come close to me hold me

"Doctor Ann."

"Xiao Xiang?"

As soon as the two got out of the elevator, they saw a middle-aged woman in cleaning clothes standing at the door.

"Doctor An, I'm sorry, I misremembered the date, and there seems to be no one at home..."

"It's okay, since you're here, let's clean it up, and take a hard trip." An Xun said gently, then turned to look at Jiang Yien: "Yien, is it okay?"

"Ah? Oh! Yes!" Jiang Yien realized that it was specifically mentioned in the contract that someone would come to clean the locked room every month.He hurried to open the door of the house, not forgetting to rush in first to tidy up the mess on the sofa.

"You wait on the sofa, and eat some snacks if you're hungry."

"it is good."

Jiang Yien agreed, and obediently sat on the sofa and waited.Of course, her clever little head can guess that the house rented to them should be the place where An Xun's family once lived. Although it has been roughly renovated, the children's graffiti can still be vaguely seen on the balcony wall. .

Because the landlord requires that there be no children among the tenants, the graffiti cannot be left by the previous tenant. She and Ji Xiaoyu have guessed that it may be the masterpiece of Dr. An when he was young. Maybe Dr. An was also a naughty child when he was young. Guessing, Jiang Yien's eyes will show a bit of tenderness, but he can't help frowning his brows.

As for the locked room, they also discussed it in private, but there was no result.Perhaps, is a dusty story?Perhaps, just an ordinary utility room?

Jiang Yien watched as An Xun led the cleaning lady to the door of the room, took out the key and opened the door.The moment the door was pushed open, there were several light sounds from the door.

Is it a wind chime?Jiang Yien watched An Xun's figure walk in with those brisk sounds, close the door, and disappear from sight, suddenly a familiar smell filled his body.

"When she left, there seemed to be wind chimes..."

Jiang Yien talked to himself, the vague figure in his memory seemed to have a little bit of concreteness.It's really similar, such a back, such lightness, just like the moon back then.

If so, Dr. An is the moon.

Jiang Yien shook her head abruptly. She knew that she had done it more than once, and couldn't help but overlap Dr. An with her sister from more than ten years ago.Vaguely, she had some conjectures, but every time she took a hint, she stopped abruptly.

She didn't dare, didn't dare to think that the moon was by her side, didn't dare to think that in those bright eyes like spring, now the sorrow of autumn was sinking.No, not alone.Rather than this, she hopes that spring is still bright, while autumn is born to be sad.

That's right, she knew how much a sudden change would hurt people, so she would rather that An Xun's cold and melancholy temperament was born with her. She really hoped that in An Xun's life, there had never been any misfortune.Especially the kind that can turn spring into autumn.

"Bang—bang—"

There was a sound inside, which shocked Jiang Yien to lose his thoughts, stood up to wait and see, and then the door opened, Aunt Baojie apologized with guilt on her face: "Doctor An, I'm sorry! This..."

"It's okay, let's stop here today, thanks for your hard work." An Xun came out after him, and closed the door habitually.

"How much do you think this is? I will pay you."

"No need, it's just a kid's toy, not something valuable." An Xun comforted with a calm face, and Jiang Yien saw neither sadness nor joy in his eyes.

"Hey, shall I collect those pieces?"

"I'll just clean it up," An Xun refused, and turned to look at Jiang Yien: "Send it to Auntie for me."

"Okay." Jiang Yi'en nodded, and looked at An Xun uneasy when she went out. As expected, the moment she turned to enter the door, her eyes were a little downcast.

It must be something important.

When the cleaning aunt came back, she heard the sound of glass shards being picked up in the room. She wanted to help, but she was afraid of intruding on her privacy, so she stood silently at the door.

But she still couldn't help it, and looked in through the little gap where the door was opened.An Xun knelt down on the ground, leaned over to pick up the debris on the ground one by one, not in a hurry, and when a strand of hair happened to slip off, she just gently hooked it behind her ear.Probably because it was rare, Jiang Yien liked her soft and slow movements more than her swift and swift actions in the hospital, her throat couldn't help but tremble.

Suddenly, she heard an unusual light sound in An Xun's breath, like a twitch, and her hand was withdrawn suddenly.

I still got it, Jiang Yien sighed softly in his heart, as if he had expected it, he hastened a few steps back to the room and took the Band-Aid, he was about to rush in, hesitated again, and knocked on the door.

