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"Doctor An! I know what's wrong!"

As soon as he entered the door, he heard a "bang". An Xun propped his head on the table and lowered his head, covering his lower abdomen with one hand, frowning, eyes slightly closed, and biting his lips lightly, looking like he was about to lose his footing.

"Doctor An..."

"go out."

An Xun still didn't seek her help, even though he was sweating all over due to the discomfort, and there was a broken glass at his feet that he couldn't clean up.

Jiang Yien was disobedient this time, so he hurriedly stepped forward to support her, and asked in a low voice: "What's wrong with you?" Seeing that An Xun still refused to speak, he was so anxious that he was about to cry: "Doctor An, I know I was wrong! Don't tell me what's wrong with you!" I’m being stubborn, okay? I really know I’m wrong, I’m too arrogant, I don’t dare anymore, don’t keep talking!”

An Xun breathed a sigh of relief tremblingly, and barely opened his lips and teeth to utter a word: "Medicine..."

"What?" Jiang Yien was so anxious that he put his ear closer to An Xun, but only heard An Xun's weak but rapid breathing, which caused a momentary pain in his heart.Seeing the cold sweat flowing down from her forehead, slightly soaking the white shirt, she knew that she was in too much pain to tell.

"Painkillers..." As if he finally found a gap, he barely uttered a few words, humming or even crying.

"Okay! I'll get it for you." Jiang Yien finally heard the man's request clearly, and wanted to go out to find medicine immediately, but was grabbed by An Xun.

Turning around, I saw that An Xun had already started to feel weak all over, and could hardly stand up, so I could only support her first, and let her lean on him slightly, but there was a murmur in my ear: "Don't go..."

At that moment, Jiang Yien's heart skipped a beat.She knew that An Xun was such a strong person on weekdays. Occasionally, when she was exhausted after four operations, she would rather sit at the door of the operating room and walk after recovering, rather than being supported and cared for.

But at this moment, she actually felt that Dr. An needed her.

She wanted to help An Xun to lie down on the sofa, but the man endured the pain, as if he couldn't move a step, and finally couldn't hold his body down.Jiang Yien was startled, and immediately squatted down, hugged her, supported her upper body so that she would not faint, and then called Ji Xiaoyu to deliver the medicine.

"Doctor An, bear with me for a while, the medicine will be delivered soon."

An Xun had no strength at all, and simply leaned against the girl's arms, the hair on his forehead was already soaked, and he was panting weakly and deeply.Jiang Yien clearly felt waves of warmth blowing from her neck, and the hand holding her began to feel a little uncomfortable, touching her in a false and real way, unable to let go.

Ji Xiaoyu brought the medicine, and An Xun took it on the spot, and then the two worked together to help him lie down on the small sofa.Jiang Yien spread out the blanket on the sofa and gently covered An Xun, and asked Ji Xiaoyu to wash and bring over a hot towel.

"Thank you, go get busy, I'll take care of Dr. An."

"Well, then call me if you need anything."

Ji Xiaoyu didn't know, he was obviously helping Dr. An, why Jiang Yien wanted to say thank you to her, but secretly felt that it should be so, without thinking about it, he went out lightly and closed the door behind him.

"Doctor An, let me wipe it for you."

Seeing that An Xun was in so much pain that he had no strength to speak, Jiang Yien didn't wait for her to nod, and tapped the towel lightly on her forehead, along her cheeks, her attention accidentally fell on the fair and delicate skin, she couldn't help swallowing, avoiding the pain. out of sight.It's just that from the corner of my eye, I can see that her collarbone is also soaked. Thinking about how painful it must have been just a few minutes ago.

Among friends of the same age, Jiang Yien is already a dependable character. He is very good at taking care of others. After giving for a long time, he will expect some response from the other party.Only An Xun was different, as long as she didn't refuse her care, she would be satisfied.Probably, she really didn't want to see "a child who can't cry has no candy", so she felt so sorry for An Xun who couldn't say anything.

