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"Wanchen."

Someone is calling his name.

"Wan Chen, Wan Chen, Wan Chen..."

Is it Shen Xu's voice, Shen Xu? !

Slowly opened his eyes, in front of his eyes was a gray ceiling, the wall skin at the corner was mottled and peeled off, and the left half of the wall was pasted with certificates, ranging from elementary school to junior high school to high school.

"Wanchen."

Wan Chen turned his eyes, and Shen Xu's suspicious smile appeared in front of his eyes.

Wan Chen narrowed his eyes slightly and looked at him in disbelief.

17-year-old Shen Xu has the happiest smile.

With neat short hair and sparkling eyes, Shen Xu grinned toothily, and said to him in a low voice: "What nightmare did you do? You frowned even when you were sleeping. Look," brushed his thumb over the corner of his eye, and held it in front of him. "Tears are streaming down my face. I must have dreamed that you got zero marks in the exam. Tsk tsk... Look at your worthless appearance."

Wan Chen propped himself up and opened his eyes wide to see the person in front of him clearly.

It was Shen Xu, that's right, it was Shen Xu who he had loved all his life.

"Today is really strange. When did I wake up without looking at the back of your head? Why, did you give up studying hard today?"

Wan Chen blinked. The 17-year-old Shen Xu had no fine lines at the corners of his eyes, and there was no dimness in his eyes. The 17-year-old Shen Xu pressed his lips against his cheek and gently wiped a kiss.

Shen Xu raised his chin, "Hey, are you stupid? Really," scratching his head, and looked at him with an awkward smile, "I haven't heard you talk about your dream theory for a day, I'm really not used to it."

A familiar hut, a single bed, two young boys, and an old desk by the small window not far away. There are books spread out on the desk, half-written test papers.

The corner of Wan Chen's mouth curled up into a smile, and there were tears in his silent smile, blurring the familiar face in front of him.

This is a dream!

In the dream, he returned to the age of 17. At that time, they didn't quarrel, Uncle Shen didn't die, he didn't almost strangle Shen Xu to death, and Aunt Lin was still alive and healthy.

No separation, no miss, at that time, they loved each other deeply.

Is this a dream that can be repeated?

Wan Chen pulled Shen Xu over and hugged him tightly, tightly, tightly.

Tears rolled down line by line, and he couldn't cry.

Shen Xu: "What's wrong with you, Wan Chen?"

Wan Chen tightened his arms, as if the person in his arms would disappear in a second.

Shen Xu, whom he has loved all his life, will always, always be by his side.

His voice was so choked that people couldn't hear what he said.

"Shen Xu... Shen Xu..."

"Wanchen..."

Can everything really be repeated?

"I don't pursue any dreams anymore, Shen Xu... I was wrong, I was really wrong, Shen Xu, give me another chance, okay... I will accompany you, live the most ordinary life... Let's work hard together Buy a small house, open a small shop and start a small business, just the two of us, just the two of us... Shen Xu, I don't want to go to S University, and I don't want to talk about ideals anymore. The most important thing... Shen Xu, I was wrong, I made too many mistakes, too many, I can't understand until I miss it, Shen Xu, without you, life without you is meaningless... Shen Xu, give me a chance , I won't let those things happen again, so, you can forgive me, can't you, Shen Xu..."

"Wanchen..."

"Shen Xu... Shen Xu..."

Wan Chen closed his eyes tightly, tears covering his whole face.

If this is a dream, never wake up!

His Shen Xu, the Shen Xu who loves him deeply, has never, never disappeared.

"Shen Xu, I'm leaving."

On a summer night, with no wind, the moonlight was hidden in the clouds, Wan Chen stood outside the small shop, and the light from the shop shone on his peaceful face.

He said softly, "Shen Xu, I'm leaving."

Shen Xu straightened up and looked at him without saying a word.

Wan Chen quietly watched the person he had loved for so many years.

Maybe, from the moment when Lin Yan came to the ward with the two-month-old Shen Xu in her arms.

Warmth and light are linked together.

The first pronunciation of Wanchen Shengsheng is "Xixi"

Shen Xu's first partner in life is "Chen Chen"

At the age of three, Wan Chen yelled that Shen Xu was a jerk; at the age of five, Shen Xu exposed Wan Chen's smearing of Lingling's skirt; at the age of seven, Wan Chen went to Shen Xu's house to show off his perfect score; He was blocked in the alley and beaten up.

In childhood, they were sworn enemies.

Shen Xu lowered his eyes, "Let's go, it's time to go back."

Wan Chen's smile added bitterness, "I'm leaving now, and I won't come back again."

With a hint of doubt, Shen Xu looked up at him.

A small window was open, and someone poked his head out and called another person's name awkwardly.

A small summer mat, two big boys lying side by side.

A warm box of chives wrapped in a small steamer cloth is passed from the small window to another person.

A young heart is trapped in the vigorous smile rushing out of the sea.

Whether it's Shen Xu or the 31-year-old Shen Xu, they can only stay in his mind.

Wan Chen: "Shen Xu, last night, I had a dream. It seemed that I was 17 years old and we were still together."

There is still the first kiss that made the heart tremble on the lips, and the warm touch when holding it tightly in the palm of the hand is still there.

Shen Xu with red eyes from crying, Shen Xu covered in scars, Shen Xu who trusted him wholeheartedly.

Such pure love, in this life, will never happen again.

"Do you still remember my hut? We often lie in that small bed together, and you said that every time you wake up, you can only see the back of my head, as if you will never be able to walk in front of me."

Sorry Wanchen, I still can't help you.