"Doctor An, may I come in?"

"come in."

The person inside did not refuse, his voice was very soft and light.Jiang Yien pushed the door open and went in, and saw that the fingertips, like frost and snow, were constantly radiating bright red, but the man just sat there indifferently, as if he didn't feel any pain at all.

"Let me see the hands."

In a trance, An Xun let his hand be gently held by the little girl, and at that moment, it felt like a warm current sent a slight tingling feeling straight to his heart.

"You have to be careful, you know?"

Hearing the little girl scolding herself softly in the tone of an adult, An Xun thought it was a little funny, but still followed her, nodded and hummed lightly.Feeling the slender fingertips wrapped around with band-aids, my heart seemed to be wrapped by some kind of force, and I couldn't help feeling numb.

Jiang Yien was lowering his eyebrows, he couldn't see An Xun's expression, but the hand that usually held the scalpel as steady as a mountain was trembling slightly under his eyes.

Yes, will it hurt?

The moment she looked up, An Xun happened to also look at her, and the moment her eyes met, the picture froze.

The hair pinned behind the ear slipped off again restlessly, Jiang Yien's heart trembled, and he couldn't help reaching out to explore the strand of hair, holding his breath, and pinning it behind the ear for her along the man's cheek, fingertips gently , stayed in the ear for a moment, and finally fell down reluctantly.

"Does it hurt?"

An Xun stared at her and shook his head slightly.

Reminiscing about the moment when he pulled his hand away from the man's ear just now, Jiang Yien almost shed tears. It was the wind that sent the tide, slapping back and forth on the shore endlessly, or biting into the green juice overflowing from a sour plum , repeatedly immersed in soreness, she really wanted, really wanted...

Even if it's just to hug her, even if it's just to kiss her on the cheek.

"Xiao En, what's the matter?"

"nothing!"

Jiang Yien quickly shook his head, the blush spread uncontrollably, and the heat continued.How could I have such an idea, she is my sister!Haven't you already made up your mind to be your sister?

When I feel uneasy, I always look left and right. I didn't want to inquire about the privacy, but I also asked in a panic: "Where is this place?"

"This is my sister's room." An Xun replied casually, without any hesitation.

"Sister?" Jiang Yien was taken aback, thinking that besides me, there are other sisters?

"Well, my father said to renovate and renovate, and I insisted on keeping this room as it is."

Jiang Yien frowned, as if the fog in his heart had lifted a little.So, the paintings on the wall are left by my sister?Then the picture of the little girl in the glass cabinet in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows of Dr. An's house is not Dr. An's childhood photo, but sister?

Sister An, she has a younger sister, a rightful younger sister.If it's a real sister, she won't mind rolling around in her arms, right...

But where did my sister go?Jiang Yien's heart sank suddenly, and he had the worst idea.

"If she was still alive, she would be as old as you."

An Xun lowered his head slightly, his eyes drooped, and his slender eyelashes blocked them, so Jiang Yien couldn't see the emotions inside.

"she……"

Jiang Yien felt like a lump in her throat, feeling powerless in her heart, she knew that words of comfort sometimes wouldn't be able to comfort her.However, she was a little envious of that child, who could be missed by Dr. An like this.

An Xun seemed to be afraid that she would ask why, so he changed the topic first: "That music box was bought by the kid at the time, saying that the little person in it looks like me. Does it look like me?"

She picked up the little figure in the broken glass, put it on the side of her face, looked at Jiang Yien and smiled, but she was a little sad and helpless.

"Well, a little bit. Doctor An is better looking." Jiang Yien replied, never daring to take his eyes off An Xun, carefully considering her emotions.

An Xun snorted, left the little man on the table, put the remaining fragments into the box, and got up to take it out.

"Let's go, you've been waiting for so long, are you hungry?"

Jiang Yien looked at An Xun, and felt that she was like a traveler going to Miplores, packing up her fragmented sorrows and taking them away without leaving a last sigh.

"Doctor An, wait!"

Jiang Yien got up, ran into her room and picked out the cutest doll, and put it together with the little one who just picked it up from the broken glass.

"In the future, you will not be alone."

Turning her head, she looked at An Xun again, her expression was in a daze, and her eyes were sparkling with water.But it was only a moment before he came back to his senses and smiled lightly.

"Leave the key with you in the future. Since the house is rented out, it's not convenient for me to come here all the time."

"Well! I'll keep it safe!"