The medicine took effect quickly, and after a few minutes of slowing down, the frowning eyebrows loosened a little.The first sentence he spoke was really brazen again: "Go out, I'll just lie down for a while and I'll be fine."

In fact, An Xun didn't want to lose her composure in front of this girl. She felt so aggrieved these days that she was sore when she saw that girl, and she had been holding on for so many days. Did the child realize that? She didn't know about her previous mistakes, and she couldn't let go of her principles at this moment.

She admitted that she began to hesitate that the way she insisted on principles would be hated by this girl, and she began to fear that her strictness would drive this girl away.She started to be greedy, and she started to have expectations.

But to say that these emotions are all based on the elders' cherishing of the younger generation's heart, that's all.More importantly, she didn't understand why she would have such a sense of dependence on a half-grown little girl, who obviously had a soft and cute little face, saying that it was far-fetched to say that she was 22 years old, and she was clearly still a child.

However, the moment that girl rushed in, she felt that she could no longer hold on.It was as if the taut strings in my heart were suddenly broken, as if my reason was struggling to resist in the face of a swift and violent flood, and was finally defeated.

She was very instinctive and leaned on that girl.

What to do, An Xun, what are you going to do... She sighed in her heart and smiled wryly.

"Doctor An, don't drive me away. I really know I'm wrong. I've been in the emergency room for the past few days, only to find out that the symptoms of many emergencies are similar. If you judge based on experience alone, it's easy to misdiagnose..."

An Xun didn't speak.

So Jiang Yien continued to fight: "It is true that the equipment can detect the data, but the data cannot represent everything. The patient's emotional and mental state may be related to the disease, but only humans can perceive those. This is the difference between humans and equipment. I should ask patients how they feel, instead of making assumptions based on data and experience alone, because I am too arrogant."

Only then did An Xun slowly turn sideways to look at Jiang Yien, and in an instant, tears burst out of his eyes that could not be restrained.She should know, she should know that girl will never let her down, she should know that her vision is not wrong.

She finally, finally, let go of everything in front of this girl.

"How could I not know you... You have such a heart to understand the feelings of patients, and you can say that you will never be numb to death. Such a child, how could I not know your character?" What about sex?"

"However, if you want to succeed in anything, you not only need to think and be flexible, but also need to devote time and sincerity. Once you are eager for success, you will only see the immediate benefits and forget the final path to go. I don't want you to become Such a child."

An Xun supported himself, and continued to speak weakly: "The intern who was scolded by the patient that day has been working under Dr. Su for more than two years since she graduated from graduate school, and has not been able to become a regular. But as long as she doesn't give up, I would be willing to let her stay in Renzhuo's chest for an internship until the day she is eligible to become a regular, do you know why?"

Jiang Yien looked at An Xun and shook his head.

"Although that child's talent is mediocre, she is slow in doing everything. In terms of majors, she is even far behind most of the people who are eliminated here. But she works harder than anyone else and is motivated. Most importantly, she always holds a certain talent. A sense of awe."

"Awe?"

"Yien, as a doctor, you need to be cautious at all times. A slight mistake can be a matter of life and death. For a doctor, the most important thing is awe. Once you lose your awe, the white coat and the The scalpel is his weapon to kill. At that time, talent will become poison. Do you understand?"

Jiang Yien nodded solemnly.

"Growing up is a process. As long as you don't go astray, I, Su Wen, or Li Min, Director Qin, we won't mind if you slow down."

Seeing that Jiang Yien's face was full of tears, An Xun sighed softly, turned sideways, reached out and touched her face, and put his tone as gentle as possible: "I know I'm too strict, and I also know that I'm strict. The appearance is very annoying, do you also think that I am an ice doll, a female devil..." She laughed at herself, with a bit of helplessness in her eyes.

Jiang Yien couldn't help shedding tears from An Xun's first sentence. An Xun's careful teaching made her feel like a spring breeze, and there was an indescribable warmth in her heart.In fact, since her parents died, few people have spoken to her like this.

