Eat little by little

When Lin Xu was sitting on the bed, his whole body was in a daze, his eyes glazed over.

Lin Xu has never thought deeply about the relationship between the two boys. He is not used to being intimate with others, nor does he like intimate physical contact with others, but these have long been honed into a habit by Yang Fengrui. He has always felt that , this is the ultimate.Boys and girls, boys and boys, how much will the change be?

Just because life hasn't changed much before and after, and even the relationship between the two is similar to before, the emotional flow between brothers is stronger than the inexplicable liking that just emerged, Lin Xu doesn't have much conflict.

But at that moment, he clearly realized that this was different.

Feeling very panic, unconsciously, whether they will be farther and farther away from the original track, and lean towards another situation that he has never thought about deeply.

When Yang Fengrui lifted the mosquito net and came in, he almost jumped up immediately.

Yang Fengrui immediately grabbed his wrist and pushed him down, staring straight at him with a fierce force, his hair was dripping wet, dripping directly onto the quilt.

Lin Xu took a deep breath, his whole body tensed up, he kept telling himself to be calm, and finally he whispered in a trembling voice: "Can... can you let go first?" Let him relax for a while.

He always thought he was calm, but he found that he was still a child after all.

He looked at Yang Fengrui, his eyes were out of focus, and he looked confused.

Yang Fengrui's heart tightened, this was the first time he saw Lin Xu in such a state.Lin Xu has always been thoughtful and calm. Even when he was kissed by force, he was only angry.

Yang Fengrui climbed onto the bed, leaned in front of him, pressed his wet forehead against the boy's forehead, gritted his teeth and said, "Don't let go."

Almost instantly, Lin Xu recalled the trembling touch when the other party rubbed against his body, the turbulent impulse that almost swallowed him.At that time, I almost...

Even though a boy's body can't withstand too much teasing, Lin Xu never thought that he would react to a man.

It's too outrageous.

"Get out." Lin Xu avoided Yang Fengrui's sight, fearing that he would be attacked, which made him panic all over.

Yang Fengrui's eyes darkened, and the suppressed irritability was about to explode again, and the ferocity and stubbornness that had been buried for a long time seemed to sprout again.

He transferred from another school in junior high school because he got into a fight and got that person into the hospital, forcing him to drop out of school, and he also lay in the hospital for half a month.

Everyone thought that he was bad enough in junior high school, but they didn't know that it was already his extremely restrained performance.He didn't tell anyone about those things.

He gradually tightened his grip on Lin Xu's wrist. He could see Lin Xu's frown because of the pain. He approached Lin Xu and whispered, "No."

"You..." Lin Xu raised his eyes and was stunned.Yang Fengrui's eyes were fierce, and the veins on his forehead were tense, showing an appearance of extreme patience.

Yang Fengrui could hardly restrain his violence, he gritted his teeth and said, "If I go out, I don't know what I will do."

There were so many things that bothered him crowded together that it almost drove him crazy.

He lowered his head and looked closely at Lin Xu's face, he was equally confused.

He doesn't like to restrain himself, he can do whatever he wants, and he is used to being unrestrained.Only this time, he knew it was different.Ever since he was gender conscious, he never thought he would be hard on a man.

It was the first fucking time he reacted to a person, and that person turned out to be... Even though Lin Xu held a very special place in his heart.

Lin Xu kept telling himself that it was no big deal, that he reacted too aggressively.Compared with himself, the person in front of him seemed to be in a more serious condition.

Tight muscles, wet body, forbearing expression... The other party seemed to be like a beast with sharp thorns all over its body, and it would immediately fight back with just a slight touch.

nothing... nothing...

After a long time, Lin Xu pursed his dry lips, "Let go, I can't sleep anymore."

Yang Fengrui blinked, and was stunned for a while before he realized that his subordinates inadvertently relaxed their strength.

Lin Xu had already stood up, threw a towel on his head, "You gave it to me..."

Yang Fengrui lowered his head again, Lin Xu had already got into the quilt and turned his back.

Yang Fengrui's turbulent rage was like a punctured balloon, slowly deflated, and his whole body gradually relaxed.

Lin Xu was always the quickest to find out what was wrong with his emotions, and that fool always had a way to make him lose his temper.It's silly, and it works.

After Yang Fengrui dried his hair and neck, he was in a daze with a towel.The lights in the dormitory had already been turned off, and he sat on the bed, staring at the window in a daze, letting the cold air lick his body, as if he could only wake up in such cold.

He couldn't help but glanced at the young man with his back turned to him again. His movements hadn't changed since the beginning, all of which highlighted the other's uneasy mood.

