Looking for Cheyenne

Good sentence, you don't need to worry about it.

Yes, no need, I worry about it.

Yeah, what the hell am I doing.

What right do I have to worry about it, worry about it!

[Ling Cang, stop the car, I think I'd better walk back by myself. 】

He continued driving without any intention of stopping.

I reached out to open the door, he pulled me, I opened it with one hand, he yanked hard, locked the door, and I fell back to the passenger seat.At the same time, the car took a thrilling S-curve on the road and finally stopped on the side of the road.

【You are fooling around! 】He looked cold.

[I want to get off. ] I beat the window glass.

He ignored me.

I beat on it desperately, and the car window was safe and sound, but my hand felt a bout of dull pain.

He sat there, watching quietly.

When I was exhausted and bruises appeared on my hands, he took me into his arms.

【Now Xia An is always so disobedient.What should I do with you? 】

[I want to get off. 】

[Stop making trouble, okay? 】

[I want to get off. 】

[Stop making trouble, be obedient. ] he repeated.

He ignored my request, no, it was a plea.

He locked me up and I couldn't get out.

He wants me to be obedient, and I must be obedient.

He was on the sidelines, watching me struggle until I broke down and gave in.

He kept repeating to be quiet and to be obedient, as if he was hypnotizing.

If you don't make trouble, don't make trouble, I am also tired, so I pull down the hat on my head and cover my whole head.I don't want to listen or look, it's okay.

In this way, obedient enough, Ling Cang.

When Xiao Ran came to open the door, he found that the atmosphere between us was not right, so he called me.

I didn't answer and went straight into the room and closed the door.

After a while the door was opened.

【I'm tired. 】

[Young master, it's me. 】 Xiao Ran said.

[Xiao Ran? ] I turned around, and he closed the door lightly.

[You and Young Master Ling had a fight? 】

【without. ] I shook my head.

[Little master, don't be sad.Ling Shao, he's just... just...] Xiao Ran originally wanted to find an excuse for Ling Cang, but he couldn't find a suitable reason after thinking for a long time.

【What's up? 】

【Xiao Feng asked me to accompany him back to the north, it will probably take half a month. 】He shyly said 【You have to take good care of yourself in this half month. 】

【It seems that Xiao Feng has been completely surrendered by you. 】

He blushed [Little Master~~~]

[Don't worry, I'm fine. 】

[Leave tomorrow morning, and you won't see me when you come back from get off work. 】 He muttered 【Don't miss me then. 】

It's getting more and more unruly.

【over thinking. ] I smiled and pinched his nose.

【You look much better when you smile. 】

[Why, think I'm ugly! 】I pretended to be angry.

[No no] He waved his hand quickly, [I...I just... just don't want to see you always sad. 】

[Hehe~ how come.Well, go to bed early. ] I patted him on the shoulder and said good night.

Seeing my bright smile, he went back with confidence.

But that's just what it looks like.

I don't know what it looks like when my heart is really rotten and hollowed out.

It's not something I can control.

It hurts, it cries, it wants to vent.

The dark room where you can't see your fingers is just like the night when I was ten years old, dark and depressing.

Maybe, that woman is right, I shouldn't live, I was born to be cursed, and living is just a futile remnant.

She hates me, hates that I came to this world and took away everything from her, so she never had my mother's love.

I ruined her future, her downfall and madness were all caused by me, she wished she could strangle me to death with her own hands.

So I am doomed to be unblessed, from birth to growing up, without any love and encouragement, so I long for the fatherly love given by the old man, because I have never had it, so I cherish it even more, so I only listen to the old man's words.

That woman sometimes didn't give me food, often didn't have enough to eat and didn't wear warm clothes, and was often beaten.

Later she went completely crazy and wanted to kill me with her own hands. She didn't even want her own son.

I saw her cut her wrists and died in front of me.I didn't want her to die, I wanted to save her, even though she wanted to kill me, I kept calling that night, hoping someone would come to save her and save me.But that night, no one offered a helping hand.

The hospital wouldn't bother with a madman.A penniless crazy woman who was stuck in the hospital with her child for three whole months and refused to leave.

So, she died.

Although she always hits me, but after all, flesh and blood are connected, she is my only support.

She died and left me alone, and I was terrified.