Wan Chen, let me tell you, don't try to get rid of me this time, if you want to go to jail, we will sit together, and if you want to die together, you will die together!

I have worked hard for four years, and I can always save a lot. If I can help you, I will help you. If I can’t, I will keep the money for us to buy a house.

Wanchen, I can work hard to do what you said, and please fulfill your promise.The future you said belongs to both of us.I remember those words clearly.

Shen Xu gradually lowered his head, and gradually closed the hands hanging by his side.

"That dream, I thought, was a chance God gave us. I hugged you excitedly. I said, I don't want to go to S University, and I don't want to pursue any dreams. As long as I can start everything again, I am willing to keep it. I want you to live the most ordinary life, a small house, a small shop, maybe ten or 20 years later, parents will understand us, and by then, it will be a happy ending."

If he hadn't sent those photos, if Uncle Shen hadn't had a car accident, if Ke Qiwei hadn't posted the photos on the bulletin board, if he could stand up and say something when the whole school besieged Shen Xu, if he hadn't gone mad and wanted to strangle Shen Xu to death, if Lin Auntie didn't die alone, if Shen Xu didn't try to commit suicide.

Shen Xu frowned a little bit, Wan Chen's words seemed like a cruel dream to him.

Ordinary life, parents' understanding, happy ending...

Even he would never have such a dream again.

And Wanchen...

Wan Chen is the one who can say such words?

"Shen Xu, how did we come to this day?"

It is the most familiar person, but it becomes strange and distant, and it is the deepest feeling, but it can never be regained.

The person he loves the most is still there!

But those words, those heart-piercing words rang in his ears.

If my father is not dead and my mother is still alive, I will definitely go to him again.Even if he posted the photo on the bulletin board, even if people all over the world call me a pervert, even if he put his hands on my neck, I will forgive and let myself forget all this.After a few years, I can stand in a position that is slightly worthy of him, and go to him again.

Shen Xu, who was so in love that he lost his mind, was full of tears, clutching his chest tightly, but wanted to dig him out of his heart.

During the 12 years of loneliness and pain, Shen Xu survived alone. The person he loved so much didn't even give him an apology.

Is he still qualified to love such a poor person again?

Shen Xu... Shen Xu... Shen Xu...

Shen Xu looked at him calmly, from the forehead to the tip of the nose to the lips, this face has been engraved in his heart for many years.

Wanchen who smiled, Wanchen who was angry, and Wanchen who cried, he watched them for 18 years.

Even if he hated him, he would sneak into the dream quietly, perhaps, he never let go.

How could it be that today...

Shen Xu: "Wan Chen, perhaps, we were wrong from the very beginning. Two people from different worlds will never be able to get together. It's just that we were too young at that time, but I loved you once, truly and truly. You also believe that once you, like me, loved me unreservedly."

Memories cannot be faked, everything that Wan Chen has paid for him has really existed.

At that time, Wan Chen loved him with all his heart.

He believed.

"To this day, I don't hate you anymore, and I can no longer love you. Wan Chen, I am very grateful for your help to Liu Xuan. From now on," he stretched out his hand, "just be the most ordinary friend. !"

At the age of 16, in the dark night, Shen Xu yelled at the shadow upstairs.

Wanchen, let's be friends!

At the age of 17, by the rippling lake, Wan Chen moved to Shen Xu's lips.

Shen Xu, I like you.

, They turned their backs on each other and traveled far away.

Wan Chen stared at the outstretched hand for a long time, and finally, slowly raised his hand.

Clasping palms, warm touch, and excitement...

When he raised his eyes, he seemed to be back in the summer when he was 17 years old, the youthful Shen Xu, the boy who laughed wantonly at him.

"sorry."

I have a new lover, he is very good to me, he said he wants to have a serious relationship with me, can I be happy once?Even if it doesn't last long, I don't want to miss this person who is willing to love me.

Let him go, not because you don't love him, but because you love him too much, so let him go!Although it is cruel, only by leaving you and giving up on you can he get real happiness, and no matter how precious the memory is, it will become the past.The person he needs is no longer you.

"Goodbye."

Letting go of his hand, Wan Chen turned and walked towards the way he came.

The pace was slow, and tears rolled down involuntarily.

This road is too long, too long. He walked for 13 years, but in the end, he still couldn't reach the end.

Let him go, the gap between parents' lives is something they can't cross in their entire lives.

The entanglement will only cause greater harm to Shen Xu.

Let him go, if there is someone who is willing to love him sincerely, let him be happy for once!

This is the only compensation he can make.

Shen Xu...

The darkness in front of him was gradually replaced by a cloud of white mist. He walked step by step into the white mist of memory, carefully stretched out his hand, and squeezed another person's hand tightly.

He said to the teenagers that the road ahead is long, let's go on together!

The boy smiled innocently and handsomely, and nodded emphatically at him.

Let's go together!

No matter how difficult it is, how far it is, we can always go to the end, the most important thing is you.

enough.

end

When it was almost dawn, the phone on the bedside table rang.

A short message, one line of words, is displayed on the screen, leading to a complete story.

Shen Xu, I'm back.

The author has something to say: When I typed the last word, I was still hesitating whether to type "End of the full text" or "End of the first part"

Due to Yanzi’s own reasons, this article has been discontinued for too long, and the readers have almost run away. Many relatives who stayed behind also said that this article has changed its taste, like expired yogurt, and the feeling of sadness no longer exists, only hypocritical moans. .

Write another 20 words to stick to the original partner to the end, even I have no confidence.

Although it is a BE ending, after all Wan Chen is still the protagonist of this article.

Thank you for sticking to the dear ones until today, there is fate, and we will see you in the next article.

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