This time, they were really standing on the edge of a cliff.

This night is another sleepless night.

***

Lin Xu was half asleep and half awake at night, occasionally opened his eyes and looked out of the dark window, not knowing whether he was just remembering or dreaming.

He remembered the time when he first met Yang Fengrui.

In order to watch Yang Fengrui eat every day, he once brought a box lunch for a month.He didn't know what was wrong with him then, he had never been so strongly involved in a person's life.

He found that he really couldn't stand Yang Fengrui alone.

It always reminded him of himself.One person remembers the way to school, one person learns to ride a bicycle, one person learns to buy breakfast...

It wasn't until Yang Fengrui completely entangled himself that he realized that it wasn't him who made Yang Fengrui separate from a person, but Yang Fengrui took him into another world.

He and his classmates in junior high school don't speak more than ten sentences a day. If they can't think of him when they ask for help, everyone will almost forget this existence.A good-tempered classmate who doesn't like to talk, doesn't like to deal with people, just likes to smile and doesn't know how to say no.

When he was stalked by Yang Fengrui, he really hated this guy. He was difficult, talkative, aggressive, and was harassed every moment from class to dormitory.

His exercise books and pens always disappear without a trace, his coat is always put on by the other party, and he will be constantly disturbed by the other party during class... He will always remember Yang Fengrui's evil look with squinted eyes and a smile: " Can't you borrow it?"

He choked.

Yang Fengrui came up to him and said, "I've never seen someone as stupid as you."

The first time he got angry, he dropped Yang Fengrui's glass, "Can you fetch some water by yourself? You're fucking crazy."

When the whole class was silent, he was the only one who looked at him with blinking eyes, "Damn it, you're so vicious!"

That grievance made Lin Xu wither in the wind.

Perhaps, meeting Yang Fengrui would be his catastrophe.

Only with that guy, he would lose his temper unscrupulously, complain mercilessly, and relax and play around with all his heart and soul... That was the first time he had tasted it in more than ten years.

How could he imagine that one day, Yang Fengrui would be a stranger to him?

***

At dawn the next day, both of them woke up.There was a cold silence.

Lin Xu blinked sourly, thinking whether he should say something.Yang Fengrui got up suddenly, tidied up and left.

Listening to the sound of washing from the toilet, Lin Xu was so sleepy that his head became dizzy.

The two of them didn't speak much for a day.And Yang Fengrui has been tinkering with his mobile phone since the morning, shutting it down several times and throwing it aside.

Lin Xu felt something was wrong and frowned.

The last time Yang Fengrui almost dropped his phone, his brows were gloomy, and he lay down on the table and fell asleep.

Lin Xu felt oppressed invisibly, as if his breathing was being held back.

What happened to Yang Fengrui?

Until the ninth class in the afternoon, Yang Fengrui went to the playground alone.

Lin Xu was fidgeting in the classroom, so he got up and walked to the playground.It was found that there were several boys from other classes on the basketball court, and there was no sign of Yang Fengrui.

"Do you know where Yang Fengrui went?" Lin Xu was also familiar with those guys.

"Tsk, his girlfriend came just now." Several boys laughed together, "Why is he so lucky? A girl just came, and now another good friend has also been found."

Yang Fengrui has always joked in front of everyone from before to now, always thinking about marrying Lin Xu home, there is no better wife in the world than Lin Xu.

Lin Xu usually had to answer a few words, but now he was out of mood and always felt that something was wrong.Hurrying around until just near the back of the stadium auditorium...

A shrill female voice said, "Are you really a man? Why do you divide as you say!"

Lin Xu froze.

Immediately afterwards, another weak female voice came, "Shanshan, stop arguing. Let's go back..." The voice was full of crying.

"Jiaqian, if you can bear it, I can't bear it! I've been unhappy with this scumbag for a long time! How fucking handsome is he? You're the only male creature in the whole world? It's okay to just ignore him before, What kind of text message did you send today to say that you are divided... What do you think of Jiaqian!! Didn't you go after her on the pole? Didn't you confess? Now you say that you will divide, you are a fucking psycho!"

"Shanshan really stop talking, I beg you not to talk..." The crying gradually became louder.

"You fucking bastard is your expression! Do you know how many times I cried because of you Jiaqian? You can't fucking talk about love, don't talk about it! Playing with a girl's feelings! Your uncle... Jiaqian Why are you crying? Such a disgusting guy is not worth crying for!"

……

Immediately understood the stupid things that guy Yang Fengrui did.

Lin Xu stopped at the corner, and the sharp curses became louder and louder. His head hurt, and his feet felt weak, and he couldn't move.