She shook her head and choked with sobs: "You talk like this, and your mother seems to..."

"You," An Xun felt sore, and gently wiped away the tears on Jiang Yien's face with his hand: "If your mother can see you now, she will be proud of you."

Jiang Yien burst into tears, reached out to embrace An Xun, and lay down in her arms.

For the first time, An Xun did not push her away, but instead patted her head, and said softly: "Finish the emergency work, and start returning to the chest next week."

"Can I go back out of my chest?!" Jiang Yien stood up in a jerk.

"What's the matter? Don't want to come back?" An Xun pretended to be relaxed and joked: "Director Li is much gentler than me, isn't he?"

"Yes... No, no, no! Sister An is the gentlest person I have ever met in the world! I like my sister the most!"

Jiang Yien was overjoyed, and changed his words in a daze, not knowing what he was talking about, with tears still hanging on his face, he burst into dimples of laughter.So she didn't notice that at the moment when the voice of "sister" was called out, water rippled again in An Xun's moon-like eyes.

As soon as the whole person relaxed, the pain in the body became more and more obvious. Seeing that An Xun suddenly lowered his head and sighed softly, and there were play beads appearing on his forehead, Jiang Yien's heart tightened.

"Is it menstrual period? Have you ever been in such pain before?" In fact, after seeing An Xun asked for painkillers, Jiang Yien probably guessed that this was the case.

An Xun shook his head, his face was still pale and weak, and he spoke angrily: "Never, I don't know what happened today."

Jiang Yien wiped his tears with his cuffs, seeing that there was no baby warmer, and there was no hot water bottle or hot water bottle to replace it, so he thought of a way, rubbed his palms to warm them, stretched them into the blanket, and covered them in the comforter. On the lower abdomen of Xun.

An Xun's eyebrows startled, his body froze unconsciously, and he could vaguely feel the warmth of the palm through a layer of light clothing.

Actually, very comfortable.

However, she still gently pushed it away, and even at that moment, she felt sore in her heart.

Jiang Yien felt a little lost, but he also knew that his behavior was a bit too intimate, so he silently took his hand back: "I'm sorry, I just want to make you feel better..."

An Xun's eyes loosened for a moment, she didn't know why the girl apologized, it was obviously because she was not lucky enough to enjoy her care.So he said weakly, "Thank you, I'm not used to it."

Jiang Yien raised the corners of his mouth helplessly, and shook his head: "Does it still hurt? Don't lie, just tell me if it hurts, you know?"

"Xiao En is so good." An Xun relaxed his brows and smiled slightly: "To be honest, it was very painful just now, but it's much better now."

Jiang Yien pursed her lips and was silent for a while.

"What's the matter? Why are you crying again?" An Xun heard the sobs, only to realize that the girl lowered her head and wept, and asked weakly.

"Have you been in pain alone for a long time? There are so many people outside, why don't you know how to shout? I wish I had come earlier... I obviously don't have the energy to speak. If you don't let you finish the lesson, you won't let me Do you want to stay?" Jiang Yien was full of self-blame.

An Xun raised his eyebrows slightly, touched the girl's face with a light smile: "Silly girl, I..."

"I know, I know that you have principles and bottom lines, and that you are doing it for my own good. I understand it all. Stop talking, okay? Just relax and let yourself rest, okay?" Jiang Yien held that hand.

An Xun nodded, she knew that this girl's repeated intrusions had caught her off guard.Of course she would be flustered, panicked that one day, she would start to have expectations for this girl, not simply expectations for the younger generation, but more intimate, a certain kind of expectation that is beyond the reach of ordinary people.

She knows that a person like her, who has ruined her closest relatives, is not entitled to have anything more.She knows that everything is her own doing.

But, at least for this moment, just for this moment, she was really powerless to resist, she was really in too much pain and too tired...

An Xun, just let yourself be willful for once.

During her drowsiness, she felt another burst of warmth in her lower abdomen. This time, she didn't push it away.