Jiang Yinen paused for a moment before answering. When she took the key, she was somewhat overjoyed. Doctor An handed over such an important thing to herself. Does it mean that she has let go of her guard against herself?

If so, can she tidy up her broken pieces?Can she understand her hidden wounds?Can she see her weakness?May I kiss her scar...

If it was any other child, they would be so impatient, they would have been so excited and asked a lot of questions one after another.How did my sister die, what happened that year, why the family can no longer live, why she never mentioned her mother.

However, Jiang Yien is too good at observing words and expressions.How could she not see that An Xun's eagerness to change the topic, and the relief in his eyes when he was sure that he would not be asked why.

Watching people's words and demeanor, after all, is a habit left behind from being dependent on others since childhood.

"That child is quite obedient. Being bullied? It's okay, kid, just leave her there and let her grow up in obscurity. As an aunt, what can I do?"

"Jiang Yien, why are you eating so slowly? The whole family is waiting for you."

"Jiang Yi'en! Move faster! Every time I go out, I'm going to groan!"

Jiang Yien felt very powerless, because she found that even An Xun, whom she liked so much, was included in her observation of words and expressions without exception.Even during all the intimacy during this period, she was silently observing An Xun's face, she knew that as long as An Xun was a little unhappy, she would immediately give up the initiative.

This has nothing to do with the other party, it's just that she can't break the habit.

She really hoped that she could let go of even a little bit of her habitual timidity towards An Xun, and that she could be a little braver, make trouble a little more unreasonably, explore her past, and fight for her future.

Isn't that what's written in the story?A gentle older sister who likes unruly children the most.

However, she didn't dare. She knew since she was a child that she was an orphan without parents. If she didn't obey the rules, she would be rejected and abandoned.She is so habitually well-behaved and sensible, and she is so habitual to reassure everyone.

So, if you can't even make An Xun an exception in your habits, how can you force her to treat yourself as an exception.

She understood that that key was just a room key.

"What do you think?"

"Ah...no..."

"Go and pack up and change your clothes, you don't have to run this way all the time these days."

"Then you..." Jiang Yien hesitated for a moment, then couldn't help but look at An Xun.

An Xun also seemed to see the girl's uneasiness, and thought, this child has already been asked to get her clothes, so could she still leave her behind?

"Don't worry, I'll wait for you at the door."

"Ok!"

Jiang Yien's heart jumped for joy, it could be regarded as progress, if we just get along with each other a little closer than ordinary people in the habit of not breaking our defenses, it can be regarded as an exception.

So he hurried back to the room, not wanting to make An Xun wait for a long time, randomly took some clothes and stuffed them into the bag, messing with the desks, chairs and cabinets in a hurry.

"Don't worry, take your time." An Xun heard the urgency, and raised his voice to call out.

"I'm fine!"

In an instant, the little girl ran towards her, her footsteps were windy and light, and the stars were shining in her eyes. She was such a beautiful person, as if the sun would follow her.

An Xun just looked at her like this, and approached him step by step, and couldn't help letting go. Hearing the sound of the two bags falling, something fell in his heart.In the end, she let her throw herself into her arms, let her embrace her with both hands, and let her cold eyes be instantly moist.

God, is it an illusion?

She seems, really can bring sunshine.

An Xun tried his best to restrain the warmth from his eyes, took a deep breath, withdrew from his embrace, and nodded the little girl's nose: "You, why are you so anxious, are you afraid that I will leave you?"

"Hey..." Jiang Yien was seen through, scratched her head embarrassingly, then raised her harmless face and said coquettishly: "What delicious food is Dr. An going to give me? I'm almost starving to death!"

"What? I do?"

An Xun stopped his smile for a moment, his eyes were startled, and his body was a little more frozen than when he saw the girl rushing towards him just now.

Living alone for so many years, the hospital cafeteria and takeaways took turns to make do, Jiang Yien was hospitalized, and it was the first time she cooked the porridge for the first time, this time, she was actually asked to cook?

"No...or else?"

Jiang Yien's smile gradually stiffened. Although she would rush to do housework when she was a child, it was still not her turn to take care of the cooking.After the co-rental, there was Wen Jing, the little cook, at most she helped out, cutting vegetables and so on, and almost never touched a spatula.

The two lowered their heads at the same time, and glanced at the two large bags of ingredients that fell to the ground just because someone let go of their hands...

In an instant, both petrified.