That is another world of Yang Fengrui that he has been avoiding, neglecting and not stepping on.

The quarrel over there lasted for a long time, but the man never responded.It's like pressing a tape recorder, only the tape keeps turning.The girl cried intermittently.

It was freezing cold in the evening.

After an unknown amount of time, when Lin Xu came back to his senses, he was leaning against the stone wall at the corner, sitting down weakly, staring blankly into the distance, feeling sad and ridiculous.

That bastard Yang Fengrui.

"How much longer are you going to talk about it?" Yang Fengrui finally got impatient, "Who are you? Do I know you? What's your business with her? She didn't say anything. What are you doing here? Or Say you are my girlfriend?"

"I..." The girl was really stunned, probably she had never met such a boy before.

"Why?" followed by Jiaqian's sobs, which seemed to be extremely difficult to say, "I am in a relationship for the first time... Did I do something wrong? I didn't mean to be angry with you, I messed up those messages It's because you haven't come for so many days..."

Love is the most beautiful color in a girl's dream.Snow White's poisoned apple, Sleeping Beauty's sweet dream, Cinderella's crystal slipper, the lost singing voice of the daughter of the sea... From the first fairy tale, the seeds of fantasies about love have been buried faintly. The 16-year-old flower season is the golden age of heroines in all comics and idol dramas. It seems that all dreams will start from this moment.Twittering and sharing every bit of getting along with her best friend, every detail is treasured, she naively thought that this was the boy she had been looking forward to for a long time.

"Why, why on earth..." All girls will cry for love, for others' and for their own.I don't know why I have to come up with an answer, but I am very unwilling.Jia Qian's eyes were red, and she felt that the young man in front of her was extremely strange.And the person she likes only exists in her fantasy.

Yang Fengrui frowned, he should have turned around and left, but there was something rolling in his throat at the moment, "I..."

On the other side, unknown to everyone, was a teenager with his back against the wall, his eyes glazed over.

Lin Xu's entire chest was filled with discomfort.

At this moment, he didn't want to know why, he was already clear about Yang Fengrui's bad deeds, but this time, an inexplicable sense of guilt wrapped around his whole body like a vine.

very sinful.

Yang Fengrui's voice was very low, as if he was considering every word, and said with difficulty: "I'm in love with someone else."

Never thought that such vulgar lines would come out of his mouth.

But at the moment of exit, Yang Fengrui suddenly understood something, and felt a part of his chest suddenly swell.It seems that the seeds that have been buried in the bottom of my heart for a long time and have been crushed by huge rocks for a long time have finally broken through the rocks and germinated.

A gray sky heralds the setting of the sun.

The cold wind blew through the treetops, making rustling noises, and the dead leaves and broken grass trembled slightly under their feet.

And in another place under the same space, the boy with empty eyes suddenly opened his eyes wide.

At the same time, at the same place, the hearts of the two people who couldn't see each other stopped at that moment.

The wind in the evening was icy cold, and it sneaked into the gaps in the clothes, and there was a chill everywhere.

On the other side, he suddenly raised his voice and roared sharply, "You actually fell in love with someone else? When you were with Jiaqian... Are you really a man? You are the most disgusting person!"

Jiaqian's crying seemed to have never stopped from the beginning, and the unstoppable crying floated in the empty sky, making the four people in the same environment a little at a loss.

Across the cold stone wall, Lin Xu felt a boulder pressing on his heart, causing him to curl up in pain.When I opened my eyes again, my eyes were full of soreness, and when I blinked, I felt watery.

Very helpless.

At that moment, the layer of window paper that the two of them had been trying to hide had been punctured.It's like being sentenced to death: you are hopeless.

Jiaqian still couldn't believe it, "Who is it?"

Yang Fengrui clenched his fists tightly, his eyebrows furrowed, and his eyes were empty, "He...he is..."

Today's sky is clean and untainted, but it is darkened by the sunset.

In the distance are the sounds of students exercising on the playground, mixed together.

"what--"

Lin Xu didn't know when he rushed up. He punched Yang Fengrui. Amid the girl's exclamation, he pushed Yang Fengrui down to the floor. He stared at Yang Fengrui's surprised face. , the high-raised punch couldn't hit that face no matter what, and finally hit the opponent's stomach.

It was Lin Xu's first time beating someone. He exhausted all his strength and heard Yang Fengrui's moaning in pain.

The first time to swear at someone, the first time to hit someone, all of them were fucking taken up by this one person.

"Lin Xu, when did you...ah, it hurts..."

"You fucking bastard!" Lin Xu punched down again, his canthus was about to burst, Yang Fengrui was so painful that he could not breathe, and cursed: "You are insane!"