Her blood kept gushing out, soaking clothes, sheets, and staining the ground red.These reds are opening their bloody mouths to devour me.

But her madness didn't stop, she even cut my hand with a knife.

I was terrified, I didn't want to die, I was afraid of pain.

I tried my best to escape and ran until I couldn't run any more.

I thought I was going to die next to that pile of garbage.

However, Ling Cang saved me. That day I thought that he was an angel sent by heaven to save me.

It turned out that I was not abandoned.

He saved me, and he sent me to Ling's orphanage.He is so kind to me, I want to repay him, people should be grateful, right?So when I entered the orphanage, I studied day and night, just to win the only spot. If I was good enough to be favored by the Ling family, I could become a secretary to assist him.

But when I desperately came to him, he asked me who I was.

Later, I treated him wholeheartedly, but he avoided me and got farther and farther away from me.

His distaste has never ceased to grow, and I am saddened.

When I see him getting close to other people, I will be very angry and irritable, and I will itch my teeth and want to beat that person up.At that time, I didn't know why I had such an idea, and I didn't know why he kept avoiding me.

Later, I realized that feeling is called liking.Repaying favor has become a cover for me to get close to him, and I already like him.

I became gay and he hated being gay so hated me.

But he lied to me because he could tolerate Ning Shu.

He just hates me, Xia An, it has nothing to do with homosexuality.

He is always so bad, he never considers my feelings when he speaks, always makes me sad, but he still sticks to him with all his heart.

Why?

But because I love him.

Why should I love, love such a bad guy.

If I knew that it would be so painful later, I would rather go with that crazy woman at the beginning.

But at that time, I was so naive, thinking that I was great, and I could do anything for him.

But I don't know, there are only two words in my heart: "disgusting."

How ridiculous.

Since I was cursed from birth, and I didn't even get the love of blood, why should I expect the love of others?

He saved me, this life was originally his.He has the right to squander, I have no right to dominate.

Corrupted body, corrupted heart, what I am still trying to save is useless.

In the dark, I fumbled to turn on the desk lamp, and took out the package I received during the day from my bag.

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Looking at the dazzling package during the day, at this moment, I don't think so anymore.

Suddenly found that those white transparent powder is so kind.

The persistence since I was released from prison is meaningless at all, why go against it, no matter who it is with, even myself, I have long been powerless to contend.

As I watched the liquid in the syringe flow slowly into my veins, I felt the deep part of my body cheering with eagerness, surging like an erupting volcano.

Turning off the light, leaning against the corner, I smiled and quietly felt the long-lost pleasure.

Across the two doors, he was there, a sweet dream all night.

Maybe it was because I was too excited last night, but I didn't feel tired at all this morning. I finished all the unfinished things in one breath.

Because of me, there is no time.

When I was washing my face, I observed carefully in the mirror for a long time. My mental state seemed to be pretty good, and I could not see any clues, so I felt relieved to go to the company.

Not long after arriving at the company, I met Ling Cang in the corridor, and he also came.

He asked me why I didn't wait for him to come with me in the morning.

I said that I have the habit of running in the morning, in order to exercise.

He said what he said last night was unintentional.

What I asked, I don't remember.What would you like to have for dinner tonight?

He laughed and said that as long as it was made by me, he would like it.

I told him to get home from get off work early today.

He leaned forward and kissed my forehead.

When I went back to the office to sort out the materials, I realized that I forgot to bring the meeting materials. I was looking in the mirror in the morning, but things were left in the room.See if there is still half an hour left, there is still time.

As soon as I entered the apartment, I saw Xiao Ran cleaning the house.

[Xiao Ran, didn't you leave in the morning, why are you still here? 】I wondered.

[Little Master! 】He was so excited that he threw down his broom and rushed towards him 【It's not that he changed his flight because he thought no one would clean it, so he came back to clean your house. 】

[It's hard to worry about you. 】

【Why did you come back suddenly? ] he asked, blinking.

[I forgot to bring the information. ] I went to the desk to find something.I didn't see the information, I put it here in the morning, why it disappeared?

【Are you talking about this? 】He took it from the bookshelf beside it【Look at you, the desk is in a mess, how could you find anything. 】

I took it [Isn’t it okay to put it neatly next time, really. 】

【Every time you say that. ] He muttered something.

