Seriously talk about a relationship

Yang Xin'an forgot when he found out that he likes men. Anyway, after hearing the word "gay" and understanding its meaning, he knew he was gay.

This was a very scary thing, because from that moment on, he knew that he was different from ordinary people. At home, in school, and in the crowd, he, Yang Xin'an, was already a complete alien.

But as proud as Yang Xin'an, he didn't allow himself to escape. After doing a lot of psychological preparation, he came out to his family in his sophomore year of high school, in exchange for his father's merciless beating and his mother's crying.

"Do you want to change it? Do you want to change it?" The father pointed at Yang Xin'an with a stick as thick as a baby's arm in his hand.

"What evil have I done?" Mother cried hoarsely.

Yang Xin'an knew that what he did was right, but he was also wrong.

After all, family ugliness should not be publicized. Father Yang ordered everyone who knew about it not to speak out, let alone Yang Xin'an.So, during that time, you could often see Yang Xin'an coming to class with an injury on his body, and when you asked him why, he only said that he fell down.

In the third year of high school, there was a girl who was very close to Yang Xin'an, so close that she even told Yang Xin'an who she had sex with for the first time and when. She said that Yang Xin'an was her best friend and she could share anything. of.

Therefore, Yang Xin'an made the second major decision, which was to tell her about her situation.

The next day, everyone in the school knew that Yang Xin'an was gay. Until graduation, he endured endless cynicism every day, and the neighbors also poked their family's back. He was so angry that Yang's father beat him until he discounted the dick A stick as thick as a baby's arm.

Yang Xin'an knew that he really did something wrong this time.

Therefore, when applying for university, he deliberately chose a school far away from home.The day before departure, Father Yang gave him a passbook: "This is what we saved for you to go to college. When you figure it out, you can come back."

Yang Xin'an took the passbook wordlessly.The next morning, he was sitting on the bus, clutching the passbook tightly in his hand, looking all the way behind him.

There was no one behind.

Yang Xin'an knew that he was wrong in many places, and the worst thing was that he was gay.

When he arrived at the university, Yang Xin'an found that all the expenses here were much higher than he imagined, and the passbook given by his father was only enough for his tuition fees, so he started working part-time, crazily, and was alone in school, even in order to avoid contact with others. He communicated with others, and he deliberately rented a house outside to live by himself.

It was during this crazy time that he met Bai Ruoshan and Lan Bin on the Internet.

How important this understanding is to Yang Xin'an, even Bai Ruoshan and Lan Bin probably don't know how important it is.

How many nights before, he was amused by Bai Ruoshan and rescued by Lan Bin's poisonous tongue with a bit of detachment. Although he had never met, Yang Xin'an unconsciously put his feelings on the two of them, secretly thinking that, This is the only friend he has.

Then it all broke down in the winter of the first year.

At the beginning of the winter vacation, Yang Xin'an hesitated and hesitated, and finally packed up his things and set foot on the way home, but after entering the door, he was kicked out by his father.

"Don't tell me that there is no way to do it! Our old Yang family doesn't have a disgusting person like you!"

That night, Yang Xin'an left without even unpacking her luggage.When he arrived at the rented house, it was already three o'clock in the afternoon the next day, and it had been more than 24 hours since he last ate.

Yang Xin'an turned on the computer, went online, and Bai Ruoshan was calling in the Q group.

"An'an, didn't you say to take pictures for us when we got home? I want to see that big old banyan tree you mentioned!"

After staring at this sentence for a long time, Yang Xin'an finally typed a few words on the keyboard - "I have something to do, so I won't go back."

After typing this sentence, Yang Xin'an fell on the bed, motionless.

In the morning, Yang Xin'an went out to the place where he worked.

The 32-year-old boss Wu was very surprised: "Didn't you ask for leave and go home?"

Yang Xin'an opened the corner of his mouth: "I have something to do, so I won't go back. Boss, do you still need help these days?"

No matter how sad, if people do not live, then there is nothing.Yang Xin'an felt that he was very sad. Even at this time, he was still thinking about how to survive.

However, no amount of food could fill his frozen heart.

***

After returning from work, Yang Xin'an discovered that the first person to speak in the Q group today was actually Lan Bin.

"Xin'an, what's your phone number?"

Yang Xin'an was stunned.

It may be that everyone met on the Internet. Although they didn't deliberately avoid talking about it, they always have a tacit understanding not to go deep into everyone's private information.However, now, Lan Bin, who has never asked other people's privacy, would directly ask for his phone number, Yang Xin'an felt a little strange.

However, the person who asked this sentence was Lan Bin.After hesitating for a long time, Yang Xin'an still typed a series of numbers on the keyboard.

Just after typing, while waiting for Lan Bin to reply, the phone rang.

"Hey?"

Yang Xin'an thought it was Lan Bin, so he was a little nervous, but it was a familiar female voice from the other end of the phone.

"Xin'an."

"……mom."

"Hey, what do you call this. Son, your dad... He didn't mean it, it wasn't his fault, don't blame him, ah."

"……Um."

"Then you... that is, child, you really..."

"Mom, I'm tired and want to sleep." After speaking, Yang Xin'an hung up the phone.At this time, he was not in the mood to chat with Lan Bin anymore. He turned off the computer and cell phone, and fell on the bed, curled up, quietly.