"Not your nerves!" Lin Xu couldn't express his anger, and he didn't know how to fight, he only knew how to smash down.

Yang Fengrui was so angry that he grabbed Lin Xu's wrist, and was about to punch him back, when he saw Lin Xu's almost crying expression, he froze on the spot.

The girl next to her was already frightened.

Jiaqian trembled and said, "Are you Lin Xu?" From her perspective, she could only see the back of Lin Xu pressing on Yang Fengrui.

She saw the boy's shoulders tremble slightly, and then a hoarse voice came, "I'll beat him for you, can I beat him until you're satisfied?"

As soon as the words fell, Lin Xu broke away from Yang Fengrui's hand and wanted to punch the opponent's face, but that place was too fragile, he stopped in the air, gritted his teeth, and could only greet the opponent's ribs and stomach punch after punch. superior.

Yang Fengrui gritted his teeth in pain, grabbed the weeds beside him with both hands, trembling all over, but couldn't help opening his eyes wide to see Lin Xu's expression clearly.

He dared not fight back.

In that crazy punch after punch, hot tears dripped down on him.

The temperature burned his heart until nothing was left, and his eyes could only accommodate one person.

"Stop hitting! Stop hitting..." Seeing this kind of scene for the first time, Jiaqian was so frightened that she stopped crying, and the other girl was also fooled by Lin Xu's crazy energy.

Yang Fengrui's face turned pale from the pain, his whole body twitched constantly, he felt sour water in his stomach, and it seemed as if he would vomit it all up with one mouthful, and his eyes were full of tears that made him dizzy with pain.

It seems that only this kind of pain and this kind of violence can drive away the heavy pressure on the two people's chests and give an explanation for their unclear relationship.

Sure enough, in many cases, if you can't think clearly, just solve it directly with violence.When the fist sank into the opponent's muscle, Lin Xu could hear the scream of the blood in his veins, running hot all over his body, as if he had been injected with hormones, his eyes were red, and he lost his mind.

What are you doing rationally!

Lin Xu looked at the painful face and twitching body of the young man below him, and heard the man gritting his teeth and holding back the muffled hum that leaked from his mouth... punch after punch...

But unconsciously, the eyes are full of mist.There was a haze in front of him, and he couldn't even see the appearance of the person below him clearly.

Lin Xu stopped his movements slowly, his clenched fists trembled slightly in the air, he still didn't turn his head, and his voice became hoarse, "Is it all right?"

The teardrops slid down the face and condensed into a small piece on the white chin, which was crystal clear, trembling, ticking, and falling.

Jiaqian's tongue was stiff, she didn't know why Yang Fengrui didn't struggle, but she looked at the boy's fist again, "It's okay, it's okay, stop beating! We forgive him..."

The two girls were so frightened that they ran back directly. They couldn't help but turn their heads all the way, only to see the figures of two people in the shade of the trees.

Lin Xu was still sitting on Yang Fengrui's step, looking down at the pale young man.

Yang Feng felt dizzy from the sharp pain, and his body felt like it was torn apart when he moved a little. He twisted the weeds under his body with his fingers, and his fingertips turned red.

The ninth period of class has ended, and many students have already walked to the cafeteria or dormitory, and the sound of playing has gradually stopped.

It was completely dark.

After an unknown amount of time, only the sound of the wind and the boy's violent breathing remained in the silent air, like sandpaper scraping across glass, scratching people's hearts.

Yang Fengrui endured the pain of muscle pulling, slowly raised his right hand, and gently stroked Lin Xu's cheek, feeling the moistness of his hand, and found that his heart was also throbbing.

He wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes over and over again, and looked at the boy's red eyes, which became transparent due to the water vapor, and his own figure was reflected in them.

It was the first time Yang Fengrui knew what he would be afraid of, his voice was trembling, "Xiao Xu, don't cry."

Xiaoxu crying, it hurts a lot more than when he hit someone just now.

"Yang Fengrui, you...you bastard." Yang Fengrui is really the person in the whole world who makes him feel at ease and causes him trouble the most.

"Yeah." Yang Fengrui rubbed the corners of Lin Xu's red eyes with his thumb, and said in a low voice, "A fool and a bastard are a perfect match."

Lin Xu seemed a little silly, and murmured, "Naturally..." He suddenly grabbed Yang Fengrui by the collar, and leaned over as Yang Fengrui gritted his teeth and screamed——

"Hmm..." Yang Fengrui opened his eyes wide at the moment his lips were bitten.

Even though you and I are so bad, but because of this, I am so glad that I met you.

You are my blessing, you are my calamity.