[With Xiao Ran here, what else should I worry about.Well, I have to go, or I'll be late for the meeting. 】

[Don't worry, be careful! ] He exhorted.

【understood. 】

Before going to the old man's cemetery in the afternoon, I went to buy some things and his favorite wine.

The old man is a wine lover, if he doesn't drink during the Chinese New Year, he must be in a panic.

It's Chinese New Year, it's time to visit him, otherwise he will be so lonely.

Unfortunately, I met the old fox and went to mourn. I swallowed everything I wanted to say to the old man, put down the wine and flowers, and left.

New Year's Eve dinner should be a very happy thing,

I seem to smell the breath of the New Year.

Tonight, let's let go of everything, regardless of the past and future, only Ling Cang and Xia An will celebrate the New Year together.

Tonight, I don't want sadness, pain, just peace, that's enough.

Having bought some of the kitchen cabinets and the rest out for cleaning, I put on my apron and set to work.

It's a pity that those shrimp soldiers and crab generals are all little devils, and they want to fight against me, crawling all over the ground, and it took me a lot of effort to deal with them.

When they were finally boiled red in the pot, I breathed a sigh of relief in my heart.

[Hehe~] Hearing the voice and looking back, Ling Cang smiled and bent over at the door.

Only then did he realize that he had watched the entire scene just now.

I untied the apron and threw it aside, I took out the dishes, and he also came to help.

When everything was ready, the sound of firecrackers began to sound outside, one after another without stopping.

The sound was too loud, and I covered my ears reflexively, and he reached out to cover my ears for me.

His hands were warm and warm.

Finally, the noise outside finally stopped, we sat down, and he sat next to me.

He handed over a wine goblet half filled.

Cheers!

He said he enjoyed dinner, thank you, Ann.

Tilting his head slightly, the wine flowed down his throat, and I could clearly see his Adam's apple sliding up and down, forming a unique arc, with a deep smile in the corner of his eyes.

I looked up and drank it in one gulp.

The feeling of burning in the stomach is just the most common wine, it can't bear it.

During the meal, I kept adding food to him.

【Ann, that apron suits you very well. 】 He laughed.

Realizing what he said, I wanted to drill into the ground.

Holding the bowl up to my face, I forcefully picked up the rice, pretending not to hear.

He took my bowl down [Is there anyone who eats like this!Be careful of choking. 】

【Do you also care about my meal? 】

[Okay, I don't care, look at you, your face is full of food. 】

As he spoke, he wiped the rice grains from the corner of my mouth with his hands, holding back his laughter.

on purpose!He definitely did it on purpose!

Deliberately prevent me from eating properly!

Forget it, forget it, today's New Year, I'll let adults ignore villains, and don't care so much with him.

After dinner, he said he would take me to watch the fireworks by the river.

We drove to the river.

Many people gathered here to watch the fireworks. The gorgeous fireworks rose and bloomed in the dark night, sending rumbling blessings, and the faces of the people under the fireworks were filled with happy smiles.

I also looked up and watched quietly.

Ling Cang asked me if I would be cold,

I shook my head.

He said, Ann, make a wish.

I clasped my fingers in front of my chest, closed my eyes, and made a wish.

After a while, I opened my eyes.

He asked, agreed so soon?

I said it was over.

He turned my face away and opened his mouth to say something when his cell phone rang.He didn't want to answer it at first, but the phone kept ringing, trying to keep him from being at peace.

He picked it up, just gave a feed, and the other party said something, he turned his head and looked at me, pointed to me not far away, and said something to me, wait for me, don't run around, and there are few people. The place answered the phone.

I picked an empty seat by the river and sat down, looking up at the gorgeous fireworks in the sky.

But half an hour passed, and he still hadn't come back.

I looked at the screen in the square by the river, it showed 10:[-], and [-] minutes to [-] o'clock in the morning.

A year is coming to an end, so fast.

Walking into the crowd, I asked someone to borrow my cell phone, and then called Fang Yi.

【Hey? 】

[Happy New Year, Fang Yi. 】 I said with a smile.

【install? 】

【it's me. 】

【You too, Happy New Year. ] He said on the phone.

[In the new year, should I also have a new start? 】

【hope so. 】

【Hehe~ What a luxurious wish, but no matter how extravagant it is, it can be realized.OK, I'm hung up. ] I borrowed the phone from someone else, so I'm embarrassed to waste other people's phone bills.

