys, and hurried out of the house.

Wan Chen followed closely, "What happened?"

Shen Xu was held by his arm, his face turned pale with fright, "My friend has an accident, I have to go and have a look, and close the shop for me."

Shen Xu broke away from his hand, and rushed to the side of the road to stop the taxi.

After a while, a white car stopped next to him, with the window pulled down, Wan Chen poked his head out, "Get in the car."