I compiled what I hadn't finished into a text message and sent it to Fang Yi, then deleted all the records, and then returned the phone to someone else.Or text messages are cheaper.

I stood and continued to wait for Ling Cang, fearing that he would not be able to find me later.

There were more and more people around, and the screen showed that there were 3 minutes left, the countdown was about to begin, but Ling Cang still didn't come back.

After a while, [Ten, Nine, Eight...] The crowd began to count down to welcome the New Year along with the numbers on the screen.

There are more and more fireworks in the sky, one after another, changing different patterns, brilliant and dazzling.

【three……】

I saw him coming in the crowd.

【one! 】

[Happy New Year, Ann~] He leaned over and whispered softly in my ear.

【Happy New Year. ] I stood on tiptoe and whispered in his ear.

On the way back, I was a little tired, probably because I didn't sleep last night.

The music in the car played quietly, and he concentrated on driving without speaking, probably because he was tired.

Back at the apartment, I said goodnight to him and went back to my room.

[Ann~ I just want you to be well. 】 He suddenly said behind his back.

【thanks, I will. 】

【Don't lie to me again, keep it from me. 】

[How can there be. 】

[If there was one before, it's too late to tell me now.otherwise……】

[Otherwise what do you want? 】

[Otherwise, you will be fined to copy the company's articles of association five hundred times, how about it. 】

[Hehe~ Then remember to buy paper and pens for me. 】

[It's better not to, I won't be so kind.Okay, go to bed early, good night~] He smiled and scratched my nose, and went back to the room.

Happy New Year, good dreams.

But obviously, good dreams are not what I want to have.

In the middle of the night, I was awakened by that uncomfortable feeling.I was sweating profusely all over my body, and I felt very thirsty. I got up and took a sip of water, but I was still thirsty. The endless thirst cannot be solved by drinking water.

What I need is not water.

The throat is constantly swallowing.

The limbs scratched the body uncontrollably, trying to suppress the screaming deep in the body.

I hugged myself into a ball, trying to stop the feeling of death.

【Xia An~ Come on, come with me.You should not live in this world. ] I saw the woman's bloody face again.

【No, I don't want it, go away! ] I stepped back, not letting her approach.

[Haha~~Admit it, no one cares about you at all, so why bother staying here?I will take you to heaven, where it belongs to you. ] As she spoke, she suddenly took out a knife and swung it at me.

I quickly stretched out my hand to block it, and suddenly, she disappeared, but it was Qigui standing there, who came with a sinister smile on his face.

[Xia An, do you feel that your body can't take it anymore? I have a lot here, should I give you some? ] He got closer and closer.

【ah!Get out! 】I yelled loudly, threw myself on the head of the bed, and turned on the light.

The woman and Qigui disappeared without a trace.

The room was brightly lit, and there was no one there but myself.

Another hallucination.I can't escape.

Getting out of bed, I groped under the bed, but couldn't find anything.

Impossible, last night, I obviously put it under the bed. .

Impossible, there is nothing under the bed.

Lifted the quilt, pillow, and nothing.I opened the bedside table and searched all the places in the room where I could put things, but I couldn't find them.

How could it not, I panicked.

The physical torture made me unable to stand still, and my limbs shook uncontrollably.

I can't take it anymore.

But I obviously put it under the bed last night.

My body was shaking non-stop, I put my fingers in my mouth and bit them, trying to get back a sliver of sanity.

【Are you looking for someone? ! 】

There was a sudden sound at the door, and I looked up in horror. Ling Cang stood there blankly, holding the bag of drugs and syringes from last night in his hand, staring at me coldly! !

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Ling Cang? ! ! ! !

How could it be in his hands? !

My first reaction was to turn off the lights.

With a "snap", he turned on the light again and walked in.

【No, don't turn on the lights! 】

No, don't let him see me like this.

Don't let him in, don't come over.

[Ling Cang, don't come here! 】

His footsteps sounded resounding, approaching step by step.

I hugged my body and buried my head in my arms.

How to return?

How did he find out?He never rummaged through other people's things.

[Why, don't you dare to watch it now? 】

【Ling Cang, don't come near me, please. 】

[If Xiao Ran hadn't told me just now, I really didn't know you had such a big secret. 】He said coldly 【What is this!Xia An~].

Xiao Ran?How did he know?Yes, he was cleaning my room this morning, so he found this.Then he told Ling Cang about this.But why did he do this? He has always been towards me, and there is no reason to treat me like this.

[I don't know, don't ask me. 】

【Where did it come from? 】

【I have no idea.Ling Cang, stop asking. 】

[Stop asking?But you look like you need it so much, don't you know? 】

[I don't know, I really don't know. ] At this moment, I just want to escape immediately.

【It's under your bed, how could you not know it? 】

[I said I don’t know, I don’t know anything! 】I keep shaking.

【have no idea? 】He grabbed my hand and pushed my sleeve up vigorously, but I couldn't push it away. [Then how to explain this?I gave you a chance just now, but you didn't say it.If you say so, I can ignore it. 】 He forcefully lifted my chin and turned my face away, forcing me to look at his arm.

I turned my head and struggled.

No wonder, he just answered the phone for so long, so he came here.

He already knew it all.

He came back to me again, and he was waiting for me to confess.

Ever since he came back to pick me up, he's been watching the show, seeing me, a clown, pretending to be self-righteous, and always thinking that I'm hiding well.

[No, I don't want to look, let go of your hand. 】

【Xia An, why don't you watch it if you enjoy it so much. 】He sneered, and stubbornly raised my arm to his eyes, forcing me to look.I saw scattered needle holes next to the veins of the large veins in the left arm.Under the light, they are so eye-catching and eye-catching, it hurts my eyes.

【See? 】

【open. 】I tried hard, but couldn't break his hand.

[I said you are not allowed to lie to me again, so what is this] His words were like ice knives, piercing my heart.

The double torment both physically and mentally made me almost lose my only sanity.

[Give it back to me, give it back to me! ] I reached out to snatch what was in his hand.

[Don't even think about it! ] He threw the thing directly out the window.

【No! ] I screamed and rushed to the window, and he quickly grabbed me.

【what are you doing! ] He was angry [Don't die? ! 】

[Why throw them away!give me back!Give it back to me! 】I shouted 【You give it back to me! 】

【what is that?Yes!poison!Do you even know? ! ! ! ] He roared back with a louder voice.

white? !pink? !

poison? ?

I was shocked.

It was drugs, and I was doing drugs.

I was so craving for drugs.

How did I become like this.

[Ahaha~ Drugs, drugs!I know it's drugs, I'm going to do drugs!Leave me alone! ] I laughed out loud.

[You wake me up! 】He clasped my shoulder with one hand and the back of my head with the other, I couldn't move.

【wide awake? ! !I am wide awake. ] I looked directly into his eyes, 【I still clearly remember the feeling of taking drugs for the first time, it was amazing! ] I said excitedly.

[Do you know how ugly this decadent look is now!Cheyenne! 】He was so angry that he squeezed my arm hard, the blood there was blocked and was about to turn purple.

【ugly?I know I've always been ugly in your eyes.Ling Cang, I already knew this. ] I still have this self-knowledge.

【Go, I'll take you to see a doctor. 】He pulled me up hard.

【Ling Cang!You hurt me. 】He really hurt me, and there was a purple mark on the left arm.

But he couldn't help saying that he just pulled me up.

【No, I won't go, you go by yourself! ! ] I backed up against the bed cabinet.

【Xia An, don't force me. ] The decibels of Ling Cang's voice also increased.

【Heh~ Then do it, you might as well throw me out of the window too. ] I said to him with the corners of my eyes bent.

He didn't speak, this was his limit, and he was trying his best to bear it.

But I continued to challenge his bottom line.

[Ling Cang] I approached and shouted in a low voice, 【You must not know how wonderful it is to take drugs. 】

【say no more. 】

【Do you know how I felt when I took drugs for the first time?I thought I would die of happiness. ] I stuck out my tongue and licked my lips.

【shut up! ] His anger was completely aroused by me. [How could Xia An be like this in the past, look at what you've become now! 】

[Haha~ The former Xia An?Who knows... he was long dead. 】I was dying of laughter, I supported my waist and laughed so hard that I couldn't stop 【When he was forced to take drugs for the first time in prison, he was already dead! ! !Isn't this what you want to see?Don't you most want to see me have nothing, and see me begging for mercy in front of you when cornered?Although your wish has come true now, but I won't beg for mercy, I'm afraid you will be disappointed.Heh~ why do you have such a sad expression. 】

He froze suddenly, his face was filled with disbelief and deep sadness.

【Haha~ What are you sad about? 】I laughed so hard that I fell back to the ground【The one who should really be sad is me. 】The liquid kept slipping off my face and fell to the ground with a patter. I reached out and wiped it casually.You don't know, that night I cried and broke the wall to no avail, no one came to save me, what can I do?You don't know how nasty that guy from Qigui is. He injected too much that day and almost killed me.Ling Cang, I have always been afraid of pain the most, that time the pain made me die.I begged him, scolded him, and beat him to no avail.He insisted on dragging me to hell, and I was powerless to resist.Every day and night since then, I have been tortured endlessly.Ling Cang, you are so cruel, how could you let others treat me like this.This game is not fun at all, it hurts so much, it will kill you.I admit that I used to be quite annoying, always pestering you to let go, but you can't let others hit me so hard. 】

The eyes are full of water droplets, and I can hardly see clearly.

He hugged me violently, as if about to crush me [How could this be, how could this be? ! 】He murmured【I never knew you would experience such a terrible thing inside. 】He pressed his jaw tightly against my forehead, gritted his teeth and said 【Who did it, who did it! 】

Wasn't he instigated?

But Seven Tracks clearly said that he acquiesced.

【I'm sorry, it's all my fault. I shouldn't have thrown you in and left you alone. ] His voice was full of pain. [I was negligent. 】

[Ling Cang, you are so unfeeling, you actually ignored me during the three years you were there.It would be nice even to come and have a look.You will know that my life is not good at all, every day is suffering.At that time, I always hoped that you would come to see me. If you knew that I was living in such a miserable situation, you might feel distressed and take me away.But I watched for three whole springs and autumns, and the rust spots on the iron bars fell all over the ground, but I didn't see your shadow.How disgusting are you to me, Ling Cang? ] I looked up and asked.The physical pain caused by the drug addiction made me grasp his sleeves and collar tightly with both hands, and the cold sweat kept coming out of my body, my internal organs were almost pulled together, and my body convulsed violently.

[No, I never found you disgusting.Ann, don't talk, I'll call the doctor. 】He lowered his head and pressed against my forehead 【Xia An, hold on. 】

【no, do not want. ] I said in a hoarse voice, grabbing him and not letting him leave 【Turn off the wait, okay. 】

【good. ] He turned off the light.

【Ling Cang, what does it feel like to hate someone? 】I grinned and asked【Do you want him to disappear? 】

[No, I don't hate you at all, I seem to have fallen in love with you. 】

【like?So what does your like feel like? 】His words made me almost stop breathing.

【You are so stupid, it hurts my heart. ] His voice was out of tune, with a slight cry [I let you suffer like this.Sorry, sorry, Ann~]

【Ling Cang, I should say I'm sorry, because, it seems, I don't love you anymore. 】I endured the colic all over my body, and smiled lightly.

Turning my face, I saw the astonishment in his throat and the unstoppable tears that flowed down his face to my cheeks, mixed with my tears, and rolled across the corner of his mouth, half bitter Half sweet.

His is bitter, mine is sweet.

I was finally able to speak up and let myself live.

But he cried.I made him cry, Ling Cang never cried.

[Ling Cang~Don't cry] I can only comfort him like this, only then did I find out that he was made of water, with so many tears.

Because my hands were convulsed all the time, I had no choice but to wipe away his tears with the side of my face, but his tears wet my face and couldn't stop, like it was raining.

[Ling Cang~] I called out, but he opened his mouth but couldn't make any sound, only his hands grabbed my back tightly, as if he wanted to penetrate my body alive.

I endured silently, curling up my body and hugging him back.

After a long, long time, so long that it was about to become a sculpture, he finally spoke [I seem to have lost Xia An. 】

[He didn't lose it, he died. 】

【You are not Xia An. I knew from the time I brought you back that you are not him. What I am looking for is him, not you, because you have changed and are no longer my Xia An, but I am with you I can't find him, what should I do? 】

Tonight, we are helpless, we can only snuggle together to draw warmth from each other.

[Xia An, where is my Xia An? 】He is like a child who has lost his treasure, tears streaming down his face.

【Ling Cang~ Don't do this. ] I hugged him and interrupted his soliloquy.

【You made a wish just now, how could you not love me, little liar, you are lying again. 】

【Then do you want to hear my wish? ] I reached out to wipe the wetness off his face.

[Don't talk, I won't listen. ] He covered his ears and shook his head in refusal.

[I wish, you and I will be strangers from now on. ] I whispered in his ear, word for word.

[Liar, you must be lying to me again. 】He buried his head in my neck and burst into tears.

☆Farewell, Ling Cang

The author has something to say: Secretly tell you, it’s not over yet, continue at [-] o’clock tomorrow night O(∩_∩)O~

On the New Year's morning, the sky is slightly bright, and there are birdsong outside the window.

We just sat there all night.

I didn't close my eyes all night, Ling Cang fell asleep.

This night, I finally survived and saw the dawn of the morning, my whole body was sore.

【Ling Cang~】Called tentatively, seeing that he didn't move, I got up from his arms lightly, went to the kitchen to drink some water.I poured another large glass of water, and took out the things I bought yesterday afternoon from the side cabinet, poured them into the water, stirred them evenly, and it was colorless and transparent.

Sure enough, after a while, he also came in.Although I moved very lightly, I still alarmed him.

【An~】His tone was tired and uneasy.

[I'm thirsty, come in for a glass of water, would you like a glass? 】I picked up the cup and gave it to him.

He took my hand and felt that I was real, so he drank water with confidence.

He must be thirsty after crying so much last night.

【Sleepy?I will sleep with you for a while. 】There are deep dark circles around his eyes, I hold his hand behind my back and walk into the room.

He held my hand tightly, refusing to let go, and followed me step by step.

Even on the bed, he insisted on hugging me tightly, afraid that I would disappear, so he refused to close his eyes and kept looking at me.

[Okay, let's sleep.Good morning~] I leaned forward and kissed his long and narrow eyes before he closed them.

So I didn't see the farewell in my eyes.

Yuemo's sleeping pills had almost worked, so I tried to call him a few more times, but nothing happened.

I slowly opened his hand, got up, got out of bed and packed my things.

The amount of sleeping pills is enough to allow him to sleep until tomorrow afternoon, Fang Yi told me.

I picked up the worn-out bag and simply packed a few clothes, but I couldn't pack anything else that should be taken away.I don't want anything about him, including memories.

Before closing the door, I looked back at his sleeping handsome face, with a smile on his lips, he must be dreaming sweet dreams.

【Farewell, Ling Cang. 】

As soon as he went downstairs, he saw Ling Cang.

[All done? 】He stepped forward to help me with my luggage.

【Well, but there is still one person left, let's go to the hospital. 】

The smell of hospital disinfectant is still so bad.I held my nose all the way, and walked almost to the end of the corridor, and finally came to the front of the ward.Through the transparent glass on the door of the ward, I looked inside.

Ning Shu leaned on the head of the bed and meditated. There were several infusion bottles hanging above the head of the bed.

As soon as the door was pushed open, Ning Shu looked up.

The eyes full of anticipation dimmed after seeing that it was me.

【Why, seeing me so disappointed? 】

【What are you doing here? 】He said 【If you came here to show off how Ling Cang spent the New Year with you last night, then let me tell you that it is unnecessary, because it is too childish. 】

[I'm here to tell you the good news.Shouldn't your attitude be better. ] I went to the stool next to the bed and sat down.

He looked a lot haggard, but his mental state was much better than when he fell out of the wheelchair that day, and his handsome appearance was endearing.

[You are not welcome here. 】 He said calmly.

[I don't want to come either, but I have to come here to tell you the good news in person.About Ling Cang, you should really want to know. 】 His constantly fiddling fingers betrayed his seemingly calm exterior.

As long as it is related to Ling Cang, he will want to know.

【I do not want to hear. 】He is obviously duplicity and even tough.

[I'm leaving here soon, no one will rob Ling Cang from you, he is yours now. ] His eyes were full of puzzlement and surprise.

【So get well soon and treat him well. ] After finishing speaking, I got up to leave.

[Why do you want to fulfill me? Don't you have any complaints about me? ] he asked.

I smiled and shook my head.

【sorry.I did so many wrong things before. ] He apologized.

【Forget it, you know